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𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐎𝐍𝐄-𝐇𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐑𝐄𝐃 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐘 𝐎𝐍𝐄;

𝙲𝙷𝙴𝙲𝙺𝙼𝙰𝚃𝙴, 𝙸 𝙲𝙾𝚄𝙻𝙳𝙽'𝚃 𝙻𝙾𝚂𝙴 𝙵𝚃. 𝙻𝙸𝙻𝚈𝚂𝙰𝙽𝙳𝙴𝚁

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-LYSANDER-

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐎𝐒𝐓 𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐈𝐂 𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐂𝐄 𝐈𝐍 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐋𝐃 𝐈𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓 𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐒, it's the Hogwarts Library. The magnificent architecture, the years of history, secrets and mysteries it holds. The European architecture, the magnificent arches, the marbles, the statues, the oak wood doors and teak bookshelves with thirst quenching knowledge ranging from power to bloodthirsty evil.

The walls with names of our seniors engraved, the fireplace, the quiet and comfort, the comfort of reading a book in the cold of winter with a cup of warm tea. Ghosts wandering around with the strictest librarian to kick us out for a sneeze and hooligans destroying the peace.

The best part, it is the home to all dead zombies, depressed, secretive psychotic introverts sick of living in the real world so we live in a fictional world made in our minds with their fictional friends, girlfriends and boyfriends.

A short 5'5" petite who is pretty slim, auburn red hair with well defined almond cat eyes which is of magnificent emerald green, long black lashes, brown eyebrows with radiant glowing skin, barely noticeable tiny freckles near her cute nose, a soft rosy blush, her delicate pink lips usually with a bit of lipgloss, yeah, that's Lily, Lily Luna Potter one of the people who reside at the library due to the hectic hell driven life of hers and she's the one I love.

It was a Sunday and I was sitting in the library studying, no, pretending like studying while I was actually zoned out. I was looking out of the window at the grass and a group of students were fooling around by eating joke products and trying prank spells on each other.

I have an eighty mark revision test coming up and I couldn't focus at all. I already studied for it but still, you can never be too confident plus I needed a break from my roomies. I just feel annoyed if anyone tries to talk to me, just go on with your life, why do you care about me? I don't want to be cared for.

Lily and I weren't going as well as I planned either, it's October mid and it's been around a week since I tried asking her out and well Jared ruined that for me. I haven't attempted anything after that, Mongrel dumped me with months worth of work and told me to complete it within a week and I haven't had a good sleep in a long time.

Either way I finished all the work within 5 days and threw the papers on her face, ok, that's a metaphor but still you get the idea. As a result of sleeping for 2 hours per day, I slowly turned into a psychopath. I even attempted murder of my roomies but well- they drugged me with sleeping draught and tied me up to my bed and forced me to take a day off on Friday.

Lily, who was completely ignoring me, wasn't making my life any better. I just felt so compressed. My friends are tired of listening to me complain about Mongrel, I don't want to complain about Mongrel to McGonagall or that bitchy Mongrel will get rid of that 2 hours sleep time too, Lily keeps smiling and tapping me and doing all shit secret lovers do and she's like, 'You got the wrong idea BRO'.

I can't also vent about the atrocities of Lily to anyone because I want to keep 'us' a secret, but at this rate I don't think anything is happening for a while. I was dozing off on my own thoughts as they turned blurry and I stretched my hands and I put my head down on the table. 'Life' my mind echoed. 'What's the use of it anyway? It's the biggest curse that a soul can ever endure'.

I heard a familiar voice which lifted my pathetic mood by 0.1%. I turned back to look at Lily, Diana and Michelle smiling and giggling silently as they sat on a bench. 'How can people smile? it's just suffocating', 'Positivity, optimism are the funniest words the world created', 'It's all a trap'.

I took a deep breath. I felt a pat on my back. "Ly, you ok? You've been so off lately, one day you're high as fuck and the next day you're like someone died" he said sitting next to me. I shrugged his hand off my shoulder. "Go away" I said irritatedly. "Answer me" Jared asked. "Go away if you want to wake up tomorrow" I said with a straight face with minute changes which showed my sinister expression.

"Hey Jared" Judy came in. Oh no, people, now I have to un-bitch myself cause I can't act like a whiny moron in front of a stranger. "Hey" Jared replied as Judy took a seat next to him. "Y'all should find another dating spot, I came here first" I snickered. Jared looked at me quite astounded to hear my normal voice which wasn't full of annoyance.

"You ok? You look sick" Judy asked. "He always looks like that, don't worry" Jared said giggling and I gave a blank stare. Judy, that stranger who stole my Jared. Now I'll get tge burnt cupcakes and she'll get the premium ones.

"Stop, saying that JJ he seems to have a mood swing" Judy said. All her fake sweet talks, you can fool Jared with those statements, I know who you are Judy, I know you're not that kind of person, I know you secretly have a savage dialogue in your mind but you won't say it cause I'm your boyfriend's friend.

"Ok, I actually wanted to have this discussion" I started as my mind got into a negotiating mode. "60% and 40%" I said. "Uh, what?" she asked. "You own Jared 40% I own him 60%" I said. "What? No, why?" she asked. "Fine then, 75% and 25%" I suggested. "Are you stupid? I wasn't even ok with the first one" she said, squinting her eyes.

"Fine 59% and 41%, that's the best deal I can offer" I said humbly. "The best deal I can offer is 0% and 100%" Judy said as her cheeks got puffy. "Guys what are you doing, I own myself, you can't sell me without my permission" Jared said.

"That's not how human trafficking works" I said. "Yeah, he's right" Judy said, taking my side. "Yo what? Are you making a fool of me?" JJ asked. "He took so long to realise that" Judy said giggling as I and her hi-fived. "Ok final deal 40% and 60%, better?" I asked. "Plot twist, I steal the product" Judy said hugging Jared as I pulled his arm.

"Guys stop, you're acting like kids, it hurts" Jared said trying so hard not to scream. "No pain, no gain" me and Judy said in chorus. "Ok I'm tired" I said leaving Jared's hand as I dropped the act and went back to my depressed mood. "You ok?" Jared asked. "I'm going to sleep for a while" I said.

They hung around for a bit and eventually Jared and Judy waved bye-byes as I went back to resting.

While leaving Judy turned back and mouthed to me, "We'll talk about the deal later" and I gave a thumbs up, urgh this is just so hilarious, human trafficking.

That social interaction just made me more tired. I heard Lily's voice again, maybe I should think of something to pull on her.

-LILY-

LYSANDER ALEXANDER SCAMANDER, DID YOU UNLOVE ME OR SOMETHING? WHAT HAPPENED? I looked at him sleeping with his heads down. I walked around all week trying to grab his attention, but he just seemed too busy with his own life. He didn't even care about me- Was I too harsh on him that he gave up?

Even today, I saw him by the staircase and I was talking to Diana and I randomly started talking about cardigans because I liked his black cardigan, I thought he would overhear and take a hint but he just seemed dead.

Day before yesterday, in the Gryffindor common room, I saw him sitting by the fireplace staring into the raging flames zoned out. I was literally making sure I talked as loud as possible to Michelle telling her that I think blonde haired guys who are tall are cute. I even hummed the song 'Love Story', but he found that fireplace more interesting.

On Tuesday I purposely bumped into him and dropped all the papers. He just pulled out his wand and arranged them and just left without saying anything.

I did a PhD on Taylor Swift, I memorised lyrics, I listened to every song. I wore black for three days straight because he said I looked good in black once upon a time. I even wore the locket he gave me on my 16th birthday, he didn't notice.

During yesterday's prefect patrol, I wore the pink hoodie we bought when we went to watch the barbie movie because it was cold and he didn't react at all. I don't know if he's doing this on purpose or whether his life is really that hectic that he can't notice. But Mongrel did seem to dump so much work on him that he became brain dead.

Am I giving indirect signals? It should be simple for a person like him to recognise all this.

Even today, I walked past him like 3 times trying to indicate that I was wearing the lipstick we bought, the shade he chose for me. I don't think he even saw my face. I stalked him into the library forcing my friends to join me by coming up with a lame excuse that we'll play try not to laugh even though I actually just wanted to check on him.

Usually at times like this, when he's a bit off, if I was old Lily, I would ask him what happened and if I was that crazy Lily I would probably laugh and make fun of him and accuse being heartbroken over me. But I didn't want to annoy him at the moment as he seemed pissed off already.

I'm making things hard for him in all this. But, no matter what, I'll never accept him. I love him, I want to flirt with him, but I'll never accept him, nope, not happening but at this rate we'll probably just drift apart.

Diana and Michelle were talking as I was mustering up my courage to look at him. My heart raced as I quickly raised my head and took a quick casual glance at him and HE TURNED. SHIT DID I GET CAUGHT? I acted casual.

-LYSANDER-

I touched the locket Lily gave me on 24th December 2023, it hung around my neck, I opened the locket to look at a black and white picture of me, I definitely looked way better now, I used to look like a baby before. I have been wearing this around for a week and she didn't even realise it, screw that she didn't even say a single word.

I felt a glance on me. I turned immediately and I saw Lily's eyes quickly turn away from me as she acted casual. DID SHE JUST LOOK AT ME? Or am I hallucinating? SHE LOOKED SHE DEFINITELY LOOKED, NO WAY. I suddenly got so excited I started peeling my nails and got anxious. I really want to get a better view of her but would it be weird if I change places?

I got up and pretended like I was going to pick out a book as I purposely walked in her direction giving her a secret glance as I walked slowly and went to the behind the bookshelf. I removed  some books from the shelf so I could get a view of Lily through the gap.

She looked so pretty, her smile. Sometimes I think she doesn't deserve me, I'm just full of black and blue shades while her colours are golden and silver. What a creep, perverted stalker I have turned into, even I can't believe myself.

"What are you doing in the third year section?" I heard a voice of a little girl, it was Amelia Anderson, Val's little sister. I immediately covered up the gap by leaning on the book shelf and "Revising" I lied. "I thought you made history in the O.W.L.s and you're super smart" she said. "Revising is good, it's the reason why I got high marks" I said like an old man advising the younger generation.

"Ok, Uncle Lysander" she said. DID SHE JUST CALL ME UNCLE?! I FELT LIKE A GEEZER. I'M DYING, I HAVE TUBERCULOSIS AND I EAT BLOOD PRESSURE TABLETS AND I'M DIABETIC. "Don't call me uncle, I'm like 3 years older than you" I choked.

"Val told me to call his friends Uncles cause I told him I liked Uncle Jared and he got so mad and told me that if I don't call you guys uncles he'll tell my mom" she said.

I tried so hard not to laugh. "Oh, it's fine, don't call me uncle just- don't call me anything-" I said very maturely and strictly. "Oo- ok" she stuttered as she turned pink. Ah shit, my natural charm disturbed her hormones. "You know what we'll stick with Uncle Lysander, I'm fine with even Grandpa" I said.

"But-" she started. "I guess I'll be talking to Val-" I started as she ran away. Finally she's gone. I peeped through the gap, Novah was talking to Lily. No, no, no, no way, I don't want to torture another guy, I mean it's fun but still- it's immoral- not like I care but I don't want to keep dragging our romance.

Novah eventually left as later she was met by Collin begging her to take him back but she didn't even talk and just sent him away with a glare. She's so gorgeous it makes me so mad.

Her beautiful white shirt and little black skirt, those black boots, her beautiful dark blood red hair, her eyes, my eyes moved to her lips, red, red lips, she wore lipstick, THAT SHADE, IT WAS THE ONE I SELECTED FOR HER WHEN WE MET OVER THE HOLIDAYS. NO WAY! HOW COME I DIDN'T REALISE IT THE FIRST TIME I SAW HER.

She was so pretty and cute, I just- want her. I took some 6th year books so I don't blow my cover and I was going to walk to my place. I purposely took the longer route so I could see Lily longer. Something is actually wrong with me. I walked by her table and in perfect timing her book fell down.

-LILY-

"Tiffany is such a bitch can't we just kick her out of the dorm, it's just so annoying" Diana said. My mind was still racing over what happened to my blonde baby who went to get himself a book. It's been so long and I felt so lonely. My legs were itching to go search for him and look at what he was up to. I grew restless every minute.

My legs started vibrating and I relaxed my hands and placed them on the table giving a sigh. 'WHERE IS HE?' my mind moaned. I went to pick up the book I dropped by bending down ANNOYED with myself. I SHOULDN'T HAVE CHASED LYSANDER AWAY. NOW I AM SO LONELY.

He's so cool and chill which makes me hate him so much. Why does he make me feel this way, it's not like I'm dying to be his girlfriend. Why does he have to be single? Seriously, I would have moved on if he found a girlfriend of his own. I'll just get over the jealousy but him being single makes this honestly worse cause my heart keeps saying hunt him.

My hands touched the cold soft skin of someone's hand as I went to pick up the book. I quickly opened my eyes from the daze I was in and saw his starry eyes. My heart-

I got goosebumps and turned pink as I looked at Lysander on the floor on a knee who was picking up a book and my hand was on his. His casual gaze, his hair in harmony to his black cardigan and white shirt.

It took to a minute to realise I was touching his hand and I took my hands off as I looked away blushing. He- he's back- I'm not forgotten- He picked up the book, he was still on one knee, he handed me the book. LYSANDER, WHERE'S MY RING?! WHY A BOOK?! My friends were giggling in the corner whispering.

He got up and gave me a sweet blank look as he walked over to his spot. My mind was full of gibberish. My heart was pumping hard. That memory seemed to blur slowly due to the suddenness and the excessive happiness I got. I made sure to store it deep and hard in my mind so that I wouldn't even forget a single frame. Why do I get so excited for the simplest things?

"Lily, Lysander fell for you" Diana said and Michelle started laughing. "He didn't fall, he just gave me the book which fell" I said trying to act like it wasn't a big deal. "You like him, I know" Diana said. "I mean yeah, you're doing everything he likes, dressing up like an emo, listening to Taylor Swift, you even give his signature blank stare sometimes, you're impersonating him at this point" Michelle said.

"Ehh, I should stop talking with my- I mean, that-" I said and Michelle and Diana broke into laughter, "You called him, 'MY' Lysander" Michelle said. "Lily, you can't undo that and come up with some excuse for that" Diana said. "Stop, it was a slip of the tongue, I meant that I should stop talking with my- shit ergh, I mean that idiot" I said struggling what's wrong with my tongue.

"You love himmmmm~" Michelle sang. "You guys just need something to talk and troll me, you can go on talking whatever you want" I said sassily. "Oh, so now you like getting shipped with him?" Diana asked. "If I defend myself, you'll be like 'Why are you being so defensive? I know you love him' so either way you guys are gonna troll me so I'm just going to save my words today, I'm not in a mood to fight" I said.

I'm never gonna tell them about how I love him, they'll drive the hell out of me. Plus I want his love to be a secret I'm hoping, dreaming, dying to keep. Yes, a secret.

-LYSANDER-

I hope she's talking about me, but at the same time, I hope she doesn't go around telling that I'm doing this to her. If we get together, I want our relationship to be a secret. I mean Potter is sensible to realise that I avoid all public meetings with her.

If she really hated me and wanted to embarrass me she could have told everyone that I'm a creep and get me arrested for harassment and attempted murder. So a part of her actually cares about me and my reputation and that's good enough to keep my hopes alive.

I really wanted to keep looking at her. I spread the books and I acted like I was reading. Thinking about my next move.

-LILY-

It's just so annoying how he knows I'm looking at him if I even turn my head to admire his gorgeousness for a second and he gives me that smug look and I don't want him knowing I fancy him.

"Lily, can you get me this book? I tried searching it last time but it wasn't available" Diana said. "Do I look like your personal peasant?" I snapped. "But I have cramps" Diana came up with an excuse. "Then her?" I asked, pointing at Michelle. "Bro, I'm scared, what if a ghost comes out of the book and eats me?" Michelle said. "Are you stupid?" I asked. "Yes, I'm stupid and you're smart so you should go" Michelle said.

Did they want to speak something excluding me so they are sending me away? "Are you guys going to talk behind my back?" I asked frowning. "Are you crazy Ms. Potter?! No, no" Diana said. "I'll just do it" Michelle said as she took the paper and read the title of the book. "Ok yeah bye" Michelle said as Diana said, "I'll give you three chocolate frogs".

"Oi, I would have done it if you were offering chocolate frogs, I'm a slut for chocolate frogs" I said. Doesn't she even know how to make a deal properly? "You're also a slut for Lysander" Diana giggled, she wasn't wrong but I'm not gonna accept it for her. I ran behind Michelle and sent her away making a deal I'll give her one of the chocolate frogs.

I walked and ran through the shelves dreaming about the chocolate frogs with a side of beer. I'm good in finding books, I've read every single one in this library. I scanned the shelf as I reached the correct one. My green eyes wandered in search of the title.

That one! The one with the ruby red cover, it was on a higher shelf, I tried reaching it, I could touch it's bottom by tip toeing. Come on! I don't need magic for this! I'll use this as an exercise to increase my height. I jumped slowly pushing the book out every time as it slowly progressed out.

Almost there! I made my final jump and as it came out and it dropped into my hands another sun warmed toned hand appeared as they spread over my hand and interlocked with my fingers, I took a step back and I felt someone's chest. I turned around as he cornered me on the bookshelf, one hand near my waist and the other hand fighting for the book.

"I need it" Lysander said, moving closer to me purposely as he was chewing gum as he snatched the book from hand. "I need it too" I said as I tried snatching it back. I loved his close presence even though I felt anxious, he was a bit scary to look at and that nonchalant classy look in his eyes was suffocating me.

"Fine, just leave me" I said as I tried pushing his hands away to escape even though I didn't want to. He resisted me and moved closer by pushing me against the bookshelf. He blew a medium sized pink bubble and it popped and he chewed it again. "Have extra?" I asked to pass time in a cool way.

"You can have mine"

My heart had reached new heights of human record for the most number of beats per minute. I hid my blush as I got goosebumps all over my body as he ran his left hand fingers down my arms as he moved closer to me in haste.

I closed my eyes in panic and fear of what he was about to do. Why am I scared? Probably, because of that seductive look he keeps giving me and because of the uncertainty of his next move.

Bruh, who am I kidding it's going to be one of those days again. He tucked the book in his right hand in an empty space above my left shoulder. "Why did you keep it back?" I asked. "I don't need it anymore now that I have you" he said. I got drunk on my love hormones, even the lamest lines seemed so romantic.

He later placed his right hand behind my back, it felt so wrong but I liked it and I turned red. I couldn't even control my blush this time.  "Get your hands off me" I muttered. He moved closer as the top of his white shirt pulled and his well defined collar bones exposed themselves. I took a gulp.

I just noticed that he had removed his black sweater and he was in his white shirt and blue faded jeans. Did he know I was a slut for those collarbones? But he's the kind of person to always keep two of his shirt buttons unbuttoned to flex his magnificent structure so no kidding-

-LYSANDER-

I'm going to tell her this is the perfect time, I even casted an invisible barrier so that no one would interrupt us. I took a deep breath, it can't be that hard, just four words, I-LOVE-YOU-LILY.

"Get your hands off me" she said as she struggled in my captivity. I don't know why, I never like following her instructions in situations like this, I prefer going the opposite one, it's more thrilling and pleasing to me.

I admired her. My eyes ran over her slowly. With one hand behind her back, the fingers of my other hand touched her red hair first as I played with her bangs. Then they ran down to her rosy cheeks, as they traced  her neck.

I touched the bite mark I gave her, I guess it was permanent. My fingers ran back up to her face after they finished feasting her neck and collarbone. My heart was beating so fast.

"This is sexual harassment Mr. Scamander" she rambled. I pushed her harder against the wall and went close to her and said, "Then scream, scream and tell everyone I'm harassing you" I said as I looked into her eyes shimmering in rage.

"You won't, cause you love me and you're enjoying this. What do you have to say for yourself?" I said  tightly gripping her arms, going closer to her and chuckling as she closed her eyes in horror, she seemed scared. Ok am I scaring her too much? I don't want to scare her away.

"Please let me go, stop wasting my time with your drama" she said heavily breathing. "Drama? Does it look like I'm putting on a drama?" I asked. "Yeah" she said and I honestly didn't know what to reply. So I placed my fingers on her lips to avoid the question.

I touched her velvety red lips of my choice of lipstick, "I selected this" I said. "Yeah" she said as she mumbled onto my fingers and I felt a sudden pleasure on the way they moved on my fingertips. "Don't you think I have to be the one to mess your lipstick up for the first time?" I asked cheekily. Ok I felt proud with that line- But I should seriously get to the point and tell her how I feel.

I traced her lips as she pulled out the pen knife and placed it in my neck. Oh here we go again, when will this ever get old for you Potter, I'm bored.

-LILY-

Even though I enjoy his fingers, this has to end and he's crossing the limits. I love him but I can't love him at the same time. I want him to touch me but I have to set boundaries even for flirting and this one crossed the line so guess he can have my pen knife.

I pointed demise at his neck as he gave a smile.

"I'll show you a magic trick" he said as he grabbed my hand and twisted it in such a manner that the pen knife slid out of my palms as it went to his. Lysander placed that knife in my neck and smiled as he said, "Uno reverse".

I breathed heavily as he playfully brought the knife closer and closer to my throat, I should probably warn him that this isn't a toy to be meddled with. "So" he started as he took demise off my neck and brought it down to my chest as he cut open the first button as my shirt opened up. WOAH- NAH- HE'S POSSESSED NO WAY HE JUST DID THAT- I turned pink as he went for the second one.

"Do you want my bubblegum?" he asked. "No" I replied. He sliced the second button. One more button my chest would partially reveal. My palms broke into sweat as I turned pink in embarrassment.

NAH WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING. MY HEART WAS DEAD GONE. I WAS SWEATING AND ANXIETY HAD STRUCK ME AND FEAR CREPT THROUGH ME.

"Retry" he mumbled slowly. "I'll take it" I said, panting as I gulped, I felt really exposed right now. Lysander leaned towards me to catch my eye.

"Nah, this one lost its flavour, I'll give you next time" he said as he kept demise behind my neck. As he took the bubblegum out of his mouth and put it behind his ear. What's he going to do now? "Lily" he called out in his deep voice.

I was too scared to look at him. "Lily" he called out louder as I turned to face his dreamy eyes. Our eyes were fixated on each other.

-LYSANDER-

Maybe I went a little too much with the dagger and her shirt. Right now my mind was racing to frame sentences. It's about time and I was nervous, my mind was blank, I couldn't think. Pull yourself together Lysander I told myself. How do I do this?

"Lily, I never wanted it to be like this, I didn't want to hurt you, go against you and hurt you, confuse you" I started off with a chill face truthfully. I was having laboured breaths, I was freaking out but I have to play it cool.

"You can always stop" she INTERRUPTED and I got annoyed. "In my whole life I've never even fantasised falling in love" I muttered. "Until last year" she completed it for me, URGH I WANT TO STRANGLE HER, JUST LET ME DO THE TALKING.

"I don't want things to change between us, I want us to be close, I want us to be just like friends, fighting, talking, fooling around" I said as I suddenly felt so heavy. I felt so stupid, I should have come up with something better.

I just felt anxious and I didn't know what to say, I swear I had paragraphs of speech but when I looked into her eyes, I felt lost. I need to get my thoughts together.

-LILY-

My heart- I don't even want to explain about its miserable condition. But I just felt so reassured when his chest touched mine. His heart was as fast as mine, he was nervous too, he was also filled with anxiety, but his face was calm and relaxed.

"It's hard, crossing paths with a girl who you love so much but you just can't tell her how you feel and she's just there smiling without my presence. I'm jealous every time she smiles and I'm not the reason she did"

he said as his fingers pushed my hair from my eyes and tucked them behind my ear. I got goosebumps, I don't know why I felt so guilty my throat was heavy.

"It's painful every time her gorgeous green eyes meet mine and her red hair burns my heart and she reminds me I'm not hers"

He was trying so hard not to get emotional and tear up. I felt his heavy breaths and shuddering voice.

"For the first time she made me fantasise and made me fear what will happen to me if she's not around"

he shuddered as he took a deep breath and looked into my eyes.

For some reason I felt so bad, I don't know why. I looked down at his chest still processing the information. My heart stopped as he touched my chin and raised my head upward to face him.

"This is the first time I've felt the need to confess"

he said as he continued as he moved closer.

"I won't fake promises and say I'll never make you cry, I won't tell you we'll be forever, it's all a part of life. But I can assure you if you take my hand, I'll fight beside you as long as I can"

I don't know why, I started tearing up slowly and I controlled my sobs. So many years, it took him six years, I love him so much but- I just- I was fighting tears as he leaned towards me our noses rubbed, I don't want to break his heart- he's just- I tried pushing him away- He didn't move-

He forced me into his arms as they wrapped around me, he looked at me with his ice cold eyes, a light blue sky with a silver lining that I've been looking for all my life. "Lysander I can't" I mumbled under my breath, I didn't want to shatter him, I didn't want to ruin him.

His eyes on mine, his nose and my nose slid as he pushed me against the bookshelf so hard that I couldn't breathe properly. Both of us breathing our own air as his hand touched the bite mark. "I'm sorry" he mumbled as I felt the delicate lining of his soft lips.

How badly I wanted to touch his soft golden hair, how badly I wanted to kiss those sexy collarbones, how badly I wanted to touch him was not explainable in words. I tugged on to his white shirt. I tiptoed a bit to reach his face level as I found myself attracted to his magnetic field.

His lashes clashed against mine every time he blinked. The way his finger nails ran around my hair and his other hand wrapped around my body. I felt warmth and comfort in his possession.

"Lily"

He mumbled in a sleepy low voice in a trance with his eyes half opened, he looked like he was drugged, he looked so wonder struck. The sound of my name sounded melodious.

"Lily"

He called me out again rubbing his lips on mine every time he mumbled my name. My hands couldn't help but run over his golden hair as I gave a soft moan as his cheek rubbed on mine.

"Lily"

He called again, I savoured the taste of my name in his voice as if it was like a sugar quill. His fingers came back to my neck as he tightly held me and my feelings hostage.

"Lily, Lily, my sweet Lily"

He said as I became alarmed as his hands went to the back of my neck.

"Yes Lysander?"

I asked in response in a daze. All he did was smile at my response after a pause his cheeks turned pink as his lips moved against mine. I felt a sudden feeling of arousal.

"I love you Lily"

He mumbled onto my lips in a low tone as I looked into his eyes but I turned away immediately as my heart skipped a beat.

Chills down my spine. I felt so wanted, I felt so needed, I felt purpose. His eyes seemed clear, he had a smug smile. I became a bit tense and pressured. Am I supposed to reply or?

-LYSANDER-

My heavy chest felt clear, I felt lightened, I felt the same pleasure I get from torturing someone to such an extent that they go mad. I looked into her green eyes, I told her, I told her- I smiled from my accomplishment. At least I can die peacefully now.

Lily seemed dumbstruck, she seemed unsure and confused. I looked at her wine red lips. I was thirsty from all the talking, some red wine wouldn't hurt...

"Pawn to H8, I promote it to a queen so- Checkmate, I couldn't lose" I mumbled as I smiled.

I leaned on her as I pressed her chest on mine as I trapped her in my arms and I closed my eyes and as I played with her hair I forced my lips on hers and kissed her gently as I slowly progressed harder.

Lily pulled my collar as she touched the roots of my hair. She didn't kiss me back but that didn't discourage me from going on, I kissed her harder and harder. I was in euphoria, this is definitely better than murder.

The taste of her lips is the real meaning of luxury. It was almost as if her lips were made for me, they locked in perfectly.

I kissed every nanometer of her soft velvety red lips. They were soft, better than I imagined, the way they compressed on the force as I adjusted from harder to light ones. They were better than chocolate. They were intoxicating- took me so long to find my favourite dessert, I'm usually not a fan of anything sweet except her lips and chocolate.

Two minutes of pleasure as she let me devour her completely. She seemed nervous but also quite pleased which made me feel better. I softened up the kiss as I pulled back with our lips still touching each other partially. "Fucking moron move awa-" she groaned as I kissed her hard, yeah, I would need to be doing this a lot- she talk too much for her own good.

Lily tried so hard she grabbed my shoulders, pulled me, pushed me, but I'm not moving anywhere today. I'm going to be here till the situation gets completely out of control.

-LILY-

Chocolate, his lips were the best chocolate I have ever tasted, the most luxurious ones. His lips were one of the most expensive things that have touched my lips. My emotional connect I felt every time he kissed me.

The way they are perfectly made for mine. They were soft, delicate, every time his lips moved I wanted to kiss them back. The depth, the sweetness was paranormal- It was a dream come true, I wanted to devour him, I liked kissing him the last time we did and it was GOOD.

He softened up the kiss. My lips crashed on his ready to kiss him back and the devil in me started pushing him away- I can't let him win. "Fucking moron move awa-" I started as he drugged me with his kiss once more.

I struggled as I didn't cooperate and tried moving and shaking my head around but he held me tight and didn't want to let me go. How much I love him, how much I want him, but I can't it's just unfair- But- I can't-

I managed to pull his head away from me as I mumbled, "I hate you" into his lips trying to push him away. "I hate you too" he said aggressively as he kissed me hard and soft. He's such a good kisser. The euphoria he made me go through- I can't- I just want it to last forever and ever. Seriously I should quit drinking and kiss him often, it's a healthier option.

"I mean it, I hate you" I mumbled a lie as his kiss softened. "I hate you too, I hate the fact that you made me love you" he said laying his soft drowsy kisses. Both of us seemed like we got so fucking drunk on something strong and we were making out all night.

I really hate him. Why do you have to make me feel this way? I hate you, I must be insane to love you at the same time. I love you cause I hate you.

"I hate you, I hate you so much" I groaned but he didn't back off and thank god he didn't cause I want him so bad- but it's hard to love him- I just can't- risk him. "Next time just make sure when you aim at the devil, make sure you don't miss or this is how it'll end" he said with a smug as he continued kissing me.

"Get away from me" I said in rage pushing him away as he went to devour my neck. His pink lips traced my neck as I felt tickled. He tucked his neck into my shoulder and jaw as he sighed. He's like a little kitty. I patted his hair in haste. I want him- He's just- MINE.

But I need to get rid of him- I can't- I can't love him- I can't let him brainwash me into loving him - I got an idea. As he went back to kissing my neck and my collarbones I stealthily reached out for a book on the shelf. I pulled it out slowly.

"Lysander" I called him and he replied, "Mhmm?"

"Lysander, this time I will aim at the devil and not miss" I said as I slammed the book on his face as he released me from his arms. I pushed him away as he fell on the floor and I ran out of the section and went to my friends who seemed to be searching for me.

"Lily" Diana asked, widening her eyes as she saw me profusely blushed, sweating and panting. "Did you have a freaking goblin rebellion?" she asked, looking at my condition. "For Merlin's sake Lily cover yourself up" Michelle said as she pulled my unbuttoned shirt and pinned it.

"The book is not there" I lied. "Firstly, where were you? We literally searched for you everywhere" Diana screamed. "I got distracted in the restricted section" I lied.

Of course Scamander set up a barrier so no one could enter or see that spot- That was pretty genius. But that pervert- he's just- I- I DON'T KNOW-

"Let's go, we were about to leave without you" Michelle said as we all exited the library. I wonder if Lysander is ok, I hope it wasn't that hard of a hit.

-TIMESKIP-

I changed my clothes and laid in my bed. I closed my eyes- A pair of the prettiest diamond eyes- I smiled- The way his lips moved on mine- I smiled- the way he tasted them to his fullest- I smiled- Don't be jealous of yourself Lysander- That's just straight up stupid- You make me smile without even realising.

I squealed in joy as I remembered the look in his eyes and his smile, I hugged my bolster and kissed it like it was him and imagined the scenario of kissing him back and being with him.

It just sucks that I can't accept it- I want him- I need him so badly. But-I don't know-But I love him more than I've ever loved anyone in my life- But still he's a twisted person and he betrayed my trust-

We were never perfect and how can I ever love someone else knowing he exists.

I blushed as I recalled his cute little pep talk and the way he called me 'Lily'. I remembered every line and replayed it a hundred times. I got chills, goosebumps and I blushed every single time. For all I know-

I love you Lysander Alexander Scamander.

-LYSANDER-

After I got that tight slap from that book on my face. I opened my eyes to the sight of no one- Lily had run away. Does she really hate me that much? Or is she embarrassed that I stole her heart? I don't know.

I had a cut on my eyebrow, it was bleeding. I'm just scared of how I'm going to explain this to Jared, he thinks I'm breeding illegal magical creatures and I'm getting hurt every week because of that. Well, I have to come up with a valid story for that and OMG I JUST KISSED A GIRL-

I JUST CONFESSED-

IS SHE EVEN GOING TO REPLY OR DID I ALREADY GET REJECTED BUT I DIDN'T REALISE IT? I DON'T KNOW BUT I'M GOING TO CELEBRATE TODAY-

I walked out of the library as I picked out some books for a light reading with my black cardigan hanging on my left arm. My thoughts were all around Lily, I hope I didn't scare her.

-TIMESKIP-

I chugged down a can of sparkling lemon juice for the special occasion I bought all my roomies beer and wine. "What's the occasion?" Val asked. "No one cares, free wine and beer is enough" Lorcan said chugging a can of beer.

"Well, I just felt like it" I said, smiling. "I don't know, you seem so happy every time you get hurt and come up with some lame cover up lie" Jared the Sherlock Holmes said. "Come on, can't a boy just be happy?" I asked. "Not you" he replied.

"Ok, ok, come on he's just in a good mood, appreciate it guys" Hugo said as we pulled in for a cheer. I closed my eyes as I took a shot of lemon juice. The taste of her lips, the look on her eyes, her cute voice, the tickle of her hair.

I love you Lily Luna Potter.

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