L A L I S A

"But why eomma? Please let me go out!"

"No Lisa, are you seriously going to ask me that? You've just discharged yesterday dear, you're still weak." My mom sat beside my bed, patting my cheek.

"But you promised I can meet my friends after I get out of the hospital!"

"They will understand, Lili. You heard what the doctor said, didn't you? They discharged you but on the condition that you will take proper rest. If you don't listen to me now, don't come whining afterwards for that headache of yours."

She picked up a pile of my clothes and left downstairs to do the laundry. I couldn't believe this, why can't she understand how important it is for me to meet my friends, especially Jungkook!

Why was I being grounded for no reason?! I lay back on the bed, groaning.

"Only if you knew mother, just a glance of Jungkook is the pill to all my problems." I whispered.

I didn't realize when I fell asleep. It was already past afternoon, almost four I think. I sat down on my table, removing my notebook ㅡ the one where I kept all my drafts, where I communicated my heart through my words, in a world of my own.

Flipping through the pages I was starting to memorize the sounds that chased me in my dreams.

"Promise me you will-"

Promise what exactly, that was the question. When I looked into my notes, not even a single page or a single line could I find it written. Then what was my intuition trying to tell me? Was I just being delusional or there was something really close to my heart that I couldn't remember?

In an attempt to make me happy and comfortable at home, eomma called over some of my cousins who lived in a nearby town. Prior to shifting here, I spent my childhood with my two precious cousins ㅡ Sorn and Minnie. They meant the world to me infact, with all the mischief we would do together, save each other's arses by throwing tantrums and standing up for each other in times of need. You could say they were very dear to me. So obviously, we had bitterly cried when I were supposed to move houses, but that was long back anyway when we were kids.

We're mature and understanding now, but the childish behaviour?

Oh well, I guess it's a profound trait that will stay attached to the very last moment of my life.

When my cousins and my aunts showed up on the door, I was more than happy. The three of us really didn't have much to do, apart from sitting together and have a movie marathon and a few indoor games to play around. But that didn't restrict us from having fun, anyway. The time we were together was all that matters, because sitting around and just hanging out relaxed is usually all we need.

It was already night time; I had changed into my pajamas. When it suddenly struck me ㅡ I forgot to inform Jungkook that I couldn't meet him today.

Holy frick, how can I be so forgetful?!

I checked the time on my alarm clock, it was nearly midnight. I quickly grabbed my phone resting on my study desk to inform him about cancelling our secret rendezvous for tonight.

I was on messenger typing him a message but something surprised me. His status showed he was offline, without a last seen too. Had he been inactive for a while?

Guk, I have my cousins over my place. I don't think we can meet today.

As soon as I pressed the send button, I received a message in return.

"Your message was not sent." It read.

This was very unusual because although he mostly didn't reply to most of my texts, he made sure to at least read them. Maybe he was asleep?

But what if he had been waiting for me by the town bridge?

Should I call him? Yes I should.

When I tried his number, the call got disconnected by itself, a female robotic voice responded from the other end, "The number you're calling is unreachable at the moment. Please try again later or leave a voice message. *BEEP*"

This was highly unlikely of him, what was going on? Maybe I should go and sleep too, what if I'm disturbing his sleep?

Yeah, I should sleep, my conscience suggested.

Although I shut my eyes in an attempt to fall asleep, I simply couldn't. After my accident, my sleeping pattern was completely messed up, as if I forgot what was it like to sleep. Also, sleeping was difficult, when your mind is filled with numerous thoughts, especially about Jungkook in this case.

Noticing my cousins already asleep, hugging each other tightly and snoring, it was my cue to sneak out and maybe search for him.

Just when I got up from my bed, the clock struck exactly 00:00 am.

A gentle breeze flew past my curtains, as if trying to tell me to look out of the window. I felt a sudden wave of warmth embracing me, despite the chilly winter night, a fragrance similar to Jungkook's.

Looking down, I found him ㅡ Jungkook ㅡ standing at my lawn, hands in the pocket of his sweatpants, head slightly covered with his hoodie. The same white one, which he wore last time we met.

Seeing him again, gave me a different feeling, as if someone was there for me in this world. Don't get me wrong, yes I do have a lot of people around me truly ㅡ but whenever I was with Jungkook I had a sudden burst of euphoria from within which is why I felt so sorry that I couldn't go it with him tonight.

Scurrying over my desk, I looked into some drawers in a hope of finding paper which usually lay around in multiple piles. Finally having found one, I popped open one of my pens, sticking its cap between my teeth as I scribbled the note in clear, bold letters.

Satisfactorily putting back the cap, I pressed the thin sheet against the window so that it was visible and noticeable to him.

Reading the words, he looked into my eyes, smiling as he saw me mouthing a 'sorry', along with some aegyo.

'Goodnight' he gestured my slapping his hands together underneath his cheek. Having a brief eye contact, he mouthed goodnight once more, before waving me goodnight as he walked away.

I waved back at him too, when suddenly a hand on my shoulder startled me.

"Yah! I got scared Minnie! Don't give me terrible jumpscares at night, geez!"

"What are you doing by the window, hmm? You look like a ghost, for real." She answered.

"Where is the ghost?" I said terrified, covering my head with the paper I had pressed against the window some moments back.

For one thing, ghosts have been an unforgettable nightmare which still persist even in adulthood.

Minnie started snickering at my stunned face.

"You'll never grow up, despite the fact you're my unnie. Who were you waving at by the way?"

"Oh, it was my friend. We were supposed to go out for a walk tonight, but I forgot to inform him so..."

"Ah I see. Where is he?" Minnie asked, peeking out of the window.

"See he's walking there. Look, he went out of the lane!"

"No, I don't see him, nevermind. Are you coming back to bed or not?" She rubbed her eyes, extremely sleepy as she hopped back to the bed before I could reply.

Can she really not see him?

But he was just walking out ㅡ I looked down once again, finding Jungkook had already left.

I guess Minnie didn't notice him as she wasn't wearing her glasses. I shouldn't be overthinking of these things.

Maybe I'll apologize to him tomorrow. I felt my heart calm down and stretching my hands for a yawn, I returned back to my bed before I drifted off to sleep.