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Niall's Pov:

Pushing the way I feel aside, It's the best thing for me to do. The feelings I'm having they aren't real. I'm straight, I've always been straight. Zayn he's my bestfriend, I love him like a brother, There's nothing else there and there never will be. No matter how many times I tell myself this I always dream of us being together. I'm scared, I don't know what to do, I have no one to turn to. No one I can speak to, No one who'll listen to me. My mum, I'm afraid she'll look at me with nothing but disgust in her eyes, My dad he lives to far away from me, My brother he's at university, He's only ever home every now and then. I have nobody, And nothings worse then being alone when your afraid. 

It's not getting any easier. Everyday I have to watch him with her. I have to see them kiss and hold eachother. At school you can never separate them, Some days it just gets so hard for me to deal with. Sometimes I have to get away from them, I can't be in the same room as them. I'll sit in the library and revise, I'll walk around school five times, I'll pretend I'm ill, I'll do anything to avoid them. I walked into school on Monday looking like a wreck. Sleep hasn't been something I've been doing recently. I've spent nights on my laptop looking things up, Looking up signs of being gay, Stupid I know, But it's all I can. Nobodys coming out story is easy, There hasn't been one I've read where it's been a easy ride, Everyone says the same thing. You need as much support as you can get, Support isin't something I have. 

"Niall wait up!" Cher's voice bounced off the walls, I stopped in my tracks and waited for her to catch up with me. "Swear my heads still throbbing I'm never drinking vodka again!" She exclaimed before wrapping her arms around me, I chuckled while returning the hug.

"You've said that before" I commented.

"Yeah, Well I mean it this time" She replied before pulling away. "Niall what's up? You look like shit, Has something happened?" She questioned, I sighed. "Niall you've got bags under your eyes and they ain't the normal monday morning bags, You look like you ain't slept properly for a week at least" She stated. 

"I'm alright, Don't worry, Had so much work to catch up on, Ended up drinking shit loads of coffee to keep me awake" I lied, Cher looked at me funny before nodding her head, She wasn't convinced, I could tell.

"Alright, You know if there's ever anything you wanna talk about, I'll keep it between us, You know that right?" She said, I smiled before nodding my head.

"I know" I mumbled, I then threw my arm around her shoulder and we made our way to registration.

"Niall you missed out this weekend the party was wild! Pulled myself a little something" Louis stated proudly as we walked into the classroom, I raised my eyebrow before giving him a quick hug.

"What was it you pulled Louis? A muscle? Better get that checked out" Cher teased as she pulled off her bag.

"Haha" Louis mocked, I shook my head as I ruffled Harry's head.

"Hey! Less of the ruffling!" Harry groaned.

"He's hungover" Liam informed me. I nodded my head in understanding.

"Zayn, Demi over here!" Louis stated, I looked up to see them walking in hand in hand. Instantly I felt my heart drop, They quickly approached us. "Why is it your never hungover after a party!" Louis exclaimed when he pulled Zayn into a hug, Zayn smirked.

"Didn't really get much drinking done mate" He replied, A blush spread straight across Demi's face, Louis looked confused for a moment before it finally hit him, A dirty smirk spread across his lips.

"You guys are disgusting! It's monday morning nobody wants to hear about that shit!" Cher stated, I kept my head down.

"Hey Ni" Demi said kindly, I smiled warmly before pulling her into a hug. Me and Demi we've always gotten along, Were actually pretty close. She's a great girl and I love her to pieces, But she has Zayn, She has something I can never have. The moment Demi and I pulled away she quickly wrapped her arms around Cher and I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist.

"Hello stranger, Where've you been? Didn't see you at the party" Zayn said. 

"Hi, I was busy, Revision" I replied, Zayn nodded his head before pulling me closer to him, I instantly wrapped my arms around his neck.

"You alright Ni?" Zayn asked, I slowly nodded my head. "You sure?" He questioned, I loosened my arms. 

"Yeah, Just shattered" I lied, Zayn nodded his head before slowly letting go of me, He then sat down in one of the seats and pulled me into the seat beside him, He dropped his arm around my shoulder. 

"We got twenty minutes get some sleep I'll wake you before teacher shows up" He said, I smiled gratefully before going to lay my head on the table, Zayn quickly stopped me and pulled me closer to him so my head was laid on his shoulder. 

"Tables not comfy mate" I nodded my head slowly before closing my eyes, Truth be told I didn't get a quick nap, I just enjoyed being close to him. 

The morning at school was great, But the rest of the day wasn't. Demi and Zayn were cuddling, Kissing.Giggles were leaving her lips when Zayn tiggled her, He silenced her giggles with passionate kisses. My heart was being tugged at, No matter how much I try I can't deny my feelings. Nobody makes me feel the way Zayn does. I can't lie to myself even if I want to. When the school day ended I couldn't stand being near them anymore, Everyone was planing to go and get some food, Straight away I declined, Cher raised her eyebrow when she saw me look away as Zayn pressed his lips to Demi. 

"You sure you won't come Niall?" Liam questioned, I faked a smile.

"Positive, Don't get this essay done I'll get killed" I said. 

"You need any help?" Cher asked, I shook my head. 

"No, It's alright" I mumbled, Demi quickly walked up to me.

"See you tomorrow babe" She said before hugging me, I hugged her back.

"See you tomorrow" Demi pulled away and Zayn quickly pulled me into a hug. 

"I'll give you a ring later" He said, I nodded before quickly walking away from them all, I kept it in, I held it inside until I got to the car, The moment I pulled out the driveway I let my tears fall. 

I'd been at home for around forty minutes before I heard the doorbell ring, I dropped my pens, Pushed my books aside and ran out the room, I hurried down the stairs before pulling the door open, Stood there was Cher, I was just about to open my mouth when she marched inside, I raised my eyebrow before closing the door and following her into the living room.

"We need to talk"