I wanna start off by saying, i'm not gonna be 100% active again (lmao au contraire), but also MY WATTPAD IS IN SPANISH AND I CANT CHANGE IT

LOOK:

im going insane. Chrome can't translate it, i am on wattpad.COM and my chrome's automatic language is norwegian. My wattpad has used to be in English, but not now, oh no, senior.

I don't even take spanesh, i take french.

Ok anyway, i just wanted to do yet another # life update. i know, nobody cares, but whatever, this is my book okay.

So; my life is slowly becoming more and more hectic. Which is good, don't misunderstand me, having something to do is a good thing, and being social is a good thing, and not wasting all my time down in the basement on the computer is a good thing.

I have finally fully integrated into a group of friends. I think i mentioned this last time, that I was struggling with maintaining friends and feeling like a had a foot inside every group, but nowhere entirely or permanently (that sentence made no sense, but you get the gist of it.) But yes, I can count being added to the two groupchats, the instagram group and the snapchat group as being "part of the squad". Though I felt like I was intruding, but i'm slowly but surely getting used to it. Like, I was invited to a birthday party for the first time in ages, hello? Social anxiety who? Nah jk it's still there and ever as prominent. Which I guess will be the transition my next topic.

As I've probably mentioned a thousand times before, yes, i have social anxiety. Sometimes it's worse, and sometimes it's manageable. It will never go away, and I will probably never be ""cured"", but I have made a conscious choice to not hide myself away or cave in, but instead try to be more out there, say more yes, and dare to do more stuff. I am a social person, although i am an introvert, i am a social introvert at least, and i like people and conversing. Which really sucks because having social anxiety, being an introvert, BUT liking to be social, often clash. I know, how can you like being social if you have social anxiety, like "uhm u dont have social anxiety then" uhm bitch stfu ur not me u dont know what i feel or what goes on in my head.

okay, enough side-tracking. My point was; Some decisions i have made includes like, going to parties, sometimes to parties where i only know one or two people (if there's drinks there, i'm there lol). I have gotten myself a gym/training studio membership, so i go there with my friend (bcus we're both socially awkward in unknown terrain, so we started together). I actually have a lesson with a personal trainer tomorrow lmao wish me luck.

Another thing I have joined is this thing called UFLAKKS ((uflaks=unlucky)) in the city over (Bcus that town is like,, the third largest in norway), which is kind of like a sub-category of the organization AKKS. AKKS is a music organization whos main focus is on music education, equality and concert production. UFLAKKS in this city only started a few months ago, but they primarily focus on producing concerts for people under 18 (therefore the 'u'). So I joined this group since I am very interested in local music and whatever is brewing in the underground music world in my region, and also because i want there to be more options for people under 18 in my area. Like, oh my lord, i can't go on any concerts i wanna go to because i'm not 18 yet (i'm 18 in 18 days tho ayyy lmao).

jfyi i dont bother to read through what ive written so sorry if any sentences are incoherent and poorly structured grammatically. im literally so tired.

Anyway, i was on my first meeting with them today (i missed last meeting cause i couldnt go lmao) and i couldnt find the fucking entrance so the "CEO" (its in quotation marks bcus this is a voluntary organization and it's nothing fancy we're just 6 teens cramped together on a sofa in a tiny recording studio) had to fucking go outside and get me because im so incompetent. But yeah, they were all nice, and we already have 3 concerts or something coming up, and all the guys were 👌👌👌and like 3 of the people there go to my school #awkward. It's kind of funny actually, because one of the girls came second in a national singing competition for kids in like 2013, and has participated in Idol, and has two singles out and shit (+ she goes to my school), another guy is a professional pianist and when i came home today and stalked his facebook profile (he sent ME a friend request first, ok?) i found i saw him live on december lmao. AND THEN, one of the guys-

and this is where i stopped to think "wait, what is they google their band and everything i've written about them shows up?? GASP THAT WOULD BE SO EMBArRASSING) and then i went on to google the band's name + wattpad, and like, everything i've written about them shows up

so i have decided not to mention their names only because i don't need that pure shame of them somehow mysteriously finding it. But anyway, now you know what band i'm talking about. But yes, point was, the guitarist of said band is also in-

wait a second if i mention uflakks and akks they can find this too.... nah i'm being too paranoid, who tf goes through every search result for "uflakks" lmao. OKAY BAck to business: he is also in this organization which i honestly had no idea about, so when i saw him i was like

S HOOK

And then lastly, my mom(tm) from my favorite band sassy kr//aimspri (will this still show up on google??) is also in on this project, but she wasn't on this meeting (idk y lol).

Like, don't think i'm doing this just to meet bands and artist # groupie (i mean,, i wouldnt mind cough cough) but music something i genuinely care about and i think this is a great initiative.

So tomorrow me and some of the girls are gonna buy decorations for the concert on .. when was it? lemme check my calendar. Oh yeah, 11th of march.

So yeah.....

Pretty psyched about becoming 18 soon. I know everyone says "wow when i become 18 im gonna do this and im gonna do that and i will be a new person" but like,, i'm being serious. I can finally get a job (i mean, i already can, but the market in my area is really hard if youre under 18), i can get a tattoo or a piercing if i want to, i can buy alcohol and i can go to the concerts and festivals i want to go to (unless the age limit is 21 but thats pretty rare). Like,, you have no idea how excited i am. yes, i am very existential and the impending doom called time and adulthood is always looming over me, ready to swallow me, but i mean. still. let me enjoy the little things. I'm gonna try to not overthink life anymore kay.

i plan on posting a little update in my art book soon, but i'm slow af + busy. Like, what i do when i finally have time to go on my computer is to catch up on youtube videos. I am positive- no, i KNOW i am able to make time to write too, i just have to prioritize correctly, and gather any motivation to do it. It usually comes in spurts but as i start writing i start to overthink and i start to notice that the quality of my writing plummets drastically. And then i let the 3k worth of words i have written just sit in my folders for 12+ months before i'm like ".. maaaybe i should work on this". Sorry starr, i promise i'll start the next chapter soon. Trust me, i feel really bad and guilty and i'm really annoyed with myself.

I should probably keep writing sunshine instead of writing this, but i need this journal-esque thing mkay.

I think i wanted to talk about something elso too but i can't recall what it says.

Oh well. I guess i'll have to go now, i really want to sleep. I have vacation, but i'm probably gonna have to get up early tomorrow.

Au revoir, les enfants

<3 Kristine

oh yeah, forgot to say; in case you missed, follow this other twitter account that i made: @/MaestosoIero. Some people i know irl have started following me on my other account (@/deadrLnger) so i don't feel comfortable talking about frank iero, frerard, fanfiction, etc on that account. So if u wanna get in on that, follow my new account. tnx