Heya guys here's the first chapter of the story, Really hope you like it, Leave me your feedback.

This chapter is dedicated to RobertChretien who's writing a ziall story check it out guys.

Niall's Pov:

We all have a bestfriend, A bestfriend were close to in so many ways, One who we turn to with everything because we know they won't judge us. Someone who understands your humor when others don't, One's who'll stay up with you half the night talking about alot of rubbish. A friend who you never want to lose, A friend you grow closer to every single day, A friend you think of as a member of your family. I've got that sort of friend in Zayn. We've been friends for years and every day our friendship only grows stronger and stronger, We've supported eachother through everything, School, Family deaths, He was there for me when my parents split up, I was there for him when his mum and dad were arguing. I was his support system and he was mine. Only recently I've been feeling different towards Zayn, I've been having these emotions and feelings that I don't really understand, Or maybe I do but I'm just to scared to admit it. 

I've always thought I knew who I was. I always believed that I liked girls, But now I'm starting to think differently, I'm starting to think different because of Zayn. I've found myself wanting to be closer to him, Wanting to spend even more time with him then I usually do. I'm dreaming about him at night, Dreaming of us. Recently I began noticing small things in him, Things like when he smiles he'll poke his tongue inbetween his teeth, When he's concentrating on something he'll bite his lip, When he laughs he'll get these crinkles by his eyes, When he's sleeping he pouts. I have growing feelings for him, I've tried to deny it for as long as I can, I've even tried going out with some girls but I'll always find myself preferring Zayn's company. He has no idea about my feelings towards him, In his eyes I'm nothing more then his bestfriend, And it hurts me deep inside. It hurts knowing that I'll never mean as much to him as he does to me, It kills me deep inside everytime I see him with her, Everytime I see him with his girlfriend, The way he holds her, The way he kisses her, The way he tells her he loves her, He'll never do that to me and I know it. 

"Niall, Niall, Ni, Oi mate!" Zayn's voice echoed around my mind, It was only when he nudged me that I realized I'd snapped into my own little world.

"Sorry" I mumbled.

"What's going on?" Zayn asked.

"No,Nothing, Can we get back to the game?" Zayn shook his head. 

"No, Somethings bothering you" Zayn stated.

"Nothings bothering me" I exclaimed.

"Your lying, Niall I know you, What's going on?" Zayn questioned as he looked me directly in the eyes, I looked back wanting nothing more then to pour my heart out, But I can't, I can't do that. 

"I just had a late night last night that's all" I replied, Zayn raised his eyebrow.

"Really?" He asked, I nodded noticing that Zayn was moving closer and closer towards me.

"I don't believe you, Come on tell me what's wrong" Zayn said, I faked a smile.

"You sound like an old granny" I exclaimed with a even bigger fake smile, Zayn fake gasped.

"You did not just call me an old granny!" Zayn chocked out, I couldn't help the chuckle that fell from my lips, My laughter automatically stopped when I saw Zayn's warning eyes glaring at me, He smirked as I quickly jumped up from the chair, Zayn quickly repeated my actions and tackled me to the floor before beginning to tickle my body.

Zayn's happiness means alot to me, I want him to be happy I really do, But I just wish I was the one who could do that. Does that make me selfish? It hurts me deep inside to watch them together, To watch him wrap his arms tightly around her. Both of them are my friends, I don't want to hurt either of them, I don't wanna betray anybody, But I can't watch them be together. His eyes are lit up, Giggles of happiness are falling from her lips, I want that, I want it more then anything. I watched on until I couldn't watch anymore. When I finally had enough I quickly stood up, Zayn looked up at me with confusion in his eyes.

"Ni? Where you going?" He asked.

"Home, Gotta finish that English essay" I replied, Zayn nodded his head before standing up he then pulled me into a tight hug, I sighed before hugging him back, When we finally pulled away I faked another smile. "See you later guys" I stated.

"Bye Niall" She said. 

"See you mate" Zayn added before dropping back down on the couch, I didn't bother turning around as I left the room. The second I was outside I took a deep breath. As I walked home thoughts kept rushing through my mind. What am I gonna do? If I keep everything a secret I hurt myself, If I reveal my feelings to Zayn I risk losing him as a friend, Either way I end up hurting deep inside with no support from anybody.  How am I supposed to tell my bestfriend I'm inlove with him without losing him?