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𝙲𝚄𝙿𝙸𝙳 𝙸𝚂 𝚂𝙾 𝙳𝚄𝙼𝙱... (¬_¬")

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❝ 𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐘 𝐁𝐈𝐑𝐓𝐇𝐃𝐀𝐘 𝐓𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔! ❞ my roomies sang as the clock struck 12:00 am and the day turned into March 22. Party poppers popped as confetti flew all around the room. "YOU'RE LEGALLY 16!!!" Val exclaimed. "I can legally have beer" Lorcan said as she took a can of beer and chugged it and he made a weird expression as it ran down his throat.

I am sixteen now, and I feel like I'm lost in some film scene. I'm having those birthday blues all over again. Two years, I'll have a job and I'll probably move out- It's scary that I'll have to be independent. Why is all this for? Living and dying? In the end, everything will end. Who cares about the difference it's going to make?

I took a bite of Jared's freshly made chocolate cake, it was good. I suddenly felt overwhelmed in my thoughts. O.W.L.s is coming up and then there is this whole Lily drama happening still. I- I- feel all this is pointless... I just- can't keep doing this.

Everyone just seems to be having the time of their life and I just feel stuck. No progress, I feel useless, why am I doing all this? Why am I taking so much trouble to trouble Lily and Keres? It's just for the illusion and temporary feeling of happiness. It's just so human.

I just feel like giving up every time I think about this but the electric touch I get from her eyes and her smile. I hate her. Why is she doing this to me? I'm just a hopeless romantic at this point.

I groaned, I couldn't sleep. I rolled on my bed. I tried out every single position to sleep. Everything just seemed so uncomfortable. I feel so annoyed and pissed at life. JUST DIE, JUST DIE EVERYONE. PLEASE LET THIS WORLD RUN INTO CHAOS AND END. I CAN'T-

I woke up in the morning as the sunlight hit my face. I put my bed sheet over my face and groaned as my sleepy state slowly started fading away. I eventually brought myself to an awakened state. I got up from my bed and I saw a bunch of birthday gifts lying on the tea table next to me. I just automatically lay back on my bed. My back really hurts.

Then I realised that all my roomies were missing, I was alone lying on my bed. I looked at my watch and it was 12:00 pm. OH SHIT! TODAY WAS FREAKING FRIDAY! I OVERSLEPT AND MISSED CLASSES. SHIT. WHAT AM I DOING? It's useless now, I missed half of the classes anyways there's no use in attending any of the other ones. I might as well take a day off since it's my birthday. But I have to come up with a valid excuse for Mongrel. She ain't gonna be happy about me flunking classes.

I went to the empty bathing quarters, it was just different not seeing naked or half naked guys running around and yapping. I took a warm bath for one hour, ONE HOUR OF ETERNAL PEACE. I felt like I have calmed myself down from yesterday's mood swings. I don't understand how birthdays are supposed to be fun, the only good thing about it is that now you're one year closer to death.

I walked out of the prefect's bathroom in my black cardigan with a few white stars and white strips near the sleeves and my dark blue jeans paired with my black and white Converse.

Then a gush of students had come out of class, it seemed like a period was over. I saw Keres and Aurelia walking together talking about something. What a good way to start a day. The stars seem to be on my side.

I should probably go in search of my roomies, today was a Friday and potions class should have ended, I can meet them in the dungeons if I move quickly. I rushed through the corridors and jumped down many flights of stairs as I turned from the crook of the wall I almost bumped into Lucy Weasley but we both stopped before we dashed into one another.

"Happy birthday" she said as she awkwardly chuckled. "Yeah, ok" I said in an uninterested voice and ran in search of my roomies and that was when I saw them talking as a group.

"Why didn't you wake me up?" I asked Jared as I abruptly interrupted them. "Oh hey birthday boy, nice cardigan" Jared complimented. "Answer. My. Question." I said sternly. "You deserve a break bro, I tried waking you up you didn't seem to budge so I thought you deserved a break" Jared said.

"Awww, how concerning" I said sarcastically. "How am I going to answer Mongrel and Longbottom?" I asked. "Just say you had cooties or something" Val said. "Is someone going to tell him cooties are not real?" Hugo sighed.

"It's over, you can't do anything. I'm bunking class after lunch" Lorcan said. "Mr. Scamander, why are you dressed so informal?" I heard my potion's professor's voice behind me and I started giving fake coughs. "I'm sick so I took a break today, professor" I said sniffing. "O.W.L.s is coming up so get your health up Mr. Scamander" he said as he left.

"Close one" I muttered. "Should we bunk classes and maybe visit southern Hogwarts? I heard it's haunted" Lorcan asked. "We have ghosts at Hogwarts" Jared sighed. "I heard there are like inferius and trolls too, plus abandoned villages are scary" Lorcan defended. "Ok, I'm ready to bunk but we're NOT going to that haunted place, I'm not ready to die getting attacked by inferius and trolls" Val said.

"Don't worry I'll protect you Val" I said in a flattering way. "You're the kind of person to use me as bait so you can fight with those things and show off, no thanks. I don't trust you. You might feed me to them" Val said. WHY DO MY ROOMIES KNOW ME SO WELL, IT'S INFURIATING.

"We aren't bunking classes, O.W.L.s is like two months away, its about time you guys get serious" Jared said putting an end to the conversation.

"MONGREL IS GOING TO KEEP SOME FREAKY SURPRISE TEST FOR 100 MARKS WHICH IS LIKE THREE HOURS LONG! I JUST SAW HER CARRYING THE PAPERS!" Zayn screamed running in the corridors to announce the Gryffindors and Ravenclaws and there was a sudden panic in the room.

"I'm going to get changed, we should definitely enjoy the experience of bunking classes once in a while" Jared said smiling like an idiot. "But what if we get caught?" Hugo asked. "You tosser, of course Mongrel will notice that five students are missing from class. We just have to be prepared for a forbidden forest detention" Lorcan replied, sighing.

"I'm finally going to wear the shirt Diana gifted me for my birthday!" Val squealed. "You should stop reminding everyone that they're single" Lorcan said with a straight face. Val let out a chuckle and within 10 minutes we found ourselves running away from the castle.

"This is insane, I can't believe I'm doing this" Jared said. "I just hope everyone bunks, that lazy Ravenclaw gang will like 100% bunk, we are bunking I wonder who else will bunk" Val said. "Did you all bring brooms? We can't walk all the way to southern Hogwarts" Lorcan said. We ran with some stolen brooms from the broomstick shed.

We left the castle premises and found ourselves outside. We slowed down our pace and started walking. "Let's mount and FLY AWAY FROM PRISON!" Lorcan screamed and we kickstarter our journey to the southern region of Hogwarts.

We flew over the lake in the cold climate, the giant squid gave us a squiggle as we skimmed the lake waters. The feel of cold hair gushing through your hair roots is just different. All of us were in an unofficial race of flying trying to overtake one another. It was fun.

A fun I haven't felt in a long time, a type of fun that doesn't involve mentally disturbing the people you dislike, like Ker*s. Yeah, we're going to censor his name from now on. It's just too triggering.

It had been 10 minutes and we were still halfway through. The thick dense forest between our feet we spotted over a hundred varieties of magical creatures of different shapes and sizes. Ashwinders, Fwoopers, Dark mongrels, Kneazles, herds of Puffskein rolling down the hill and some nasty looking spiders as big as Lily.

I just hope we encounter trolls, I really want to see what the huge deal of 'They are dangerous' is all about. My great grandfather literally gave it an XXXXX classification in his book, Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them. That's like some seriously dangerous shit.

During mid flight Lorcan and Hugo were shooting water spells at each other like kids. Jared just seemed like a dad who took his kids on vacation and me and Val were gossiping about Leo and his five girlfriends.

"Guys we're here!" Val exclaimed. "It looks unsafe, Val don't tell me you and Diana come here" Jared said. "Are you insane? I didn't even know Hogwarts had villages and all, I thought it was only that old castle" Val said as we grounded.

We were in the middle of an abandoned village, filled with cobwebs, broken wooden houses, dried grass, crippling farmhouses, dead poultry. "This is boring, there's literally nothing here except rats" Hugo said in disappointment and disgust.

"You think we're alone? Darling, In a dark room no one is scared of being alone, they're afraid because they're not" I said dramatically and there was a sudden gust of wind and there was the sound of barrels rolling down and falling.

"The fuck" Val said as he widened his eyes. There was sudden stillness. "It's probably just a rat" Lorcan said. "For Peter Pettigrew's sake" I replied. "Let's go back" Hugo said as he quickly mounted the broom. "No way we just got here" Lorcan said, holding his sleeves.

"I dare one of you to go inside that barn" Val said. "NAH NO FUCKING WAY" Hugo said. "I'll do it" I said as I bravely stepped up. "Go on GODRIC GRYFFINDOR! YOU CAN DO THIS!" Jared cheered me. I pulled Jared and ran into the barn with him and Jared let out a scream like a high pitched girl. I started laughing like a lunatic.

"YOU BITCH-" Jared said as he was about to run out and the barn door shut right on his face and the barn went pitch black. I put my hands into my pocket for my wand, IT WASN'T THERE. "WHERE ARE OUR WANDS?!" I said as I panicked. Shit I should have practised wandless magic a bit more.

"OH MY GOD WE'RE GOING TO DIEEEEEEEE!!!" Jared screamed as he panicked and I could sense him moving in an unsettling pattern in the dark. "GUYS! GUYS! WE CAN'T OPEN THE DOORS!" Hugo, Lorcan and Val screamed.

"LYSANDER FUCKING SCAMANDER WHERE ARE YOU?" Jared swore. "Stop moving I'll catch you" I replied as I walked like a blind man following Jared's moments. "I THINK I STEPPED ON A RAT! I THINK IT'S DEAD!" he screamed. "SHUT UP!" I screamed back. Then I heard foreign giggles. "Did you hear that?" Jared asked.

"We're not alone-" I said with a dramatic voice. "OPEN THE DOOR VALENTINO, LORCAN, HUGO" Jared said. "Alohomora is not working" Hugo complained. "There's probably a security charm, you gotta break it" I said.

"Jaredddd and Lysanderrrrrr for lunch mmmmm" said a female voice. "MA'AM IF YOU'RE A WEREWOLF- PLEASE SPARE ME, TAKE LYSANDER HE'S MORE- UHM- BRITISH AND YUMMY PLUS HE'S HOT SO YUM YUM FOR THE COLD CLIMATE" Jared said. "JARED'S FRENCH HE SMELLS LIKE A DELICACY IF YOU'RE A SWEET TOOTH HE'S THE ONE FOR YOU AND I SKIP BATHING BUT JARED DOESN'T" I defended like an idiot.

DUDE WHY AM I DOING THIS, I SHOULD JUST FOLLOW THE VOICE AND NAB THIS THING, IT CAN'T BE A GHOST AS THERE IS NO GLOW. If I'm right some baka probably followed us here and took a shortcut to prank us.

"LYSANDER SOMEONE TOUCHED ME!" Jared screamed. "I would be concerned if you were my girlfriend but you're not" I said. "This AIN'T THE TIME TO BE JOKING" Jared exclaimed seriously. Then I felt fingertips on my arms. I quickly grabbed that person and rammed them against the wall as they let out a squeal.

I quickly ran my hands to check this person, hair, long hair, soft skin for a guy, long well done nails, it's a girl for sure and that squeal, it is similar to, 2017 when Lily Luna Potter rammed into my bedroom wall while playing catch with Lorcan.

"Lily" I said as I loosened my muscles. "You win, yay!" she giggled as she broke character and I said, "Wand" I ordered as she handed me my wand as she opened the doors and light entered the barn as I saw MY cute Lily standing opposite to me and Jared was in a corner terrified and my roomies walked in confused.

"SURPRISE!" Diana said as she jumped out from behind a stack of rotten hay. "Uhm" Val let out a confused groan and said, "Why did you come here? It's not safe, what if you get hurt?" He asked.

"AWW HOW CONCERNING!" Me and my roomies groaned as we teased Val and Diana and they started blushing. "Ok, the actual plan was to lure Lorcan and Lysander in and scare the shit out of them and give them their birthday cake but Jared the NPC came in instead" Lily said.

"Sorry?" Jared apologised in a confused tone. "You should be" Lily sneered. "I'm so sorry I ruined your non-official boyfriend's surprise" Jared apologised again. "He's not my- You know what I'm sick of arguing about this for over five years at this point. Y'all will be shipping me with Lysander even after I get married" Lily sighed.

If you're marrying- you're marrying me- NO, THAT'S TOO OVERBOARD- WHY DID MY BRAIN EVEN THINK THAT?? THESE ARE ILLEGAL THOUGHTS.

"Can't wait until you both are like, yeah we were acting the whole time. We have been dating since like six" Lorcan said. "You like Hugo" Lily said to offend Lorcan and shut him up. "Ok ok now, cake cutting!"Diana said as she popped up a drippy chocolate cake with a wave of her wand. It was written, 'Happy Birthday' in the most shittest handwriting. "We already did this yesterday night" Jared said. "But I made this cake and I never cook" Lily said.

Oh no, did Potter find out I was the one who made Aurelia like Keres so she's going to poison me with this act of so-called kindness. It's definitely something she would do. I can't let my guard down.

"Where's the other one?" Val asked. "Oh Michelle? That goody two shoes didn't want to miss the exam, I bet she secretly studied for it" Diana groaned. "Who studies in secret? That's so stupid. I don't even study to begin with and neither do I lie to people I studied" Lorcan said. "You don't understand girls" Diana said making a 'bruh' face.

"Wait, how many people bunked this test? Won't Mongrel go insane?" Hugo asked. "Look Huggy, no one gives a shit about her and her stupid N.E.W.T.s level tests, she should get a life instead of torturing students" Lily complained. "Ok! THE CAKE IS MELTING THE BUTTERCREAM FROSTING"

"Ok, start singing happy birthday" Lily commanded. "No, that's so embarrassing and awkward, let's just go ahead with clapping. My anxiety gets triggered every time someone starts singing happy birthday" I said. "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!" Lily started singing and the others joined in, I gave a blank stare and Lorcan was singing along with them, bro doesn't realise it's his birthday too.

Then they started clapping me and Lorcan blew the candles as we cut the cake. I don't know why I just FELT SO EMBARRASSED AND I WAS CRINGING SO BAD. Lorcan took the first to feed me but I took the cake piece from his hand and put it near Lily's mouth.

"Ohh" my roomies gave out a sound in excitement. "Uhm?" Lily said. "You first" I said, look Potts, I'm not trying to be romantic right now, I just can't die without kissing you. "Thanks" Lily said as her cheeks flustered up and she took a bite from the piece of cake and my roomies started cheering for no reason.

"I just wanted to check whether the cake was poisoned ok? It just looked so suspicious" I defended myself from allegations of liking Lily. "OI! It looks so pretty!" Lily said, looking at her soggy cake proudly.

"How's you get here before us?" Val asked. "Shortcut through the cliffs, I come here a lot to just chill and hangout with Michelle and Diana" Lily replied. "Now that we're here we should ditch the rest of the day, I ain't going back to get scolded by Mongrel for an hour. If we ditch a period or ditch the whole day she's going to give us an hour lecture so, naturally we can miss the rest of the day" Diana said.

"There's an abandoned Quidditch pitch around here, we should play" Lily said. Lorcan stuffed the whole cake piece in his mouth and muffled, "I'M IN!"

"Lorc me and you are the other captains, we choose teams by taking turns" Lily said and at the same time both of them said, "I CHOOSE LYLY" they both said at the same time. "Yo, come on he doesn't even play Quidditch guys so much demand for him?" Val asked. "Lorc, you can have Val" Lily said. "But I LOVEEEEEEE my brother, plus he's my TWINNNNNN I'll CRYYYY if he doesn't join my team" Lorcan said.

"Where is all this non-existent brother love coming from?" Jared asked. "Shut up" Lorcan said and turned to me and made puppy eyes. "I'm joining Lily's team" I said as I stepped next to her. "HA!" Lily said smirking and Lorcan gave me a glare.

The teams eventually got sorted out, Me, Lily and Diana were a team and Lorcan, Jared, Val and Hugo were a team. "Ly, at this point you're a girl! You're on a girls team" Lorcan said, why does he sound like some kind of elementary school kid?

We played Quidditch for a long time ending in the victory of whichever team I was in. We kept shuffling teams after every match and eventually found out I'm too good so they fired me from the game and well, I was the referee.

The clock had struck 5:45 and it started getting dark. We were all rounded up sitting together in a circle on the sandy ground gossiping. "You're all scaring me with these relationship chains" Jared said.

"I swear, every guy has like 5 girls and each girl has another 3 boyfriends. The girls also share guys bro, no jokes. One day Leo is dating Tiffany the next day you'll see him kissing Evangeline and she has Keanu. Keanu has a crush on Jennie but Jennie is dating Asher but Asher sometimes hooks-up with Tiffany" Diana said sighing.

"This is exactly why I don't believe in all this love and shit, gen-z's are making love seem so fucked up. All the greatest loves are over now" I said as I took a secret glance at Lily who seemed to highly disagree with me. "Just because everyone talks about shitty people doesn't mean there are genuine people out there, life is beautiful if you find the right person" Lily said.

"Only if there is anyone that pure" I laughed. Everyone is twisted, no one is true, love has two sides. One with roses and delicate petals and the other one is the prickly thorns which was the road to the flower.

"Let's set up a campfire. Any scouts wanna volunteer?" Jared asked. "I'm going to just walk around" I said as I got up. "Don't die, even though it would be cool if you died on your birthday" Lorcan said. I rolled my eyes and walked on the gravel sandy pathway of the ghost town. I want to just put on my headphones and feel the moment right now with a sprinkle of sad poems.

"Scamander" Lily said as she spawned next to me. "I can't keep up with you right now, I'm in the mood for auroras and sad prose" I sighed as I looked up at the moon, it was in its waxing gibbous phase and the sky had purple hues there were a few stars with 'Orion' being the brightest and most visible.

I let out an overwhelmed breath as I felt a sudden chill throughout my body. I felt like I had drunk a slushy and had a brain freeze.

"Are you okay?" she asked. "Yeah, what do you want?" I asked as I looked at her and immediately turned away. It's just so hard to look at her these days, for some reason my anxiety gets triggered when I look at her. It's easier to just look at her sleeping in classes.

"You look like you're in a serene mood" she said. "I want to listen to a melody" I replied as I was zoned out. "You want me to sing?" she asked. "Shut up, why'd you want to ruin my love for music so bad? Are you jealous that I like music more than you?" I asked in an annoyed tune.

"I'm just sick of you lying and lying all over again that you don't love me MORE than a sister or a friend" Lily said. "To be honest" I started, I'm done playing cat and mouse I told myself and continued, "It would be so dishonest if I tell you that I don't like you" I said in a low voice looking straight forward relaxing the muscles in my face in a relaxed manner.

"I knew it! HA!" Lily said as she banged herself on my right shoulder. "How are you so- urgh" I said as I was searching for the word I was looking for, shameless, unblushing, feeling no shame, unembarrassed. "Why am I so what?" she asked.

"I'm searching for the word just wait" I said, shushing her and I went into my thoughts again. What was the word? Impetitive? Unremorseful? Unrepentant? Unabashed! I got the word, 'unabashed'. "Yeah, unabashed, Why are you so unabashed for talking about me having a crush on you?" I asked.

"So you want me to talk to some third person about you having a crush on me?" she asked, looking cluelessly with that cute heart shaped face filled with innocence. Ok yeah, that makes sense but it's still so weird that girls don't usually gossip with their friends.

"I bet you enjoyed it when I kissed you, accidentally" she said smiling. HELP, HOW IS THIS CONVERSATION HAPPENING? THIS IS SO AWKWARD AND WRONG FOR AN INTROVERT LIKE ME. POTTER HAS SOME REAL NERVES. I NEED TO CHANGE THE CONVERSATION.

"Are you an expert in how to make a conversation awkward and uncomfortable?" I asked. "Well, no. You're not a stranger who needs to be pleased. I don't need that 'celebrity act' in front of you. I tend to be very straightforward in life. Lyly all that smiling and giggling is just a show. I'm a very reputation girl" she said.

"How are you so open, that amount of extrovertness gives me second hand embarrassment" I said. "You're changing the topic, Scamander, I know your ways" she said. SHIT, SHE KNOWS ME TOO WELL.

"I- Don't get ahead of yourself ok? I just have a tiny crush I'm trying to overcome" I lied. "Lying again" she said. "Potter, I fancy you but I swear it is not like a crazy obsession over you" I said getting worked up. "Why so tense?" she asked nonchalantly. I FEEL LIKE ME AND POTTER SWITCHED PERSONALITIES.

"I-" I started as I took a deep breath and came to my resting face. "I have a small crush on you and I'm trying to get over it but you're not helping me, you keep getting my hopes up high" I said. "You can't love me. If rejection is the only way you'll move on I'm ready to be harsh" she said in a quiet and composed manner. My palms started sweating and I felt a tingly situation.

My heart started aching , I'm indirectly getting rejected right now. It's not an official proposal but still it- it hurts... When you realise your months of effort are fading to nothing. "I can never see you more than a brother Ly, I love you but not romantically. In fact I never loved you romantically, it was just a mere attraction" she said.

I really wanted to ask her, 'Or is that what you convinced yourself?' but I can't ask her that because then she'll find out I don't have a 'tiny crush' and I am crazy for her. "Even if I break up with Keres, don't think you'll have a shot, you're just my brother, nothing else" she said hurtfully. A heaviness in my throat and I felt weight on my shoulders.

"I already told you I want to get over you" I said in a wheezy voice. "I was in your place around two years ago, running around you trying to get over you with my real intentions of getting close to you" she said with her glowing green eyes.

"Potter I-" I started and she cut me off and said, "This is so ironic right? One day I'm in love with you and I kiss you and the next day when I'm done with you you're coming to me holding your black rose. Cupid is just so DUMB" as her eyes started tearing up.

"This is why I never told you for the past few months, I thought it was better if it just faded away as a secret, in fact you're probably the only one I told" I lied. "It's always me, I'm always the cause of my own problems, I just want this confusion to end Ly, I can't keep doing this. I just want us both to have our own paths" she sighed, controlling her tears as they sparkled in the faded lights.

Lying, lying, lying, I've lost the amount of lies I've told. I've hurt her, confused her and I've completely ruined my plan. I don't know what's next. What am I doing? Why? All my time was wasted. I've hurt myself. She's blaming herself. I've ruined Keres and Aurelia. I've done so much for absolutely nothing. I asked for too much. It's all falling apart. I guess I fell too hard and now it's broken.

I- I- I think it's time to give up.

But, is running away from this mess I created a solution? What is wrong with me? But, I really love Lily and seeing her cry everyday hurts and knowing I'm the cause of the pain hurts. Everything hurts. I screwed up everything.

Even after what all I did if Keres and Lily are still standing so tall maybe, it's true. Maybe, I'm trying to make the impossible happen. The confidence, the craze, the motivation that I had just seemed lost. I wonder where I got all that from.

"I'm sorry for the fact that I fancy you, don't scramble about this in your mind. I'll just get over it, it's easy" I said as my voice started cracking. "But I really don't want to hurt you like how you hurt me, I'm not that kind of person" she said.

"You're not hurting me, you're just telling me not to fall into this trap called love. You're looking out for me Lils and I really appreciate it" I said as I had this itch in my throat, I started tearing up as I was fighting my tears. What's wrong with me?

Sorrow, nullness, suffocation, overwhelming, anxiety, overthinking, fear of failing. My worst nightmares were unleashing; failure in what I'm doing.

It's over, this game is over. I have gone too far, way too far. I felt weak, I was getting weaker, crippling. I can't do this anymore, it's just too much. I- I can't- she basically rejected me. A brother? They should ban brother-zoning. The heaviness I felt wasn't explainable. I felt like a whole city of imagination I built inside me was on fire.

"I'm sorry, I- I didn't mean to hurt you but I really can't Lysander. I'm just scared I might lose you. I love Keres and I'm afraid to lose him but I can get over it and pull myself together but I can't risk you, loving you means gambling with my life and I'm not ready" Lily sobbed.

I couldn't- I can't- I can't leave you Lily... I don't want to lose her-

We reached the dead end of the pathway at a small stream of water. "You know why I teared up?" I asked her as I washed my face in the clear water of the stream. My pessimistic thoughts were still rampaging in my mind.

"I didn't want you to be the one always crying, I didn't want you to feel left out" I said as I looked at her saddened eyes and red ears. That's literally the lamest consoling line ever, she didn't even flinch.

The atmosphere started clearing up. The pressure and stiffness of the conversation loosened as we started to return back to the town. "I kinda overreacted and cooked up nonsense didn't I? I also made you cry on your birthday. Thanks for proving I'm a terrible person and a fucking demoness" she said annoyed. "I didn't cry ok shut up I just got emotional after you know the whole tragedy of our love story" I said sighing.

"Love story my ass, it's a freaking mess plus this whole love thing better settle up after today, we're siblings ok?" Lily said. "Can we change the topic I don't want to talk about me being in love? It's so weird and talking about it to the person I have a crush on about how I have a crush on her is even more weird" I said.

"Are you a good kisser?" she asked. "POTTER COME ON HOW ABOUT YOU ASK ME MY FAVOURITE FOOD OR SOMETHING AND NOT A FUCKING WEIRD QUESTION STOP PROVING THAT YOU SHARE MY MOM'S NAME AS YOUR MIDDLE NAME" I screamed. "I know you love ramen and sushi, just answer my question" she said.

"Well, I haven't kissed anyone. You're the only one who has kissed me and I can tell you're pretty amateur" I said. "How can you compare without a comparison has anyone else kissed you?" she asked. "Well, I read romance novels and it's much more tasteful" I said, sounding like a complete idiot.

"Has anyone told you're just an idiot and a complete fool?" she said. "You've told me" I said and she started beating me up for no reason. "You're so annoying!" she said. I couldn't help but giggle looking at her angry puffy cheeks. It was hard to believe that 2 minutes ago both of us were whining.

"But you know we can find out if I'm a good kisser if you're fine with volunteering as my judge" I said and she took a tiny pebble and I started running she threw the pebble and started running behind me as she would pick up a pebble when I turned back to look at her.

It's so embarrassing to think about today's drama, I really hope that some centaur does a hit and run on me and I lose my memories of today.

Today was just bullshit. Don't worry cause I know when we go crashing down we come back every time in style but still-

I can't believe at that whiny point I actually thought of giving up on Lily. I hate my mood swings.

Like what, was I like a temporary dull witted moron or something? I'm not giving up on anything after months of hard work with such a high success rate. If stars ain't aligning I'm going to make it align. If I have no other choice but to kill, I have my katana ready. I'm really a hopeless romantic... Who knew?

Lily, I love you. I dare you to change my mind.

But the Gen-Z cupid should seriously stop shooting arrows everywhere all over the place, bro's like 24/7 drunk on something strong. If I ever catch him he's going to get brutally murdered. This cupid is just so dumb. I need to be negotiating to be exact, blacking mailing that cupid who shot all the fictional couples to draw his arrow at Lily. 

XX~𝐿𝓎𝓈𝒶𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇~XX