Heya guys here's the next chapter of the story. Really hope you like it. Leave me your feedback. There's only a few chapters to go before the story ends.

Zayn's Pov:

I've fucked everything up. My whole life right now is just one big mess. I never thought this would happen to me. I never wanted to be this person. I never wanted to be inlove with someone who was the same gender as me. I'm a coward, I know I am. I had the chance to tell Demi the truth and I just couldn't do it. Niall won't believe me when I say I tried, I really did try, But when it came down to it, I just froze. I'm afraid. I'm afraid of what people are going to say, What they'll think. I saw the way Niall was treated, I was one of the people who judged him. He didn't have it easy, People just gave him a hard time, I don't want that. I don't want people looking down on me, But if I don't allow that to happen I'll lose Niall forever. Not having him in my life is something I never thought I'd experience. It's a strong pain inside my heart, It's the feeling of sorrow overtaking my body. I don't wanna lose him, But I'm so afraid of everything. 

Niall's been ignoring me for the past week. I can't blame him. I don't blame him. I want to talk with him, Try and explain myself, But he's not letting me do that. I don't deserve a second of Niall's time after what I did, But I have to see him, I have to talk to him. I know he hates me, But all I want to do is see him. I hate the thought of him being hurt because of me, It's been keeping me up at night. I had to see him, Even if he slammed the door in my face, Told me to drop dead, I needed to see him.

"Zayn how are you sweetheart?" Maura asked when she opened the frontdoor, I smiled warmly at her.

"Been better. How are you?" I replied.

"I'm well. Running late for work, Niall's upstairs in his bedroom" She informed me.

"Thankyou" I said, Maura opened the frontdoor. "Have a good day" I added, Maura smiled before leaving the house, I closed the frontdoor and took a deep breath. Well I'm in the house that's the first hurdle done. I took a deep breath before making my way up the stairs. I knocked on Niall's door lightly before pushing it open, Niall was laid out on his bed, The second he saw me his eyes shot open and he jumped up from the bed. 

"What the hell do you want?" He spat.

"We need to talk" I said, Niall rolled his eyes. 

"No you need to leave. Everything was said last week" Niall stated, I shook my head.

"No. Last week you spoke, I didn't get the chance to, So now it's my turn" Niall rolled his eyes once again. "I know your angry at me, You have every right to be angry. I'm a coward, I'm weak. I said I'd do something and I chickened out, But Niall this past week without you, It's killed me" I exclaimed, Niall laughed.

"Well I'm glad you finally thought about me" He spat. 

"I think about you all the time! Niall I meant every word I said to you. I wanna be with you, I'm just scared of what people are gonna think" I said.

"See that's how I know you don't really care" I raised my eyebrow. "If you cared about me and wanted to be with me, You wouldn't give a shit what anyone says" Niall replied.

"If I care about you? How can you stand there and say that?" I asked.

"I don't know Zayn. How can you stand there and tell me you wanna be with me? How can you say that after you shagged Demi!" Niall yelled.

"It wasn't supposed to happen! The whole time I was thinking of you, Wishing it was you! When I kissed her your face was the face I saw standing infront of me" I stated.

"What do you want from me Zayn? You want me to be your dirty little secret? The bit on the side?" Niall questioned.

"No. No, I wanna be with you" I replied.

"Then stop being a coward!" Niall yelled.

"I'm not being a coward" I looked Niall straight in the eyes. "I'm scared. I'm scarder then I've ever been before. This isin't easy for me. Don't look at me like that ok? I know you went through this, I know so many other people have gone through it. I don't wanna hurt anybody and I don't wanna lose you" I cried out. 

"But you are losing me" Niall whispered. "By not admitting what you are your pushing me away. It seems like you know how I feel and you just take advantage of that. Demi's a great girl, But like I told you last week you can't have both. One of us has to get hurt Zayn, One of us will get hurt in this. It sounds selfish and horrible I know, But you have to decide who gets hurt. Is it her? Or me? I've never wanted to give you an ultimatum because that's not what I do, But now I just don't have a choice. I'm gonna ask you once and once only, Is it her you wanna be with? Or is it me?" Niall asked. 

"I love Demi she's everything a man deserves" Niall looked down. "I love her, But I'm inlove with you" Niall's head shot up. 

"You love me?" Niall whispered, I nodded my head. 

"I'm madly inlove with you" I exclaimed. 

"Prove it. If you really love me, Then you tell her the truth. This is the last chance Zayn and I mean it. You tell Demi, Or you lose me for good".