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𝚈𝙾𝚄 𝙳𝙸𝙳 𝙰 𝙽𝚄𝙼𝙱𝙴𝚁 𝙾𝙽 𝙼𝙴 𝙱𝚄𝚃 𝙷𝙾𝙽𝙴𝚂𝚃𝙻𝚈 𝙱𝙰𝙱𝚈 𝚆𝙷𝙾'𝚂 𝙲𝙾𝚄𝙽𝚃𝙸𝙽𝙶? 𝟷..𝟸..𝟹..

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𝐇𝐎𝐌𝐄 is literally the best invention of mankind. After writing exams and attending a VERY social event, a 12 hour nap is all that you need. Well that's what you NEED, but what I GOT was very different.

Either ways I completely forgot to mention about my 'career's advice'. Well Neville Longbottom was just utterly disappointed when he found out I was going to be a magizoologist. I mean bro, I can't tell you that I want to be a spy specialised in assassination.

I mean let's be honest, magizoologist is the best cover as both of them require a hell lotta physical work and travelling. Sometimes when I think about my future though. I feel like, doing two jobs as the same time is gonna be hectic, the main reason is beacause the Secret Wizarding World Council is not under the control of any ministry so if I work for the SWWC I won't be under the British Ministry .

Thus, I have to do two jobs at the same time to keep up the act of a normal citizen. I can just imagine myself struggling to control my sleep and being sleep deprived with barely 4 hours of sleep in a single day. BUT TWO JOBS MEAN DOUBLE THE SALARY.

THAT MEANS RICH! But is it worth giving up good sleep? Ok getting back to what was happening previously...

So apparently my little DEVIL, Lily's parents were abroad so, she came directly with us to Dorset and is staying for around 4 days with us. Well I like her but- SOMETIMES SHE'S JUST TOO ANNOYING AND SO FULL OF HERSELF.

It's been like 2 days since and Potter has been waking me up at 8:00 am. I can assure you I have no history of waking up that early on a holiday.

I was sleeping on my bed in a comfortable position with my blanket all over me tucked in. I looked at the clock, it was 8:45 am, OH YES DID SHE DIE? SHE DIDN'T WAKE ME UP. I BETTER SAVOUR EVERY SINGLE MOMENT OF SLEEP FROM NOW.

I immediately sunk into my blanket. I dozed off and then there was an aroma of tea. "SCAMANDER! BEEP! BEEP! YOUR ALARM WENT OFF!" Lily screamed. I opened my eyes annoyed and pretended to not hear her and I rolled over to the other side of the bed.

"Shut up" I groaned and she climbed up the stairs and started pulling my blanket, "WAKE UP, IT'S LATE!" She said, "GO AWAY" I said kicking on my bed like a toddler. "STOP BEING A KID!" She said as she snatched my pillow away. "FIVE MINUTES!" I begged. "GET UP!" She screamed.

"Bro, two people can't be on the top of a bunk bed get down!" I said stuffing my face on the bed to avoid the sunlight and getting rid of my sleepy eyes. YOU KNOW HOW ANNOYING IT IS WHEN YOU'RE SLEEPY BUT THE LIGHT RUINS YOUR SLEEPINESS AND YOU CAN'T SLEEP AGAIN EVEN IF YOU WANT TO.

"Are you both sleeping together?" Lorcan said. ERGHHHHHHHHH, I got annoyed and I got up and opened my eyes. There goes my sleep. I pushed Lily and got down the stairs when I hit my head on the ceiling. I NEED A SEPERATE ROOM, I CAN'T DEAL WITH THESE PEOPLE.

"Good morning Lysander" my mom greeted me as I walked through the dining room to the living room to sit on the couch and take a few moments to actually wake up from my half dead state.

I sat next to my grandpa who was watching the news. "Kids these days don't care about the news or anything, they just want to play and enjoy their lives, you know when I was sixteen I had two jobs" he complained. I CAN'T STAND LIVING WITH LITERALLY EVERYONE IN THE HOUSE BEING POLAR OPPOSITE PEOPLE.

My grandpa is a boomer mindset annoying person, my grandma is pretty ok except that she's not a big fan of anything loud and fiesty she's a godly and religious woman unlike me. My mom is just a daydreamer. My dad on the other hand is just mysterious and I have literally nothing similar to him, maybe I have his good facial features and I got a pint of his dark skin.

"Ly, can you make some pancakes for breakfast for Lorc and Lils" my mom asked. "Ah, yeah" I said, yawning. "LYLY!" Lily called me out. ESCAPE TO THE BATHROOM! I ran across the hallway and ran into the bathroom and started brushing my teeth. I spent a few minutes there and I really had a second thought on coming out.

I walked out to see Lily. "Potter stop doing this, you're not my cat or dog to be following me around" I said and continued, "LOOK! EVEN ARCTIC AND SUGARS ARE BEING GOOD" I said pointing at Arctic sleeping under my desk and Sugars on top of the wardrobe.

"I think you've spread your antisocial personality then" Lily said looking at both of them sleeping and sulking. "Sugars is always moody, she gets high every time she sees me though" I said. "I'm hungry, pancakes please!" She said tugging on my arms. I didn't even care to change my pajamas and went directly to make the batter. Maybe I should make Japanese souffle pancakes?

I scrolled through my phone looking for a good recipe. AH! I took the ingredients out and started making the batter. "Can I help?" Lily asked as she peered over my shoulders. Potter is really bored, why's she so clingy? I MEAN BECOME MINE AND I WON'T COMPLAIN! YOU COME AND FLIRT AND KISS ME BUT AT THE END YOU RUN BACK TO THAT MF, KEKE.

"Stay away from me" I groaned. OH NO WAS THAT TOO HARSH? WHAT IF SHE THOUGHT I MEANT I HATE YOU STAY AWAY FROM ME OR I'LL LITERALLY MURDER YOU?!

I quickly mixed the batter and set off the stove. I piped the batter in the piping bag and poured it on the pan. YES! IT WAS SUCCESSFUL! THE BATTER IS NOT OOZING! I quickly flipped the 2 pancakes and Served them on a plate. "They look so cute! I don't want to eat it!" Lily squealed looking at my masterpiece. "Then starve" I snapped annoyed, BRO WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME IF I'M RUDE TO HER SHE MIGHT ACTUALLY HATE ME.

"Dude! GIMME SOME!" Lorcan said as he walked in. "Lorcan, I heard rumors you're dating Hugo is it true?" Lily asked. "WHAT? That's CRAZY, no" Lorcan said freaking out. "He likes him though" I said grinning like a devil. "IF YOU WANT HELP I'M HERE! I know everything about him! He's mah fav cuzzy after all" Lily said cutely.

SHE'S SO CUTE AHHHHHH, HER LIGHT BLUE BUNNY PAJAMAS AND HER MESSY BRAID IS JUST SO CUTE AND THE WAY SHE SAID THAT IN A CUTE VOICE IS JUST- AHHHHHHHHH!

Lily took a bite of my pancake and said, "LYSANDER SCAMANDER WILL YOU MARRY ME?! PLEASE SAY YES! I NEED GOOD FOOD EVERYDAY!" She said dramatically. "I can be the officiator!" Lorcan said. "Uhm, no I don't want to get married" I said, cringing out.

"OH NO THE MARRIAGE FAILED! " Lorcan said and Lily acted like she was crying overdramatically as she ended up laughing. I feel like I'm stuck in a madhouse with idiots right now.

"I remember we used to play getting married and stuff- Those were times" Lorcan said smiling. "I really miss being so young and innocent" Lily said shaking me as she held my shoulders. "Pancakes" I said as I handed Lorcan a plate of 3 pancakes. "Can I have one more?" Lily asked. "Sure" I said as I poured more batter. "Can I have another?" Lorcan asked.

"No, you'll get fat" I snapped. "BODY SHAMER" Lily let out a gasp. "Only to Lorcan cause he deserves to be treated in such a way" I said. "Well, at least I'm more manly than you" Lorcan said. "FUCK THE PATRIARCHY!" I screamed and my mom said, "LYSANDER! WORDS!"

"You both are so funny, I wish I had a twin" Lily said. "Be careful what you wish for" Lorcan said, "WAIT YOU WANT TO GET MENTALLY TORTURED FOR THE FUN OF IT?" I asked as our words overlapped. She just giggled and smiled. "I have four brothers! I have four peasants! I'm so lucky!" Lily said as she hugged both of us. Lils, a small threat, MAKE THAT THREE BROTHERS AND MAKE ME YOUR BOYFRIEND OR I'LL CUT YOU INTO PIECES AND THROW THEM INTO OCEAN!

I made Lorcan another pancake and made myself some as we all sat at the dining table as Lorcan and Lily were talking about Quidditch. I felt so outta place and left. I munched on my pancake topped with some chocolate syrup and whipped cream.

Lorcan shortly left to meet his previous muggle school classmates and play basketball. I don't know why he's still having contact with those bitches. I'm just happy I have never ran into them, or they're gonna bring up my old nicknames like, 'burnt bacon' and 'bubbly blonde pig'.

I looked at Lily awkwardly sitting and playing with the fork she ate with. "Ly, do you love someone?" She asked. "What do you think?" I asked by straightening my eyebrows. OH SHIT DID SHE CATCH ME STARING AT HER IN CLASS OR SOMETHING?

"Either way, I think it's time to bring up the topic of what blabbered the night we got" she said and leaned closer to me and whispered, "Drunk". "We should take this to the room" I said as both of us left our plates at the sink and walked to the abandoned rooftop room which was dusty and was barely used. It just had old books and all of our old toys and clothes.

Both of us got ourselves a dusty chair and sat for the interrogation. We faced each other and I tried so hard to look into her eyes but every time I looked into her eyes my heart started aching. Dear heart, I just have a simple question. WHY HER? WHY DOESN'T IT HAVE TO BE MY BEAUTIFUL, CRAZY CHILDHOOD FRIEND.

"So?" Lily asked in a low voice. "You told me you're a slut" I said dramatically. "WHAT? I MUST HAVE BEEN REALLY HIGH, I KNOW I'M NOT A SLUT. I have only one person I like and that's MY KEKE" Lily said blushing with her cheeks flustered. MY URGE TO FIND KERES AND MURDER HIM. "You also said you're not completely over me" I said with a slick and straight face.

"Ehh, I was drunk. I did something hasty plus I was mad at Keres for dancing with Aurelia and hanging out with her, so I thought of the next guy I love, I love you like a brother and not romantically. You're just not my type" she said. I DON'T CARE IF SHE LIKES ME OR NOT, IF SHE DOESN'T LOVE ME I'LL MAKE HER LOVE ME. BUT SERIOUSLY HOW AM I NOT YOUR TYPE WHAT DO I LACK?

"You said you feel like you're betrayed your bitchy boyfriend" I said with a tint of rage after she BROTHER ZONED ME AGAIN. COME ON LYSANDER DON'T LOSE YOUR COOL, YOUR LOVE IS JUST PAINFUL LIKE LIFE.

"Again, I was drunk so-" she started and I cut her off and said, "Why are you explaining yourself?" I asked with a wide smirk. "Do you think I care if you like me or not? It's not going to make a difference. Explaining yourself is just making me wonder how madly you're in love with me" I said in a low voice slowly guilt tripping her with my manipulative voice and eyes.

"I-" she started and she was at a loss for words. "You just keep proving yourself that you're in love with me, look at you stuttering and-" I was saying with my cruel eyes and she said, "I don't love you, I think you're the one in love with me" she said with confidence. "HA! ME?" I asked in a cruel voice as I made her jump. At this moment I felt so into my 'hating on Lily act' that I forgot that I actually love her.

I moved my chair closer and came closer to her. Our knees touched and I leaned on her with my face over her shoulder as I placed my hand on her chest and felt her heartbeat, it was suffering from my warth of love, just as I expected. I gave a smile of accomplishment and whispered,

"Potter"I said as my cheeks was tickled by her soft strawberry curls,

"Your heart"

"Are you sick or something? Why is your heart beating so hard and fast for me?" I asked her in a quiet voice. I really wanted to kiss her neck right now but she's still playing boyfriend-girlfriend with Keres.

She held my shirt and pushed my chest away from hers, harshly. "Stop your games, you can manipulate the world all you want. I'll never fall for it" she said in an annoyed tone. "What if you've already fallen?" I asked.

"You're talking like some old fortune teller priest guy" Lily said as she yawned. "I'll be honest, if we're destined together. I hope to get a good taste of you. In general though I love Keres. I'll always love him more than I'll ever love you for sure" she said.

THIS IS THE PART WHERE KERES IS SUPPOSED TO GET IN A GETAWAY CAR AND DIE IN AN ACCIDENT AND JUST FUCK FROM THE WORLD. KERES! BABY! ARE YOU DEAD YET?!

"So overall I didn't say anything concerning right?" Lily asked. "To be honest, I don't remember shit after you spiked me" I said. "Did we do anything umm, wrong, non-elite?" She asked hesitantly. "By the look on your face you really seem like you want to find out that we kissed or slept together" I said trying to hold back my giggles. Lily turned red and slapped my face. I'm never touching that cheek again. I want her handprint in my soul.

"NO IDIOT! CAN YOU LIKE SHUT UP! WHY ARE YOU LIKE SO FUCKING HIGH? DID YOU DRINK?" Lily screamed at my face. 'I get so high, oh every time you're, every time you're lovin' me, You're lovin' me' my mind sang.

Lily is such an entertaining person to talk to, I love her cute over dramatic reactions and the way she scolds me and swears at me. They way she despises me with her love and despise my crude humor. She's just everything you could ever want. I get butterflies every time our eyes meet and every time the concept of love comes up.

"I'm bored, can we play that video game we were playing yesterday?" She asked as she got up and stretched herself. "Why? Do you have an obsession for to losing to me?" I asked. "No, I just want to win ONCE!" She said with her cute puffy cheeks and her pink cheeks. WHY DOES SHE LOOK SO CUTE, SHE'S KILLING ME WITH HER CUTENESS.

We both went to the living room and I turned on the Nintendo Switch. "Mario Kart?" I asked. "YES!" She said in a determined way as she clutched on to the controller.

We played around five-six rounds and she just kept losing, at this point I was bored of winning. "Can we at least play another game?" I asked, exhausted. "NO JUST ONCE MORE!" She said and we started playing. I was in first place again with Lily right behind me. I rolled my eyes and then Lily snatched my controller and threw it across the hall. "HA! GO PICK IT UP!" Lily said. "CHEATER!" I said as I ran to grab my controller and get to track as soon as possible.

"SHIT SHIT SHIT" I muttered. Lily was 1st place and I was 7th! AND BOOM! SHE CROSSED THE FINISH LINE. "YAYYYYYYY I WON!!!" Lily said as she celebrated. "You cheated!" I said. "No one knows that except you" she said as she laughed.

It was nice to see her smile. The soft folding of her cheek and her pearly white teeth with her soft lips. I gave a soft smile, it was nice seeing her so excited even though I lost. Last time I lost to her I was really mad at myself and I vowed to hate her and here I am, deceiving people and manipulating her to love me.

I admired her smile and happiness in the silence of my mind. She's so pretty and vibrant. She's like the stars and the moon and I'm like the night sky. Together we're like a perfect combination of salt and sweet.

She looked at me and I looked back at her with my sleepy eyes. I want her. I really can't hold back. My hands are sweating, my heart is killing me. Her soft smile, her lips, her heartbreaking glare, her lashes I WANT IT. I want to feel her.

I got a feeling of heavy heartedness. She was so close, yet so far away. She suddenly held my shoulders and shook me and said, "You ok? You seemed zoned out, are you sad that I won? Well, you should be" she said.

I want to tell her it's been a long six months and I've been trying to point at directions to my heart but she keeps getting lost, I feel like it's about time I pick her up. But I'm- I'm not sure- Maybe it's all too quick? I found myself lost and Lily said, "HEY! Are you alive? Dude, its just a game your life isn't over"

"Lil-" I started, is this my time to confess? No, it's just too rushed and the possibility of getting rejected is way too high. I have to work more, I have to be patient. "Dude, stop acting all weird! You won ok? I cheated" she declared. "It's not that" I started as I ran my fingers down her curtain bangs.

I felt a sudden tension in the atmosphere. We both seemed to be glued into each other's glance. I don't understand why it's so hard for both of us to get together. We both love each other and yet something is just barricading us.

A silence bestow the house and we were in the couch beaming at each other waiting for the one of us to make a move. We moved closer and I think we're having a moment right now. I could feel the heavy beats of my heart and I felt ears drums pop due to the silence. Her green eyes and my icy blue gray ones melting into one another.

You did a number on me, honestly who's counting? Please just take me as one of them until I get satisfied. I can be your seventh.

"LYSANDER!" My grandpa called out. THAT OLD MAN! Me and Lily immediately moved away from each other, her cheeks were a fit flustered and she got up and left. "LYSANDER ALEXANDER SCAMANDER!" He called me out in his annoying voice. "WHAT?" I asked him in rage. "DON'T GIVE ME THAT ATTITUDE AND GET ME SOME WATER!" He screamed.

THAT OLD HAG. I angrily got up and gave him his water and said, "DON'T BE SURPRISED IF I'M SINGLE FOREVER" I screamed at him in a way Lily wouldn't be able to hear.

"What?" He asked confusedly as I walked out of his room. I didn't see Lily after that incident till like the evening when she and my mom went on a girls ice fishing trip together. Hope the weather isn't too rash. It's such a shame I'm a guy or I could have gone with them.

I was just bored after that incident, I kept thinking about it and I couldn't even focus on reading a book or watching something on Netflix. I was just waiting to get a word with her. I laze around playing with my dog in my room and I gave him a nice and warm bath.

I walked around the house like a mad person and every time I walked across a beam I jumped and touched it and thought about how I'm going to make Lily mine.

I have to really get this off my desk and off my chest. O.W.L.s is approaching and it doesn't matter how smart I am, I shouldn't get distracted and I should focus. If I want to focus I need to get rid of Keres. I need to wrap up this stupid drama!

I was lying on the sofa listening to music when my mom and Lily walked in like eskimos from Antarctica with snow all over them. "That was fun genuinely!" Lily said as she took out her jacket and her boots and she hopped on the sofa next to me.

She placed her ears on my headphones and asked, "What are you listening to?"

"How to execute a perfect murder" I lied to her. "Sounds bout right" she said, smiling. HOW IS SHE ACTING AS IF NOTHING HAPPENED? AM I THE ONE THINKING OF THIS AS A BIG DEAL? IS IT ACTUALLY PRETTY NORMAL TO LIKE DO THAT AND HAVE MOMENTS? AM I THE ONE OVER HYPING AND EXAGGERATING?

Later, I saw her call Keres from the landline and exchange a few hearty words which WILL COST HIS LIFE ONCE I SEE HIM AT HOGWARTS AGAIN.

I didn't talk to her for the rest of the day. I laid on my bed looking at the ceiling and thinking about what I could have done. Why am I overreacting? What if she knows I like her and she's doing this to get back at me or something? Did I make it too obvious that I like her?

What's the possibility that she knows? What if she actually hates me now? I just- can't do this-

I walked outside in the middle of the night to drink some water. I looked at Lily who was also in the kitchen, drinking water. OH NO, THIS REMINDS ME OF WHAT HAPPENED IN CHRISTMAS EVE A YEAR AGO.

It's so hard to believe that we had a hesitant so called kiss a year ago, it seemed like yesterday. "Hey Ly" she said. "I just hope there is no mistletoe around here" I chuckled. OH NO I MADE THE CONVERSATION AWKWARD. Lily awkwardly chuckled. "Well, it's fine cause I don't believe in that anymore" she said.

"Hm" I said awkwardly. I feel like digging a hole on the ground, crawling into it and dying right now. This is so awkward and bad.

"Ly" she said. "Yeah?" I asked. "I think it's better if we maintain a distance, let's set boundaries maybe?" She asked. My heart dropped, my world seemed dark, there goes my rejection. No wait am I just overreacting?

She seemed saddened too. I hid my heavy heart and said, "Boundaries? Like you're going to follow them. It's a waste" I said nonchalantly.

"Ly, I like Keres and I don't want you in my way" she said.

I TELEPORTED MY WORLD OF HELL AND CHAOS. I GRABBED AN IMAGINARY KATANA. KERES? YOU LIKE KERES? I think it's time I show you what I'm capable of. Keres you say?

I just planned the perfect birthday gift for you MY LOVELY SWEET LILY LUNA POTTER.

I SWEAR I'M SO CHILL BUT YOU MAKE ME JEALOUS. I'LL GET BACK I SWEAR, I'LL TORTURE YOU WITH MY LOVE.

THIS IS SO CRINGE... I SHOULD REALLY STOP OVERREACTING BUT I JUST GET SO HIGH...

XX~𝐿𝓎𝓈𝒶𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇~XX