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June 10, 2023. Today was Lily Luna Potter's birthday. Why does it matter? Cause I was one of the unlucky members who got invited to her birthday party. I haven't been talking with her much lately. Mostly because she never talks to me anymore, she's too busy with Keres.

Either way, the Quidditch finale took place yesterday and it ended in the victory of Gryffindors after THE GREAT LILY LUNA POTTER CAUGHT THE GOLDEN SNITCH. Well, now we are topping the in points so we Gryffindors have a solid chance this year on the house cup.

Today was a Saturday so half-day classes had just finished and all of us were resting in our dorms.

"I'm just going to get her chocolate frogs and a birthday card" Val said. "I made some strawberry cupcakes, that'll settle it" Jared said. "I DON'T KNOW BRO, I GOT HER NAIL POLISH. DOES SHE EVEN USE THAT? I HEARD GIRLS LIKE IT" Hugo wailed.

"Good for me and Lorcan, our mom got a gift for her and told us to give it to her '' I said casually stretching in my bed. "What is it?" Lorcan said, shaking the giftbox and trying to figure out what it was. "Don't shake it, it's heavy, it might be something fragile" I said confesticating the blue wrapped gift box from Lorcan.

"Must be hell to see your crush going out with Keres" Val said. Jared gave a weird expression which made me laugh. "Oh yeah, it's terrible you know, I'm going to kill him in front of everyone" I said sarcastically, smiling.

I don't know but I feel so drifted away from Lily and it's making me feel vengeful. I don't know why. I feel so confused and weird. For some reason I don't like her under the influence of Keres. It's changing her. I don't understand why I care.

"We better get ready, it's 5:48 pm already, you guys take so much time to get ready and the party's at 6:00" Jared. "Let's be brutally honest its gonna start at 7:00 due to delays for sure" Hugo said. I don't know why but I feel that Hugo has gotten smarter, maybe under Rose's influence?

Speaking of Rose, I can't believe Scorose is an actual thing now. I mean it even got featured in many tabloids. So much drama happened surrounding the whole Weasley-Malfoy relationship though. Ron Weasley wasn't a really big fan of it and that drama is still ongoing.

I went to my closet and took out my aesthetic black hoodie with 'reputation' written on it and my dark blue ripped jeans. I had a whole change in my wardrobe because I grew like a troll. I'm like 5'10 feet now and last year I was still stuck at like 5'4.5 feet.

All my clothes now are oversized with the expectation that I'll be growing into them. Hopefully that happens, I'll be more than happy to gain a few more inches so I can reach 6 feet.

I went to the bathroom and changed into my clothes. I looked at myself in the mirror for less than 10 seconds. I always take a look at myself rarely and even if I do look at myself in the mirror it would not be for more than 10 seconds cause then I'll start feeling insecure of how I look. Ok I have no right to complain about my appearance. I'm good looking but still- it's human nature to never be happy with what you have and always drowning in the sense of greed.

I styled my hair and wore that stupid lockhet that Lily had given me on Christmas eve. "I'm ready" I said as I entered back into my dorm to see a view of Lorcan stripping his shirt off and Val putting on his pants.

"Guys have some decency and change in the bathroom" I said looking away. "I'm just lazy" Lorcan said. "Bro, I'm like not even a girl, I'm your freaking twin. Why are you flexing your muscles to me?" I questioned him. "To show my progress" Lorcan said, smirking.

"Disgusting" Jared commented. He was also dressed up in his navy shirt matching his eyes and gray jeans matching his dirty worn out decathlon shoes.

"I've been working out lately" Val announced. "You're still look like a scarecrow with clothes on" Lorcan said. "Body shamer" I said gasping. Lorcan came next to me and tried to pull up my hoodie but I resisted. "BRO ARE YOU CRAZY WHY DID YOU TRY STRIPPING ME YOU, YOU PERVERT, MOLESTER! THIS IS SEXUAL HARASSMENT" I screamed falling back.

"I just wanted to see if you made any progress with your body" Lorcan said. "CREEP!" I said as I hid behind Jared. "Lorcan, get a hold of yourself" Jared said, frowning. "I'm too lazy to go to the gym or do any physical activity. I'm such a couch potato who eats a lot but can't gain weight"  Hugo sighed.

"Can we talk about something else?" I said as I sat on Val's bed. "I feel insecure about everything these days, I feel so unwanted and excluded. I just don't like being left out" Hugo said. "I would pay people to leave me alone but I'm broke" I said.

"What are you insecure of?" Jared the mother, therapist, counselor asked. "Everything, I'm just not good enough. I don't have looks, I don't have skills, I don't have any excellent academic achievements either '' he said sadly.

"STOP WHINING LIKE A GIRL" Lorcan said, slapping Hugo's butt. "I'm so sleepy cause this conversation is like URGHHH" Val said as he lay down on my lap. "Hey baby" I said as I slid my fingers through his hair. "Did I ever tell you how pretty you are?" Val said, squinting his eyes. I was just playing along with him acting like his girlfriend.

"Love ya" I said as I leaned on him for a kiss but of course I immediately pulled away. "Tskkkk, I can't handle your bromance. Can we just go? It's getting late" Jared said. "We're already like 20 minutes late" Hugo said as he combed his hair looking at the mirror, "My pimples are bad" he commented.

"You know what, this won't do" Jared said as he pushed us out of the room one by one and locked the dorm. "Uh, the gift is still inside" Lorcan said. "You keep walking, I'll take it and  catch up" Jared said.

All of us started walking away as Jared ran back behind us running with Lily's gifts. Then suddenly I gave a shudder. Keres is definitely gonna be there. I entered the classroom in which the party was getting hosted. It was bright! Very lively and loud.

"Oh my god! HIIII!" Lily exclaimed as she hugged Hugo who was next to me and then she gave a hug to Lorcan and Val. Jared stopped with a handshake and I just ignored her and turned my face away when she came to greet me.

"Lysan- '' she started and I walked away. Why do I hate her so much? I can't even look at her face. I walked towards the chocolate fountain and took a skewer and poked it into a strawberry and dipped it in the chocolate. How fancy, money can really buy you everything. I ate the strawberry and took a bite. ERGH IT WAS SO SOUR. WHY AM I EATING STRAWBERRIES ANYWAYS I HATE STRAWBERRIES.

"Hey" said a male voice as he tapped my shoulders. I looked beside me and it was Keres with his curly hair styled neatly as his eyes shone in the warm white lighting. "Having fun?" He asked, smiling. "I just came" I replied back with sass. "You look good, I hope I grow as tall as you" he said as he playfully tiptoed to reach my height. I felt so uncomfortable on the way he was behaving. SO EXTROVERTED AND INDECENT AND IMMATURE.

"Yeah" I said awkwardly as I tried to walk away from him but he kept catching up to me. "You're really good looking" he said. Wait, is Keres gay? And he's trying to get close to me using Lily??? Guys usually compliment each other only sarcastically but this guy seemed serious. Oh gosh my mind keeps getting unhinged as every day passes.

"You don't talk much do you?" He asked. "No" I replied, trying to lose him. "I'm jealous of you" he said as his voice got serious. Wow I'm capable of making someone jealous without me even trying. I wonder why he's jealous of me. No one here even knows me well enough to be jealous of me.

"When me and Lily used to be just friends she would always talk about you and tell how much she loved you and I loved her so much you know, you're just everything I'm insecure about" he said. I didn't know how to react. For some reason my blood pressure shot up but my expression was still blank.

"But that doesn't matter anymore right? Cause-" he said as he leaned closer to me and said, "I won".

He was wrong, right? How can he win if I never fought this great war? He was fighting a battle without an opponent right? But for some reason a sudden feeling of heaviness, failure, disappointment rushed over me. My heart beats, the blood blowing through my brain, an adrenaline rush. I could feel them all through my body. One part of me whispered, 'you lost', 'you're not good enough'. How, just how? How did I lose? How would I lose if I never fought?

I don't love Lily, I never did or maybe, that's what I want to believe. What if I actually love her without realizing it? Am I just shutting myself out? Am I shutting off my feeling because I'm afraid to admit it? Maybe I did realize I love her but  I- I- I'm so confused.

"Hey" Keres said as he waved his hand in front of my eyes. "You zoned out" he said, smiling.

"I'll be honest, I'm not one of your well wishers but that doesn't mean I love Lily" I said clearing my mind. "You can keep running behind girls when I run behind building a story you can't" I continued as I smirked.

"What do you mean?" He asked innocently as he changed his face back to a baby face. Is he bipolar?

"Either way, have fun" he said as he walked away as he joined his friends. "Ly!" Lorcan called me. I walked towards him and he said, "We have to give Lily her gift" he said. "Ok" I said blandly. "Lils!" Lorcan called her over from a crowd.

Lily walked quickly towards us with her copper dark red hair bouncing off her shoulder with some curls falling on her forehead. Her flutterly lavender dress with flower patterns glistening in the lighting. She was prettier than usual.

"Yes?" She asked, smiling. "Happy birthday Lils!" Lorcan said as he handed it to her. "Its from both me and Lys" he said. I pretended to look away when she took a peak at me. "Ly- '' she started when I cut her off and said, "Happy birthday" looking at her eyes, her deep green emerald eyes just like the emerald waters of florida.

"Thanks" she said smiling as she walked away. "Ly, you're melting on her" Lorcan said giggling. "Shut up, no" I snapped at him. "Ok, at this point I don't even wanna argue" Lorcan said as he went to join the rest of the gang.

I followed him like a puppy and after I saw Jared I hid behind him. I have no idea why but I feel more happy and safe when I'm hidden behind someone in a public place with so many people.

"CAKE CUTTING TIME!" Keres announced. We all gathered around in an irregular crooked arc around her as Diana came and placed a three tier blackcurrant cake. I prefer chocolate personally but I'm not complaining.

Everyone started screeching, 'Happy Birthday to you' in the most unhinged manner. My usage of unhinged keeps going up as day passes. After putting Lily in that awkward situation she blew the candles as she cut the cake followed by a range of claps.

She fed the cake to Diana first and then Michelle and finally that bitchy boy Keres. I'm just happy she chose her friends over than bitch. After Lily had fed Keres the cake, he took some part of that cake and fed her and after exchanging a sweet smile which I ABSOLUTELY DESPISE, they pulled in for a kiss. BRO WHERE IS THE CAMERA JAMES NEEDS TO KNOW ABOUT THIS.

I IMMEDIATELY SNATCHED THE POLOROID CAMERA FROM Tasmeen Creevy and took a perfect shot. I HAVE SCOPE IN BECOMING A PAPARAZZI!

I took the hardcopy of the photo and stuffed it in my pocket. YOU THREATENED ME FOR OVER A YEAR WITH THAT BOWTRUCKLE PHOTO POTTER NOW SEE HOW I'M GONNA BLACKMAIL YOU.

I duplicated the photo using magic and gift wrapped one. Maybe this can be the PERSONAL BLACKMAILING GIFT I CAN GIVE HER.

After the crowd around her dispersed for dinner, I approached her and handed her the gift wrapped photo. "Consider it a gift personally from me" I said as I gave an evil smile. "I don't like that smile, you sure its not something uhh questionable" she asked me.

"Well open it and see if you want, i'll be sending a copy to James by the way" I said I beamed at her with that cruel innocent smile on my face. "You're not done being a bitch to me yet?" She asked as she unwrapped the gift.

"I haven't even started baby" I said flirtily. "Wait, did you drink lemonade?" She asked me. "No, why? Do you think I'm high?" I asked. "Bingo!" She said as she looked at the photo. "It's a nice photo but if you send it to James I'll murder you on the Hogwarts express" she said.

"I don't mind dying, I've been trying to kill myself but my ego won't allow it, my ego keeps whispering, 'You're better than death'" I said with a plesent smile with my eyes brodened.

"Look, what did I ever do to you Scamander?" Lily asked. "Somewhere in the haze, I feel like I have been betrayed" I said. "Betrayed?" She questioned. "Christmas eve, two weeks later you're with another guy" I said with a grin. "It's not like you actually loved me back. Did you?" Lily asked as she rolled her eyes.

"Did I love you? Maybe I did and perhaps you ruined your chances by not giving me time" I said in a frightening way with my eyes wide open slightly leaning towards her.

"Ar- Are you crazy?" Lily asked me with fear glowing in her eyes. "You change boys like clothes, right?" I asked with a chuckle. "Look-" she started. "Breakup with him and join me" I said. I don't know why I'm doing this. I just want her to feel bad for getting together with Keres.

Lily's eyes widened in blankness. I could feel her sinking in I don't know what, just deep darkness and fear in her green eyes, her hair was not glowing like fire anymore. The atmosphere felt so dense.

"Did I scare you? I was just kidding" I whispered as I got close to her face and gave her the SMILE.

Keres came behind her and patted her shoulders. Lily hugged him and closed her eyes. "We meet again" he said. "Why'd you talk so much, it's such an unattractive trait for a guy, she might leave you for someone better, but not as good as me" I said and I walked away with a smile of accomplishment. OH SHIT WHAT I DID SOUNDS SO DRAMATIC AND CRINGE. URGHHHH I SHOULD STOP THINKING I'M A HERO OF SOME STORY.

Anyways at the end of the day, I think I made Lily feel inferior and apparently Keres is jealous of me. This is perfect. Mission accomplished. I'm like the great villain of their perfect love story.

I don't know why, I'm just not going to let them be happy. I don't like them being happy. I might be sadist but I have my reasons. I'm a stuck up and I wanted some time to make my feelings towards Lily clear, I wasn't given time. So, I'm not going to give them anytime for happiness too.

There are many ways to kill a person you love and the best way is to not love them enough. Ok I won't say I love Lily but still, she's like a sibling.

The birthday party came to an end and my mood was so up for 'Midnights' songs by Taylor Swift  so I played them on repeat till like 12:00 am until Val threatened me to break my record player.

I don't know why, I feel like I've just entered my villain arc and this ain't for the best...

XX~𝐿𝓎𝓈𝒶𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇~XX