Even though he had given me his number I refused to text or contact him. Something had washed over me when we spoke. I'd told him things I never told any stranger or new friend. I trusted him too quickly and I shouldn't have, not because I think he'll hurt me but because I don't know him. He might've told me his life story but I still didn't know him. I sighed everything was upside down. I closed my locker and hurried to class, ever since Monday I've been ignoring Oliver, which is quite hard considering he practically follows me around. I was lucky however to only have a few classes with him.

Walking over to astrology I saw him looking at me, intensely. But I knew better I ignored him, putting in my earbuds and turning up my music.

"Hey Luna."

"Hello Leon," I didn't have to look up to see that it was him. Even with music playing in my ears I recognized his voice.

"Soo-" he was cut off by the teacher opening the door.

I felt a tap on my shoulder during the teacher's presentation about sun and moon signs and what it means. I ignored it.

'tap tap'

Ignore

'tap tap tap'

Ignore

'tap tap tap tap'

'crack'

My pencil snapped in half. I sheepishly looked at the teacher mouthing an apology then looking down into my pencil case.

"Do you need to borrow a pencil?"

I looked around to see Oliver holding out a pencil while smiling. So that was his game, make it impossible for me to ignore him, well then.

"Yes-" I turned and tapped Leon on the shoulder "-Can I please borrow a pencil?" Leon, looking from me to Oliver smirked and handed me one. I thanked him and continued to write down notes. The class was not that interesting and I only copied the board but it did help since I didn't have to think about Oliver's eyes burning holes in my neck.

As class ended and I walked to my locker, picking up both my bag and jacket Oliver came up to me.

"Are you mad at me?" I didn't turn to look at him.

"No," I closed the locker, still not turning to him.

"Then why have you been ignoring me," I could hear it in his voice, the anger slowly building up. But I couldn't look at him, no, if I did everything would fall apart. I shook my head and walked off. I had to get to class.

Although I was supposed to read, I couldn't. I kept replaying the last few days in my head. Us confessing so many things to me getting his number from this morning when I just decided to ignore him. I was questioning if I was doing the right or wrong thing. If I should talk to him or if I should continue, if i- I JUST DON'T KNOW. My thoughts were screaming in my head and a ball was building in my stomach. I tried once again to focus on the book but the words just ran over the paper like small ants running over pavement. I couldn't register anything but I couldn't look away. Because if I looked away my thoughts would come running like horses. So I just watched the ink run over the paper as the clock ticked in the background.

"Hello earth to Luna?"

My head shot up. And I looked around for the voice. Soon noticing my teacher trying to hold back laughter.

"Yes?" I asked.

"Class has ended, was your book really that interesting?" She chuckled

I get flustered at this and shake my head, excusing myself quickly.

On my way home I have music playing loud in my ears trying to overpower the thoughts. Soon the music did overrun the thoughts and my feet started walking to the beat.

'one step*

'Two step'

One step'

'Three step'

I continued to walk to the beat until I got home. My mother greeted me, she's a Libra. Not really the best thing in the world but she was my mother. We fought a lot though, but I love my mom no matter what. I was lucky as well. The generation after me had parents making sure they got children with signs with high friendship compatibility with their parents to avoid fights. And I guess I can see why.

Once I got up to my room I practically ran to my computer. I really needed a distraction from all my thoughts so of course I put on youtube. Apparently it's really old but I don't care if it has hilarious videos. My favorite being theories about a creepy restaurant haunted by some form of robots. Those theories are really old but it's interesting to watch. 

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Don't forget to wash your hands

-Written during Covid-19