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Well yes, my family did recover from my great grandpa's passing but we decided to not celebrate Christmas this year beacuse of his recent passing as a symbol of mourning. But the Potters invited me and Lorcan to spend Christmas with them this year so yeah, I'm currently in that madhouse.

Today was Christmas eve also known as boxing day, the 24th of December.

All of us were wearing the all famous Weasley sweaters knitted by grandma Molly. The snow was like cute fluffy balls falling from the sky. The weather was pleasent. I love the cold so, it's kind of my favourite time to the year.

Parks were crowded filled with lovers. Merry time jingles playing and all the church candles glowing filled with sleepless nights of jolly. The smell of freshly baked cake evading the air along with a delish feast of roasted potatoes and chicken. Families getting together after all that running for a year.

Houses gleaming with glowing LEDs accompanied by some crazy messed up decorations on the trees in the front yard. Ironic.

I just finished eating Lunch and I was inside the Potter manor all warmed up and cozy in my sweater and fluffy socks. A black weasley sweater with a silver 'L' written in it.

James and Albus were incharge of the decorations outside the house and me, Lily and Lorcan were incharge of the indoor decorations and aunt Ginny and Harry Potter was incharge of the cooking and wrapping presents.

"Its so beautiful isn't it" Lily commented as she hung some stockings above the fireplace. "To be brutally honest, we don't do much for Christmas. We just eat good food. All these decoration and stuff just seem a bit too much of a hard work" Lorcan said. "I don't remember the last time we had a proper good looking well lit up christmas tree" I said as I wrapped some LEDs around the christmas tree.

"Well, I'm just happy that I get to spend Christmas with you both, its usually quite boring when you don't have someone who is your age group" Lily said with a pleasent smile. Is it just me suddenly noticing her smiles or is she smiling more often?

"We should invite the guys over to our house during summer holidays" Lorcan said. "I don't think Jared's parents are going to let him fly all the way from France and Val's probably going to visit his grandparents in Spain like evrey other holiday" I said as I hung some decorations above the fireplace.

"URGHHH" James came in covered with snow. Albus as usual stayed aloof as he ran back up to his room. "You look like a 6 foot snowman" Lorcan commented laughing. "I would rather just stay back for practising professional Quidditch rather than you know decorate the house with lights" James said letting out a sigh.

"Just use magic" Lorcan said. "Look pal we can't be doing magic in the city of London where its always loaded and lively with muggles" James said. "Oh" Lorcan said and went back to decorating.

"Take a break kids" aunt Ginny announced as she brought some half-burnt fresh baked chocolate chip cookies with some milk. "It's a little burnt" she said as she placed them on the tea-table as we jumped onto the baby blue couch.

"A little burnt?" James asked sarcastically as he picked up a cookie and inspected it as he took a bite. "It's actually better than usual" he commented as he took a second bite. Lily was already half way through her second cookie. Me and Lorcan picked one up and took a bite. Oh yes, it was a little sour but managable. "You bake better cookies" Lorcan whispered into my ears. "Wow, so you're finally greatful for it?" I said.

"Can I make some butter cookies aunt Ginny?" I asked her as I dipped my cookie into a glass of milk to get rid of the sourness. "Oh please, you don't need to" she insisted. "But I really want to, I'm kind of bored of decorating perhaps I can help you in the kitchen?" I requested. "Only butter cookies nothing more" aunt Ginny said.

Aunt Ginny was the typical, 'cool aunt' everyone wants. She is a the reason I got trained by a professional Quidditch player (She used to play for Holyhead Harpies, so she trained taught me how to play Quidditch). She's just so cool.

"Just call me if you need anything" she said as she turned towards the stairs and screamed, "ALBUS SEVERUS POTTER! COME OUT OF YOUR ROOM! AND SPEND SOME TIME WITH US!"

Time passed. I made some delicious butter cookies, a secret recipe from my grandma of course. It was good. I could have added more sugar though. I got lovely comments for my cookies and I loved every word uttered.

By 7:00 pm we had finished all the cooking and decorating. Such a shame that me and Lorcan had to be a big interuption in the Potter's Christmas family time. It was just awkward being in the middle of a family dinner as strangers.

We all seated ourselves at the table and Harry Potter spoke up first, "So how's everything going? School and everything." "Good" Lily said as she dug into her food. "Well I honestly think I might have a chance in the leagues next year" James announced proudly. "Oh! That's great! So proud of you James, I'm just happy that you found your place in the world" aunt Ginny said calmingly.

"You should have a back up though" Harry said grumpily chewing on his food as he ruined the mood. "I've decided to become an auror" Lily announced suddenly. "You aspire to work like a slave for the head of the department your whole life sounds fun" James said laughing. Ok I gotta take James's side this time. I gave him a good high five as I chuckled.

"What have you decided Lysander?" Aunt Ginny asked. I'm gonna become a spy but I can't say that so I'll have to lie. "Magizoologist mostly, just following the family footsteps" I said with an awkward smile. "That doesn't suit your personality at all" Lily replied. "My secret money making job will be assasinating people" I whispered into her ears. "Makes sense" she replied.

Well, to be honest the reason I want to be a spy is not cause of all that world peace and good stereotype 1950s shit. The real reason is cause it's fun to fool people and solve cases with fighting scenes which seem straight out of a movie AND your salary if you're a high class spy would be better than that of the minister of magic so that's GOOD money. AND I LOVE MONEY.

"Lorcan?" Aunt Ginny asked. "I don't know to be honest, I guess I'll just go with the flow and figure things out" he said chuckling. I don't think Harry liked that answer much.

The picture then turned to Albus with his untidy jet black hair and bottle green eyes. "I'm probably going to start a buisness" he said. "That's a good choice" Harry said.  YO! Did Potter just say that's good? Nah, he probably just told it cause Albus is in the verge of depression alredy.

We quietly ate dinner as we munched through some greens and chewed through potatoes and chicken and it was delicious. Harry get 50 points for Gryffindor for this food!

I don't know why, Christmas never seemed to amuse me. The only thing I ever cared about is the gifts and food, nothing else to be honest. It just seems like another dull day with the people around you being excited for no reason.

We finished dinner after half and hour while discussing some small and general topics. It was around 7:48pm when we finished cleaning up the tables. Around 8:00pm we were all gathered in the living room to watch some special Christmas T.V. Programmes which were indeed boring. I couldn't help but stand up every now and then and walk around the house for no reason.

By the time the second programme started I couldn't keep up with my patience. I gave a lame excuse of being hungry so I got permission to make some popcorn for all of us. I walked to the kitchen and rattled up the whole place trying to find the kernels and butter. I took the paper bag and started uhhh... am I supposed say microwaving the popcorn or popping the popcorn? Whatever, no one cares.

I stood there for 10 minutes as I saw the kernels pop. To be honest this was way more entertaining than those stupid programmes. I took the popcorn out and added to salt and some Pepper as I put them into a serving bowl and I went back to the living room.

The programme ended at around 9:00 pm and what a huge relief it was for my mental health. So, the major drawback here was that the Potter's bedtime was like 9:30pm and my bedtime was 12:00am so I get like 3.5 hours of pure joy sponsered by my phone.

Me and Lorcan went to bed and lied down. It was new for us to sleep in beds side by side cause we were used to the bunk beds in our room. I took my phone out and went into youtube, then I relised that I just clicked the cringiest app and exited it immediately as I logged in into Netflix. Should I re-watch any movie or anime? I scrolled through netflix.

This is the worst part of watching a movie. There are so many options that you don't know what to watch and you waste like half an hour trying to select. After around 20 minutes I got fed up and got up to drink water. "Where are you going?" Lorcan asked. "Water" I replied as I walked out.

I walked into the kitchen and took made some hotwater from the electric kettle. "Hey" Lily said as she popped above my shoulders. I turned back and saw her. "What?" I asked. "Ly" she called and I poured the hot water into a glass and started walking. I was halfway across the livinroom when she obstructed my path. I took a sip of my water and repeated myself, "WHAT?"

"You borrowed by gloves never returned it, I need to put them for a wash" she said. "Why are you acting like its a big deal?" I asked. "Also" she said looking away from me as her cheeks turned from rosy pink to a light shade of red. She handed me a gift. I took it from her. "Do I open it?" I asked. "Your choice" she said as she blushed profusely.

"Thanks I guess" I said and we just stared at eachother. Her dark green emeralds shone in the LED lights with her black sweater brought her dark red hair out. Her face turned a bit confident and she took a step closer to me and she tip toed, I could feel her warm breathe on my neck. My heart went crazy.

"LyLy, mistletoe" she whispered into my ears. I looked up and saw a mistletoe on the chistmas tree slightly to the right. "Wanna search for nargles?" I asked her jokingly as I smiled. I placed my hot water which was now warm on top of a table. I unwrapped the gift and I opened the box, I was a locket. I opened it and it was a black and white sketch of me. "Cute" I commented.

Lily smiled. She wanted to say something but something seemed to choke her. "I'll bring the gloves" I said as I turned halfway and she turned me back to my original postion. "It's bad luck if we don't kiss" she muttered looking at me with a pinch of hesitation.

"I'll suffer from badluck I don't mind" I replied. "It-it's not only about you" she stuttered. My palms turned sweaty. "Lil-" I started and she took a step closer.

I could feel her breath on my collar bone. She looked at me and I looked at her eyes, twinkling in confusion and embarassment. Her strawberry curls falling on her shoulders and some on her forehead and eyes. She looked different. She was no longer the little girl who was reckless. She's a fiesty and outgoing tomboy but- it just hits different seeing a DELICATE side of her.

I swallowed some saliva and I slowly placed my hands behind her neck as I bit my lips and pulled her closer as I looked down at her. I moved closer, she pulled herself too. We were plastered to each other. I can't be doing this. Chills ran down my spine.

Her emerald ocean eyes that I was sinking into meanwhile her getting frozen and clouded by by icy grey blue eyes.

I closed my eyes I bend down slighltly to reach her height she took a step back but I closed the gap and my nose brushed against hers.

Heavy breathing, her sweet smelling hair our lashes clashing like ocean waves. Her hesitant tremebling cotton candy lips got close. Her copper hair heterogeneously mixing with my golden hair. Just a few millimeters away. OH GOSH THE TENSION. ITS JUST...

Lily tangled her fingers with the hand I was holding the lockhet she had given me.

After all the hesitation and lingering over each other's close precence for over a minute, both of us slowly closed our eyes with hesitation and just for a fraction of a second I felt a faint brush of her soft baby pink lips on mine. It was- I don't know it's just too hard to express in words. You can only feel this feeling.

A slight sense of joy peppered with embrassement, excitement and salted with fear and confusion and finally seasoned with teenage pretulance.

Likewise the first time I didn't know whether to classify this as a kiss or not.

She pushed me backwards as I fell on the table and the glass of water spilled over me but my amazing reflexs caught the glass before it hit the floor. Before I could raise my head to see Lily's status, she was gone.

I took the empty glass and left it on the table. I went back to my room and there stood there ghosted. "Drank water for 15 minutes?" Lorcan asked. "Bumped into Lily on the way" I replied as I switched off the lights and jumped into my bed.

I vigoruously put the bedsheets over me and rolled in my bed. I clutched on tight to the locket that she gave and looked at it. I couldn't help but thinking of what just happened between me and Lily. It's just so disturbing but- exciting and weird at the same time. URGH I HATE THIS FEELING.

EVERY STEP CLOSER. EVERYTIME WE TOUCHED. OUR LASHES. OUR EYES. OUR ROSY CHEEKS AND HER COTTON CANDY LIPS.

I usually don't like the pronouns such as 'our' and 'us' but here I am.

THIS IS JUST FRUSTRATING.

I rolled around in by bed like a madperson. Everytime I shut my eyes, I hear her heavy breath and the scent of her hair. The feel of her nose on my mine and her lips.

FUCK...

"Lysander can you stop rolling on the bed it's meaking weird creaking noises"

XX~𝐿𝓎𝓈𝒶𝓃𝒹𝑒𝓇~XX