-Chapter 3-

-Ze's Pov-

I wake up to Ein rubbing against my face. I grab my phone and check the time. 12:45am.

"Ehh." I say.

Ein runs into the other room. I pull on some clothes and run after her. When I enter the room she's next to James.

"Hey." I say sitting down on the floor.

"You know you do---" Jordan starts off saying.

"It's fine." I say giving him a half-hearted smile.

"When would it be?" GaLm asks.

"Tomorrow or the next day." Jordan says.

"Whose going?" Smarty asks.

"Myself, James, Aleks, Seamus, Dan and you two if you wanted and Ze if that's okay." Jordan replies.

I just stare at Ein.

"That'd be great." Smarty says.

"If Smarty wants to then sure." GaLm says.

"Ze?" Jordan says.

I look at him.

"Up for a trip to New York?" Jordan says.

"Sure." I say.

"So it's done. When are we going?" James asks.

"Tomorrow or the next day." Jordan says, "Everyone is up for whenever. What do you guys think?"

"Tomorrow?" GaLm asks.

Smarty nods then looks at me. I nod.

"Tomorrow then!" Jordan says smiling.

"See ya then!" GaLm says.

Jordan and James get up. Ein follows them to the door. They open it and walk out. Ein stops and runs back to me. She licks my face, barks and wags her tail.

"I'll see you some other time!" I say stroking her, "Take care!"

She barks and runs back to James. They leave the house.

Just me, Smarty and GaLm left now.

"Can I go out and buy some new clothes?" I ask.

"I'll come too." GaLm says.

"No, I'll be fine." I say giving him a half smile.

"Yeah, he'll be okay." Smarty says patting GaLm's knee.

GaLm nods.

"Okay, don't take super long." GaLm says.

"I won't." I say pulling on my shoes and jacket.

I open the door and leave. I start walking.

It always works. I don't need 'new' clothes. I need the ones I brought with me. Which are at... Chilled's.

I make my way towards Chilled's flat.

Hopefully I'll be able to hold in for a little longer. I'll just grab my stuff and leave. I will do that. Chilled gave me a spare key. So it's okay.

I reach Chilled's flat and unlock the door. I walk in. His cologne hits me. Tears start to form in my eyes.

"Chilled... you fucking arse hole.." I whisper.

I go to his room and grab all my clothes and throw them in a bag. I spin to end up facing His desk. There's a photo of me and him hugging.

That's what hit me, hard. I can't be held in his arms anymore. The man I love. The man I only want. I can't fucking do this. I literally can't. We both knew I'm not that strong.

I grab the photo and rip it. You made me feel fucking pain and you're probably living the highlight of your life. I love you. I'm sorry.

I grab my things and leave. I walk quickly back to Adam's house. I burst through the door.

"I'm back." I say closing the door behind me.

I walk to my room. I put down the things. I fall on the bed. Fuck my life.