There is no chance of redemption for me
Cuz I have been given too many chances
And it will take a miracle for him to forgive me
I have been losing people because of my toxic nature
Questioning myself about my tolerant nature
How did I become so imbecile
When I was so naive
Questioning myself will my suffering ever end
I feel like a prison in a silver castle
Who gets everything in life except mental peace
Keep running everyday like a sinful vessel
Just like a leaf going places
I'm just a compass without any axis
I try everyday to make it work but end up getting deserted
Will my suffering ever end
Will I ever come to my senses
Why have lord forsaken me
I keep asking myself
Cuz even my religion cursing me for sin I have committed
Sins that are not of flesh but of mind
I have hurted people who cared about me
Sins that are not visible on someone flesh but leave marks on mind
I have become a sinner going on a sinning spree
Is there no chance of redemption for me
Will I keep suffering like this?
I keep asking myself losing my mind losing myself