idk if I've ever had a crush on someone yk

like I've found people attractive before but idk
there was this one boy like a few months ago but idk if I liked him or I liked the fact that he was nice to me (he's straight ((or so he says cause he kinda dresses like he listens to sweater weather)) but idk I kinda just wanna have a crush on someone and pine after them yk
I'm just rambling before I go to bed ig