"I'm a virgin, Zack"

I'm sorry, anyone else confused as to what kind of random joke this is?

Cause I fucking am.

"I don't get it. Is this a joke?" I ask. She abruptly stands up from the floor and walks out of her room. "You think this a joke? You think that I'm lying about this? Have you ever wondered why we never had sex?"

"Fuck! Yes! Hell it's all I think about!" I scream out in frustration. I shouldn't fucking scream at her especially seeing how she wraps her arms around her body, shuddering. I go behind her and she takes in a harsh breathe.

Man you need to choose your next words carefully

Or you'll be digging your own grave.

I wrap my arms around hers with our fingers intertwined. She's crying and I fucking hate that it's my fault.

"Babe, I'm so sorry for screaming at you. And I hate that it sounds like I'm only with you for sex. But that's not true", I swipe my thumb against her cheeks to wipe that lone tear from falling.

"I did think about it a lot, but I just felt that with the situation of my step dad and our safety, sex would be the last thing on your mind. Fuck, I thought you weren't ready", I say resting my forehead on hers. "I wasn't Zack. I don't think I was ready to-"

"Lose your virginity to me", I cut her off because hearing her say those words would completely break me. "Fuck. I'm so sorry, Ash. I just thought that we really bonded this past few days but now, I-"

This time, she cuts me off, with a quick kiss.

As much as I love kissing her, damn her quick kisses can be annoying too.

"I wasn't ready to get fucked in an elevator, Zack". My eyes widened. Well that made so much sense. I guess that was my mistake.

Now how do I rectify that?

"I'd do you anytime, anywhere. Maybe even elevators. But can this happen, when we've done the deed in a more romantic, normal situation?" as she speaks, she pushes me down slowly onto the couch and slowly straddles me.

Sliding her fingers into my hair, I groan and slide my hands round her waist to pull her closer. "Like right now", she finishes and leans over to kiss me.

"No. we can't. At least not right now", the look of disappointment floods her face when I say this. "What do you mean?" she asks.

"I don't want you to feel like you're been forced to have sex with me. It's your fucking virginity we're talking about and-"

"And I should be the one who decides who I want to share it with, Zack and I choose you. I've always chosen you. Hell, these past few days with you have been so wonderful and difficult at the same time. It's you that's on my mind every single damn time. I just panicked back at the office because... I was scared of how you would take the news of me being a virgin"

"I love it", I slip out.

"What was that?" she asks smirking. Wait did I just pull the L- word?

"I said that I wouldn't hate you for being a virgin", she raises her eyebrows because I don't say what she wants to hear. "It's okay babe, baby steps."

"Yeah, yeah. Now will you kiss me?"

"I would love to I swear. But...I'm just so confused", I sigh and run my hand through my hair. "How is it possible? With every guy you've been with. How? Jerry?" I ask and my mind's eye take me back to my first day here when she kept moaning Jerry's name.

"Is this about what my brother said about the other boys?" she asks and I don't respond. This time I don't get worried that my silence is the wrong answer because that's how I feel. "Oh, Zack. I only got orals from Jerry and he was okay with that. The other guys that my brother saw are the ones that come over for game nights"

"Seriously, you want me to believe that you have game nights with 'the boys'", I cock my head to the side and chuckle. She playfully punches my arm and says, "For real, I really attracted a lot of guys over and we mostly played games. I have evidence, I swear"

"Well wouldn't I love to see that?" I say. I don't really care if she's had guys over before, even though the reason she gives sounds false. All I care is that right now, she's mine. And I don't have to share her with anyone. My fucking girlfriend

"Why are you smiling so hard?" she asks

"People smile hard?" I ask, wiggling my eyebrows. "Yes they do and right now you're grinning from ear to ear and you are- oh- definitely hard", she adds as I pull her against me, allowing her to feel every hard part of my lower body.

"Ahhh", she moans out. As sensual as that sounds, her face scrunches up in pain. "Babe, are you okay? You look ugly"

"Fuck you, jerk" she says laughing. "I think my tummy really hates the delays", she says laughing and I kiss her neck. "Zaacckkk, your'e killing me", she moans out and I ground myself into her. 

"Zack, I'm being very serious though, I can't stop thinking about how far we could've gone today and I want it past us. I want you to take me tonight."

"Ashley, I don't -", I try to argue

"Shhhhhh", she places a finger on my lips to shush me. "I want you Zack, no foreplay. No nothing, just fucking take me right now", then she kisses me.

And it's not the usual god forsaken quick kiss. 

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5 minutes later, were in her room on her bed- because she wanted us to do it  there. I'm hovering over her, still placing delicious kisses all over her body. I say delicious, because her skin tastes fucking amazing right now. Where my lips touch, I suck and that earns me a moan. So imagine how many moans I've gotten from her. I lost count.

When I kiss her stomach, she lets out a soft cry. Okay maybe I'm missing something here. Maybe the tommy ache was real after all. And if she's in pain, I don't want to cause her more pain plus what she will feel when I'm finally inside her.

Kissing even lower, I hover my lips on the line where her panties start. "Zack, no foreplay", she whispers. Wait isn't foreplay supposed to be important, especially in her case?. "Babe, it's gonna hurt like fuck if you aren't wet", I whisper against her panties and that earns me another moan.

"I'm already fucking wet. Hell, I'm soaked"

Damn right she is. I raise my body forward again and kiss her on her lips. In the process, I'm slipping off her panties from her hips and her pussy glistens for me.

Well, fuck. It's a crime to not play with that pussy.

I lift myself up and roll on my condom. Yes, we stopped by my room to get one. Stroking myself slowly, I watch her squirm beneath me. "Babe, watching you touch yourself is torture", Ashley says and pulls me down between her legs. I kiss her again and position myself in front of her entrance.

"You ready?" I ask again, to be sure she wants this. She nods in response.

Fuck I have to take things slow...

"Owww", she moans gripping the sides of her stomach.

I blink, I already hurt her? I look down but I'm nowhere close to going inside her.

"Babe, are you okay? It hurts?"

She nods and I see tears threatening to slip out as she closes her eyes tight. And I'm so fucking confused.

"I'm not... I'm not in yet, Ash."

Her eyes pop open and she pushes me off her. Cursing as she runs into the bathroom. "Fuck, fuck, fuck", she screams and I curse silently. I slowly get off the bed and walk towards the bathroom. I knock on the door.

"Babe, Did I do something wrong? Is it your tommy? Do you need something?" I ask and she sniffs.

"It seems nature is against you taking me tonight", she chuckles and I'm even the more lost.

"What does nature have anything to do with us fucking right now? God Ashley, I'm so confused" I laugh dryly and run my hand through my hair.

"I got my fucking period, Zack"

Oh.

Fuck you nature. 

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I completely agree with Zack. Why the fuck is a nature a cock blocker too?! :)

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Chapter 19! I hope you like it... God I hope you do. Cause I'm sorta mixing writing an academic essay of 4000 words with updating Zack at the moment.

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~Nifiee.