QOTC: What song can you play repeatedly without getting sick of it?

AOTC: This one right here omg it's perfect

THIS DOESN'T COUNT AS FUN. EVEN THOUGH NATE RUESS WAS THE LEAD OF FUN. HE WENT SOLO, OKAY? *CRIES THE MEDITERRANEAN SEA*

And, yes, I'm starting in the middle of the song
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It's for the best you didn't listen

"I have to go."

"I'm not leaving you, Raven."

"You aren't the one leaving."

"Raven, you can't go!"

"I'm going to hurt you. You aren't going to want to be with me."

"Yes, I would!"

"I'm the end of you."

"Stop talking like this."

"Like what?"

"Like it's the end of the world."

"You know it will be if I stay here. I need to find myself. Find who I am."

It's for the best we get our distance

"Rae." His voice chokes up, "You can't leave me."

"I have to figure myself out." Before he can say anything, I push past him.

Leaving the Tower and slamming the door shut, I come to a realization.

I know I made the right decision, but I can't help but think about how else I could have ended that. Maybe it was too harsh to leave him.

I shake the thoughts out of my head. There was no other option and I know it.

It's for the best you didn't listen

I look on the bright side, whatever of it there may be. Starting over, running away. A new life, new beginnings beckon me. I can redo life. Make a new name for myself.

It's for the best we get our distance

An epiphany hits me and I somehow find myself smiling through the storm that is today. Is my life, even.

Oh, I feel alive

I've gone and saved my soul

I see that I'm laughing. I don't know why and I find it weird, because I can also feel salty tears flowing down the sides of my face. I continue, though. I need it right now.

I mount a bus, vowing to try and not use my powers. It's a part of the new me. I open up to a book I was reading when I remember something that he would tell me to try and get me to leave the books.

If all that you read is everything you believe then let go

I smile briefly to myself and close the book. I will let go; like he would always tell me to.

I plug in my ear buds, when I realize that I should also learn to be at least decently social.

I can now. I can feel, a fight with Trigon I previously had made all that possible. I mostly choose not to because, after a lifetime of having to hide my feelings, it isn't easy switching over to feeling things.

Then let go

I turn to my side and start a conversation with the girl next to me.

Then let go

***

Now I'm over my head

I know what I did, I don't regret it.

I mentally repeat these words, hoping I can convince myself.

After a year being out of the Tower, on a search to find who I am, I realize only now..

I know who I am.

I've always known, I've always been that person.

The "new me" only lasted around a week. After then, I went back to my previous self.

The me that loves Beast Boy.

Acting like I never started over again

I thought I wasn't myself because of everything. Trigon, Beast Boy, Azarath, the Teen Titans. I thought each one was trying to force me to be something I'm not.

When really, I'm being my own person

Returning to Jump gives me nostalgia, but then I see the Titans Tower.

I am the city I'm from

Always wanting more than just a word on my arm

I think about what exactly made me return. Images of everyone flash through my mind. Starfire, Robin, Cyborg. But mostly of Beast Boy.

He's the main reason I am returning. I let him into my head. His voice repeating, nagging me about my return.

And I let it win.

Oh, I know, I can't believe

And I don't regret any of it.

That I let it get to me

I enter the Tower, hoping they haven't changed the security code. They haven't.

The only person in the common room when I arrive is Beast Boy, looking unusually tired.

I make quiet noises, making sure not to warn him about my presence.

He doesn't catch on and I examine his movements, the small amount of them there are. He shuffles, barely lifting his feet off the ground. Occasionally, I can hear a sob, but no tears are visible on his face.

I didn't make this much of a difference.

Did I?

I decide not to let that question answer itself and allow him to see me.

He looks up, his eyes the size of disks. He shakes his head in disbelief and I approach him.

"I'm back." I whisper in a low, yet firm voice

He smiles at me weakly and pulls me into a hug. I notice he got significantly stronger over my absence. Unlike before, in which he was scrawny and I could pull away whenever I wanted, he is the bigger one now so I have to wait until he decides to let me go, which could be a few minutes.

But I'm not complaining.

He ends the hug quicker than I assumed, but he keeps his hands on my shoulders, ready to embrace me again if he needed to.

"Rae..how did you..?" He trails off, most likely deciding not to focus on that. Trying to bring light on my return.

"I'm back. And I missed you." I say

"I missed you too, Rae." His words come out more like gasps because he was crying now

I don't answer him, I only pull his mouth down to mine and kiss him.

He responds instantly and I realize that I also missed the feeling of his lips brushing against mine.

He pulls his head away, me still holding his face. "Raven, don't ever leave me again."

I kiss him again and say, once I end our kiss, "I promise you, I'll never let go."