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𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐎𝐍𝐄-𝐇𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐑𝐄𝐃 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐘;

𝚈𝙾𝚄'𝚅𝙴 𝚁𝚄𝙸𝙽𝙴𝙳 𝙼𝚈 𝙻𝙸𝙵𝙴 𝙱𝚈 𝙽𝙾𝚃 𝙱𝙴𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙼𝙸𝙽𝙴

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𝐌𝐘 𝐋𝐈𝐅𝐄 𝐒𝐔𝐂𝐊𝐒, I think it's time to put my ego down and become a classical lover boy. Well I seriously don't know how I am going to do that after trying to kill my Lily and chasing her around the forbidden forest.

I must mention that for the past few days I've developed a new sense of fear towards Lily, the way she glares at me while walking in the corridors and her death stares which sent chills down my spine.

I think we have reached the endgame of this whole situationship. It's about time to get serious and become the archer and hunt her down with my love. The only problem in this is that-

That's so weird and love is just so damn embarrassing. Whenever I think about all my cheesy lines and the awkward situations I was placed in with her, I end up flushed in embarrassment and cringe. I take a minute to process that situation and think, 'Wait did I actually say that?'

I don't know, I'm so bewildered. It's just something about her and her presence. I love her so much, I want to show off how much I am in love with her but I just can't- I've shown her how crazy I am for her but I just can't meet her gorgeous green eyes and tell her how I feel.

I've been longing for her for a long time now and I have come to the decision that I am going to ask her out. No matter what I'll do, Lily and I have been on some chill terms apart from death stares and sarcastic replies but we were pretty normal, talking and bickering over something stupid just like before. There was no awkwardness and I didn't pull any moves recently.

I was sitting in the great hall with my roomies as I watched Lily walk into the great hall with her friends. I was sipping on my tea taking secret glances of her smiles, her warming eyes and her red curls bouncing on her shoulders. Then I saw her take a glance at me and our eyes met as we both immediately turned and jerked. My heart race increased.

I went back to sipping my tea as I heard Lily's voice behind me. Oh gosh I haven't seen her since the morning. She's been so busy with some work Mongrel assigned her that she didn't even attend the morning classes.

"Hey Val" she said as she started talking to Val about some project. I tried so hard not to notice her but she purposely kept, 'ACCIDENTALLY' touching my shoulder and brushing her sweet smelling hair onto my face multiple times when she was leaning over to talk to Val.

She does all this shit to tempt me and grab my attention and when I get tempted she's like, 'Oh what? You got the wrong idea, WE'RE JUST FRIENDS'. I mean Lily, it's so obvious that we both like each other to an extent that it can't even be explained in words.

It's just the clash between our ego that, 'Ew, I can't love that person but I love him/her so I'm going to make her love me so that I don't lose my wonderful reputation of being the great heartbreak prince/princess'.

Both of us are those kind of people who think falling in love is embarrassing and can't accept our feelings or confess so we try manipulating the one we love into confessing by giving them indirect hints.

In this case, both of us keep hinting at each other waiting for one to ask out the other but both of us are those types who think falling in love is weak and it makes you weak so we don't want to give up ourselves and lose to love.

But that's about to change as I have taken the oath to ask her out. Well, I have a feeling it's going to end up with a good twist of patience and anticipation.

"Scamander, we have arithmancy don't forget, you didn't come to the last class because your timetable was printed wrongly" she said. "Yeah I know, it looks like you're expecting me to join you, that's suspicious, do you have a crush on me? Did that one day break your heart?" I asked, acting all concerned and caring. My friends giggled. "My ass" she said as banged her hands onto the table and gave me a glare as she left annoyed.

Ok, Lysander, you have to cut some slack bro, at this rate I'm ruining my own chances of asking her out by spoiling her mood. "If you guys get together Lorcan owes me 10 galleons" Val said. "Nah, I have too much hope that they'll get together, go have a bet with someone else" Lorcan said. "Lucy is against it, maybe you'll have luck with her" Hugo said.

"Ergh, no offence but that girl is such a flirt and she's annoying. I'm not talking to her" Val said annoyed and disgusted. "Oi, she's my cousin!" he said getting worked up. "Hugo and his cousin complex, Why'd you cousins love each other so much. My cousins hate me wholeheartedly" Jared said rolling his eyes.

We finished our meal as we dispersed to our respective classes. Arithmancy, the perfect class to have Lily all for myself and CONFESS. I got a bit excited followed by a mild stroke of me imagining various scenarios on how this was going to turn into an absolute disaster.

I walked into the class to see the arrival of only 7 students, Lily was yet to arrive. I sat in the left corner in the back bench waiting and hoping for Lily to join me. My legs were vibrating in restlessness, IS SHE COMING OR NOT? I really want to see her.

After five minutes had passed, my hope had slowly faded away. It Looked like the professor wasn't in the mood to come either, he didn't come to class and it has already been 10 minutes since the start of the period.

I sighed as I opened my book and started overthinking, at this point I'll always be stuck in my hopeless romantic phase, why? Just why can't I have her? Please, just let it once be me.

I leaned my head on the wall beside me and then I heard someone sitting as the bench moved beside me, I turned my head and opened one eye to see the magnificent view of Lily Luna in her Gryffindor robes in flesh and in person. Am I dreaming? Perhaps I got too desperate and I am hallucinating.

I pointed out my index finger and I poked it into her cute soft cheeks to check whether she was real. My fingers sunk into her soft rosy cheeks as I touched her face. She's real.

SLAP! Lily slammed me with her book. "Creep! What are you doing?" she asked flustered as she packed up her things and sat on the opposite bench.

I grabbed my things and ran behind her and sat next to her before she could push me off and block that place. "Hehe" I said grinning. "Go away, evil spirit!" she said as she pushed me and started summoning salt bombs and threw them at me.

"Potter, stop" I said as I held her hand to prevent her from throwing salt bombs at me. "How dare you touch a girl without her permission!" she said making a big deal out of absolutely nothing. "Potts the only reason I did that was to check whether you were real or a fiction of my imagination" I said and I realised how stupid it sounded.

Lily gave me a glare as she tried pushing me away and escaping. "Haha, you're near the wall you can never escape from me" I said and Lily started slamming me with the book but I didn't mind at all, eventually she gave up and went to reading the book as I took secret glances of the way she twirled her hair, the way she tucked her bangs every time they fell on her eyes and the movement of her soft delicate lips and her hawk eyes scanning the pages.

When she turned suddenly I would turn and pretend like I was reading the whole time. This was so cute and funny. Then suddenly Mongrel came in and all of us stood up. What is this bitch doing here? "Why do you stand up if you're not going to wish the teacher?" she asked and all of us sang, "Good afternoon Professor Mongrel".

"Is this kindergarten? You're Year 6, grow up, don't sing while wishing the teacher" she commanded. "Good afternoon professor" the class wished her properly. "Sit down" she said as she started checking up on the syllabus.

"Well Professor Corventina Huntchinson has a medical emergency so I'll be your substitute still she recovers, hopefully normal classes will resume by tomorrow, you can do your pending work, SILENTLY" She said as she sat in the chair with her boney old face and sagging skin.

Me and Lily remained silent for a long time. Come on Lily, talk to me, I know you want to talk to me just talk already, my mind voice was racing. Lily seemed so intrigued into the book she had already read like 36 times! POTTS COME ON LOOK AT ME!

Everyone was busy and were using the period productively by talking to their friends and playing truth or dare and I was just trying so hard to catch Lily's attention, I dropped my quill couple of times, I tried nudging her shoulders and acted like I wasn't well but none of it was working, she paid no attention to any of it.

"Potter, you're so pretty" I buttered her up. Lily gave me a glare. "I know" she said sassily as she turned away. "Today when I was looking at you I didn't even add sugar to my tea cause you're so sweet" I cringed. Ey, that was so bad. "Why are you cringing?" She asked, rolling her eyes.

"It's not my problem the way I talk to you is just smooth like butter" I said shamelessly. Why am I cringing so bad right now? "What's wrong with you, are you possessed?" Lily asked as she widened her eyes and summoned a pinch of salt and threw it on me, followed by some holy water as she started chanting some verses in Hebrew.

"Oi, stop" I said as I started getting annoyed. "You're such an idiot, just stop acting weird ok?" Lily said. "Well- How's life?" I tried to start a conversation, I really wanted to talk to her but I didn't know what to talk about. "It was all good and well until you spoiled my day" she snapped. "Why are you so cold to me?" I asked as I leaned towards her ensuring no one was watching as I touched her soft hair.

"Hands off" she said, pushing my hands away. "You smell good" I said with my deep sensual voice as I got the scent of her shampoo and body spray intoxicating my sense of smell. I saw her cheeks turn slightly pink as she looked at my sleepy grey blue eyes shining in the sunlight.

"If I talk to you any longer, I'll go mad. Just leave me alone" she said as she went back to her book. I rested my head on my hands as I looked at Lily admiring her, making sure my glances made her get butterflies.

"Stop looking at me, it's distracting" she said as her eyes were still peeled on the book. "Go die, your existence is distracting" I said and her ears turned red. "You really want a really good beating don't you?" she asked with her voice stiffened. "It involves you so, I guess that's fun" I said sugar coating every single statement I could.

"Can you stop talking shit for the hell of it?" she said as she looked at me with her sharp cat eyes. "Can you stop breaking my heart and stitching it back up?" I replied with a look that could melt her heart into two. She got mad, she looked so cute as her cheeks turned puffy, I really love seeing her annoyed expression.

"You're like a cute northern pygmy owl when you're angry with irresistibly cute eyes" I said. Lily took her textbook and slammed it on my shoulders, "One more time you talk shit, you'll be dealing with Mongrel" Lily threatened. "Oh so scary" I said sarcastically as I opened my textbook and started pretending like I was reading.

My mind later wandered off to the song, 'Perfect' by Ed Sheeran as I started doodling the lyric with a pencil I was fidgeting with in my hands, 'Darling, just hold my hand, Be my girl, I'll be your man I see my future in your eyes' in a cursive font on the empty space in the book. My heart started going crazy after I felt Lily glance over the lyrics.

I tried hiding it with my arms for some reason, it was embarrassing. I love romantic songs and break up songs but I don't want people knowing I listen to these kinds of songs cause I want to portray myself as a cold hearted bitch.

"Wait this song is by that muggle who looks like my uncle Ron right?" Lily asked. "Yeah, Ed Sheeran" I said awkwardly, phew she knew or then she would have thrown a tantrum telling I'm writing them to impress her, even though that could have been nice-

"Stop writing stuff like that in your textbook and notes. Last time I borrowed your notebook there was a lyric saying, 'Only bought this dress so you could take it off'. People might get the wrong idea" Lily said. "I usually erase them. I guess that one slipped" I chuckled in embarrassment.

"You're so weird, you seem like a person who'd never fall in love and here you are losing your head over me and dedicating romantic lyrics to me" she said with a smug smile. "Oi, that wasn't even for you, I just wrote them cause I was bored" I defended. "It's ok to love me Scamander, I mean who can't" she said, flipping her hair like a sassy bitch.

"You're really doing this?" I asked snickering. "Seriously, you're just one of them. Nothing special. You're just too late to realise my awesomeness" she said while playing keyboard on the air in front of my face which annoyed me I just gave her a glare.

"You're not my lover more like a brother so stop, I don't love you" Lily rejected me. "Nothing's gonna stop me, you dared me I'm going to win, I never lose" I replied. "All you do is talk and talk, I'm so confident you'll keep telling these dialogues and eventually move on. You keep crying wolf for no reason. At this point do whatever you want, you don't even seem serious" Lily chuckled.

She was right, I better get serious and make some actual moves which don't make me look like a joker just telling her I love her. We stayed silent and I started scheming.

"Plus, you lost heart to me didn't you?" she asked, smiling in the most mesmerising way.

"Anyone interested in doing a small task for me?" Mongrel asked suddenly as our attention turned to her but no one paid attention to it. Everyone seemed busy with their own friend groups and gossip.

Then suddenly Mongrel stood up and banged the table and all of us looked at her. "I ASKED SOMETHING IS THERE NO VOLUNTEERS WILLING TO HELP?" She screamed. Everyone just remained silent with their eyes fixated on Mongrel.

"This generation is spoiled, when I was studying in Hogwarts everyone used to raise their hands and the teachers wouldn't be able to choose" she said as she started her lecture. "Oh no" Lily muttered and sighed.

"You should be confident and bold, you know I have a pet dog and I walk in front of it and let him walk behind me and follow him, that is the level of confidence one should have, you have to be aspiring leaders that's why you come here to learn" she said.

"Well, if she walks in front of that means she isn't walking her dog, the dog is walking her. So basically her dog owns her, she doesn't own her dog and that's the most realist thing I have heard all day" I said to Lily stretching my arms in a nonchalant manner. "Dude, that's-" Lily said as she silently started giggling and we both ducked under the table to have a good laugh.

"You're awesome" Lily said, still giggling as I was just enjoying the sound of her giggles, her smile and her squinted enchanting green eyes. I liked her so much, her charisma and just everything. JUST EVERYTHING. 

"I'm jealous of everything you own and everything you love, I'm jealous of every dress you wear and everything with your name written on it" I said. Lily was about to smack my face. "Just quit it, your lines ain't gonna impress me" she said. I know you're secretly blushing cause I can see right through you.

I wanna brainwash her into loving me forever. I want her in my arms, I want to feel her hair, I want to caress her, it's hard not to love her this much and give her what she deserves. Both of us looked at each other as we placed our heads down on the table as we gave each other tasteful glances. The soft smile on her pink lips.

I involuntarily moved closer to her as she became alarmed. She touched my shoulders and tried pushing me away. "Mr.Scamander and Ms. Potter" Mongrel snapped as we both got up. "May I know about your heated romantic discussion which made you both laugh so much?" she asked.

"Nothing professor" Lily said, trying so hard not to burst into laughter. "Mr. Scamander, I heard what comment you made" she said, giving me a death stare. "Uh, I-" I started when she raised her voice and said, "I dare you to say it out loud" she challenged me. "Sorry professor" I said. "Are you talking back to me? Respect my statement and tell what you told your girlfriend" she said.

"Even Mongrel started shipping me with you" I chuckled whispering into her ear. "Stop spitting into my ear" Lily said, spitting into my ears as revenge. "BOTH OF YOU!" Mongrel barked. "Professor, I'm sorry" we said in a chorus.

"Ms. Potter, go sit on the opposite bench on the right" She screamed as Lily happily gave me a grin as I moved out so I could let her go. NO MONGREL THAT EVIL WITCH IS NOW EVADING MY PERSONAL LIFE APART FROM MY SHITTY SCHOOL LIFE. "Sit down both of you" Mongrel said and continued, "All of you remain quiet or I'll be assigning you detention or some work" she said as she went back to her paperwork.

I looked at Lily and she stuck her tongue out and flexed her freedom from me by placing her legs and stretching them on the free seat next to her. "You're so childish" I mouthed her and she flipped her hair sassily and raised her eyebrows and waved bye bye and went to her book.

I was bored, I really wanted to annoy her and see her over dramatic reactions. Then I got an idea. I took a parchment and wrote, "I miss you, darling. Come back to me. T_T <3" and folded the parchment into an origami heart and I took my wand and used it as a bow and my heart shaped letter as an arrow and I aimed it at Lily like a cupid cause the cupid assigned for me and Lily seemed to have got drunk and crashed up at some bar drowning inside alcohol.

XX~𝐿𝓎𝓈𝒶𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇~XX

EXCLUSIVE LILY'S P.O.V:

No matter how annoying Lysander is nowadays. It's so fun hanging out with him and keeping up with his cheesy lines and his cute flirty face and I love denying all allegations of me heads over heels for him. It's so cuteeeeeee, I want to pat his head and hug him like a cute eyed golden retriever even though his eyes are like an arctic husky.

I was now sitting on the bench laterally opposite to him. It had been 5 minutes since we got SEPARATED, what a loss, I really missed his company and I tried taking secret glances but I know he'll figure it out and then give me that smug look of, 'heh, I saw you looking, you love me'.

I was waiting for him to pull some move desperately as I was acting like reading, I could feel his glances on me. Then I felt a paper fall on me, there was a secret excitement gush through my veins, maybe it's LYSANDER.

I glared at Lysander and he was resting his head on his hand as he gave me a cute wink and a soft smile on his lips. LILY DON'T BLUSH. I gave him an angry glare. He instructed me to read the letter he sent. I took the heart shaped letter and I gave him a glare. His flirty eyes AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! His sharp half opened up tired eyes looked so fucking hot.

He looked at me as I gave him a smirk. I didn't open the letter and I wrote 'Your Heart' on the plain side and then wrote 'Me' on my hand and he gave a piercing loom focusing on what I was about to do. I love you Scamander, but no.

I tore up the letter into pieces and crushed it with my palm. His eyes widened as he took his hand off his cheeks. Yeah, Scamander, just give up. I threw the torn pieces like confetti over me. "Stop littering" he mouthed me.

I used my wand and cleaned up the bits as I gave him a sassy look and acted like I went back to my book. Later another piece of parchment arrived and it was clearly written, 'Don't tear this up'. Well, rules are made to be broken. I looked at him in a pitiful way as I tore up the paper slowly gasping and surprised as I mouthed, "Oops".

Lysander gave me a blank stare. A few more minutes passed as the bell rang. I ran out of the class along with the other students as Lysander tailed me, I tried getting rid of him but he grabbed onto my robe.

"Leave me stop being a creep" I screamed at him. He pulled me inside an empty classroom as I struggled to slip my wrists from his hard manly grip. "What's wrong with you?!" I exclaimed. "Tell me how you feel and accept it" he asked.

"Just go to hell" I said, trying to walk out. "I'm sick of doing this Lily, it's been over a year and you just keep making me run around" he groaned as he grabbed my hand. A year, ha! I ran around for FOUR YEARS. "You're tired after just a year?" I chuckled. "I'm ready to do this till you realise, till you are ready, I'll wait" he said.

"Why are you getting so desperate?" I asked. My heart was flying into outer space, it's so cute how madly he's in love with me. "You do everything, you give me all the hints and tell me we're just friends? Just pick a side" he said as he was slowly losing his temper.

Ok well, that's kinda my fault but in my defence I don't want to like you so I'm tryna ward you off. "I'm sorry if you misunder-" I started and cut me off and said, "DON'T JUST DON'T tell me I misunderstood your intentions" he said as his eyes widened with his angry glare which sent a shiver down my spine.

You never want to see Lysander angry and pissed, it's just a scary experience dealing with that expression on his face. His expression made me seem guilty. He isn't wrong, I'm as guilty as sin with this one. I told I didn't want him but I did purposely encourage him.

"Why are you wasting time? Do you love me or not? Why'd you keep telling me you don't and then encourage me into it. Stop doing this. If you really hate me and feel disgusted just tell me" Lysander asked as his pupils burst into blue flames.

I felt so heavy and an itch in my throat. I don't want to agree that I love him, I can't. I don't want to lose to him, he- but I love him but I can't- But I don't want to lose him- Why'd you always complicate my life Lysander?

"I- I- don't know ok?" I stuttered looking down as I told him the truth. My ego, I really need to reduce it, I'm ruining my life, his life- I wish I wasn't like this- I really wish I could hug him and kiss him now and tell him that I love him- I want him so bad- I want to write my name on his back. I suddenly felt pathetic and helpless. Anxiety overtook me.

"I'm sorry I kinda overreacted, I just-" he said as he left my hand seeing my overwhelmed situation. "It's hard to hate you- but it's equally hard to love you too" I said, choking on my words. He patted my head and started messing my hair. "Sorry I startled you darling" he said as his voice changed back to normal.

My mood changed. Anger shot up. What did he say?

"Did you just call me darling?" I asked him. "Hehe" he said as he tried hugging me and I pushed him away. "Crazy bastard" I said disgustedly. "I just wanted to check my progress, I'm just happy it rose from our relationship progressed from 'Hell nah' to 'I don't know'" he giggled. "Crazy bitch, playing with my feelings again! Will you ever stop? This is exactly why I hate you and your dirty tricks" I sneered.

Is he crazy? Dude, that seemed so serious, he looked genuinely scary and murderous. I almost died from an anxiety attack. "Well then baby, fix me" he said as he pushed me against a wall and twirled my bangs. "You're crazy, like seriously get a therapist" I said. He didn't reply and he seemed so intrigued in me, I turned pink as I had an adrenaline rush as his fingers interlocked with mine.

"I found a therapist but she doesn't want me" he said. Yup that therapist he meant was probably my love, sorry you are broke, my love is too expensive. "Hands off me" I said as I tucked my hands to grab demise but she wasn't there. I panicked.

"Searching for this?" he asked as he put demise behind my neck as the cold metal blade touched the back of my neck and I moved closer to Lysander to escape from the blade. My stomach made cartwheels as he dragged the blade along my skin, I gave a shiver.

"You brought a knife to a gunfight" he said.

But I really can't help myself when he gets close to me. My lips went dry and I bit my lips "Stop, please" I mumbled, secretly enjoying his love. "Don't bite your lips, I want to do that" he said, moving his lips closer to mine. I just love how he creates tension and keeps me on my toes. For god's sake kiss me for once. I'm sick of being stuck in this stage for months.

"You want me?" he asked. "I don't know, maybe" I said nonchalantly. "Hmm" she said with a glee in his voice. "You're crazy but- it's you and-" I said with words overflowing out of nowhere, no, no, no Lily STOP.

I found myself completely drugged by his eyes, I felt lifeless, I couldn't feel anything. I could only think of him. He haunted me stunningly.

"You've ruined my life by not being mine" he muttered as he pulled in. "You'll live your life in misery forever I guess" I said softly. My heart raced and ached, my ego slowly cracked. It's not worth it, why should I be mad at him? He did all those for me- I must have been insane to think he was the reason why me and Keres broke up.

My heart melted in his presence as he held me in his hands. I was the crazy he wanted and he is the crazy I wanted. I put my fears aside, I put my ghosts aside, I put the deep fears of the thoughts of the world dividing us. I'm going to root for the best. His palms touched my cheeks, he pulled me closer and I felt reassured.

"Lysander, I-" I started. Our lips touched.

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SWITCHING BACK TO LYSANDER'S P.O.V:

I bent forward and my lips touched hers. A chemical reaction between our hormones. The touch of her hand. I pushed back her hair and got ready to release the mad amount of love I had been piling up. I pressed her lips a bit harder and-

"Lysander- " I heard Jared's voice as the door opened. I immediately pulled away from her and put on a relaxed face. Jared's eyes widened. "Well- hey guys" he stuttered. SHIT, HE KNEW, HE'S SUCH A BAD ACTOR. "This won't hurt, I promise" I said as I pointed my wand at him. "What? Dude-" he said as I obliviated him without saying another word.

"Always ruining everything-" I sighed. Lily looked at me and approached me. "I love Jared" she smiled. I gave her a blank stare. "I'm so happy, he made my day and saved me from you" she said as she walked out tracing her nails on my arms. "Bye" she said flirtily as she left. So does she like me now? I don't know if she's just confusing.

I mean at least now I know I have a 50-50 chance with her and she was ready to kiss me. ERGH BUT THIS MORON RUINED IT, OR I MUST HAVE ALREADY MADE HER MINE BY NOW. I kicked Jared and he woke up getting up from the floor suddenly.

"Oh, hey Lysander" he said innocently. I gave him a dirty look. "You have a girlfriend, good for you, but me? Why JJ?" I said. "What?" he asked, confused and I just sighed and walked out of the room disappointed.

"OI WE HAVE CLASS!" Jared screamed behind me.

XX~𝐿𝓎𝓈𝒶𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇~XX

SWITCHING TO LILY'S P.O.V:

It was 7:00pm, I laid in my bed and closed my eyes, dreaming of the feel of his lips, the kiss, his hair, his eyes, his expressions and his voice. I keep recalling things we never did. My fatal fantasies got wild every time I thought of him. I really love him and the way he manipulated and enchanted me into actually convincing me into giving up my ego.

He's just different and I love it. He's so gorgeous and the magnetic field and gravity holding us together in spite of our crippling ego. Seriously, my ego is not as valuable as him. But some part of me tells me, I'll get hurt. I don't know why.

It's just- I don't know something about him and his aura which makes me concerned. I always had trust issues but- I don't know, I just- I don't know. I DON'T KNOW. I HATE THIS.

I want to keep these longings in lowercase locked inside a vault but- would it be paradise if they came out and we accepted? I don't know, I'm just scared of taking risks. Am I bad or mad? I just want to die, I don't like to make decisions.

Why is this so hard? I've dated so many boys before, but I've never been in such a dilemma. I just don't know. I just love him but I don't want to make our relationship awkward and keep it true. I don't want to lose him with my love.

It's going to be so awkward when I face him during prefect patrolling duties. I don't even want to think about it.

Whatever it is, one thing I know is that, Lysander Scamander, you did some bad things but let's be honest I'm the worst of them.

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EXCLUSIVE HUGO'S P.O.V:

Well, life has just turned upside down. A week ago, I came out as gay and well- things have been quite shaken since then-

-ONE WEEK AGO-

I think it's time my friends knew that I'm gay. I've kept this as a secret for so long scared that they would judge me. It's not common to like the same gender and with all those racists and homophobes, I'm scared to face the world but I've somehow mustered up my courage. I'm telling them today.

We were in our dorm, "Guys" I called them. Jared and Lysander were arguing over something and Lorcan and Val were gossiping. They all looked at me, "Yeah loser?" Lorcan asked. "I need to tell you something" I said as my heart raced as I looked at Lorcan's blue eyes.

"It's just- I-" I stuttered. "Fast" Lysander snapped in annoyance. I gave him a glare and he glared back. "I'm gay" I said as I closed my eyes in fear and horror as my heart burst. "Uh- ok" Val said and everyone went back to their work. "You guys have nothing to say?" I was quite confused by their reactionless faces.

"It was pretty obvious" Lysander said. "Wait, I thought you just told us already" Val said. I gave him a blank look. "So you guys are ok with it?" I asked. "Well no, you have to be straight Hugo, change yourself" Lorcan said sarcastically.

Everyone started laughing. "We don't care Hugo, we'll always support you no matter what, that's what friends do" Jared said. I felt warm, my friends- I should be so grateful to have them. I started tearing up slowly, "Thanks" I stuttered. "EYYYYYY, WHY ARE YOU CRYING LIKE A FIVE YEAR OLD" Lorcan asked.

"It's just- I'm grateful to have you guys" I said looking at them. "I feel ashamed that a person feels grateful because of me" Lysander said and Jared punched his stomach as he squeaked. "Really though, thanks guys" I said gratefully with contempt.

"Hugo don't worry I'll talk to my parents and your parents about yours and Lorcan's situation" Lysander said dramatically. "Lorcan?" I asked. "STOP WE'RE JUST FRIENDS RIGHT HUGO?" Lorcan asked. With a heavy heart, I lied, "Yeah".

"Lorcan and Hugo sitting on a tree-" Lysander started as Lorcan jumped out of the bed and strangled Lysander. "STOP!" Lorcan screamed. "I'M TOO YOUNG TO DIE- I DON'T EVEN HAVE A GIRLFRIEND YET" Lysander coughed. Val and I were laughing hysterically as Jared tried breaking up the fight but ended up as both of their punch bags getting hit from both Lysander and Lorcan.

-BACK TO PRESENT-

So that seems well but the problem is that the newspaper found out and well, I always wanted to be on paper but everyone called me stupid for that and yes I agree I was stupid. They wrote shit about me and my dad found out.

I had no choice but to tell him that I was gay and well, he got mad at me for that. My mom was supporting as usual, she was proud in fact. My dad on the other hand was in distress that both of his children turned out fucked, one ran away with a Malfoy and the other is gay. He was disappointed and still is.

My dad used to love me at least a little and now he completely hates me. I'm scared of going home for the holidays, I can't face him. After Rose graduated the first thing she did was cut herself from that man and run away with Malfoy, such a shame I have to deal with him for another two years because I need food on my plate and not poison.

I don't know how this is going to end but eventually I have to face this. Better now than never.

Lorcan ain't making my terrible situation any better, he's going around flirting with girls and annoying the hell out of me. Bro, I've been next to you and I did everything and devoted my life to love you and you just take advantage of it and go around kissing girls.

Open your eyes and look at the redhead next to you. Maybe I should stop being stuck up and move on to someone else? I don't know, am I the problem?

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