Heya guys here's the next chapter of the story, Really hope you like it. Leave me your feedback.

 Zayn's Pov:

I'm so confused. I don't know what's going on in my head. My brains doing overtime and I have no idea what's going through it. Niall went to Ireland, He just packed a bag and left, He left me because I pushed him away, Because I couldn't accept him for who he was. What was I thinking? I should have been there for him! Ever since Cher told me he was gone I've been calling him non stop, But his phones been switched off, It's been switched off for two weeks. For the whole of half term I've been messaging him on facebook, I guess he's been ignoring me. Every message I left I've gotten no reply, But he's been online, I know he's been online because he's been posting pictures. Pictures of places in Ireland, His family, His nephew, Pictures of him and another guy. Who's this guy? Why's he so close to Niall? The pictures make my stomach clench and I don't know why. There's pictures of them laughing together, Selfies they've taken, Pictures of him with his arm around Niall. Why's the got his arm around Niall?! Why's Niall smiling so big? I thought he loved me?

My heads full of so much crap, I can't begin to process any of it. I've got so many emotions rushing through my body, So many feelings I've never had before. I don't know what I'm doing. The second I heard Niall was home I wasted little time heading to his house, That's where I am right now. I'm standing outside his door waiting for him to open it. My hearts pounding and I'm shaking, What's happening to me?

"Zayn?" I heard Niall speak when the frontdoor was opened, I looked up to see him standing there with a confused look on his face. 

"Niall, Erm is your mum home?" I asked, Niall shook his head. "Can I, Can I come in?" I questioned, Niall hesitated for a moment before stepping aside, I walked straight into his house. "What you doing here Zayn?" Niall asked keeping his distance from me.

"I erm, I wanted to talk to you" I said, My hearts thumping.

"Thought you said all you needed to say a few weeks ago" Niall mumbled, I looked up at him and shook my head. 

"No, No I didn't" I stated, Niall rolled his eyes. 

"Look Zayn, If you've come here to have a go, Or punch me don't bother alright? I know you don't wanna know me anymore, You made that pretty clear" 

"I do, I do wanna know you" I chocked out. 

"Well you got a funny way of showing it! I was going through hell Zayn! I needed you, I needed you more then you'll ever know! But you walked away from me! You left me to get fucking beaten up! You walked away while I got the shit kicked out of me for being who I am. I know what I said at the party was a shock ok? And I'm sorry, I'm sorry it got blurted out the way it did, I didn't want you finding out that way, But really Zayn? Leaving me to get my face smashed in! When did you become like this?!" Niall yelled.

"I'm sorry!" I cried out. "Niall I'm sorry! I didn't, I didn't know what to do alright? I was angry! I was angry at you"

"Angry at me? What right do you have to be angry at me?!" Niall spat.

"I-I don't know Niall! I'm sorry!" I chocked out, Niall sighed. 

"You said you wanna know me. Well guess what Zayn this" Niall pointed to himself. "This is me and I'm not ashamed or scared anymore. I've had alot of help from alot of people, I've had support and people have showed me what I am, It's nothing to be scared of, Or be ashamed of, I'm just me" Niall stated, I looked down.

"Suppose that boy in Ireland helped you figure all that out" Niall raised his eyebrow. "The one from the pictures, The one latching onto you like a leach" I spat.

"Do you have any idea what you sound like right now?!" Niall stated. "You sound like a jealous little child!" Niall yelled, I looked up at him before looking down. Niall's eyes went from a roaring fire to a soft harmless flame. "Zayn, Please tell me your not" Niall exclaimed.

"Of course I'm not! I'm with Demi!" I stated, Niall rolled his eyes. "So the boy, You erm seemed close" I commented. 

"Is it any of your business?" Niall asked.

"No, I'm just wondering" I replied, Niall sighed.

"He was there when I needed him, Gave me advice" Niall said, I nodded.

"Did erm, Did you kiss him?" Niall's eyes widened. 

"God what is this Zayn?! I really don't fucking understand you! Few weeks ago you didn't wanna know me, Now your standing here questioning me on if I've kissed another guy, Like it's any of your business!" Niall yelled.

"It is my business!" I spat as I moved closer to Niall, He stepped away from me. "At the party you told me you had feelings for me. You told me you loved me" I chocked out, Niall was frozen on the spot, I continued moving closer to him. "W-When you love somebody you don't just stop, I mean"

"Zayn please" Niall whispered. 

"You said you loved me Niall" I looked him straight in the eyes. "You can't say you love somebody then just stop because somebody else has come along. Wh-When did you stop loving me?" I chocked out, Niall looked away from me. 

"I can't do this. Zayn you can't do this to me!" Niall exclaimed.

"I'm not doing anything!" I shakily placed my hand on Niall's chest, He looked down at my hand. "I just, I just wanna know" My heart was thumping, Niall looked away. 

"I haven't, I haven't stopped loving you" He whispered, I moved my face closer to Niall's, My vision was blurry and my body was shaking. I don't know what I'm doing, My emotions are all over the place, My face was inching closer and closer to Niall's. "Zayn, Zayn what're you doing?" Niall chocked out.

"Shh" I whispered.

"Zayn please" I took Niall's face in my hands. "Don't, Don't do this to me. Don't do it unless you mean it, Zayn please" Niall cried out. 

"I want you, I want you so much" I chocked out before pressing my lips against Niall's, Niall was resistant at first but after a few moments his lips began moving with mine. 

Our bodies came crashing into Niall's bedroom. Our lips were still connected and we were tugging at eachothers clothes. Niall pulled away from the kiss for a few moments, I saw his lips moving but I didn't hear the words. I quickly nodded my head before pressing my lips against Niall's once again, We dropped down on his bed after that everything was a blur, I didn't know what I was doing, But at that moment my emotions were screaming at me, They were screaming that I wanted Niall.