Thursday- 8:22 A.M.
October 23, 2015
Nunu

Knock
Knock

"Come in."

I got out the bathroom with Ant wrapped in a towel, Zain was on the bed playing with his favorite toy car, and Mrs. Jackson just walked in with an envelope in her hand.

After leaving the hospital, I had escaped the eyes of the world and into the shadows, I knew after killing those feds there would brings more coming my way, making it harder for me to be at peace.

So I took my kids and I to a homeless shelter near the hospital. It was a good thing no one recognized me or ever heard of me. While we were at the shelter, I got hold of a phone and decided to contact a trusted friend of mine.

My first call was to Mrs. Jackson house phone, though the person who picked up wasn't Mrs. Jackson, it was her eldest son, Monroe. He told me that his mom had moved away from Georgia and came to Virginia.

This annoyed me, I really wanted to get the hell out of this state, but I guess I have to stay a little longer. Monroe had gave me Mrs. Jackson new contact information and from there things went along, then blah blah blah blah blah.

A warm smile covered Mrs. Jackson's lips as she watched me dry off my new baby. "What is it? Your looking at me like I'm an angel." I asked annoyed. She's been acting more cheery than when she would be back when I was in highschool.

"I'm just really happy, it's been a really long time since I've last seen you at Miki's funeral."

"Well I'm here now so stop staring."

Mrs. Jackson chuckled, "You've grown up a lot but your still the same old Nunu." I smiled, reminiscing the times of when I would practically rule her household, she'd always get on me for my terrible attitude and actions towards others.

Her along with the Red Skins are a big part of my life, especially during my teen years. The Red Skins are a small gang back in Georgia that I trusted more than my own family.

In high school I'd always hang with them. We'd do all the michevious acts that I've always wanted to do but couldn't do since my family had to stay under the Alpha's radar.

I was like Mrs. Jackson's dream daughter, the daughter she wished for. She had eight boys, one of which were my boyfriend, Miki.

"What's that in your hand?" I asked finishing up on dressing Ant.

Mrs. Jackson looked down at the envelope, "It's a letter...from Miki. He wants us both to be together when it's opened."

She kept that letter for 9 years? That's commitment right there. I put Ant on the bed next to Zain and approached Mrs. Jackson, she handed me the envelope and I stared back at it.

No, he doesn't have anything to say to me. I'm pretty sure Mrs. Jackson got it wrong, this letter is for her alone...not me. It was my fault that he died, he hates me. I ended his life the minute I met him.

"Go on, open it." Mrs. Jackson urged. I shook my head, "N..no, this isn't for me." I said backing away. Don't cry Nunu, you moved on remember? Don't fall back.

Oh fuck it, my face was wet with my tears, why am I so sensitive when it comes to him?!

Mrs. Jackson wrapped her arms around me and gave me a hug, I cried my fucking eyes out on her shoulder. I thought I moved on? Why does he have to have such a strong hold on me?

A weight was on my leg and I didn't need to look down to know who or what it was, all hands point to Zain. "H-he didn't leave that for me." I cried out onto Mrs. Jackson's shoulder.

She patted my back and let out a soft sigh, "If he didn't leave this for you then why is it addressed to you?" She said pulled away and flipping the envelope to the back.

On the back it had our names written in his handwriting, next to my name was a heart with the letter M in the middle of it. Just seeing that heart brings back memories of him, when we'd leave coded messages in each other's lockers during high school. His letters would end with a heart, whilst mines would be a small knife.

Our bond was so strong that I remembered jumping off a bridge with him, when the police had cornered us after stealing a luxury car from the casino.

Oh the times I had with him, I love him so much.

My hand went to get the letter out of Mrs. Jackson's hand, it then went on to open it. Shakily, I pulled out the letter and read it out loud for us both.

To my mom and the love of my life

    Yeah, yeah, I know I'm dead, but don't worry, y'all will move on. Don't stop dancing because the disco ball isn't there, find a new source of light and get back to dancing.

Anyways, mama I left some weed in the basement's couch, make sure my stingy ass brothers share it equally amongst themselves.
Oh, and please don't let that dead beat nigga in the house. I betchu he ain't even much pull up to my funeral.

Mama, I want chu to be happy so I got you a nice ass house in Dubai. Everything is in your name, from the light bill to the water bill, now don't ask me how I got the money. Just know, I did some illegal shit. (Mind my language) Take some time off and go enjoy your self.

You mean the world to me Mama, you kept me focused on what was important, shi you kept me out of ten times the fights I would've gotten into, and ten times the times I should've been locked up. Most of all, it was you who helped me get with my future wife.

Nunu I love you and me bumping into you was intentional. I had my eye on you since the first day you walked into our first period late and high as fuck. I don't know if we still together or not, but know this you were and still is my first and only love.

My beautiful ride or die please don't go all beast mode when I die. I know how you get when you feel abandoned or alone. Remember I'm still here with you in spirit.

Don't let them two-faced niggas get to you either. Ion want you to be a sad as motherfucker your whole life. Get your fine ass a new nigga who'll respect and love you just as I did. If somebody come and try to mess with chu, just say my name three times in the mirror and I'll pull up to haunt they asses, lol.

Things gonna be rough since I'm dead, but I know y'all gonna get through this. Stay together, y'all stronger together. Don't go wondering off Nunu and I mean it, I want my family to stay together.

Tell everybody else I love 'em....Miki out.

I laughed and cried as I reread Miki's letter over and over again, his voice rang in my head as the words on the paper came into view. You won't be forgotten Miki, I love you.

"Thank you for this, thank you for waiting for me." I said wiping my tears away. Mrs. Jackson's tear stained face looked up at me, she sniffed, "He told me so many things he wanted to do, it all revolved around you. He loved you so much."

"And I killed him." I cried out, on the brink of falling apart. His trust for me is what got him killed. Going to our graduation was a big mistake, being with him was a big mistake.

I should've listened to my mom when she said not to date him, especially since the Alphas what me dead. He was extra weight that was dragging me behind, being behind will get me killed.

Mrs. Jackson smiled and pulled me in for another hug, "It isn't your fault, stop blaming yourself. Miki jumped in front of that bullet to save you, he'd rather die for you than you die in the cross fire of some pathetic gang rivalry."

Zain tapped my leg, "Mommy, you keep crying. What's wrong?" He said looking up at me, his curls hanging over his eyes. All that hair needs go, my baby could barely see.

Pulling away from Mrs. Jackson's and I hug, I kneeled down to Zain's height, "Nothing's wrong. Everything is fine."