A month before my marriage (Completed)

by Autumndreamer

Forewords

New story! Hi everyone this is Autumndreamer again!

I know I have other stories unfinished, but this story is already all written out, so I promise an update everyday. Thank you for anyone who supports me! I love you all! Poster credit goes to Chaena, and background was made by myself! This story is going to be mostly YunJae, the other characters will only show up having few lines. This is a total YunJae love story!

WARNNING: THIS STORY IS YAOI MEANING BOY-BOY LOVE! IF YOU ARE OFFENDED FOR THIS TYPE OF STORIES PLEASE DON'T READ IT AND NO BAD COMMENTS PLEASE. ALSO, THIS STORY WILL CONTENT RATED SCENES, AND THERE WILL BE "RATED" WARNNING SIGN ON THE TITLE, SO IF YOU ARE OFFENDED PLEASE DON'T READ IT! THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR THE UNDERSTANDING!

Character:

Mainly YunJae

Minor: Rest of DBSK

Storyline:

This is a story from Yunho's point of view, and it is his life within his one month before his planned marriage. He came across someone that he has never thought he would, and magically falls for him, so how will the marriage turn out? Please read on and find out!

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LOL~ shortest forward ever I know! But please read on, I promise it will turn out good! Hehe~ Thanks for anyone who is reading! Please support me and give me comments! Thank you!

Chapter 1

Laying down on my deck chair in the balcony and looking around my back yard, I for once felt lonely. How should I put my feelings? I am getting married in a month and I have never seen my fiancé. No, this is not a blind date or anything like that, it's more like I just want to get married for god's sake of creating man and woman. So, I asked my friend/secretary to find me a wife, and whoever is the last one that can stay on the list will be my wife in one month.

I seriously don't care who it is anymore, because I just want to get married and be normal. It is so hard to find the right person when you are at my position. I am the president of Jung's international trading cooperation, and by far, the annual achievement of Jung's company has remained number one on the marketing chart every year. I must admit I am the best at trading and marketing, but I think I spent way too much time on these boring things to raise my company and forgot that I am after all a human-being.

"That is exactly right!"

My best friend and secretary always give me a confirmation when it comes to my personal life. He said I don't have a life and that's right, maybe people thought men at my position still not married are either players or workaholic. Okay, I might be a little bit on the workaholic side, but I am defiantly not a player. Sure, many girls come across my life, but I swear to god I don't sleep around like those other perverts do.

"He is right!"

"Changmin! Do you mind?"

"What?"

"I am writing the first page of my diary why are you looking over my shoulder like that?"

Changmin chuckled and took a bit of the cookie on my desk: "I just want to make sure that you are honest with yourself."

"I am writing my own dairy, of course, I will be honest with myself! *pushing Changmin away* now go do your job!"

"I already did *trying to remain at the same spot* I told all the mating sites and newspapers to post that Jung Yunho wants a wife!"

"You didn't just write that sentence! Did you?" I asked shockingly.

"What? You need a wife?" Changmin asked, "Of course not, I told them to write it in a not too obvious way, however, it is a fact! Then after all those millions of billions of e-mails and mails came to my office, I will for sure to pick out the right one for you!"

I rolled my eyes: "I just hope you don't get me with a freak to get back to me!"

Changmin winked: "Just wait for it, because you will just love your wife after going through my eliminations!"

Changmin walked out from my office, and honestly, I am not feeling good about it. Oh why did I give my whole life's important decision to Changmin? Don't worry, Changmin is a nice guy. I have known him ever since high school and we went to the same university, after that, we both worked under Jung's company but of course I had to take over the company after my father passed away. Changmin then of course became my secretary because I need him to do everything for me. I can say without Changmin, I cannot get to the position I am right now.

So, my plan was to announce to the world that I am looking for a wife, and whoever is interested can send in their information. The top five that's left will have individual meetings with Changmin. Then Changmin will choose the final one among those five to be my future wife. I put on the deadline of this to be one month only, so Changmin is basically driving crazy by me.

Why do I want to get married in this way? I don't know how to put this, but I did have dates with a few girls before. However, I feel nothing special about any of them no matter what type they are. I do have my own preferring types, which is that I want girls who are independent, a little sporty but not too much, natural beauty, and has a warm heart. I went through a few dates and nothing sparked me, and sometimes I wonder if I have met the right type of girls or not.

Don't get me wrong, I would never consider myself gay, however, I don't know if I can fall in love with a guy or not since I never tried before. I don't think gay couples are disgusting, but I am not willing to try myself either. Though, sometimes I do wonder whether is that I haven't met the right person, or if I haven't met the right person with the right gender? Okay, this just made me sound gay, but I am pretty sure I don't love guys otherwise I would have just dated Changmin already.

"EWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!"

"Changmin! Why are you still here?"

"I just came back to give you some files and what do I see on your screen now? You want to date me? EWWW! JUNG YUNHO GET AWAY FROM ME!"

I closed my laptop and turned over to Changmin was I rolled my eyes, "There is something called privacy that I would like to keep!"

"Geez Yunho, if you love me, you could have told me already instead of asking me to find you a wife!" Changmin playfully pushed me lightly on the shoulder like girls would do.

"Shim Changmin, if you touch me like that one more time I am going to literally kick you out from my office!"

"What? You are the one said you love me first!"

"ARGH! I never said that!" Getting frustrated by a sentence I clearly know was a joke. Changmin sometimes has his ways to get my frustrated, and he is good at it too.

Changmin laughed and said: "Okay! Okay! I just want to tell you, all those information are up on the net already if you want to look at it. I told them all of your information that you are willing to provide and I will be checking my e-mail 24/7 from now on."

"Whatever! Just don't get too hang up in this, you still need to do your job for the company." I said and drink some coffee that Changmin just brought me.

"Then are you going to double my salary?" Changmin asked.

I looked up at Changmin and smiled, then frowned as I yelled: "OUT!"

Changmin pouted and stepped out: "Jung Yunho! You bastard!"

His voice echoed in the hallway, and I hit my forehead. Is it okay to let the company know that my secretary calls me a bastard? Oh well, he does that all the time I bet the rest of the workers are used to it already.

Ring.. Ring..

"Hello?" My phone vibrated on the table. There goes my other best buddy..

"Yo! Yunnie the bear!"

"Park Yoochun! *rolls eyes* Will you ever stop calling me that?"

"Haha! Okay.. okay.. anyways, I just saw this interesting thing on the net that said, Jung Yunho is looking for a wife! And I wanted to ask.. WHAT THE *BEEP*?"

"Yoochun! Watch your mouth!" I sighed, "Why are you so surprised? I told you this already."

"What the hell, Yunho? You are the president of Jung's company, and you are looking for a wife this way? The whole world is going to laugh at you!"

"Why would they laugh at me? I just want a wife! That's all!" I don't understand Yoochun sometimes. He has a very weird logic.

"You are such a high class and number one rich unmarried man in Korea right now! And you are looking for a wife through internet and newspaper? I thought you were kidding me when you first time me. What is wrong with you? Don't you see all those girls dying to marry you or just sleep with you all around you?" Yoochun exclaimed his voice through the phone.

"So? If I am going to marry someone I don't even love then I would rather get with a girl at least with a good personality and I made Changmin taking care of this business. I will just sit here and wait for the wedding."

"Whatever! I don't understand your logic!" There goes again, he is talking about my logic when he clearly has a logic problem.

Yoochun then asked: "same place tonight? Tell Changmin to come over too! Don't just stay home with his girlfriend all the time. Tell him, I miss him and I want a big hug from him!"

"Stop seducing my secretary!" I laughed from hearing Yoochun's gay comments.

Yoochun laughed along and said: "Alright! See you later then!"

I hanged up the phone and had no energy to go into those boring workers, somehow, this coming up wedding is indeed making me excited. It is not because I will marry the one I love, it is just because for god's sake I can finally get married. I guess this is what makes people become more mature and feel like a real man for once. I hope Changmin is having fun picking out those top five girls right now.

I stood up and walked over to the window, and yet, it has been raining ever since the morning. I really enjoy rainy days when most people hate it. I looked out on the street and there are barely anyone walking around, but I eyes suddenly stopped at one spot. I moved closer to the window and put my hands on the glass trying to get a clearly sight at what I was looking at. There is a person standing across the street under the rain facing my direction. I couldn't see the person's face, but I know he or she must be soaking wet because it is raining very hard and he or she is not holding anything to shed itself from the rain.

I couldn't tell what exactly is he or she looking at, but the person is facing my direction without moving an inch. Should I go bring an umbrella to him or her? He or she might get sick from the rain. Wow, what is happening to me? I was never this nice or caring for anything, but I don't want to see that person get sick. Oh well! I took two umbrellas and rushed toward the elevator. My office is at the top floor so it will take me a while to go down there, hopefully, he or she is still there.

I rushed out from the building and opened my umbrella for myself, and held onto the other one while looking straight for the light to turn green. When I finally crossed the street, I turned my head left and right to try to find the person. Then my eyes stopped on a slim guy with long hair but its soaking wet right now, and a white shirt that's already half transparent from the rainwater. He is staring at me right now, although his black hair is covering half of his face, I could tell those big eyes are looking directly at me. His lips were rosy red yet trembling from the coldness. Why is he standing here in the rain if he is shaking from the cold?

I walked over to him while he stared at me the whole time, and when I stopped my footstep in front of him, he smiled at me weakly which shocked me a lot, but the next thing that happened shocked me even more. I felt those cold lips toughed mine while he wrapped his arms around my neck and brought me into an unexpected kiss.

GAH! What is going on? He is a freak! Mentally ill! Curse myself for caring for a total stranger! I must have been kicked by a pig to try to care for a sick person on the street! But when I just tried to push him away, I felt his body slide down from mine. I widened my eyes and looked down at him feeling his body getting heavier and heavier.

What the hell? He kissed me and he fainted? GAH! Just my luck! I looked around and people were staring at me weirdly, what are they looking at? I didn't do anything to him? Aish! I had no choice but to carry the guy up and rushed toward my car in the parking lot. I placed him in the back seat and called Changmin to tell him that I am going home, and then I looked back at the guy once more before I drove home with this unconscious, sick, freaky stranger.

Aish.. why are you so nice, Jung Yunho?

Chapter 2

Rated

I got home and placed the stranger on the bed in the guest room. Why didn't I place him on my own bed like those scenes happening in those romantic fan fictions? WHAT DO YOU THINK? BECAUSE THOSE ARE JUST FAN FICTION THIS IS REALITY! Let me spell that.. R-E-A-L-I-T-Y! Yeah! I can spell! Anyways, back to what I was saying, looking at this freak, his whole body is covered with rainwater? Do you guys really want me to place him on my own bed and wet my whole bed? (Everyone nods) *rolls eyes* you all are just insane!

So, anyways, I placed him on the guest bed and god he is really soaking wet from the rain and his body is shaking. I know he is going to get sick if he lies down in those wet clothes, even though he is already sick.. mentally sick.. but it wouldn't be good to be physically sick as well..

I sighed and helped him taking off his shoes, and I started to unbutton his shirt. *turns to the camera* Don't stare at me like that, we are both guys why can't I unbutton his shirt? *turns back* so I began to unbutton his shirt so I can take those wet clothes off, and taking off his pants. Phew! At least he is out of his wet clothes, but I couldn't help to stare at his body. No! No! I am not a pervert, it's just he is way too skinny and pale for a guy. I looked up at his face, then I suddenly looked down at his chest. Nope, his chest is flat, he is really a man! I thought he was a girl when I look at his face, how can a guy look so much like a girl?

Whatever! Enough of me worrying about this sick freak, I pulled a blanket over his body and went out from the room. I called a maid to take care of him after he wakes up, and I went to take a shower myself. Yes, I got wet from the rain all thanks to him too.

Stepping into the tub I let the warm water run down my body, and I suddenly remembered the kiss. Yeah! That kiss! His lips were so soft, but why did he suddenly kiss me? He is a guy and I am a guy? Or.. *looks over at the mirror* do I look like a girl? *grin* *smile* *giggle* Okay, I give up! I don't think I look like a girl in anyways, so.. that means.. he is.. GAY? I gasped and covered my mouth even though I was screaming in my mind only.

He is gay! Wow! This is the first time I am so closed to a gay! Well, I should have thought of it, he is so girly, so he should be gay, right? What was it called? I think I have read this somewhere, so he is the "Yuk". Man I do know some of those YAOI terms. *Clears throat* Yea.. anyways.. I got out from the shower and wrapped a towel around my waist. But when I opened my bathroom door..

"GAH!"

*Smile from the stranger*

"Thanks for taking care of me!" He said with a light smile on his face.

I looked up at him for the first time, and then I smelled my own scent from his body. He smelled his own hair and whispered: "I just took a shower too, and I like this smell."

"Erm.." I felt uncomfortable talking with a stranger and both of us bare chest in front of each other. I am in a towel only, and he is in his jeans that were already dried by my maids. I looked away and for unknowing reasons, I felt my cheek started to burn by staring at his face and bare chest.

I heard a few giggles from him and the next thing I know was that I was pushed up against the wall inside my bathroom with his two arms blocking my way to escape. I stared at his face: "Yah! What do you think you are doing?"

"You are hot!"

"You sick freak!"

He smiled: "You think I am a freak? How cute?"

"Then what else can you be, when you just go around and kiss people. After you kiss them you just pretend to faint and sneak into people's house like right now!"

"Correction! I didn't sneak into your house! You brought me back, and if you didn't want to bring me back, you could have just left me on the street! Also, I never pretend to faint. I really fainted!"

"Then how come you are awake right after I took a shower?"

"Are you stupid? I fainted, but I am not in a coma, so of course I will wake up whenever I feel like waking up!"

I held onto his arms and trying to break free from him: "Then let me go! What do you think you are doing right now? And you call yourself not a freak!"

"I never said I am not a freak!" He smiled at me seductively knowing that he is not stronger than me and I will break free in any second. But just when I was about to push him away, he immediately kissed me on the lips and this action made my whole body weakened again. He took the chance to hold onto my arms and squeezed my body against the wall with his body on top of mine.

Oh my god! What have I gotten myself into? But.. his lips are so soft, and he is so good at kissing? How can I feel so right while kissing a guy? He deepens the kiss and played with my tongue. I stick out my tongue for him to lick and suck, and I know I am enjoying this very much.

He stopped in the middle and I looked puzzled at him, but then he pulled on my arm and whispered: "Let's go to your bedroom!"

I stared at him, and then he smirked: "Or do you prefer bathrooms more?"

"I.."

"Come on!"

He pulled me out from the bathroom and I could feel my member already hardened from that hot kiss and his bare chest against my own. Staring at his back while him pulling onto my arm, I know I am attracted to this guy that I don't even know the name of. What is happening to me, and what is going to happen to me tonight?

He didn't know which room is my bedroom, so I ended up leading the way. And when we just closed the door, he immediately wrapped his arm around my neck and started to kiss me with those hot lips again. We closed our eyes and started to turn our head to opposite directions deepening with the kiss.

"Mmm.."

He moaned softly, and I was so turned on by that voice. I don't care what is going to happen anymore, and I want this hot stranger right now. Suddenly, I carried him up bridle style and dropped him on the bed. He pulled the towel off from my body, and I began to unzip his pants. We throw the last piece of each other's clothing on the group and stared at each other with lust.

I began to kiss his chest, and played with those pink nipples. He moaned softly and massaging my bare member in a circular pattern. So, I see, this is not the first time for him to have sex with a man. I rubbed his ass, and brought his legs up the bed. He pulled my hand over his mouth and started to lick my fingers seductively. I watched him licking every one of my fingers and making them very wet, then he looked over at me and smiled: "Insert them one by one in me!"

I nodded and moved my hand down to his private part as I started to insert my first finger into his hole. I jumped a little and moaned with lust, then I inserted another one.. and another one.. I could feel his little hole tightened around my fingers, and his face started to have a painful yet enjoyable expression..

"Take your fingers out!"

I listened to him and took them out, then he got up from the bed and made me kneel up straight on the bed. I watched him leaning toward my super hardened member and took it into his mouth.

"Ah.."

I gasped at those hot lips wrapped around my member, and he started to lick them and thrust it in and out of his mouth. I watched him licking me like licking a lollipop, and surprised at how good he is. My pre-cum licked out uncontrollably, and he took it out form my mouth.

Then he smiled at me, and turned his back to face me while kneeling down with his knees and hands. His ass pointing directly at my member, and he said: "Do me!"

I grabbed onto his waist and positioned myself, slowly pushing forward. I felt my tip pushed into him.

"Ah.. Uhh.."

He moaned, and I pushed in more till my whole member is inside. Oh god, he is tight! I thought he was very experienced, but how can he be this tight?

"Are you okay?" I asked to make sure he is not in pain.

He nodded without saying anything, and I started to thrust in and out slowly at first. He moaned loudly and asking me to go faster and faster. The bed shakes in a pattern and I closed my eyes enjoying the pleasure this stranger is giving me. Gosh! I could already feel love in and out of me.

I started to thrust super fast, and he moaned none stop.. his voice is so sweet.. and I love the way he moans, it sounded prettier and more attractive than any girl in the world..

I grabbed onto his member and started to move my hand up and down for him to have the pleasure. Soon, both of us reached our orgasm. "AHHHHH" I cum into his hole, and he shoots his on my hand.

I collapsed on his body and it felt so soft. If I didn't know he was a guy already, I would have mistaken his body for a girl. I smelled his hair, it was mixed with his own and mine scents.

His body moved up and down under mine and gasping for air, I flipped off from him and looked over at his face. I removed the hair that was covering his face and stared at this strange beauty. He is so beautiful..

He opened his eyes and smiled at me: "You are good!"

"What is your name?" I asked.

He smiled and touches my face with his hand: "I will tell you the next time I meet you!"

"What if I don't meet you again?" I asked worriedly and desperately wanting to know his name.

"Then just think of this as a one night stand, so you don't need to know my name!" He whispered and closed his eyes.

I stared at him for a while and felt a little upset. So this is only a one night stand to him? I felt my eye-lids started to touch each other and soon I fell into a deep yet sweet dream..

Around mid-night, I woke up by the vibration sound on the table from my cell phone. I got up and looked around my room, it was dark already. I touched the other side of my bed.. it was empty.. he already left..

"Hello?" I answered the phone with a yawn, and feeling completely upset.

"YAH! WHERE ARE YOU? CHANGMIN AND I ALREADY WAITED FOR AN HOUR!" Yoochun yelled into my ear.

"Aish.. stop yelling, I will be right there!"

I hanged up the phone and changed into casual clothes as I stepped out from the house. I got into my car, but I couldn't take my mind of that beautiful stranger. Who is he? What is his job? Does he always go around and sleep with different people like that? Is he a player?

I stepped into the bar and found Changmin and Yoochun drinking already, and then waved to me as I walked over. There were bunches of girls around us, and I kept on trying to push them away. Changmin just rolled his eyes and ignored them, and Yoochun kept on smiling at them and trying to stop them from touching his body. We chatted and talked like usual, but this night I drink more than I should, because I remembered throwing up after I went back home and nothing else was in my memory till I woke up in the bathroom the next morning with a big hang over..

Am I upset because of him? I want to meet him again..

Chapter 3

Slighty Rated

What a weirdo?

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The next day I woke up on the bathroom floor, and I had the biggest headache ever. Aish.. I really think I need some coffee..

Ring.. Ring..

"Hello?"

"Yah! Where are you? Hello? Time to wake up! You have a lot of work to do! Come to office!" Changmin's voice sounding like a mother from the other side of the phone..

"Aish! Stop being so noisy in the morning! I have a hang over!"

"Hang over? When did you get so bad at drinking? You want to take a day off?"

"No! I will be there! Prepare some coffee for me!"

"Okay!"

Changmin hanged up the phone and I quickly started to get clean myself up and change into clean shirt and suit, but I felt that I have the worst headache ever. Ahhh.. my head is hurting as if someone is playing drum inside..

I don't even know how did I arrive to my office, but when I opened the door I stared at Changmin with his legs up on my desk, drinking coffee, eating cookies, and reading a magazine in his hand.

"You know I can fire you for what you are doing right now!"

Changmin pulled the magazine down and grinned: "You don't look very good today."

I hit my head a few times: "Aish.. my head hurts so much.. where is my coffee?"

"Here!" Changmin hands me a cup of coffee and stood up from my chair as he pulled another chair over to my table and continued with his cookies.

I looked over at him after I took a sip of the coffee, and suddenly, I widened my eyes and stared at the magazine he was holding.

"Yah.. what is that in your hand?"

Changmin looked up and then looked down at himself, "This? A cookie?"

"I know that's a cookie! I am not stupid okay? I am talking about the magazine." I rolled my eyes.

"Like you said, this is called a magazine." Changmin is being a smartass again and smirked at me.

"What kind of magazine is it?" I asked.

Changmin flipped to the cover and then looked over at me with a smile on his face: "You were looking at him right? He is the top model of the year, even though he is new but he took the best male model award of the year and many people are jealous and envies at his progress. He is something special, because many photographers commented that he got popular so fast was because he has the features of both male and female. He is the beauty of the two gender's combined, and this way he shined so much in front of the camera."

I stared at this top model Changmin is talking about and couldn't believe my own eyes.. because.. he is that stranger who came across my life and making me so miserable right now..

"What's his name?"

"Kim Jaejoong!"

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Kim Jaejoong! He is a model? That's why his body was so nice, but I wonder what Changmin read from the magazine is true or not. If it is true, then this guy really has a lot of trouble behind himself. I guess the problem of being so popular is that you can't keep any of your privacy..

Flash back..

"Why are you interested in him?" Changmin mocked me and I just shout him a glare.

"Wow! Don't glare like that, you know your mad face is scary enough and not to mention about your glare. But anyways, if you ARE interested in him, then forget it.. he is taken.. according to what I just read in this magazine.."

"Taken? What do you mean?"

Changmin opened the magazine to the page that talked about Jaejoong, and he pointed at a few scandal pictures of Jaejoong hugging and holding hands with some guy while both of them have hats on and looking down. One picture, Jaejoong was walking behind this one guy and both looked surprised at the camera. Changmin continued: "They said he is gay, and he is currently dating with his manager."

I felt my heart hurt a little, but I kept on my calm face: "A model dating with his manager, other than the fact that they are both guys but now day, I think it is normal right?"

"What is not normal is that his manager is a married man. Changmin bits on his cookie, and said, "They said, Kim Jaejoong is destroying a family and the wife is yet to find out the truth."

Flash ended..

He is those kind of people who breaks other's family? But.. he.. well, I guess I really don't know much behind that face and body. If he can go sleep around with strangers, then I guess he is those kind of people who steals other's lovers or husband away. However, I know deep down my heart, I am still taking his side and believe that there is more to the scandal.

I wanted to meet him again everyday, and I hoped that I would bomb into him randomly so I started to give myself random reasons to go to any public places. But suddenly I thought I was really stupid for doing so, because a famous model like him wouldn't hang out at public places. How stupid can I get?

I drove back home under the moonlight, and I parked my car as I dragged my leg out from the car and walked toward my house. When I lifted my head up I almost fall down on the ground.. it's him..

He turned around when he heard my feet-steps and slowly he smiled at me sweetly: "Long time no see."

"Kim Jaejoong?"

Hearing me calling his name, his smile fainted and he looked away: "So, you found out, huh?"

"You are really Kim Jaejoong? That model?" I asked and walked toward him.

"Yes, I am!" he said, "But since you already figured out who I am, then I can't come to see you anymore."

He walked passed my shoulder and said coldly: "This is not fun anymore, why did you have to know who I am? I guess I will go find my other one-night lovers from now on."

I suddenly felt angry in myself and just when he walked past me, I grabbed onto his waist and pulled him back.

"Why are you acting like this? Are you really enjoying yourself like this?"

I know I have no position to ask him these questions, but I really wanted to and I can't control myself.

He laughed at me: "What do you think you are doing? You think you are the press or something? Sorry, I have no rights to tell anything to a stranger that I don't even know the name of."

I stared at him as I pushed him down on the ground hard, and immediately, I punched him on the face hard as he fail on the ground hard. I couldn't believe what I just did, but this guy can really make me so angry.

I stared at him while still holding onto my tightened fist shaking, slowly, he turned over and touched the corner of his mouth and shoot me a glare. He pushed himself up and yelled: "Do you know I am a model? How can you punch my face? I need this face to make survival do you know that?"

"I just want you get your senses back!" I yelled back.

"Who are you to me anyways? What business is it to you of what I do with my life? I like to live my life this way, and I like to have one-night stands with guys. This is just me! If you don't like it, you could have rejected me!" He yelled and widened his big eyes at me.

I sighed our hardly and grabbed onto his neck from the back as I pushed him toward me and crashed my lips on his. He struggled in my arms, but I held onto him tightly. He may be a model with nice body, but for a guy, he is rather weak.

After a while, I softened the kiss and licked around his soft lips that are so hard to resist. I am drowned to this beauty once again, and I may just be a one-night lover to him, but if he can come to me whenever he is troubled then I am satisfied. He made me a fool..

I carried him up in my arms and walked into my house. I walked straight up to my bedroom while still kissing his ears and neck, and his soft moans were turning me on so much. I hope he is enjoying this just as much as I do, and more than enjoying I feel my heart warming up with him in my arms.

"Ahh.." He moaned into my ears while I dropped him on my bed.

He closed his eyes while I am kissing him everywhere, and I heard him saying seductively: "You are getting better at this."

I smiled a little and whispered into his left ear while kissing it: "You just don't know how good I am."

He smiled at me and hugged around my neck: "Then make me moan."

His seductive words are such entice to me. I know I can't control myself anymore, even though, I know this is a sin of what we are doing, but.. I can't help myself about falling for this beauty.. he is beautiful..

Unstoppable kissing, touching, moaning, and rocking of our bodies.. we soon brought each other to heaven once again.. his soft skin rubbing against mine, and his smooth chest with those pinkish nipples moving up and down in a fast pattern with his fastened breath.

"AHHHHHH!" I shouted and cum into him.

Then I dropped on his body and hugged him who is lying under me, he hugged onto my tightly and whispered: "You are really good. It was very enjoyable."

I turned my head toward him and kisses his cheek: "Jaejoong.."

"eh?" He turned his head over to mine.

"Can you don't leave for tonight?" I asked while playing with his long and silky hair.

He laughed and poked my nose with his long finger: "Why are you acting like a baby now? What happened to the great Jung Yunho who is the CEO of the Jung's company?"

"You know who I am?"

"Of course! Or else why would I show up in front of your company?"

"But.."

"Shhh.. you talk to much.."

"Jaejoong, you have seen me before? How did you know me?"

He kissed on my lips to stop my questions, and whispered: "Go to sleep now, I am tired. Don't worry, I won't leave tonight."

We fixed our positions and he snuggled into my embrace as I hugged onto him tightly, and for the whole night I have been holding onto him so tightly afraid that he might disappear anytime..

He smelled so sweet.. and I wondered how did he know me.. but, I don't care.. at least he is with me for now..

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Chapter 4

The first ray of the morning sun-light shined on my eyes, and I stretched a little to wake up, but suddenly my body jerked a little while my hand searched around me. I popped my eyes open and looked around me.. it's empty.. I am as usual lying on my bed by myself and there isn't anyone beside me..

I sat up immediately and looked around the room and looked over at the bathroom, but there was no sigh of him anywhere. He left already? But he said he won't leave today, so he left after all.. I should have known better.. why would I even believe in a stranger like him, but in my heard, I felt deeply disappointed and sad..

I got out from the bed and dragged my body into the shower room to wash my tiredness and sadness away.. why did I even trust him in the first place.. I thought he actually agreed that he won't sneak away at night again..

After a short shower, I finally felt that I woke up from the sleepiness and coming back to reality once again. I walked down the stairs but when I turned to the kitchen I thought I heard some weird noises.

I looked over and there is light coming out from the kitchen, my heart started to jump in an abnormally rhythmic beat. Slowly, I walked into my kitchen and found that familiar body moving around in my kitchen busy making food.

I walked closer and trying to be as quiet as I can, maybe it's because he is too concentrated on food, he didn't notice my existence at all. I looked at this beautiful creature in front of me and I know I can't suppress my feelings anymore. Slowly, my arms wrapped around that slim waist from the back as my body leaned onto his back and hugged him tightly.

His body jerked from the shock, but then he softened and lets me hug him. I smelled his hair and whispered: "I thought you left.."

"I told you I won't leave. I just wanted to make some breakfast for you." He said with is soft voice.

"Thank you for not leaving me.." I whispered into his ear.

He smiled lightly and continued with his food as I sat down on my dinning table and staring at his back as if he has some kind of magic against me.

"I have a week off from my job, so I don't have to leave so early."

"You mean.. your job as a model?"

"Yeah! I finally get a break.. I have been looking forward for this.. I have been so tired and exhausted from all those busy schedules. You can't imagine my life as a model.. everyone just thought I only have to smile into the camera and look good all the time, then I will get my money, but there are much more to it in this job of mine."

He placed the food on my table in front of me, and he smiled at me lightly, "Eat up! I barely have time to cook for anyone nowadays. You are a lucky person."

I dig in the food, and couldn't believe that he cooks so good for a guy. Also, I haven't ate home cooking in a million years, and this just taste so good.

"Where did you get the food? I don't remember having these at home."

"Yea, I had to wake up a little early to go out in that store near you place to get these food, because I figured you wouldn't have anytime." He said and sat down eating with me.

"Erm.. Jaejoong.." I said and gulped as he looked up at me.

"How did you know my name? Did you know me way before you met me that down on the street?" I asked curiously.

Jaejoong just smiled and looked down at his plate: "You know you business people are tightly connected with the entertainment circle, so it is not hard to learn all those business people who are high in your field."

"So.. you are here to seduce me because I am high in my field of business?" I asked in a playful voice.

"Haha.. I don't ever seduce people.. I only seduce the camera." Jaejoong answered. "But.. I do admit it was very random to meet you and I didn't know we would become like this either.. honestly, I didn't know I would see you for the second time, but my legs just led me to your house when I was taking a walk randomly, and when I realized, I was already in front of you house."

So, I was after just a one-night stand to him, but if he came to see me again, does that mean he feels something about me?

"So, do you have work today? If you don't.. do you want to go to the beach with me? I have a house there, and when I want to relax, I would go there." Jaejoong said, but somehow his voice became really sad and soft.

I looked over at him and found an unusual sadness in his eyes, and I thinks for a second then decided to take today off. I don't know why, but I want to spend more time with him and I want to know more about him. I am really questioning if I turned gay or not, because I can't believe I let myself physically be with a guy and also emotionally caring for this guy.

I called Changmin and told him to take care of everything for me, and if there is something that needs my attention then I will have to push it off till later.

"So, I am fully in charge now?" Changmin asked excitedly.

"Yes.. yes.. *rolls eyes*"

"A sa! I am going to destroy your company Jung Yunho! You won't even see the building anymore after you come back." Changmin threatened.

"Shim Changmin! If you do that, I am going to send you to Africa when I come back with the last bit of money in my account." I yelled into the phone.

Changmin: "Aish.. why are you treating your dearest friend like this?"

"If you don't like it, then listen to my order, shut up and do your work!" I said jokingly, and I could already see Changmin's pout on the other side.

"Fine!"

*Hangs up*

"You sound close with your secretary.." Jaejoong said with a smile on his face and then pulled out a small suit-case, "I packed for you!"

"What? You packed for me? How did you know what I need?"

"We are both guys, of course I know what you need, shower and wash up things, lotions, few shirts and pants outside and inside.. shaving things.. and boxers.."

"YOU EVEN PACKED MY BOXERS?"

Jaejoong blinked a few times at me because of my sudden loud voice and shrugged, "Yea? Why? Are you still shy with me when I have already seen everything of yours?"

I felt my face blushing so much so I turned away from him and grabbed the suit-case, asked, "We are driving your car or mine?"

"Yours.. I don't like driving long trips, and I already put my luggage in you back trunk.." He said and walked down the stairs toward the front door.

This guy seems to already have everything planned out, and I suddenly felt that I know too little about him and he had been taking control of everything that is going to happen. I got into the car and looked over at him who is already sitting in the passenger seat, "put your seat belt on.."

"I don't like it.." He simply replied..

I sighed and said, "It's for your own safety. Put your seat belt on."

"What are you? A control freak?" He fought back.

I glared over at him and he sighed as he fastened the sight belt on and murmured, "I can't believe everyone likes to control me so much.."

I whispered back, "It's because you can't take care of yourself.."

I started the car and found him looking over at me for a while then turned his head away. I don't know what it is, but the atmosphere was so quiet the whole time and Jaejoong seemed to be thinking about something the whole time.

He was staring out from the window and looking up at the sky or at random trees that we passed by on the rode. Sometimes, I can hear fainted sighs coming from him, and when I look over, he would be quickly wiping the corner of his eyes. Is he crying? Why? I wonder what it is that's making him so upset.

Finally, we arrived and he got out from the car stretching his back. I took our suit-cases out and looked at the big beach house near the beautiful and blue sea water in front of my eyes.

"This place is beautiful right?" Jaejoong asked when he saw me staring at the view.

"Yea.. how did you get this place?" I asked amazingly because I know for a beach house like this, it would cost normal people their whole life to earn the cost. As a model, I know he can be rich, but he is just a starting model, how can he buy such a place?

I looked over at him, and suddenly, he frowned a little and said in a soft voice: "It was a gift from a friend.. you are the first person I brought to here.."

I stared at him as he walked toward the house with his suit-case, and in my heart, I am getting really confused at this stranger in front of me.. is he still a stranger to me now.. but actually, I really don't know anything about him. Maybe, today, I will find out more..

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Chapter 5

Jaejoong cooked lunch and packed them in a basket, and then he asked me to join him for lunch along the beach. We sat out on the sand and looked forward at a the spot where the ocean connects with the sky..

"Do you know why I like it here so much?"

I kept silent..

"Because there is no press.. no scandal.. no argument.. no anything annoying and frustrating here.."

Scandal.. is it the scandal of him and his manager? He is going to tell me his story now? I am very curious, so I can't help myself but asked.

"Jaejoong.."

"Just call me Jae.."

"Okay! Jae, actually, I have heard about your scandal already.. and.."

He cuts me off, "That's not hard! That scandal is written all over newspapers and magazines."

"I was just wondering if you are bothered by it or not and if you are.. if you want to talk to someone, then you can talk to me about it." I answered and tried to be careful with my words.

Jae smiled and looked up at the sky: "Looks like everyone wants to hear my story.. not only the press.."

Jae turned to me, and I felt a little mad of his comparisons with me and those annoying presses, "If you don't want to tell, then you don't have to. I don't need to know, and I have a life also. Why did I even take my work days off to come here with me?"

I stood up and Jae probably realized that I am getting mad, so he quickly grabbed onto my arm and pulled onto me, "If my words hurt you in any ways, then forgive me.. I never meant to be rude.."

I turned back and saw him looking up at me with his innocent and puppy eyes, gosh, when did this model learn how to act? But he looks very.. *Smiles* cute..

"Okay.. okay.. stop looking at me like that.." I announced my defeat.

Jae smiled at me and opened the basket, and he placed the food he just made in front of me, "Let's eat. You must bee hungry and tired from the driving.."

I took over the food and started to eat.. well, I did announce my defeat but he successfully switched the topic also. Just when I gave up on my hope to learn more about him, he opened his mouth..

"The scandal is true."

Jae sighed and lied down on the sand with his eyes closed. He turned his face over to the other side and whispered with a soft voice but made his words audible..

"His name is Choi Siwon, and he is my manager. He was the one who discovered me and made me into the model. He introduced me to the company and promoted me with all his might, after all, I have to admit that I got to where I am today has to all thank to him."

I looked over at him, and he continued..

"Before I meet Siwon, I was only a waiter in a restaurant. I don't have parents, so I don't have money to go to college. After high school, the only work I could get was as waiter in restaurants. One day, Siwon went to the restaurant I worked at, and ever since that day, he would always come but only order the simplest food. One day after my work, I saw him leaning on the car outside and waiting for me. Then he handed me his business card and asked me if I was interested in modeling."

So that Siwon showed up in front of Jae only because he thought Jae was a really good material for model? Well.. that is true.. I don't see anything wrong with Jae's face or body, he is flawless as he is.. but, how did the scandal happen?

Jae's face was still facing the other side and I couldn't see any expression on his face after the paused for such a long time. I could hear him sighing lightly and maybe sobbing softly, but I wasn't sure..

Jae continued: "I then started my life as a model, but at first, it wasn't successful at all. All the magazines and advertisements were looking for male that are strictly manly looking or females that are very girly looking. There must be no mix in genders, but.. look at me.. I can be mixed up by many people as male or female.. this type of model was never promoted on screen before, and it was hard for anyone to accept me appearance even though they all admitted that I have a good feature as model. Siwon then started to work around in all companies and any magazines.. newspaper.. he really worked hard for my first appearance in public.. maybe its because he worked so hard to help me and made me felt very touched and warm.."

"He sounds like a very hard working manager.." I commented, but hearing Jae complimenting other guys so much made my heart sink a little.

"He is.. as a manager.. he is a great and a very good friend also.. but just when things were getting better and when I was getting toward the top of my career and his as well.. the stupid scandal broke out." Jae said, "The newspaper said, Siwon looked after me more than just a friend or brother. They also had many pictures of Siwon and I close to each other or go out to drink."

"If they could have pictures then that means you two do have something with each other.. right?" I asked.

Jae shakes his head: "At that time, there was nothing. I admit I started to like Siwon and watching him working so hard to promote me really made me felt touching and very heart warming. I never thought he liked me as well, till.."

Jae paused and this time I swear I could hear him sobbing, Jae said in his crying voice that I have never heard of before, "Siwon asked me to go somewhere with him all of the sudden, because of the scandal we never hang out anymore. That day, he pushed me into his car and drove me to this place.. here.."

I pointed at the beach house and Jae nodded, and then continued: "That day was my birthday, and he confessed that he has fallen for me ever since he saw me the first time, and then we both knew that the scandal was actually real. Siwon and I ate a dinner inside the house, but I don't know why Siwon drank so much that night, and he couldn't even stand up, so I took him up the bedroom. That night was the fateful night, and we gave ourselves to each other fully."

I looked down and felt my heart aching with pain hearing Jae telling me this.. but when he turned over I saw tears sliding down from his cheeks. Slowly, he sat up and wiped his tears away..

"Then.. why don't you two announce to be together? I am sure our society will be okay with boy and boy love now, especially that you have such a pretty appearance, so no one would be too surprised right?" I asked my heart still hurt seeing him like this.

Jae smiled lightly and looked over at me, I could tell that he is very hurt inside, Jae said: "Thanks for complimenting on my looks, even though I get that all the time as a model but your comment makes me happier."

I reached my hand out and patted him on the head as he smiled cutely with tears still visible on his cheek. He is very cute indeed, and very pretty looking.. I wonder why didn't that Siwon guy stay with him if he likes Jae so much..

"Jae.. so, Siwon is really married?" I asked remembering what Changmin told me.

Jae frowned a little and whispered, "After that night, Siwon told me he is getting married in a week because our company made him since the scandal had gone too big and it is damaging my image."

"So he did?"

Jae nodded: "He did. .he also told me that after his marriage, he would still love me and his heart would still be with me."

"So, he is going to cheat on his wife for you?"

"That's what he said.. but soon, I found out his wife was pregnant even before his marriage to her.. he was lying to me the whole time.. our company did try to break us up, but they weren't forceful like he said, and they definitely didn't force him to marry a girl that he didn't like. Siwon's wife has been Siwon's classmate in management class, and they have been friends for a long time till the girl confessed." Jae said and blinked his tears away before they would roll out again.

I looked at Jae hurtfully, but Jae just smiled and turned to me: "The day I found out the truth was when I met you on the street."

My mouth formed an "O" shape and nodded my head, "So you decided to sleep with me so you can forget about Siwon?"

Jae looked up and sighed: "I thought I could allow myself to go sleep around with random people and then I will just trash myself and destroy myself.."

"So then he would pity you and look over at you again? And you think that way you can grab his attention again?" I asked and I felt very mad that Jae wanted to just trash himself like that because of a guy who lied to him.

Jae looked down: "I.."

"You are really the dumbest person in the world. Do you really think he is worth you love like that?" I asked him and I stood up.

I looked over at him who is still looking down at the sand, then I sighed and walked away. I need to calm myself down. I don't know why, obviously, I am just a one night stand to Jae. Other than the fact that I had physical relationship with him, then I am no different to him than any strangers on the road. He only loves that Siwon who is currently married to another woman. Why is everything so complicated? But do I even have the place to get mad? Aren't I getting married in a month also?

"Yunho.." Jae's soft voice woke me up from my thoughts.

I was sitting down on the coach in the living room, and when I turned over Jae was sitting beside me. I don't know when did he come back into the house, but he is staring at me now. He reached over to my hand and I was a little shocked, then he said softly: "Actually.. you are the first person who I slept with.. and I never had any other one night stands, I found myself unable to do so when I go to bars and look at any other guys.."

I looked up at him and held onto his hand tighter, and then I asked: "Do you still love him?"

Jae sighed and looked into my eyes: "If love is a drug, then I am on the edge of dying because of the overdoes of drug."

I nodded in understanding, and slowly, I pushed him into my embrace.. I felt him shaking from tearing up, and I know that maybe no one can replace Siwon in his heart, because they have went through so much, but at least I could give him some warmth when he needed it.

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Chapter 6

I am getting married in a month..

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I looked down at Jae's sleeping face on my laps, he looked so peaceful in his sleeps. At this moment, I can't tell any signs of a super model on him, he is just a normal person who needs love and protection. But.. the only person in his heart is Siwon.. even if Siwon isn't there, can I give him what he wants? I am getting married to some girl that I don't even know in a month.. aren't I?

I have to admit, Jaejoong's appearance in my life really messed up what I have planned already, and I can't believe I am being deeply attached to him already. Even though, I am just a person that he met randomly on street, but I can't help to think about him all the time. He looked so hurt.. he looked so fragile.. he looked so.. lost.. maybe Siwon is only person who can bring him happiness..

Usually, I would think those entertainment scandals are all ugly and stupid, but this time.. I am actually touched by his story.. whether its true or not, but from his tears, I can tell.. everything is true that came out from his mouth..

Slowly, Jae moved a little and he groaned as he took his phone out from his pant's pocket while answering it with a sleepy voice..

"Hello?"

"Why should I tell you where I am? I am on vacation anyways."

"Okay, I will be back on time."

He hanged up the call and throws the phone on the table, and before the screen turn back to the main page, I read the name.. "Choi Siwon".. it's Siwon..

Jae sat up and groaned with a little anger as he walked into the kitchen to pour a cup of water. I could tell his eyes are puffy from the crying, slowly, I approached him and hugged onto his slim waist from the back..

"Are you okay?"

"Why wouldn't I be?"

His voice was soft and calm, I felt him sighing out hard and closed his eyes as he leaned his head on my shoulder. He whispered into my ears, "Can you hug me tighter?"

I did as he asked, and he held onto my arms while feeling my arms around his waist. Slowly, he turned around and stared into my eyes while asking me: "Do you know why I am here?"

I shake my head and he smiled..

"I already broke up with him and I told him that I won't love him anymore, so I need to come back to where I first begin with him and end it."

I looked at him and he gently cherished my face in his palms, he whispered with his soft voice: "But I know I can't do this by myself, that's why I went to find you. I hope you can help me forget him."

"You can't always use me to forget him, and I know it is not going to work either." I answered him.

"I know I may sound like I am using you, but I don't need you to do anything for me, I just want you to stay with me. I don't know if I can face the loneliness by myself. Of course, if you don't want to stay, you can leave any second."

I could tell the sadness in his voice, and I know I can't reject him. I can't leave him here by himself and face the sadness and painfulness by himself, because I can see him ending up doing something stupid.

"No.. I will stay.."

"Really?" Jae asked with his puppy eyes.

I smiled and knocked lightly on his head, he smiled and looked up at me as he hugged onto me: "At least you are here with me.. thank you Yunho.."

Jae cooked dinner for me, and when Jae was wearing aprons, I couldn't tell him apart from just an ordinary house 'wife'. I stared at his back, and sometimes he would turn around to smile at me and I will return him a smile also.

He looked so pretty and so tender, I don't know why anyone would reject such an angel like him not to mention why anyone would want to hurt him.

"Dinner is ready!"

He placed all the tasty looking food on the table in front of me, and I smiled at him, "Looking good!"

"I love cooking ever since I was little, but I never had the chance to cook for anyone before. I have been too busy with work."

"You didn't cook for Siwon?"

He shakes his head slowly, "I never had the chance.. at first, we have food given by company.. outside.. we would eat in restaurants.. I actually never went to his house before.."

He looked down at his hand which was holding a fork, but he looked up and smiled at me: "But it's okay, you are here to eat my food now. I am happy already.. at least, someone can taste my food and tell me it is good tasting.."

I stuffed some meant in my mouth and hold up my thumb: "It's good!"

Jae smiled happily at me, and then we started to eat and chat with each other. Jae told me, his parents were once artist, but both of them got into a car crash and they died when Jae was very young. Jae then started to live with his grandma till she passed away when Jae was in high school. Grandma left him some money but it wasn't enough for him to go to college, so after that, he had to work by himself.

I felt very pitiful for him, and he also told me his life of being a model. I know he works very hard everyday and he can barely get any sleep. But I also understood why he would fall for Siwon so deeply, because other than Siwon, no one really took care of Jae and Jae had to face everyone with his fake self except for when he is with Siwon.

Siwon seemed to be a big brother to Jae, and Jae really looked up to him. Jae told me exactly what happened on the day when he found out everything..

Flash back..

Jae just finished all his work and was ready to finally go home and take a rest, he walked into the changing room to change his custom off and back to his normal clothes. When he was in the changing room, he heard some feet-steps walking outside. They probably didn't notice that Jae was still in the changing room. Then Jae heard people leaning on the door..

"Siwon.. so when is your marriage again? How come you didn't send out invitations yet?"

Siwon's voice: "I will soon."

"Why did you decide to get married all of the sudden? I thought Jaejoong's scandal with you already disappeared from the press."

"Well, actually.. my girlfriend is pregnant already, so we have to get married before she gives the birth to the baby."

"What? Pregnant?"

"Yeah.. ahh.."

Jae widened his eyes as he held onto his own clothe tightly and then he heard feet-steps walking away.. Jae felt his whole body collapsed on the ground and tears run down from his cheeks..

"He has been lying the whole time?" Jae questioned himself..

He walked out from the changing room and toward the exist of the building, he walked out and found that it was raining hard, but since he was crying so he wanted the rain to cover his tears.. he walked down the street and heading nowhere..

Slowly, Jae stopped in front of a red light and looked around seeing people waiting for cross the street.. the light turned green and people started to walk pass him but Jae didn't move at all.. Jae looked up at the big building in front of him and through one of the window he thought he saw someone standing by the window..

Jae wanted to look closer at the person but the rain was so heavy that he couldn't see anything, and when he looked up again the person was gone.. and the next thing he know that he was covered by an umbrella and a guy was asking if he was okay..

Is he okay? No he is not.. his whole world is crashing, because Siwon has been lying to him the whole time.. Siwon.. Siwon.. how can Siwon lie to him?

Jae closed his eyes and let his lips crash into the person in front of him.. and then the whole world went black in front of his eyes..

Flash ended..

"The next thing I know.. I was lying on your bed in your house.." Jae explained.

I looked up at him: "So, we met because of the rain of that day."

Jae nodded and started to clean up the plates. I saw him turned his head over a little and whispered: "Thanks to the rain.."

"Jaejoong.." I whispered while he turned the water on, "I think I am falling for you.."

I know Jae didn't hear what I said, because the water was very loud. That night, we didn't do 'it', instead, we just lied down on the bed hugging onto each other and staring at the stars on the sky..

Jae kept on snuggling closer into my embrace, and he kept on telling me that I felt warm.. I know he is thinking about Siwon's embrace instead of mine, but I just wanted to hold him in my arms no matter who is in his heart at the moment.. at least.. for the last month before my marriage, I want to heal the wound in his heart..

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Chapter 7

The next morning when I woke up, I didn't see Jae anywhere. I searched around the room and he wasn't there, and then I searched inside the big house but he was still nowhere in sight. I started to panic, did he leave without me? Did something happen to him?

I rushed out from the front door and the car was still there, and just when I looked front I saw a figure that looks like Jae standing n the middle of the ocean.

"Jaejoong!"

I called but the person didn't respond, Aish.. what is he doing there? The wave is pretty strong in the morning what if he sinks in the water? I rushed over and made sure the person is Jae.

"Jaejoong! What are you doing? You want to kill yourself?"

Jae slowly turned over and looked at me, he was standing where the water level is around his chest, and I was standing on the sand. I stared at him and watching every wave hits his body.

"Jaejoong! Come back here!" I called again and then I saw a tear dropped from his face.

"Yunho ah.. tell Siwon I love him.."

That was the last word came out from his mouth before I saw him letting the water take him over. I widened my eyes as I reached out my hand and watching this horrible scene in font of me.

"JAEJOONG AH!"

I yelled and rushed into the water, I know I am not good at swimming, but I can't just stand there, I have to save him. Why is he so stupid? Why is Siwon the only person in his eyes? There are so many people who can cherish him and love him way better than that Siwon. Why is he such a fool?

"Jaejoong! Jaejoong!"

I called while trying to swim, and I know I swallowed some water, but I just can't find his body anywhere. I stretched my arms and trying to search for anything in the wide ocean. Jaejoong.. please.. let me find you.. please.. god.. help me.. let me find him..

"Jaejoong ah!"

I cried into the ocean and looked around myself, just then I thought I spotted Jae's soft hair flying in the ocean on my right. My eyes sparkled and I swam toward my left with the speed I didn't know I could adopt.

Finally, my eyes widened when I felt his arm touching my fingers. I grabbed onto him like it was my dear life, and dragged his head above the water. He was unconscious already..

Jaejoong.. why are you such a pretty little fool? You better be okay or else I won't forget that Siwon.. I swear..

I finally dragged both of us out from the ocean onto the sand, and I didn't care how horrible I felt at the moment I reached over to Jae's mouth and started to give him CPR while pushing down on his chest.

"Jaejoong.. listen to me.. get those water out.. you need to survive did you hear me? Wake up! Wake up!"

I kept on pushing his chest and finally he jerked up and coughed out all the waters in his lung. Oh! Thank god! He is finally awake..

After a few coughing, he opened his eyes and looked over at my face..

"Why are you in heaven also?"

Hearing this little fool talking foolishly with me the first thing he wakes up after I save him made me felt happy and angry at the same time.

"Hahahaha.." I can't help but laughed out loud while sinking down on the sand.

Jaejoong.. you little fool.. did you know I was worried to death about you? But thank god, I saved you and you didn't just lose your life like that..

I sat up and looked at him who is trying to catch his breath, slowly, I pushed him into my hug and whispered: "You little idiotic.. don't ever do anything like this again.."

Jae looked over at me weakly, and even though, his face is covered with water, but I could tell the tears coming out from his beautiful eyes. I wiped them away from him, and whispered: "He is not the only one who can love you."

Jae looked up at me and grabbed onto my arms while crying out loud hard in my arms.. I looked up at the sky and prayed to god to let this boy in my arms have his true happiness soon..

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Jae was a little upset when he woke up from a long sleep, and I could tell that he really wanted to finish himself and still is sad about it. He kept on staring out from the window, and I cooked some porridge for him.

"Jae.. eat some food.."

I whispered and placed the food in front of him and he nodded as he got up started to dig in. Good.. at least he is eating..

He looked up with a spoon in his mouth and found me staring at him worriedly, slowly, a smile crossed his face: "Don't worry, I won't try to kill myself anymore."

"Really? Are you feeling better now?" I asked worriedly.

"No.. I still feel like I am living in hell, but seeing you so worried, I know if I really die then you would be upset. Before, I thought if I die, then no one would care much, so that's why I decided to finish myself." He explained.

"What are you talking about? There are many people who love you? And also.. your fans.. right?"

"Fans? Those fans will grow out of me after I am gone." He laughed coldly.

"Why do you always think so negatively?" I am getting a little mad at his attitude.

He pushes the food away and sinks down on the bed without answering me.. I sighed and took the food away from him then I walked back to the bed stroking his hair in a pattern and he just kept his eyes closed..

I have to admit, after I met him, I am getting a different impression of him everyday. It's like I am discovering every single side of him within each day that I spend with him, and every side makes me want to love him more and more..

"Yunho.."

I looked over and Jae turned over as he blinked his eyes innocently at me: "Thank you for being here with me. If it wasn't for you, I would have died already. Right now, when I thought about it.. I get chills down my whole body.. good thing.. I am still alive.."

I smiled a little and holds onto his shaking hand: "Don't worry, you won't die.. you are too young to die.."

"Do you really think there is someone else in the world for me?" He asked me.

"Of course!" I answered and looked into his eyes.

I saw a small smile on his face, and he said: "Maybe it is really time to let him go."

He sighed and I stared at his pretty face, but we were both shocked by the sudden ringing of Jae's cell phone..

I walked over to the table and looked at his phone.. it said 'Siwon'..

I took the phone to Jae, and Jae looked down at the screen then he flipped open the phone: "Hello?"

From the loud volume, I could hear a deep voice of a guy from the other side, "Jaejoong! When are you coming back? You have photo shoot to do."

"You just won't let me have a vacation right?"

"I tried to push them back already, but that's all I can do."

"I will be back tomorrow.."

"Tomorrow.. are you sure?"

"Yes.."

"Oh good! And also.."

I heard the guy's voice started to stutter, he said, "You want to join dinner with me.. and my wife.. tomorrow.."

Jae widened his eyes and asked: "W.. what.."

"My wife wants to meet you.."

"Why are you doing this to me? Choi Siwon?" Jae yelled into the phone and hanged up.

I looked over at Jae who's face is all red, but he didn't cry, I could only see anger coming from him. He throws the phone down on the ground and yelled, "How can he treat me like that? How can he do this to me? I already give up and he just had to make me face it and torture me?"

"Jae.. calm down.." I tried to calm him down.

He jumped out from the bed and started to walk back and forth in the room while whispering things that I can't really hear..

Suddenly he stopped and looked over at me, then he walked over to me with fast pace and I had to jump back a little.

"Yunho.. do you have anything to do tomorrow night?"

I shake my head, and he held onto my shoulder: "Can you come to the dinner with me?"

I looked into Jae's eyes and don't know what is up in his sleeve..

"But.. Jae.. you.."

"Please?"

I begged me with his puppy eyes and I sighed and give in at his cute face, "Fine.."

He smiled and gave me a peck on my cheek: "I know you are the best!"

Then he walked into the bathroom to take a shower while I just sat there feeling my heart beating in an unique pattern.. what should I do? I think I am really falling for this guy now.. but.. I can't.. can I?

Ring.. Ring..

"Hello?"

Changmin's voice: "YAH! WHEN ARE YOU COMING BACK?"

"I will be back tomorrow? Why? Did something come up at work?"

"NO! BUT I AM OVER-WHELMED FROM YOUR MARRIAGE PLAN! YOU BETTER GET BACK HERE BECAUSE I NEED A BREAK NOW! I MEAN NOW!"

I chuckled a little and I can imagine the way Changmin looks with the messy hair and a pair of glasses, I answered: "Okay.. just bare with it for today and I will be back tomorrow.."

I hanged up and phone and thought about the marriage.. marrying someone that I don't even know or love.. feels like nothing.. is this really how a marriage should feel like?

Chapter 8

Jae and I packed and went back toward the town, and before I started driving I looked back at this mansion one last night, I know I will never forget the days I spent with Jae in here. I actually have never had so mentions before compare the days I spent with Jae. I drove back and Jae went to sleep in the car.

I put on some light piano CD and wished Jae to have a good sleep. I know after we go back, both of us will go back to our original lives, and I don't know if we can see each other and spend time like this.

"Jaejoong.. wake up.. we are back.." I called softly while stopped my car in front of my house. I don't know where Jae lives, so I drove back to my place.

Jae rubs his eyes and looked around, then he checked his phone and there were numbers of miss calls from Siwon since Jae hanged up on him and never called back. Jae sighed and got out from the car..

"Do you want me to take you home?" I asked.

"No.. I parked near your house.. I can't go home now, I have work to do." He answered and got his cold mask on again.

I looked at him and felt so sad and lonely from him all of the sudden, he grabbed his suit-cases out and said: "I will call you when I get off work."

"Huh?"

"The dinner.."

"Oh.. okay.."

He walked away dragging onto his suit-cases, and I felt so sad looking at him walking away like that.. I shake my head to clear my mind and I know I have to rush over to the office otherwise Changmin would go crazy..

The first step when I took into my office I thought I stepped into a trash-can..

"YAH! SHIM CHANGMIN! WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU?"

Through a pile of papers, I saw a little head searching for my voice. I looked through the papers and stepping over some papers and finally got to my desk. I slammed my hand on the table, and yelled: "CHANGMIN!"

Changmin looked up and there were black circles under his eyes, and he held up a cup of coffee: "Oh my god.. you are finally back.."

"Yea.. and you turned my office into this.. *holding up papers all over the place*.. what have you been doing?" I asked.

"Yah! I have been working so hard, this is how you thank me? I have been doing your office work and your stupid future wife. Do you know how hard I have been working? I barely had time to eat, and look at all these profiles and pictures.. all the girls in the world are going crazy.. I even got e-mails and letters from Canada and Europe." Changmin said and throwing pictures at me.

I looked down at so many different kinds of pictures of girls with different background, clothing, and expressions. Seems like they all want to show the best side of them. I looked over at Changmin and he got up as he was stretching: "Good thing, I finished all the office work already, and I am just going through profile now. God! This is way harder to picking a pet!"

"Of course! Because this is my future wife you are picking, you better get someone good or else I will make you marry the girl." I said.

Changmin smiled: "Okay then I will go for the type of girl I like then and if you don't want, I will get married."

I rolled my eyes and looked at Changmin's weak face, then I patted on his shoulder: "Come on! Let's get out from here, and I will ask people to clean my office up."

"Where are we going?"

"I will treat you to lunch!"

"Lunch?" Changmin smiled, "ASA!"

"I will call Yoochun.." I said and took out my phone.

Changmin grabbed my phone away: "Don't bother, he is busy with some sluts right now."

"How do you know?" I asked with my eye-brown crocked up.

Changmin held up his watch: "Look at the time, it's early in the morning. You know Yoochun won't get out from bed till after lunch, and you know he never sleeps alone anyways."

"What? When is that guy ever going to settle down? He has been playing around ever since.. *thinks* high school.."

Changmin shakes his head: "I don't know, he just won't change, but honestly, I haven't seen him in a while maybe he just got hooked up with a new chick now."

"Whatever! Then let's go eat by ourselves." I said and dragged Changmin out from that trashy office.

I pulled over my phone and dialed the cleaning department's number: "Yes.. this is Yunho, clean my office right now! Okay!"

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Changmin and I went to a near by coffee and Changmin started to place a bunches of order like always, I just stared out from the window and an image of Jae came up on my mind. Am I starting to miss him already?

"Yoochun.. get up! Don't fall asleep in the coffee! This is embarrassing!" A high pitch, squeaky voice got my attention.

Changmin and I looked at each other then looked to our left, there we saw a guy shaking a sleeping Yoochun who is lying on the table snoring.

"YAH! PARK YOOCHUN!" The guy yelled and slammed his hand on the table.

"WAH?" Yoochun jumped up, "Aish.. Junsu ah.. I am so tired, how can you drag me out from bed so early in the morning?"

"You need to fix the way you live your life to get healthier!" The guy called Junsu said.

Changmin: "Yoochun?"

Yoochun and Junsu turned over and found us staring at them confusedly, Yoochun: "Hey! Yunho.. Changmin.. what are you two doing here?"

"I was just about to ask you that! And this is?" I asked.

"Oh, you guys are Yunho and Changmin? I heard Yoochun talking about you two a lot recently! I am Kim Junsu!" Junsu smiled cutely and shake hands with both of us.

Yoochun smiled and put his arm around Junsu: "Junsu is my boyfriend."

"B.. Bo.. Boyfriend?" Changmin yelled while stuttering.

Junsu looked over at Changmin and felt a little confused, Yoochun: "Yah! Shim Changmin, don't be like that, Junsu is older than you.. at least show some respect.."

"I.. I am sorry.." Changmin turned toward Junsu and then back to Yoochun, "But.. what.."

Yoochun sighed and shake his head: "Sorry, Changmin and Yunho can't really accept.."

"Accept the fact that you went for a guy?" Junsu smiled and then said, "It's okay. People will get used to us. I am sure as long as we love each other then people will pray and wish us happy."

I looked over at this Junsu guy and I smiled to myself, he might be a guy but is heart seems to be as tender as a woman's. Plus, where do I have the place to feel surprised when I spent the last few days with a guy also? I know Yoochun do needs someone like Junsu to settle down, but to my surprise, I never thought Yoochun would end up with a guy either.

"Junsu ah.. can you go order a cup of coffee for me and tell them to don't add any milk or sugar in there.." Yoochun patted on Junsu's head.

Junsu nodded and smiled as he walked away..

"Yah! Yoochun! So, what's going on? Haven't seen you in a week and.. this.. this.." Changmin asked.

Yoochun smiled at us and said: "Shouldn't you guys congratulate me on finding someone who can finally make me settle down?"

"But.. how?" I asked.

Yoochun's face turned serious: "Don't you guys think Junsu look familiar? Haven't you two seen him before?"

Changmin and I looked at each other and thinks, then I thought of something: "Wait.. Junsu.. isn't he the bartender at the bar that we always go to?"

Changmin nodded in agreement: "Oh yea.. that's right.."

"Now you two know why do I always go there right? I am not there to get girls, I am there to get him. Of course, I have to go get girls first to make him notice me and maybe get jealous. So, last week, I decided to confess my feelings to him and just to try my chance that he would be interested in guys also." Yoochun said with a smile on his face that shined victory, "And this is what happened!"

Changmin and I nodded with our mouth formed an 'O', I said: "I never knew that.. how come you didn't tell us?"

"I don't know.. telling guy friends that I am interested in a guy is kind of weird, plus.. I only like Junsu.. I am not interested in any other guys.. so I really don't think I am gay or anything.. it's just.. Junsu has caught my attention for the longest time. I don't even know how or why, but I just love looking at him. He is so innocent and pure, and it is hard to even find a girl as innocent as him nowadays." Yoochun explained.

Just then, Junsu walked back and they started to eat as a lovely couple.. Changmin and I felt like the third wheel, so we hurried with our food and left after saying bye to both of them.. I truly wish them happy.. and I guess I wasn't as shocked as Changmin, since Changmin has only been with girls.. but we both wished them happy.. they seem to be a nice couple and we hoped that they would stay together forever..

After a long day of work, my phone started to ring while I was sitting in my office.. it's Jaejoong..

"Hello?"

"Yunho ah.. are you done with your work now?"

"Yea.. I just got done.."

"Okay, I am outside of your company right now, can you come out?"

"Okay.. I will be right out.."

I hanged up the phone and felt my heart beating fast at the thought of seeing Jae soon.. I didn't see him the whole day and now that I think of it.. I have been thinking of him for almost the whole day already..

Chapter 9

I stepped out of my office building, and there I found Jae's red Ferrari parked right outside of my company. Jae rolled down the window and he had his sun-glasses on his face while said softly: "Get in."

I nodded and stepped into the car, and I looked over at him: "Busy day?"

"Just a few photo-shoot.. the usual.." Jae replied to me.

"So, why did you want me to go to this dinner with you?" I asked and still felt very confused that Jae wanted me to join him to meet this Choi Siwon.

Jae started the car and whispered: "I just don't think I can face this by myself.."

I looked over at Jae, and he moved his right hand down from the steering-wheel and moved toward my lap where my left hand was rested.

Softly, he grabbed onto my hand and I looked at our connected hands, then over at him. He didn't seem to move his hand and I can't really see his eyes because the sheds were still on his face.

"Yunho.. do you think I can do this tonight?" Jae asked and I can tell that his voice was getting softer and softer because he was trying to suppress the sobbing from coming out.

"You shouldn't be crying, what if your eyes get puffy tomorrow and you can't work anymore." I tried to stop him from crying and I know as a model, he should be able to hold back his emotions for his job.

Just as expected, Jae did stop crying by gulping hard a few times, and I tightened my grasp on his hand: "You can do it tonight Jae! If you want to forget him then you need to face him and end it like you want to."

"He is so cruel.. how can he make me face that woman when he knows exactly how I would feel about this.."

I looked down and felt very sorry for Jae, but then Jae continued: "Fine.. if he wants to play it this way, then I will return him a game too.."

Jae lets go of my hand and continued to drive at a faster speed, I looked over at Jae and I don't know how I am feeling but I know something is going to come up at the dinner..

Jae parked the car and we both got out, but before we walked in I held onto Jae's arm and turned him back to face me. Jae took off his sheds and looked at me, then I sighed: "Jae, don't say anything stupid okay? I know you are very upset about this meeting, but just play it cool. Act like you don't care, okay?"

Jae smiled and said: "Trust me, for models.. we train for acting also.. and plus, I really don't care anymore."

Jae held onto my hand and said: "Let's go in."

I walked next to Jae and we were greeted by the workers in the restaurant and they told us that Choi reserved a private room on the very inside, and the waiters led the way as we approached toward the room.

"Here you are! Mr. and Mrs. Choi are waiting for you inside." The waiter bowed and Jae nodded while thanked him.

I heard Jae took a deep sigh when the waiter opened the door, and the next thing I know was that Jae wrapped his hand around my arm while dragging me into the room together. I lowered my head and there was a few seconds of silence in the air, and when I lifted up my head I saw a very handsome man and woman sitting in the room, and when they saw us they stood up.

The man looked over at Jae and then to me and back to Jae again, then he walked over and stood in front of us while the woman, I assume to be his wife, followed him over. The man opened his mouth and greeted: "Hey Jaejoong, and this is?"

"Jung Yunho! The president of the Jung's company." Jae introduced me with a proud voice. Then, he turned over to me and smiled: "Yunho, this is Siwon. Choi Siwon, he is my manager, and this beautiful woman next to him is his wife, Mrs. Choi now."

The woman smiled shyly and then greeted Jae and me with a bow: "Nice to meet you two, Jaejoong shi and Yunho shi!"

Siwon took out his hand in front of me: "Hi! Nice to meet you.. I have heard about the Jung's company a lot. I have to congratulate on your company to make it as one of the top businesses of the year."

"Thank you!" I said with as gentle as I could sound and we both shook hands for a while. I could feel him tight his grip on my hand while give me an unfriendly stare, almost seeing me as an enemy already. My guess is that Jae's invite of me to the dinner really disturbed him or maybe his dinner wasn't really what Jae thought, maybe this Choi Siwon guy has something else planned other than for Jae to meet his wife.

"Well, let's sit down." The woman's voice broke my thought and our shaking hands. Siwon then moved aside and smiled at me and Jae..

"Guests first, take a seat please. I already ordered the best food from this restaurant and let's begin dinner, shall we?" Siwon said.

Jae and I took a seat and Jae placed his hand on my lap. I could feel his hand shaking, and I noticed that he was staring at Siwon the whole time. I grabbed onto Jae's hand and made him turn his head over at me a little, then he give me a sweet smile.

"Hey honey, why is our order still not here yet?" Siwon turned to his wife and asked.

"Oh, I don't really know. Do you want me to go check on them?" The woman said.

"Can you please do that?" Siwon asked politely and she stood up as she excused herself from us and walked out from the door.

"Jaejoong.." Siwon immediately called, and then he looked over at me but back to Jae, "Jae.. I need to talk to you.."

"So this is how you are going to talk to me? Ask me to a dinner with your wife?" Jae asked.

"I can't help it Jae, you are always avoiding me at work and we can't really talk at work anyways. When I planned the dinner, she heard about it and she said she wanted to come." Siwon said, "Jae, you know how woman is, and of course, the whole world knew about the rumor we had, so she wouldn't let me come by myself."

"When can you stop lying, Choi Siwon?" Jae yelled, "You are just a jerk who wants me to face all the pain and suffering in front of my eyes. You just want to prove to the whole world that you can win my heart no matter what you do to hurt me. Don't you think I don't know you got her pregnant way before your marriage!"

I stood up and said: "Sorry, I think I should excuse myself."

"No! Yunho! You stay here!" Jae grabbed onto my hand, and he stood up then suddenly he kissed me on the lips, and when he let go, he turned over to Siwon and yelled: "Listen! Do you know why I brought Yunho here with me? Because he is my lover now, and he is not going to betray me like you did. I don't want you anymore, and I don't need you anymore. Why don't you just go back to your wife and have a happy family with her. She already give you a child, and isn't that what you pray for everyday before you go to sleep?"

Siwon stood up and looked over at us, and I could tell that he is extremely angry and pissed right now. But he held his emotions way better than Jae did, and he sighed out hardly: "Jaejoong.. is this really what you want? If you are really in love with Yunho, then I will pray for the best of you two. I wish you two happy."

Jae turned his head away from Siwon harshly while tears dripping down from his beautiful face, and Siwon looked over at me: "Yunho shi.. I know this is the first time I met you and I am sorry about all these scenes in front of your eyes. I guess Jae had chosen you already, and I have no choice but to let Jae into your hands. I hurt Jae a lot, and I know I made him feel worse than living in hell. I hope you can take care of him for me, and make him happy. He is very stubborn at times, and at times he acts like a kid, but.. he is a sweetheart.. he is very lovely and beautiful.. please.. protect him for me.."

I saw tears rolling out from Siwon's eyes, and I could see that he is in pain also. He isn't like what Jae describe.. a totally heartless jerk.. he loves Jae.. and I guess this marriage really wasn't what he planned or wanted. The child.. was probably really an accident. I have only heard story from Jae's side, but I guess it is not completely the truth..

I sighed and held up a stop sign with my hand, then I said: "Stop all these please, listen.. your wife is going to come back soon, and you don't want her to see all these dramas in front of her eyes right?"

I turned to Jae and held onto his shoulders: "Jae, I think there are misunderstandings between you and Siwon shi, and you should listen to him explain before you give your final judgments to him. I never went to acting classes like you did, and I am not willing to act this out with you forever. I want you to have a conversation with Siwon, I am sure, Siwon planned this dinner wasn't for you to meet his wife.. he wants to talk to you.. listen to his explanations.."

Jae started to cry very hard, and I turned back to Siwon while hugging the broken Jae in my arms: "I think I should take Jae with me for now, and if you can plan another time to explain to Jae. And listen.. the only person Jae loves is you.. the only person that can make Jae happy is you.."

Siwon looked up at me, and then said: "No.. let me take him.. when she comes back, just tell her, we suddenly had work to do and tell her I said sorry. Please.. let me take this time to talk to him.."

I looked down at Jae, and he was shaking his head no while tears were pouring out like fountain. I whispered while wiping the tears away from Jae: "Listen Jaejoong.. I know you love him and I know you want to talk to him.. maybe this is a good time for you to hear his story and figure out if there is anything to do to rescue your love with him. Just go okay?"

Jae blinked a few times, and for this moment, I know if I had a second chance I would never let this beautiful creature out from my arms, but at that time, I really wanted to help him and make him happy. I know I am falling for him already, but I also know, the person that could make him stop crying and be happy isn't me.. he needs.. Siwon..

I let him into Siwon's hand, and I saw Jae kept on looking back at me when he was exciting the door. My heart crashed together, and I don't know if I am doing the right thing or not. All I know is that I am hurting myself, and that innocent woman who married Siwon. I never knew.. I could do anything.. just for Jae..

At that moment, I didn't know what made me do that, but later I figured.. I was already madly in love with Jaejoong..Chapter 10

I think I fall in love with him already..

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I explained to Siwon's wife, and from the way she replied and looked, I could tell that she already knew about Siwon and Jaejoong. She didn't need me to say much and she called the driver and excused herself saying that she has to take care of the kid at home also.

Women are sensitive species, and they can sense it when their husbands are not in love with themselves. I guess Siwon's wife isn't stupid enough to believe that all the rumors between Siwon and Jae are fake. But why did she decide to marry Siwon and have his kid anyways? Maybe she really loves him.

Just like me, I know Jae doesn't love me, but I just want to Jae to be happy. I guess my situation is different, because I am not available myself for long. Thinking about this, my heart suddenly sinks a little. Marriage.. yea.. why do I keep on forgetting this term lately..

Jae never called or anything that night, and I give myself no hope in seeing him again. In my mind, Jae is the kind of person that will appear suddenly and disappear suddenly in my life.. I guess I will never truly get a hold of him because I don't have his heart..

I had a hard time falling asleep that night, and I kept on toss and turning on the bed. I remembered staring out from the window for the most of the time and my mind kept on running like a movie of Jae's smile, laugh, tears, and touches.. I don't know what is he doing with Siwon at the moment, but I wish that he is happy like before..

I remembered crying silently into my pillows that haven't happened to me for a while. Then I don't remember anything else and the next thing I noticed was when the sun shinned on my face..

"Aish.. I am late for work.."

I rushed into the bathroom and cleaned up as quick as I could, then I jumped into my car and dialed Changmin's number while driving to the company..

"Hello?"

"Yah! Order breakfast for me!"

"Oh okay! Yah! I have a name!"

"I know! But I am driving and in a hurry!"

"Whatever! Don't need to rush, I will order the same thing then."

I hanged up the phone and stopped at a red-light as I sighed out in relieve knowing that Changmin will settle everything for me. I think I really own him big times, because of me, Changmin barely has time for his family and his personal life.

I stopped my car in the parking lot and walked out as I walked toward my company. Walking into the building, many workers greeted me and smiled. I saw many girls trying to flirt with me again, but I never wanted to date anyone within my company, because I hate gossips and little talks behind the back.

After I went to the top floor and entered my office, I found Changmin settling food on my table and he turned around.

"There you are Yunho! Your food is ready." Changmin said.

"What is the schedule for today?" I asked and at down started eating, honestly, I was starving because I didn't eat dinner last night.

"Well, there is meeting at 1 and you have a few files to read. Also, for your marriage, I used the whole weekend to eliminated most of the girls who don't really suit your requirement and I got down to the final ten." Changmin answered like a professional secretary.

I smiled: "Thank you! The food is very good. So, what are you going to do with the final ten?"

Changmin pulled a chair over and said: "I don't know, that's what I want to talk to you about. I don't think having me looking at them and choose one for you is a very nice idea. Why don't I go through all of them face to face first, and then get down to the final three then you have a meeting with each of them and then decide for yourself. After all, you are the one getting married not me."

I looked over at Changmin: "But.. it's so awkward.."

"Come on Yunho! If you don't want to get married, then why don't you just stop the whole thing. I know you wanted to meet the one you love also, why do you treat marriage as if it is just a market?" Changmin asked.

I looked down and then sighed: "I don't know.. it just seems to me.. love is something that is so much pain and unhappiness.. I just want to keep my life simple as it is.. I don't think love is a suitable situation for my personality."

"You are just being a baby.." Changmin said, "You seriously need to try loving someone sometimes."

I shake my head a few times when an image of Jae came into my head again, then I looked up and said: "Hey, do you know how Yoochun is doing with his boyfriend?"

Changmin sighed: "Don't even talk abut that Yoochun, it's like ever since he turned gay, he got lost in the love river and he never even picked up my calls. Then I heard from others that he went to travel with Junsu.. and he said it's their honeymoon.."

"Honeymoon? He is married?" I asked.

"Apparently, that's his honeymoon before marriage." Changmin said.

I smiled and said: "What a lucky guy he is!"

Changmin stood up and approached toward the door: "Whatever.. I am back to work.. go through those files first.."

I nodded and looked down at the files, maybe the best way is for me to concentrate on my work so I won't think about Jae. However, I can't seem to control my heart.. I kept on thinking about him.. and I felt my heart being stabbed everything I see a picture of him and Siwon together.. Jaejoong ah..

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So, I spent a few days sinking myself in a pile of works that I have missed or recently created for myself. I don't want to think about the person that I shouldn't be thinking about, and that person actually really did disappear in my life.

Maybe, he won't appear ever again. I sighed and put down the file in my hand and looked out from the window.

I got up and walked over then I stared at the spot that I first met Jae. It was empty and only there were people walking past the spot.. I should circle it up so no one would step in it.. *smile*.. what am I thinking? Where did I get in such a childish thought?

"Yunho!" Changmin's voice.

I turned around: "Yes?"

"It's getting late. Aren't you going to go home?" Changmin asked and ready to go.

"I will stay a little later." I answered, "I still have work to do."

Changmin sighed: "Okay, by the way, can I take tomorrow off? It's my girlfriend's birthday."

"Yeah sure! Tell her I said happy birthday. Have fun!" I said with a smile, "I should have got her a present, tell her I will give it to her later."

"No, it's fine." Changmin answered, "She didn't want a big birthday celebration anyways."

I smiled: "No, it's her birthday I should give her a gift. Well, go home now and I will send it to your house by tomorrow."

Changmin smiled and patted on my shoulder: "Thank you buddy. I will see you later then."

I nodded and smiled, then I went back to my desk. Ahh.. my head hurts, maybe I should just go home.. or maybe I should go look for a present for Changmin's girlfriend.. I have met that girl before, she is a very nice girl and she really knows how to take care of Changmin..

I cleaned up my table, and then, I packed everything that I need while walking out from the company toward my car. I started the car and decided to go to the mall and give her a CHANEL perfume.

I parked the car and walked into the mall. Looking around the store, and I stepped into the CHANEL store.

"Hello! Welcome to CHANEL! How may I help you?" The seller greeted and bowed.

"Hi! I am looking for a gift for a girl and I want to get her a perfume." I said with a smile on my face.

"Oh! Yes, we have the new fragrance just came in store today. Do you want to smell it? It's great." The seller said and gave me a bottle and I sniffed a little.

"Sure! I will take it! Please wrap it nicely." I said and handed the bottle to the seller.

"You are so nice to your girlfriend, sir." The seller said and then walked away, and I was a little shocked.. what girlfriend..

"She is right! You are very nice to your girlfriend." A familiar voice called from the back.

I turned around and widened my eyes..

"Long time no see.. Yunho.." That pretty guy once again surprisingly came back into my life.

I looked at him and he had a pair of sun-glasses on, then he smiled coldly: "What? A few days no see, you forgot who I am already?"

"Jaejoong.. what are you doing here?" I asked.

Jae took off his glasses and said: "I can't shop?"

"But CHANEL is for woman only.." I said.

"I know that.. that's why I was surprised to see you in here.." Jae answered, "I guess.. you already got a girlfriend just within these few days without seeing you huh?"

I looked away and didn't answer..

Jae sighed and whispered: "So it is true.. huh?"

"Jae.. why did you appear in front of me like this every time? Just when I am about to forget you and you just appear out of nowhere! If you love Siwon then just go back to him and stay with him.. why do you always come back to me? Are you playing with my feelings?" I was mad at Jae. I didn't know why did he appear, and I hate to have the feeling that he is just using me. Even though, I said I could do anything just to make him happy.. but I don't want to be his toy..

Jae stared at me, and the next thing I knew was that a tear dropped down from his face.. he then quickly put his sun-glasses back on and turned away from me..

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Chapter 11

Rated

I saw his shoulder shaking and he took a few steps away from me, and lowered his head while whispering in his soft voice: "I am sorry.. I never meant to bother your life so much. Since, you already have a girlfriend, and then I will stop seeing you from now on."

I stared at him, and I have never seen him so depressed like this. It seemed even worse than the time when he told me about Siwon and his lover story. I saw him walking away slowly, and it seemed that his body wasn't even balanced. I saw him wiping his tears away and this action made my hands move by themselves again..

I grabbed onto his arm and turned him around: "Jaejoong ah.. I am sorry.. I didn't meant to yell at you, I was just.. just worried that you were gone and I never heard anything from you. And you suddenly showed up in front of me face like this every time.. I am really worried that I will not see you again."

"Really?" Those big eyes blinked a few times in front of my eyes with tears rolling down from his cheek. He looked like an angel and I must say my heart started to beat so much faster seeing him so close to me now, because I haven't see this face for such a long time.

I wiped those tears away for him and whispered: "I am not mad at you and.. I am not shopping for my girlfriend either."

"Then.." Jae asked.

"This is for a friend's girlfriend's birthday."

Jae smiled lightly and then suddenly throws himself to me and whispered: "Yunho ah.. I am not going to disappear anymore."

"What?" I asked.

"I will tell you when we go back to your place. Oh, can I stay over tonight?" Jae asked.

"Of course." I smiled and took his hand then dragged him out with me toward my car.

We stepped into my house and the first thing he did was hugged me from the back tightly, and of course I turned around and pushed him my embrace. I missed this feeling so much and since when did I start to get addicted to his smell already?

"I want you Yunho." Jae whispered into my ear and I smiled while flicked his forehead lightly.

"When did you get so seductive?" I asked.

Jae smiled and said: "Aren't I always?"

Picking him up like a princess in my arms, I carried him all the way toward my bedroom. I don't really care who is in his heart at the moment because I want him and that is all I care. I don't know why do I act and think like an animal right now, but his body is so irresistible.

We fall down on my bed with him on the bottom, and I lose his clothes with in seconds while he tears my shirt off as well.

"Mm.." He moaned while receiving my passionate and long kiss. Our tongues battled together and he sucks onto the tip of my tongue making the already hardened place even more excited.

"Ah.. Yunho ah.." I moved my lips toward his neck and collarbone, softly, I bit down on his collarbone and made his body jerked on the bed.

I moved my hands to his arms and then placed them above his head while kissing down his nipples softly. His body shakes with excitement. His moans were like melody ringing in my ear. God, this feeling.. I don't know how much longer I can take to tease him and teasing myself..

Sucking onto those pink nipples, he moaned with his eyes closed, and slowly I moved to his stomach well releasing one of his arm and quickly unzipped his pants. He opened his eyes and sat up to take my pants off soon. Within seconds, we were facing each other naked and both of us are so hard. We placed our members together and teased each other while making them touching and rubbing each other.

"Ah.. Uh.." I pushed a finger into his hole and him fall down on the bed. Then I pushed in second one, and he continued to moan. I am going to take him dry this time, and I think it will add more excitement to the both of time. Pushing the third one in and I thrust my fingers in and out a few times. I saw the pre-cum licking out from the tip of his member, and I quickly rubbed some on my own member. At least a little lubricate is needed.

"Are you ready?" I asked and he nodded his head with his eyes still closed.

I smiled and positioned myself while pushed in all the way. His body jumped and moved around to try to adjust to a better position.

"Ahh.. so big Yunho ah.. Ahh.." He moaned and I didn't see any sign of painfulness on his face.

I started to thrust in and out slowly, and I know my pace isn't enough for his need because he is trying to move his bottom with me to fasten the speed. What an enticement? I smiled and asked, "Do you want me to go fast?"

"Ah.. Yunho.. don't tease anymore.. please.. I am dying.." Jae stuttered over his words.

I smirked: "Let me make you feel good then."

I held onto his waist and started to thrusting with a super speed even the bed is shaking and making loud noises.

"Ah.. uh.. god! Yunho.. ah.. I.. I am.. going.. to.. die.." Jae moaned and I didn't stop at the same time I grabbed his cock and started to pump it with my hand.

"Ah.. I can't take it anymore.. I am.. there.. Ahh.." Jae released on my hand.

"Jaejoong ah! Ah!" With a few more deep thrust I came inside of him.

I pulled out slowly and watched the white liquid dripping out from that little swollen hole. I lied down next to Jae who was catching his breath after clean the both of us up. He opened his eyes and turned over to me: "You are getting good."

"So are you.." I said.

"Tell me Yunho. Do you love me?" Jae asked and I widened my eyes in shock.

"W.. what?"

"I asked.. do you love me? Or do you only love my body?" Jae asked with a serious face.

"Jaejoong.. I thought.. you love Siwon." I asked.

"Then what are we now?" Jae asked.

"I.."

I don't know what to say, and I know I have been keeping this big lie behind my mind and Jae's back. I am getting married in a month, but I know I love Jae. Should I stop the marriage and be with Jae? Or should I tell him a lie about I like his body only?

I looked into his eyes, and I know those eyes are asking an answer from me. But, I thought he loves Siwon, so why does he care?

"Jaejoong.. I thought you are in love with Siwon and you are just with me because you want to feel loved." I said, "And, I can give you that, because I must say that I have fallen for you deeply."

Jae's face lightened up, and I bit onto my lips while continued: "You are the prettiest person I have known, appearance and heart! I know I was very moved by every bit of your story, and I love being with you. But, I know Siwon has always been the person you love and I can't replace him."

Jae opened his mouth but I didn't let him speak.. instead, I said: "So, I have decided to get married in a month."

I said it.. I didn't lie to him in any ways.. I said everything I needed to say and everything I wanted to say..

Jae's mouth closed and he turned his head away from me while stared at the ceiling. I whispered: "But before I get married, you can come to me whenever you feel upset. I will try my best to warm you and make you happy."

"Ha.. everyone likes to leave me at the end.." Jae whispered and I didn't really understand what he said.

"Okay, from now on, I will come to you whenever I feel upset." Jae said and suddenly turned his head to me, "And, we are only sex partners without feelings for each other."

Jae's face looked calm but I somehow could tell that his voice was shaking. I bit onto my lips and pushed him into my hug, and I felt my heart breaking into pieces. After all, Jae still loves Siwon.. but at least, I can be with him too..

We slept like this the whole time with Jae in my arms, and he slept like a baby. I woke up a few times at night and found Jae's peaceful face in front of me.

"I love you.." I whispered and kissed him on the forehead. Only if he loved me not Siwon.. I thought to myself and closed my eyes..

The next day, I took Jae to the studio that he was supposed to have photo-shoot of, and before Jae walked out..

"Do you have time around 12 to 1 today?" He asked.

I thought for a second: "I have a meeting and ends at 12:30, after that it's my lunch time."

"Can you buy me some lunch? I won't have a break to by lunch myself and I hate the food here." Jae said.

I nodded with a smile: "Sure, what do you want?"

"Anything is fine. Call me when you get here and I will tell you which studio I am in." Jae said and walked into the building while waved bye to me.

I sighed and started my car toward my company..

"YUNHO! YUNHO! YUNHO!" Changmin's voice in the hallway..

"What? what? what?" I asked.

Changmin opened the door and held onto some paper and pictures: "I am finally done!"

I looked over at Changmin and then I pulled out the beg I bought for his girlfriend: "Oh! Here is the present and I decided to not have them send it, because I don't want any damage."

Changmin took over the beg: "Oh god! You bought her a CHANEL perfume? You shouldn't have."

"It's nothing." I said, "So what did you want to say?"

"Oh! Here! I went through all the profiles and got down to the final three on the list. Here are their information and pictures. Take a look, and I already arranged meetings for each of them with you in different days during your free time." Changmin said with a smile on his face.

I looked down at the pictures of the three girls.. and sighed.. why do I only see Jae's face in my head?

Chapter 12

Changmin told me all the times that he set for my meetings with the girls, and the fastest one is this Friday night. I sighed and for some reason, I really don't want to meet any of them. Maybe I just want this thing to end and just get it over with. I have no passion in this marriage at all, and I felt that my passions for the girls are not even half as my feelings for Jae.

I shake my head a few times when this name kept on repeating in my head again. I looked over at the clock, without noticing, it's already lunch time. I looked over at the presentation and listened to the last few minutes of the subject of this whole meeting.

"So, this is what I have been planning and thinking of the new plan." The presenter finished his slides.

"Great! So, does anyone have questions?" I asked.

Everyone were silent, and I coughed a few times: "Okay then, I think he has done an excellent job with the plan. Send me a copy to my e-mail and I will give you feedback within three days. Thanks everyone for paying attention and giving any suggestions. We can end it here today."

Everyone stood up and bowed down to me before the left the meeting room. Changmin walked over: "You seem to be out of it today."

I looked over and smiled a little: "Yea.. maybe.."

"Lunch?" Changmin asked.

"Erm.. I have to go somewhere today. Maybe tomorrow!" I replied.

Changmin nodded: "Okay! See you after lunch then."

I nodded and stepped out from the building while walking toward my car. I started the car and went to a Japanese restaurant nearby.

"Spider roll and Tempura wrap please!" I ordered.

After getting the food, I drove toward the studio where I dropped Jae off. Taking out my phone I dialed his number..

"Hello?"

"Hey, I got you food, and I am coming over right now."

"Oh, I am in studio three right now. You can come in, I have another set of shoot to do right now, and after that I will be done. Just wait a little bit."

"Okay."

I hanged up the phone and felt a little excited, I have never seen Jae shooting pictures as a model before. He must look very pretty and sexy. I wonder what set of clothing and background he is doing right now.

I stopped the car and walked into the studio while trying to find studio three, and when I turned from a corner I bumped into someone.

"Oh.. I am sorry.."

I quickly apologized, but when I looked up I was a little shocked, because it was Siwon. He looked over at me and then gave me a very weird face as if he is a little mad and upset at the same time..

"Are you here for Jaejoong?" He asked.

I nodded and asked: "Is he in studio three right now?"

Siwon nodded: "Yea.. I can lead you the way, I am going there right now."

"Okay.." I said and followed him.

Siwon was walking ahead of me a little, and suddenly he stopped and turned over to me again.

"I guess you win after all!" Siwon said.

"Huh?"

"You better take care of Jae! You know I still love him!" Siwon warned me and made me even more confused. Before Siwon opened the door to the studio I held him back.

"Wait! What are you talking about? Jae loves you! Only you can give him happiness." I said and sounded a little pissed off.

"What? Jae didn't tell you what happened the other night?" Siwon asked and noticing that I don't really get what he is talking about.

I shake my head, and Siwon looked down and sighed: "How stupid can you get? If Jae really chose me then why would he show up in front of you again? He already fall in love with you."

I dropped my jaw down and Siwon continued: "I told Jae that I will divorce my wife because I found the blood type of the kid a little weird. I asked him to give me more time, but he rejected, and told me that he had already started to have feelings for you. He said he wants to love you and only you from now on."

I dropped my jaw down even more, just then the door opened and Jae walked out..

"Yunho! What took you so long? I was starving." Jae said with a blink face.

I stared at Jae with my jaw dropped down still, and Jae gave me a weird look: "What's wrong with you? Are you that surprised to see me?"

Siwon: "Oh Jaejoong ah.. you can take your rest now, there is a small lunch room in the corner, you two can go over there."

Jae nodded and took the food from my hand as he started to walk down the hall, then he turned over: "Are you coming?"

I got back from my thoughts, "Oh.. yea.."

I followed Jae and kept on staring at him with disbelief.. what he chose me? But I said all those things to hurt him? Why didn't he tell me? God! He must hate me now. But he acts so calm. What should I do?

Jae sat down and opened the wrap as he started to dig in, and I stared at him dressing so pretty and his angelic face. How can such an angel fall in love with me at the end?

"J.. Jaejoong ah.."

He looked up at me, and I bit onto my lips: "About what I said yesterday.. I.."

"Don't worry about it, I am not mad, and I agree with you too!" Jae said with a blink face.

"No.. that's not what I meant.. I mean.. I.. I love you and I want to be with you too!" Loudly I said my true feelings.

*Silent*

*Cough* *Cough*

I stared at the angel coughing in front of me none stop..

"Erm.. did I say something wrong?" I asked. "Jae.. I really love you and I didn't mean to hurt you like that last night. I didn't know.. you.."

Jae stopped coughing and looked down: "You don't have to feel sorry for me.."

"No! I am not! I really do love you! I never fall in love with a guy before, and you are the first one who made me feel so happy and sweet at the same time." I explained.

Jae slowly looked up and I found tears rolling around in his big eyes. Slowly, he moved toward me and whispered: "Yunho ah.. but you need to get married.."

"Well.. that.. I can cancel it for you. I don't even know who I am going to get married to yet and I haven't met any of them." I said.

Jae thought for a second and then smiled: "Are you really willing to do that for me, Yunho?"

"Yes, I have always been in love with you but I am afraid that I am not good enough in you heart." I answered and held onto his hand, "I love you Jae! And I promise you I will never make you cry again."

"I trust you." Jae smiled. "But you shouldn't cancel the marriage like you planned to. The press are going to write bad things, I have seen too much of these things and it will ruin your reputation."

"I don't care.." I said but Jae planed a finger on my mouth.

"Listen to me first Yunho." Jae said with a smile, "You should go meet those girls, but I will have ways for you to dump them one by one, and you can cancel the marriage by saying that you didn't find your true love."

I looked at Jae's cute yet a little evil face, and I asked: "What is up in you selves this time?"

Jae sticks out his tongue: "You will see!"

I smiled and pushed him in my hug: "Come here you!"

I hugged onto Jae tightly and he hugged me back too while sniffing softly: "You smell so good Yunnie.."

"Yunnie?" I smiled, "I like that."

"Yun.. I was so upset last night.. I thought you don't want me." Jae said.

"Then why didn't you disappear like before again?"

"Because I love you so much to disappear again.. I want to see who is going to be your wife, and if she is not good then I will not lose you to her and I will fight till you are willing to love me." Jae said stubbornly.

I chuckled and said: "You are so cute.. I love the cute and stupid side of you.."

Jae smiled and pushed himself out: "I can't believe I fall in love with a stranger like you."

Yunho: "You are a stranger to me too."

Jae pecks on my lips and winked: "Not anymore."

I leaned in and whispered: "You better not seduce me in here, because I will eat you all up!"

Jae giggled and whispered back: "You are so bad.. wait till tonight.. I can't get my clothes dirty."

I moved away from Jae and I know that I am looking at him perverted right now, but I can't help it. Knowing that this beauty will be forever mine, my heart kept on jumping harder and harder.

"I love you.." I whispered.

Jae mouthed: "Me too."

Just then the door opened and a staff walked in, "Jaejoong shi, are you done? You need to go back to work now."

Jae stood up unwillingly, and I held onto his arm before he walked past me: "I will pick you up after your work."

Jae nodded and then slowly lets go of my hand as he walked away.. I smiled to myself and still couldn't believe that everything is just going so perfect now.. all I need to do is push off my unwilling marriage now..

Chapter 13

Slightly rated

What is his plan?

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Jaejoong wouldn't tell me anything of what he is about to do, but he just told me to go with the plan of meeting those three girls one by one.

I felt nervous, and I don't really know how to act. Knowing Jae might be upset because I will be seeing girls, I felt myself shaking a little. But Jae seems to be fine, and he has been living in my house after we confessed to each other. He seemed cheerful and happy.

Finally, Friday came, and this is my first meeting with the first girl on the list. Looking down at her profile before I meet her..

"Kim Yubin!"

"You look good." Jae said with a smile while fixing my tie for me.

"Jae, do you really think this is a good idea?" I asked unsurely.

Jae winked at me: "Don't worry, I already got everything planned out."

"But, I don't want to hurt the girl."

"You won't! She will leave you first."

Leave me first? How? She came here because she wants to marry me.. how am I suppose to make she leave me first?

"You are going to be late. Go now!" Jae said and pushed me out of the house.

I looked back at Jae, and I just saw him waving at me with a smile on his face. Seriously, I really don't know what is going on in his mind sometimes.

Driving to a star-bucks, yea.. tell me about it.. why am I meeting the girl in star-bucks? Because Changmin said..

"Take the girl to restaurant is way too old school, now, I think just having a cup of coffee and get to know each other is good enough for the first time. You are the president of the Jung's, so this will show that you really have taste."

Yes, thanks Changmin. Star-bucks really makes me have taste. *rolls eyes* I could have taken her to some good coffee store. Oh well, it's not like anything will happen between me and this Yubin girl.

Walking into star-bucks, a guy came over to me: "Are you Mr. Jung? Ms. Kim told me to tell you she is waiting for you already."

I nodded and said thank you as he walked toward the table the guy pointed for me, and I saw a girl's back facing me. Slowly, I walked over and sat down on the seat in front of her without looking up at her face.

"Mr. Jung?" A soft voice asked.

I looked up and found the girl very pretty, but nothing else other than pretty. I smiled a little: "You can call me Yunho."

"Oh, my name is Yubin."

"I know.."

"Erm.. haha.."

Awkwardness filled the air, then she opened her mouth again: "I was a little shocked to have our first meeting at star-bucks."

"Erm.. actually my secretary planned this for me, I didn't mean to take you here.. sorry.."

"No, it's fine! I like it here, I always read books in here and it makes me feel calm and warm."

I looked over at her and saw her with a light smile on her face. She seems to be a good wife if we get married, but too bad, I have Jae now. I smiled a little.

"So, I have heard a lot about Jung's company, I don't know the president yourself would need to have online mating to find a wife. I bet a lot of girls would die to marry you right?" She asked.

I smiled: "Actually, I think I have seen too much and I lost the hope of finding a true love already."

She smiled a little, and then stood up: "excuse me, I want to use the restroom for a second."

I nodded and watched her walk away, then I spotted Jae walking into the store and he didn't look at me but walked straight toward the direction of the bathroom.

I am confused, what is Jae doing here? Don't tell me he is going to hit Yubin or something and make her faint, so she won't marry me.. what am I thinking? Jae wouldn't do that.. but..

Just then, Yubin walked over and she looked a little worrisome.

"What's wrong?"

Yubin looked over at me and quickly turned away..

"Are you okay? You don't look so good."

"I am sorry, Mr. Jung, I lost my cell phone, can I use your phone to call someone?" Yubin asked.

And I nodded, then I handed her my cell phone. Then I watched her punching a few keys on my cell phone, then suddenly, she widened her eyes and covered her mouth.

I looked at her confused, and she throws my phone on the table as she quickly stood up..

"You.. You.." Pointed at my face, she looked mad and pissed. "I can't believe you are this kind of person!"

*Slap*

My face turned away, and then I saw her ran out from the store. Great! I just got slapped for nothing. WHO THE *BEEP* CAN TELL ME WHAT JUST HAPPENED?

*Giggle*

"Wow! She can slap!"

"Kim Jaejoong" I yelled and looked over at the smiling person leaning his back on the wall.

I stood up and walked over: "What did you do?"

Jae pointed at my cell phone, and I walked over while pushed a key to make my screen appear. Then I dropped my jaw down to the ground..

"y-YAH!!!"

"GAHHHH!" Jae yelled and ran out from the store as I chased after him.

What did I see in front of my eyes? I was in the folder of my pictures on the cell phone, and all I see are naked man pictures.

"WHAT DID YOU DO TO MY CELL PHONE?" Chasing after Jae on the street..

"Haha.. Stupid Yunho!" Jae laughed and running away from me..

After a while, we both panted from the running, and sitting inside my car I looked over with a smile on my face.

"You are so evil.." I said.

Jae smiled and looked over at me: "I am not letting you into a girl's hand Jung Yunho!"

I laughed and ruffled Jae's hair..

"So what did you tell her?" I asked.

"I just told her, I saw you dating guys before, and the marriage is only to cover your real sexuality." Jae laughed and said.

"What if she go around and tell others?" I asked.

"Who is going to believe her anyways? Plus, you are not a celebrity anyways, no one cares about this." Jae smirked, "I know those presses too well, plus, they all know you are publicly looking for a wife, so why would they make this big on paper. Also, if she knows better, she wouldn't mess with the president of the Jung's."

"You evil little thing." I commented, "Watch what I will do to you tonight!"

"I can't wait.." Jae blows into my ear.

I started the car and drove home with a super speed..

"Ahh.. Uh.. Jung Yunho.. you are going to break my back!" Jae moaned and yelled.

"Who told you to ruin my reputation like that?" I asked and punishing this beautiful person under me.

"Ahh.. uh.. I can't.. ahh.. take it anymore.." Jae yelled.

I felt him coming onto my hand, and I thrusts in harder and faster, soon I came into him. Jae pouted and looked at me, "You are so bad! Do you know I was dying?"

"You deserve it, you little evil creature!" I said.

Jae smiled and hugged my neck: "But you like me being evil!"

"Of course!" I leaned over and kisses him on the lips passionately.

Yes, Kim Jaejoong! I love you.. every part of you.. and I am happy that you are mine.. no one else's.. mine! All mine! You are never going to be anyone else's.. right?

"I am yours!" Jae whispered into my ear, and I smiled.

Hugging onto him, I know, this is the real and true him. The him that has his whole heart on me.. no one else has him.. the famous Kim Jaejoong is my own property..

The next week..

*Splash*

"You sick bastard!" A girl's voice yelled and rushed out from the restaurant.

"Ouch! It would have hurt if it was hot coffee!" Jae's voice as he walked toward me.

Staring at Jae with my shirt and face all wet, "What did you do this time?"

Jae took out my wallet from his pocket..

"When did you get my wallet?"

Then he took out a picture of him and I kissing, but Jae's face was in the shade, and only my face was visible.

"YAH! When did you take this picture?" I asked.

Jae smirked: "Secret!"

"Aish! You!" Grab onto Jae's arm, I know it is time to punish him again. Smiling to myself, I pulled Jae all the way toward our bedroom.

Chapter 14

Rated

"Yunho.. Yunho.. I am sorry.. I.. ah.." Jae said as I pushed him on the bed.

I smirked: "Kim Jaejoong.."

"N.. Nae?" Jae asked nervously.

"Now you are apologizing, huh?"

Jae looks up at me: "Yunnie.. are you really going to punish me again?"

Jae pouts, and I lean over to Jae: "I thought you like it.."

Jae suddenly hugs onto my neck and pulls me down on the bed: "I do like it!"

I poke Jae's cheek: "You little devil!"

I kissed down on Jae's lips and slowly moves over to Jae's neck, the white skin tempted my touch. Jae slowly unbuttons his own shirt and revealing his milky skin under me. Then I touched Jae's chest and pinching Jae's pinkish nipple lightly.

"Ah.." Moans escaped from Jae's mouth, "Yunnie! I want.. I want.."

"What do you want honey?" I asked between my kisses..

"I want.. you.. to.. Ah.. touch me there.." Jae whispered those words that would make anyone blush.

I smiled and unzipped Jae's pants as I grabed onto Jae's already hardened member, then said: "Honey, let me feel you in my mouth."

I wrapped my mouth around his member, and he gasped: "Ah.. uh.. Yunho ah.. ah.. faster.. faster.. god! Yunho ah.."

Sucking and licking, I didn't forget to slide one finger in and out of Jae's hole at the same time and bringing Jae to heaven in no time..

"Ahh.." Jae released in my mouth.

I lick around his lips as Jae grabs onto me and quickly kisses me passionately to taste his own seed. When we let go of our mouth, a string of our combined silver saliva connected our lips together..

I smiled and kissed Jae again then whispered: "You think this is it for your punishment right? Let's try something different today. Jae.."

"What do you mean?" Jae asked.

Then, I flipped Jae on top of me and make Jae touching my own budge in my pants..

"Jaejoong ah.." I said seductively, "Ride me!"

Jae blushes and smiles sweetly at me as he started to unbutton my pants. Jae wanted to lick my member, but I stopped Jae: "Not so easy Jae! Take me dry!"

"What?" Jae asked. "That would hurt!"

"That's part of your punishment!"

Jae pouted and sat on top of me as he positions himself, he slowly sits down and pushes my hard member into his hole dry.

"Ahh.. Uhh.." Jae couldn't help but groaned in pain, "Ahh.. Yunho ah.. it hurts.."

I couldn't take the enticement because of the dry touch: "Ahh.. you are doing great baby! It's almost all the way in."

I hold onto Jae's waist, and helping Jae to slide his member into that little hole. One gentle thrust, I went all the way inside of Jae.

"Ah.." Jae moaned, slowly, he started to move his hip up and down and feeling that dry and big member inside of him, however, there wasn't only pain, it was another type of feeling that he has never felt before.

"Ahh.. yes.. Uhh.. Yunho ah.." Jae moaned and feeling the painful feeling combined with very excited feeling also.

"Ahh.. let me help you baby.."

I hold onto Jae's hips to stop him from moving, then I started to thrust in and out of Jae hard and fast. Jae: "Ahh.. Uh.. Yunho ah.. faster.. faster.. ahh.."

I started to go in a super speed: "Ahh.. Jaejoong ah.. I am almost.. there.. Ahhh.."

"Yunnie!" Jae yelled and released on my stomach for the second time, as I came into Jae.

Jae collapsed and he pouted at me: "You are mean.. Yunnie.."

I smiled and kissed Jae on the cheek: "I am sorry baby.. are you hurt?"

Jae suddenly smiled: "I am hurt, but I want to do it more."

I flicked Jae on the head: "You little devil!"

--

"WHAT DID YOU DO? JUNG YUNHO! I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU! WHAT HAVE YOU DONE? HUH? YOU TELL ME! NOW YOU JUST TELL ME!"

Changmin yelled like a mad man in my office, well, if it was only the yelling then its okay, but he is also running around and throwing his arms in the air every half of a second.

I munched on a cookie and stared at him running back and forth..

"Now, you just tell me! What is going on with you? Huh? You told me to find you a wife! And you below two off already! Do you know they are giving me threatened calls and tell me you are a sick gay?" Changmin pointed at my face and yelled.

"They might be right!"

I carelessly picked up a magazine with Jae on the cover, and Changmin aggressively pulled it off: "Jung Yunho! Do you even know what you are talking about?"

I pulled the magazine back: "Of course I know!"

Changmin pulled it off again: "Yah! Don't joke with me please! You are gay? Then who are you dating? Michael Jordan?"

I jumped up: "Just why in the world would I date Michael Jordan?"

"Because.. he can play basketball and has a nice body?"

"Tell me who is the gay one here!"

"That doesn't matter! It's basketball season right now, and I can only think about basket right now. And we are off the topic!"

I coughed a few times and pulled the magazine back as I pointed to the cover and then pointed to myself..

Changmin widened his eyes and pointed at the cover and then pointed at me..

I nodded with a smile on my face..

"PUHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!"

*rolls eyes*

Watching Changmin rolling on the floor laughing his tears out, I sighed impatiently and yelled: "Yah! How long are you going to keep on laughing?"

"Haha.. till.. haha.. tomorrow.. haha.. morning.." Changmin held onto his stomach.

"Do you not trust me or what?" I asked and stomped my feet like a kid wants candy.

Changmin smirked: "Come on! How is that even possible? Just how did you meet him? At his fan meeting and you went up like! Kim Jaejoong shi, I have been your long time fan! Can you date me please?"

I rolled my eyes again and said: "Do I look like a crazy fan girl to you? Fine! Let me prove it to you!"

I grabbed onto Changmin's arm and dropped him out from the building..

"Yah! Where are you taking me? It's working time!" Changmin yelled, but I shut him off by stuffing him in the car while giving his head an extra push.

"Owh! Watch it!" He yelled.

I jumped into the car and dialed my baby's number..

"Hello? Jae! Where are you? I am going to take you out to eat! Okay, I will wait for you! I am going there right now!"

I hanged my phone up and looked over at Changmin with a smirk, then I started the car and drove toward the studio Jae is shooting in today. I just want to see how would Changmin look when he sees Jaejoong in person and dating with me.. wahahah.. I can already imagine him with his jaw dropped down to the ground and drooling at the site..

*some retard dropped his jaw all the way down on the ground and nearly drooling because the jaw is too open*

"So, this is your secretary? Yunnie?" Jae looked over at me and asked awkwardly.

"Yes! Changmin! Go pick up your jaw and say hi to my boyfriend. Kim Jaejoong!" I said and nudged Changmin lightly.

"Huh?" Changmin turned over and quickly closed his mouth, "Oh! Nice to meet you Jaejoong shi! I am Shim Changmin! I am 187cm tall, and 22 years old. I live at.."

*Smack*

"Sorry! He.." I sighed and watched Changmin who flied to the end of the hall from my smack.

Jae laughed at us, and finally, Changmin went back to his normal self after my smack and we decided to go eat together. When did I see Changmin get to perverted before, then I must never show Jaejoong to Yoochun. Or else.. *tries to imagine*

"GAH! I AM GOING TO KILL PARK YOOCHUN!"

Jae and Changmin stopped eating and looked over at me..

"Did I.. just.. say something? Ha.. ha.." I laughed awkwardly.

"WHO WANTS TO KILL ME?" A voice yelled back.

Chapter 15

Yunho stood up and raised his hand innocently, and looked around, then he saw Yoochun with a green face staring at him madly.

"Yah! What did I do to you Jung Yunho? I just came to eat and you had to kill me? I didn't even ask you to pay for me or anything, why do you want to kill me? No wonder, I kept on sneezing these few days. It is all your fault!" Yoochun marched toward me and pointed at my nose.

I blinked a few times, and looked over at Jae who stared at me weirdly. I smiled: "Erm.. Jaejoong ah.. this is Park Yoochun! He is my.. friend.."

"Are you sure.. you two are.. friends?" Jae asked softly.

"Apparently! They are!" Changmin answered and stuffed a piece of meat in his mouth.

"WOAH!" Yoochun suddenly yelled and looked over at Jae, then he rubs his eyes a few times and yelled again: "WOAH!"

Jae jumped two times because Yoochun's "Woah", and he smiled awkwardly as he nodded his head to Yoochun..

"OMG ARE YOU THAT FAMOUS KM JAEJOONG DUDE DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU I AM YOUR SUPER FAN AND I WENT TO YOU FAN MEETING EVENT ALSO BUT THE GUARDS WOULDN'T LET ME IN BECAUSE THERE WERE ALL GIRLS CAN YOU SIGN YOUR NAME FOR ME?" Yoochun yelled all these out with one breath without any commas.

Everyone stared at Yoochun and suddenly..

*Smack*

"Owh!" Yoochun yelled and turned around, "What.. the.. oh.. Junsu ah.. you are done using the bathroom?"

"What do you think you are doing? Hitting on other pretty guys just when I go to the bathroom? I can't believe you never changed Park Yoochun!" Junsu yelled and pointed at Yoochun.

Jae sighed, and I noticed as I sat down and hugged onto Jae while whispered: "Sorry, my friends are kind of weird."

"They are so sweet! So good!" Jae said and made me a little shocked.

"They can express their love out like this, but for me, I will have to hide everything about me to the public." Jae answered.

Junsu, Yoochun and Changmin looked over at Jae. Junsu: "Hey, you are.. Kim Jaejoong shi.."

Jae looked up and smiled at them, Junsu then smiled back: "Sorry for being rude, I am Kim Junsu."

Yoochun hugged onto Junsu: "He is my boyfriend. Sorry, for being rude, we just really like you as an idol. You are such a good model, I buy almost everything you modeled for."

"He is serious!" Junsu said and smiled.

"Hey, you two should join us for lunch then!" I suggested, and Yoochun and Junsu moved over to our table.

Jae later told me, he hasn't eat like this for a long time. With friends, laughing and arguing, he said he has the best time of his life feeling as if he was a normal person again. Yoochun, Junsu and Changmin liked Jae a lot too, I know.. no one would dislike him, because he is an angle.. well.. for most part..

"Yunho! Hurry up! Your last date!" Jae yelled and I walked down from the stairs.

"Jae! Don't do anything weird again today! I don't want to be slapped or splashed with water! Or anything else!" I said with a begging face.

Jae smiled: "Okay, I won't let that happen!"

"Then what are you planning to do?" I felt a little scared.

"You will see!"

That's never good! I sighed and went into the car, then I looked over at Jae: "Are you getting in? You are going to show up anyways?"

Jae smiled and shake his head: "I am not ready yet! I will be there! You enjoy your dinner first!"

I sighed and started the car, yeah, this is my last date and the last girl I need to reject. I don't know what is Jae planning again, but something tells me nothing god is going to happen again.

"Ahh.."

"Yunho shi?" A soft voice called.

I turned around and saw a woman wearing a semi-formal black dress with her hair up and light make up.

She smiled at me and sat down in front of me with a smile on her face, something is telling me, this woman is not easy and her face looks familiar too. Wait, she is..

"Jeon Hyebin?"

"Nice to meet you, Yunho shi!" She smiled at me. What has Changmin gotten me into? Jeon Hyebin, the famous celebrity a few years ago and still active of being an actress recently.. is Changmin mad?

I looked around and didn't see Jae yet.. did Jae know who I am meeting with today? They are both celebrities, what if she spreads rumors about Jaejoong to others?

"Erm../ Erm.." I said at the same time as she did.

"Oh, you can go first." I said and being polite.

Hyebin looked down and played with her fingers: "Since I am the last one on the meeting list, so I have a feeling that I am already out of the competition right? I am guessing, you are here just to reject me."

I looked up at her and was happy that she thought this way, so I smiled a little and said: "I am sorry. I am afraid you are right. I have certainly found the person I love already, and I am sorry for upsetting you."

Hyebin smiled: "I understand. I hope you are happy with whoever you are with. I also understand that you wouldn't want to date with a celebrity either. Because, people always tend to think we are the fake ones since we knows how to act in front of people, and the presses are always following us which gives us no privacy."

I looked away and don't know how she would have felt if she knows that the person I love is Kim Jaejoong. Then she smiled at me and said: "Should we at least.. finish the dinner?"

I nodded and ordered food with her, but I was surprised that Jae didn't show up at all. When I got home that day, I saw Jae smiling at me at the door.

"Why didn't you show up to destroy my date?"

"Because I didn't need to!"

"What do you mean?" I asked and I was confused.

Jae smirks: "Did you forget about Changmin?"

"What about him?" I asked.

Jae scratches: "I asked Changmin shi to tell the last person that Jung Yunho has already chosen a girl before her, so this dinner is only for politeness. And just to be friends with her, that's all."

I laughed and didn't know my Jaejoong is such a smart little devil..

"Yah.. what am I going to do with your smart little brain?" I asked.

Jae smiled: "Love me!"

"I do love you!" I pushed him in my arms and sighed in relief. I think everything is just going to be prefect and no one is going to disturb us ever again.

--

"Jung Yunho!"

"What is it baby?"

"Your rooms are too boring! I don't like it!"

"What do you want then?"

"Let's go shopping!"

"What?"

--

In the mall..

Jae started to buy all those home needs and he especially had to choose super bright colors, and I ended up having to carry everything into my car. I was glad Jae wasn't followed by any reports, but he did have to wear a hat to cover his face.

"Now, dishes!" Jae said and looking down at his list of to-buy.

"But Jae, we have dishes at home!" I said and holding bunches of begs already.

"I didn't like them, so I throw them out from the window."

"YOU WHAT?"

"Don't worry, I didn't hurt anyone!" Jae said as if nothing happened.

"YAH! HOW CAN YOU THROW GLASSWEARS OUT FROM THE WINDOW?" I almost screamed at the mall.

Jae turned around and smiled at me: "Aish.. Yunho, when are you going to adopt my humorous talks?"

How exactly was that humorous?

"Oh.. Yunho, look at this? There are bunnies on them!" Jae said excitedly.

"Jae, we are not kids anymore." I said.

But Jae pouted cutely at me, and I sighed as I slowly nodded my head in agreement to buy those dishes with bunnies on them.. I don't know what has gotten into Jae's head and when did he start to like bunnies..

When we FINALLY, and I mean FINALLY got home. I thought I could take a rest on the coach, but I was pulled up by a ring of bell on the door.

Ding.. Dong..

I lazily dragged my legs up and walked over as I opened the door..

"YAH! WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?" Pointing at the person's face I started to yell.

Jae walked out with an apron on, said: "Oh Changmin ah! Come in!"

"BUT THIS PERSON IS QUESTIONING MY APPERANACE!" Changmin yelled back and pointed at my face.

"Yunho! I was the one who invited Changmin over!" Jae said as he puffed up his cheeks to protest, "And I also invited Junsu and Yoochun!"

"What? Why didn't you tell me?" I asked.

"I did tell you!"

"When was that?"

"Last night when you were asleep!"

".."

Changmin walked in with a smile on his face and I just stood there in shock of this surprise gathering, but looking at Jae so happy and is making friends with my friends, then I am happy too. Soon, Junsu and Yoochun walked into the house too, for the first time I felt my house full of happiness and laughters.

Chapter 17

The dinner was very enjoyable, and for the first time I felt that myself, my house, and my kitchen is alive. I have to thanks Jae to pretty so much happiness into my life. I can't express how much I am in love with him now.

Changmin ate a lot, and it seems that he already accepted the fact of me dating Jae. Yoochun and Junsu of course wouldn't disagree since they are also the same. I guess Yoochun must felt the same way to Junsu as how I felt with Jae.

I have never seen Yoochun looking so tenderly at anyone besides Junsu, and I of course had my full attention on Jae for the night.

After dinner, the three of them went home. Jae and I went to say bye to them at the door..

"Thanks for the dinner!" They said.

Jae just smiled and waved to them. When I saw them driving away, I hugged onto Jae from the back and whispered: "Why do I love you more and more?"

Jae smiled and turned around as he pecked me on the cheek: "Isn't that a good thing?"

"No.. what if I am too dependent on you? And I can't live without you?"

"That's what I am trying to make you into."

"You are so evil!"

"I can be more evil!"

Jae smirked at me, and I closed the door as I carried Jae in my arms and went up the stairs. It is our loving time again, and I have to admit I can't live without Jae emotionally and physically. Every time when I get near to that body, I can't get a hold of myself. His body is just so prefect and sometimes it is calling out to me.

I placed Jae genteelly on the bed, and Jae smiled at me as he grabbed onto my shirt while dragging me closer to him.

Our faces are only inches apart, but he didn't kiss me, instead he moved his nose up and down my lips and giving me his hot breath. This turned me on more than ever, and I know he is good at seducing every part of me.

He parted his lips and moved to my cheek while placing a light peck. I am supporting myself by blocking Jae with my two arms pushing onto the bed. And Jae is supporting his body with an arm pushing his whole back from the back.

Suddenly, I pushed him down on the bed without warning, and he gasped. Jae looked over at me as I turned my head over to stare at him.

"You little devil!"

Whispering my hot breath onto his neck, he moaned comfortably with his eyes closed. I supported myself up and just when I was about to kiss him, a loud vibrating sound came from the table.

Jae looked over but I pulled his face back and leaned over again, but another vibrating sound occurred.

"Let it go!" I said.

But Jae pushed me away and got up as he walked over to the phone..

"Hello?"

"What?"

"That can't be true! But you.. hello? Hello?"

Jae stared at the hanged up phone without moving..

"What is it?" I asked worried.

Suddenly, Jae grabbed onto his jacket and rushed out from the room, I followed Jae and asked: "Where are you going?"

Jae didn't answer me as he rushed toward the front door, and I fastened my steps, just before he was about to step out, I grabbed onto his arm and turned him back.

"Where are you going?"

I saw his tearful eyes again, and this time, it wasn't only hurt but also something I can't really figure out. Who made him cry again?

"Yunho.. I have to go.. let me go.." He begged me.

I loosened my hold on his arm but still didn't let him go, then he said: "I will come back as early as I can!"

"Tell me where you are going!" I said.

Jae said: "I will tell you after I come back! I really have to go now!"

Jae swings my hand away and rushed out from my house into his car, and I know I can't just stand here so I rushed into my car too. After he drives away, I followed right behind him and following the back his car in the dark road.

When he stopped, I looked up and it was a bar. What is Jae doing in a bar?

Jae stepped out and walked inside the bar, but after a few minutes he came out without anyone beside him. Though, he didn't come into his car either and instead he was walking around as if he was trying to find someone or something.

I walked out from my car and walked toward Jae's direction, but I made sure that he didn't see me. Just then, I saw Jae suddenly run toward a little alley beside the bar. I followed and leaned on the wall of the alley, in the darkness, I saw a figure supporting himself on the wall while throwing up none stop.

There I heard Jae's voice: "Siwon!"

Siwon? Jae came to find Siwon? What happened to Siwon?

"Stop hurting yourself! It wasn't your fault!" I saw Jae's slim body hugged onto the drunken guy from the back. I closed my eyes and sighed out while slamming my hand on the wall hardly.

Jaejoong! He ran out from my house to find another guy, and the guy is his ex. Boyfriend, not only that, he is even hugging onto him now? So he still has something for Siwon?

I don't know why but my heart is beating so fast, and I decided to go back to my car but my legs won't move.

"Jaejoong.. I am sorry Jaejoong.." Siwon's deep voice, "Why didn't I know this earlier? I hurt you so much and I hurt myself so much! I should have known this! I should have! Gosh! I am going to kill that bitch! I am going to kill her!"

This time when I looked back, I saw Siwon fainted in Jae's arms, and I hide my face in the darkness when Jae helped Siwon out from the alley into his car. Then Jae drove away, and I slowly kneeled down on the ground. I don't know why is my heart hurting so much, but something is telling me.. something big is going to happen.. and my happiness is going to end soon..

Jae didn't come back that night. I still remember he said he will come back, but he didn't. I flipped back and forth on the bed till I see the first ray of the sun shined into my bedroom.

I sat up and stared at the window, "Time to go to work.." I whispered to myself as I dragged my legs into the shower.

Why does everything feel like a dream to me? I walked out from the shower and looked at the big empty bed. Maybe I really had a dream.. a really sweet dream..

As usual, I drove myself into the office and stuffed my time with work. Changmin asked me to go to lunch with him, but I only told him to get me a take out. I placed my phone on the table, but not one time it rings.. it seems as if it is dead just like my heart.. no sound.. nothing..

"Are you going to get off work now?" Changmin asked.

"No, I have more files to read." I replied.

Changmin nodded: "I am getting off now then!"

I nodded without looking up, and then next time when I looked up, I was the only one still in the building. I turned my head to the window and it is dark already. The street lights and the cars shined under the moon-light, I guess in this busy world, I am the only one who can take the time to look at the world.

I told myself to stop thinking and wait, because he said he will come back. I told myself not to care about what I saw that night and just wait, because he said he will come back. I told myself to stop my own heart beat, because he said he will come back. He will come back.

--

"Hey! Yunho! Did you see this?" Changmin puts a magazine on my desk.

I looked down and asked: "What?"

Changmin quickly flipped to a page in the middle: "Isn't that Jaejoong? Why is he with another guy and hugging? This picture was taken yesterday!"

I looked down at the picture, and suddenly, my head became so dizzy. I had to closed my eyes and shake my head to stop the dizzy feeling from coming out.

Yes, it has been two weeks.. two full weeks.. I kept on waiting.. and waiting.. just because he said he will come back. I stopped talking about him, about that night, and my own heart beat, but he never came back. Instead, I saw a picture of him hugging onto Siwon on the magazine.

I know that my whole world is crashing down now, and I don't know what happened to me.. the crashing feeling told over me as I collapsed on the table..

The next thing I know was that Changmin kept on calling my name, but I couldn't open my eyes..

Jaejoong ah..

Jaejoong ah..

When are you coming back? When?

Chapter 18

"Yunho shi.. are you feeling better?"

With my blur vision, I saw someone in front of me and looked worried about me. Slowly, I opened my eyes bigger and the vision got clearer. I looked around and knowing that I was lying on bed in a hospital.

Maybe it's because of over working, I am feeling so weak at the moment and couldn't even move my body at all. I focused on the person in front of me and found that it was the Hyebin, the last girl I met and rejected, and that famous celebrity.

I widened my eyes: "Hyebin shi.."

Hyebin smiled: "Changmin shi went to pay for the fees, and he asked me to stay here for a little in case you wake up. I am going to call the doctor here okay?"

Hyebin pressed a button on top of my bed and then she sat back down on a chair near my bed: "How are you feeling?"

"What are you doing here, Hyebin shi?"

"Oh! I took my Umma here for her health check up, she has been getting sick a lot lately. Maybe it's because of the whether, and when I came in I saw you being pushed into the emergency room. I thought I should pay you a visit just to stop and say hi." Hyebin smiled at me.

"Oh.. thank you.." I said and couldn't really find any more energy to say anything else. Then the doctor walked in and Hyebin stood up letting the doctor to do check ups on me.

"How are you feeling now?" The doctor asked.

"A little dizzy." I replied.

"Does your head hurt? Or anywhere hurt?" He asked again.

"No.. but I feel a little weak.." I answered.

The doctor nodded and wrote down some words: "You should stay in hospital for today, and we will do other check ups on your health. But basically, you are just too weak and lack nutrients. Eat regularly and sleep more from now on!"

I nodded and the doctor walked out, Hyebin looked back at me and said: "Seems like nothing major for your sickness. I am glad! It was good to see you again, and I hope you get well soon."

I nodded and Hyebin stood up: "I have to go now! Some interview! I will pay you a visit later, is that okay with you?"

I looked up: "Hyebin shi, I have a question."

Hyebin turned over and I bit onto my lips, but I know I have to ask, so I said: "Do you happen to know Kim Jaejoong? The model?"

Hyebin walked back a little: "Erm.. I don't know him personally, but I do hear things about him. What is it you want to ask?"

I looked down at my hands and asked: "Do you know anything about him and his manager's rumors? I happened to read them on the magazine and I was just.. curious.."

Hyebin: "Oh.. that! Yea, everyone in the entertainment industry knows. Jaejoong shi and his manager are in a very abnormal relationship and that's not a secret anymore, but then his manager Siwon shi got married all of the sudden which was surprising to everyone. The person Siwon shi got married with was Siwon's college schoolmate, and it was said that she was already pregnant when they were getting married. Though, few days ago, their son was said to have a blood testing result and his blood type does not match Siwon's."

I widened my eyes and stared at Hyebin in disbelief and I asked: "So, the kid wasn't Siwon's?"

"That's what people said, and the wife is to blame on right now." Hyebin replied, "And about Jaejoong shi, I heard from some make-up artist that he most likely made up with Siwon shi. Because, they saw them going home together after work and such.."

I looked down, and even though I already knew the answer, but someone hearing the truth still hurts my heart. Hyebin looked over at me: "Yunho shi, I really have to go now! Hope you get better. I will come back after work."

I nodded without much comprehending of Hyebin's words, and I heard Hyebin walked out then minutes later Changmin walked in.

"Yunho.." Changmin asked, "Are you okay now? You scared me!"

I closed my eyes and turned away, because I felt tears rolling out from my eyes, and I don't want Changmin to see it. Changmin sat down and sighed: "I know what's wrong with you already, why are you still hiding it?"

I turned back and wiped my tears away: "Nothing, I just felt dizzy, go back to work, we can't both be out from the company."

"Jaejoong.. went back to Siwon.. right?" Changmin asked.

I looked down and didn't say anything..

Changmin: "You know, you shouldn't have trusted him so much. Entertainment industry is just like that.. fake and truth are all mixed together, especially with those recently popular models and idols."

"Enough!" I wanted Changmin to stop because I know I can take no more words related to Jae.

Changmin sighed: "Hyebin shi.. seemed worried about you.. she told me she will come back to visit you and bring you food.."

I closed my eyes and pretended to sleep..

Changmin stood up and said: "don't be so upset Yunho ah.. there are other who will love you and stay with you.."

Then I heard Changmin walked out from the room, I opened my eyes and Jae's sweet smile appeared in space. How can that sweet face lie to me?

The night, Hyebin did come like she said and she also brought a lot of food. I am guessing that Changmin probably said something to her because she didn't once ask what is wrong with me and how did I get sick. Instead, she just sat beside me and watched me take and took care of me for the night.

She told me, that she is already so tired of the entertainment circle, and she just wants to meet the right guy and get married. I know she is hinting me, and I know that she is a nice girl. Unlike the others, she can be quiet at time and caring when I needed. I don't know if I am just angry or I really give no more hope, I started to think that love is just something stupid.

Before I met Jae, I doubt that I would find true love so that's why I wanted to find a wife in a marketing way. But after I met Jae, I gave up on all those good opinions and stick with him knowing and hoping that we will love each other forever.

After three weeks of Jae's disappearance, I finally realized that it is time to wake up. The dream will go on, but I don't want to be the only one in there.

"Let's date." I said, and those words I know came out from my own mouth.

Hyebin gasped at first, but then she smiled sweetly and said: "I will try my best to be a good girlfriend to you. And I hope to heal the wounds of whoever hurt you."

I know she will, because as time passes, I will no longer remember a Kim Jaejoong, and no longer remember love.

That's how it started, I dated Hyebin and she started to reject a lot of interviews and other activities to be with me and ready to get married. Hyebin is a very sweet girl, and she plans ahead a lot so I don't have to worry about the details because she would remind me.

I do seem good qualities in her, though I haven't invited her to my house yet, because this house is just filled with Jaejoong's everything including the furniture, the dishes, and even the little cute stuff animals.

Why didn't I throw them out? Maybe it's because I am not ready to let go yet when I should.

This night, I took Hyebin home after dinner and she pecked me on my cheek. Everything has been moving slowly with Hyebin and I unlike when I was with Jae. But I like it this way, because I feel calm and warm at time.

I drove back home toward my mansion, but just when I was about to pull the car in the drive way. I hit the break hardly and saw a little figure crawling in front of the stairs and looking up toward my direction.

"Yunho.."

--

In a coffee that still opens during mid-night, I sat across from this person who I loved and hated so much.

"Yunho.." His sweet voice called me again.

I looked away from his face because I don't want to do anything extreme at the moment. I know that my hatred and upset feeling will over-come my body anytime.

"I know, you probably hate me now. And you won't listen to my explanation this time." He said.

"You are right! I don't want to hear anything from you." I replied coldly.

"But, please do let me explain myself. I.. I love you.." He said.

I closed my eye tightly and I can't believe he can still lie to me in front of my face when so many things happened already. Does he think he can just play with my feelings like this forever?

I suddenly stood up and looked over at those pure looking eyes, but I know those are just fake: "I am sorry, but.. I don't love you.."

With the last word said, I turned away and walked out from the coffee shop. I win! I know I am the winner this time, but I don't feel happy.. not at all.. I didn't win.. I didn't win anything..

I rushed back home and cried for hours on my bed. I didn't know I would be crying again, but this time, I really cried..

Chapter 19

Heavy rated

The next day, I woke up extremely early. When I looked over at the clock, it was only five a.m. in the morning. I got up from the bed and walked toward the bathroom, but when I stopped in front of the window. I saw a figure standing outside of my house and looking up into my room.

I walked over and pulled away the curtains, then I saw Jae's face looking straight at me..

"Oh.. Yunho ah.." He called when he saw me. What? Did he stay there the whole night?

I walked down the stairs, but before opening the door, I stopped and told myself not to be moved by anything he does anymore.

I opened the door and saw him looking very weak right now, maybe its because he didn't have any sleep last night and it was cold outside.

"Yunho ah.." Jae smiled a little when he saw my face.

"What are you doing outside of my house like that?" I said coldly.

"I want to explain to you and I have something.." Jae said but I cut him off.

"I don't want to hear anything from you." I said and closed the door but his hand stopped the door before I could close it fully.

"Wait, Yunho! Please, trust me! I didn't do anything sorry to you. I love you from the bottom of my heart." Jae said quickly with a worried voice.

I turned my head back to him and I don't know what has gotten into me all of the sudden, because I said: "If you want to explain, then come back tonight, I have to go to work now."

Jae suddenly smiled brightly and nodded his head, then he said: "I will come back tonight and I will wait for you right here!"

I closed the door and leaned on the door, the hatred feeling cannot be erased anymore. All the tears and all the pain, Kim Jaejoong, I will make you pay for them. How much I have trusted you? How many times you have broken my trust? I am not going to forgive anymore.

The whole day, my soul seemed to be out from my body, though I tried to focus on work and not to think about the night, but I can't help it. I told Hyebin not to wait for me tonight because I have something to do.

Hyebin being the same understanding sweet girl told me to watch my health and eat dinner on time. Comparing Hyebin to Jae, I started to think that one come from heaven and one come from hell. Because Jae is a total devil when it comes to whatever he does, playing with my heart, seducing my conscious, lying to me about everything and cheating on me with Siwon.

Devil as he is, but tonight, I won't let him off so easily anymore.. Jaejoong.. I am sorry, but you hurt me first.

After work, I went to buy a few things that I would need for tonight, and then I drove home when the sky turned complete dark, because I want to see if he is still waiting for me in the cold. I pulled my car into the grudge and saw him sitting in front of my house like he said.

I smirked a little and got out from the car, then I walked over to the front door and he looked up at me with a smile on his face. The wind had already made his pile face turned reddish. I opened the door and told him to come in.

He followed me in and I turned around to him said: "Want to go up to my room?"

I nodded without hesitation. I know he is a whore to begin with and that is going to be the way his punishment is going to be. After that, I am going to hurt him as much as he hurt me.

We both stepped into my room, and I locked the door from the back. Jae turned over to look at me with tears in his eyes, but trust me, I am not buying that anymore.

"I am sorry Yunnie, I tried to come back early, but I suddenly had very tight schedules and I couldn't make back. Actually I went to Japan for the last three months for interviews and photo shooting." Jae said and walked over to me, "And that night, I had to rush out was because Siwon got drunk and whenever he gets drunk he would start to pick up fights with people. I.. I am still his friend, so I don't want him to get hurt."

Yea.. sure.. just keep lying to me.. Kim Jaejoong, because the more you lie, then the more I will persuade myself to take revenge on you..

"Do you really think I trust you?" I asked him.

He paused a second and looked down: "I know I don't sound very convincing, but, I am not lying to you Yunho."

I nodded with a cold smile on my face: "Sure, I trust you."

"Really?" I looked up with hope in his eyes.

"Under one condition!" I said.

"What is it?" He asked me.

I walked over and pushed him down on my bed: "You have to let me do whatever to you tonight and you can't cry, if you cry out, you will have to get out from here and I will never see you again."

"W.. what?" He looked at me in disbelief.

"Of course! I am not going to force you, if you don't want to, you can get out from here now and never come to see me again." I said and stood away from him.

Jae bits onto his lips and looks up at me, but I am not going to give in anymore to him. I then rolled my eyes: "If you don't want to, then leave.."

I pointed my hand toward my bedroom door, but then he quickly grabbed onto my hand: "No.. I.. I agree.. I won't cry.. no matter what you are going to do.."

I nodded in satisfaction and without considering his feelings I said: "I knew you are my favorite little whore!"

Jae widened his eyes and stared at me, but I didn't give him the time to say anything. I crashed my lips onto his harshly and slipped my tongue into his mouth. Slowly, he gave in and started to kiss me back, but tonight, I am not going to give him any satisfaction because it is going to be rough and painful, just like the way I am feeling in my heart.

I bit hardly onto his tongue which was battling with mine, "Mmm", he gasped in pain and he opened his eyes back up.

Then I let go of his tongue, but I bit onto his lower lips hardly this time, and he screamed in pain, but I didn't let go till I felt those warm blood coming out from his rosy lips. I let go and tasted the reeking of blood from his mouth then looked over at his shocked yet painful face.

"Get up and strip yourself in front of me!" I ordered.

Jae stared at me in disbelief and I said with a louder voice: "I don't want to repeat my words twice! Remember, you already agreed!"

Jae slowly stood up on the ground and his mouth was still bleeding from my bite, slowly, he took off his shirt, and I looked down at his pants. He looked down and unbuttoned his pants, then pushing them off from his legs showing the long and pile legs of his.

"That's it! My little whore! You know you enjoy doing this also." I said and I saw him closing his eyes and turning his head away.

"Why did you stop?" I said and pointed at his boxer. He then grabbed onto his boxer and pulled it off in one go. Right now, he is totally naked in front of me. Still that tempting body, I gulped a little but I soon reminded myself what I am about to do and not to give in so easily this time.

"Go on your knees and face your back to me on the bed." I ordered him.

Slowly, he climbed onto my bed with his ass facing me, and I took out my special prepared things just for him from the bag, a big dildo which can also vibrate.

Jae turned his head and widened his eyes when he saw what was in my hand, and he climbed to the front to avoid what is going to happen next.

"Yunho.." Jae's voice is almost in a begging sound, but I still replied coldly..

"You better stay still or else it would hurt more."

Jae bits onto his lips and turned his head away from me, then I pointed the dildo right in front of the hole. Without any preparation, I stuffed the thing hard into the tight hole of his.

"AHHHHHHHH!" Jae screamed in pain. "AHHH! STOP! PLEASE! TAKE IT OUT! AHHHH!"

I didn't listen to him, but instead, I pushed harder until the whole thing is all inside of his ass. I saw tears dripped down from his face onto my beds-sheet. Suddenly, my movement stopped and when I look over at his ass, I found his private part already started to bleed.

Red blood mixed with white silky liquid licked out from the reddened hole as the dildo started to vibrate inside, and Jae falls down on the bed unable to support his body.

"Ahhh.. Ahh.." Jae kept on screaming with pain.

I sighed hard and decided to stop this punishment earlier, so I stopped the vibration and pulled the thing out from his ass. Jae's legs fell down on the bed also, and his face was on side ways as his eyes shooting a glance at my face.

Tears were rolling out from his big eyes, and he breathed heavily as if all energies were out from his body. His lips are still bleeding a little and his face looked pile. Looking at this scene in front of me, I felt my heart clutched together, and I know I am unable to continue anymore.

I picked up his clothes from the ground and throws it at his face: "Get dressed up and leave!"

"Yunho.." He called weakly.

"Go!" I yelled and walked out from my house, and I don't even know where I am heading, I just know that I am hurting myself and him together. Why Jaejoong? Why did you have to lie to me and make me so hurt? I want to take revenge, but it just hurts me more to see you like this.

Chapter 20

I drove around on the street with no clue where I am going to go, and I kept on thinking about Jae's pile face and the tears in his eyes. Can he even stand up now? He was bleeding.. can he even walk? Aish.. why did I tell him to get out from my house? Why did I walk out? Why did I do this to him? I should have let him explain, why didn't I listen to him? I am so cruel to take revenge on him like that. After all, I love him so much and even if he chooses Siwon over me, I should be happy for him, because Siwon did come before me.

Thinking about all these, I headed back home with a very fast speed and I hope to see Jae still in my room. So I can apologize to him and tell him how much I love him. I jumped out from my car, and I rushed back inside the house.

"Jaejoong! Jaejoong!"

Calling his name, I rushed up the stairs toward my room, but when I opened the door my heart dropped to the very bottom.

It is empty already. Jaejoong is gone.. slowly, I took my legs near the bed where I had just tortured that innocent soul. I sat down hard on the bed and digs my hand into my hair as I closed my eyes and feeling the pain in my heart.

I think I really lost him this time.. he will not forgive me and I have no rights to see him anymore..

Jae didn't come again, and three days have passed like three years. This day, I called Changmin into my office.

"What is it?" Changmin walked in and I looked up.

"I am going to propose to Hyebin tonight, and I will call you if she agreed then make sure my marriage will be announced on the newspaper." I said and my heart is aching at every word that came out from my mouth.

Changmin nodded: "So you have decided already?"

I looked down and nodded slowly..

Changmin said: "I am happy for whatever decision you make, and I think settling down this way is better. Really!"

"Thanks." I don't know what else to day, maybe Changmin is right. Settling down is better than feeling the pain every day.

The night I reserved a very expansive restaurant inside a five star hotel, and there was no other customers only Hyebin and myself.

Hyebin was shocked at first, but then when I finally proposed my love to her and asking for her in the hands of marriage. She smiled sweetly at me and nodded her head. She told me she would quit her job after we get married and stay home to be a good house wife.

I trust her, because she has always been a sweet girl and she always does everything she says. Maybe having a good wife is better than finding true love anyways. But Jae's face never disappeared in my mind, whenever I close my eyes I can see him smiling at me.

The next day, the newspaper came out, but when Changmin brought it over for me to see I was shocked to see the news under my marriage plan.

"Kim Jaejoong has announced that he withdraws from the entertainment business forever."

Jaejoong said on the paper that he has lost everything and for now, he just wants to be along and go somewhere that he can feel quiet and calm.

I know he is talking about Siwon or me, but I thought at least he should be with Siwon, though when I read into the news, Jae's manger's name seemed to be someone else called, Lee Sungmin. Then what happened to Siwon?

I was so confused, but I told myself not to think too much. I didn't try to look for Jae either, because he told everyone that by the time this news is on paper, he would already be somewhere outside of Korea.

I then started to focus on my wedding plan, including picking out church, restaurants, rings, wedding dresses and spending some more time with Hyebin.

Reports have been extremely busy with my wedding, and they almost follow us everywhere since I am the famous business man, and Hyebin is a famous actress. I felt that even though my life felt empty without Jae, but Hyebin has filled it with another feeling. Though not as strong and sweet, but calm and warm..

I got out from my car after a long day, and walked toward my mail box to check for any mails. When I opened it, I saw a little gift box inside.

From Kim Jaejoong.. to Jung Yunho..

"Congratulations Yunho ah.. sorry for the late present, but I didn't get to see the newspaper till now. I am truly happy for you, and I hope you will have a happy life. I hope you are not mad at me anymore after the revenge. I don't hate you at all, if I were you, I might have done something worse. Though, we both moved on, and let's just wish each other to have a happy life without each other. Enjoy your life!"

That was the note Jae wrote to me. Holding the gift box in my hand, I felt my eyes getting blurry again. The tears rolled out from my eyes and I looked up at the sky to stop myself from tearing up so much.

Jaejoong ah.. do you know how much I miss you? Do you know that I think about you everyday? I am getting married in five days. Do you really not care? I am getting married without you.. I never imagined we would end like this.. please.. let me forget you.. forget our love already..

Jaejoong ah.. I still love you.. I still do..

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The next day during afternoon..

Ring.. Ring..

"Hello?"

"Yunho ah.. are you busy this afternoon?"

"Nope! Finally got some free time, Hyebin is going for a visit to her family before the wedding."

"Great! Come out to eat with me!"

"How come you are so free? Where is Junsu?"

"He is at home! I need to talk to you, and Junsu doesn't know anything about this."

"What do you need to talk bout?"

"Just come out! See you at the old place in 20 minutes! Bye!"

Yoochun hangs up and I looked down at the watch, then I stepped out from my office and got into the car as I drove to the restaurant I always eat together with Yoochun before when we were both single.

I got out from the car and saw Yoochun already sitting by the window, and I waved as I walked in.

Yoochun looked up and smiled: "How are you? Almost married man?"

"I am doing good!" I said and took a sip of the water.

Yoochun: "I already ordered. It's the same thing as before."

I nodded knowing that Yoochun knows what I like the most in here..

"So, what is it that you need to tell me and can't even let Junsu know?" I asked with a smile on my face.

Yoochun looked over at me, and I said: "Haha.. why are you looking at me like that? Don't tell me you are going to confess your feelings for me before my wedding. Sorry, I will have to reject you because I am getting married. But if you did confess earlier, I would have considered to fight with Junsu for you."

Yoochun laughed: "haha.. you wish! What am I going to do with a seme?"

I laughed along with Yoochun and after a while, our food came and I started to eat, but Yoochun didn't eat at all. He looked down at his food and seemed to be debating about something inside his head.

"Yunho.." He called.

I looked up and he sighed hard: "I thought I should tell you this before your wedding."

"What is it?"

"Do you still remember the newspaper you announced your wedding on?" He asked.

I nodded..

"Did you see Jaejoong's quit show business news under your news?" He asked.

I looked away and said: "What about it?"

"I found something weird, on the paper, it said his manager's name is Lee Sungmin, but wasn't the guy Choi Siwon before?" Yoochun continued and I looked over when I heard him saying this, "Don't you think that's weird?"

"I did thought its weird, but it is normal that models change their managers right?" I said.

Yoochun sighed: "There is more to it. But, Jaejoong didn't want me to tell you because he doesn't want to ruin your wedding or anything, but I figured that you should know. Since, you were so mad at him maybe after hearing this you would understand him more."

"What is it?" I am getting frustrated about that something Yoochun knows and I don't about Jae.

Yoochun: "Before Jaejoong left, he came to see me because he knows that I am your close friend. He didn't want to tell Changmin since he is your secretary, so he asked me to keep this secret. The day when he came back to see you was really the first day he came make back to Korea. Actually, the night Siwon pretended to be drunk because he wanted Jae to stay with him so he could get him over to Japan the next day. Siwon told Jae that they have a fan meeting in Japan the next day, so they both flies over to Japan, but Jae already felt weird because other than Siwon there was no one else. No make-up people, no style designers, no guards.. only Siwon and him.. when they arrived to Japan, Siwon immediately took Jae into a house and asked Jae to stay with him in Japan forever. Jae rejected him but the result was that he got locked up in a room, and he had no way to get out. Jae said that he could feel that Siwon's mental processing is all messed up because of the child instant. Siwon kept on asking Jae to stay with him and said that Jae is all he has left. Finally, when Siwon went out from the house, Jae jumped out from the window and escaped."

"He jumped out from the window?" I couldn't believe my own ears for this story that I have never heard before.

Yoochun nodded and said: "Jae immediately went to the air-port, and used the last bit of money on him to buy a plane-ticket back to Korea. Then he went to his company and wanted to report Siwon, but the company said Siwon has quit his job right after he found out he wasn't the child's father. Jae was shocked, and he went to find you.. that's when you rejected him and locked him out from your house.. you see, Jae wanted me to tell you all these after your marriage, he doesn't want you to feel guilty, but he only wanted you to forgive him. He really tried to go back to you as soon as possible. But I thought misunderstanding someone like Jae is really a bad thing, especially you are getting married and he is all by himself.. along at somewhere he doesn't even know.."

I widened my eyes as I jumped the glass that was in my hand on the ground..

Chapter 21

When I got my senses back, I looked down at the broken glass. I had no time to even blame myself, I picked up my feet and tried to rush out, but Yoochun held me back.

"Where are you going?"

"I need to find Jaejoong now!"

Yoochun sighed and pulled me back to sit down: "Don't bother, Jaejoong is gone! It's not like I am trying to stop you or anything, but there is really no way to find him and he doesn't want to be found. That's why he told me to tell you all these after you are married."

"I don't care! I need to find him!" I almost screamed because I am on the edge of exploding inside of my mind.

"Let me tell you straight! I tried to find him myself too, but I sent out all my people and there is no sign of him. I only thing in conclusion is that Jaejoong is not Korea anymore." Yoochun said and pulled onto my arm.

I sat down hard on the chair and started to order drinks after drinks until I felt that my whole head is spanning. The last thing I know was that Yoochun was trying to pull away the beer bottle I was holding.

--

"Ahh.."

I groaned at the sun-light, and when I woke up I found myself laying on my own bed. Yoochun must have taken me home, but I am having a major headache that I haven't been having in a while.

This same painfulness and dizziness actually felt exactly the same as the day when Jae left me for the first time. The same major hang over, and the same feeling of losing him. Did I really lose him?

I didn't want to just give up like this. I didn't listen to Yoochun, instead, I sent out my man to look for Jae also. But just like Yoochun said, Jae seemed to be disappeared from Korea. I don't have the power to search for him outside of Korea. I had no choice but to give up, though, my mind seemed to be wondering else where no matter who is talking to me.

"Are you listening, Yunho?"

There goes again, when I got my senses back on earth I found Hyebin in front of me but I had no clue that I was talking to her, or even when did she came into my office.

"I am sorry.. I was.. spacing out.." I replied and felt very apologetic.

Hyebin rubs my cheek and asked: "Are you okay? Do you feel sick? Maybe you should take a few days off. You know, we need to start shopping for our wedding needs. So, why don't you take a few days off with me?"

She gave me a sweet smile, and then I realized that there is still that wedding going on. And the date is going to be five days later.

"Okay.. sure.. I will talk to Changmin!" I answered.

"Do you want to go to the hospital first then? You don't look so good." Hyebin asked worriedly.

"No, I am fine! I will just go home early and take a rest today. I will call you tomorrow. Okay?" I said.

Hyebin nodded and then she pecked me on the cheek while walked out from my office. Touching my cheek, I don't even know what this feeling is, but it is definitely no comparison to anything Jae does. Jae how could I misunderstood you, and if I had only listened to you instead of taking my own judgment.

And, Jaejoong.. how could you not hate me after what I have done to you? How can you tell me that you still love me? Oh god! My sweet Jaejoongie! Did I really lose you this time? You are never coming back to me again, right?

"Hyung?"

That's Changmin's voice that I recognize, and he rarely calls me Hyung unless something is serious.

"What is it Changmin?" I looked up and he walked in worriedly.

Changmin sat down in front of me: "Are you okay, Hyung? You look so pile. Do you want to go for a check up?"

I shake my head: "I just had a bad hang over!"

"Hyung! The marriage.."

I cut Changmin off: "Don't postpone it! Just.. follow the original date.. I.. I have noting to lose now.. and I don't want to hurt anymore people."

When I was saying all these, my heart kept on hurting and aching. I don't want to get married, but what other choice do I have. I already hurt Jae, then what right do I have to hurt Hyebin also? She is innocent and she has noting to do with my relationship with Jae.

I closed my eyes as a tear dropped down, Changmin sighed: "Hyung.. don't force yourself if you don't want to.."

"Don't worry about me! By the way, I am not coming to work anymore till after my marriage, I need to prepare for the wedding now." I said and got up, then patted on Changmin's shoulder, "You can take care the company for me."

Changmin nodded and this time, he didn't want to make any jokes with me. I don't really want to hear anything else either. I just want Jae back.. that's all I want.. really..

For the next few days, I would go out during the days and wonder around the wedding stores to pick out things with Hyebin. At nights, I would go out to the bar and get myself drunk enough to fall asleep so I can see Jae again in my dreams.

I had dreamed about Jae every night that he came back to me, but when I opened my eyes there is no Jae and only myself.

This day as usual, I am picking out the wedding ring with Hyebin, and for the first time I found out how girls can take such a long time at the mall.

"I will be back okay?" I said and wanted to go use the bathroom.

Hyebin holding up a ring and looked over: "Oh.. okay.. I take a little more time picking anyways."

I nodded and walked over to the bathroom, after I walked in I closed the door and sighed out hardly. Walking over to the sink, I washed my face a few times with the cold water.

"What are you talking about? You are not coming back here right now! Do you want to bring troubles to me?"

When I opened the door to the bathroom, I heard a whispering voice in the hall outside of the bathroom. When I walked out, the person stopped talking and rushed away when I could get a peek of her sight. But I was sure it was a girl's voice.

When I walked back into the ring store, I found Hyebin looking a little anxious and not picking out a ring anymore.

"Have you decided already?" I asked as I sat down next to her.

She looked down and picked up a ring: "Erm.. uh.. how about this one? I like it! What do you think?"

"Then we will take it!" She looked nervous and anxious for some reason, though I didn't think much.

Walking back into my car, I opened the door for Hyebin, and she still seemed worrisome. I asked: "Are you okay?"

"Yea, I am fine! I am a little tired today. Can you take me home early?" She asked.

I nodded and drove her back home, she did look a little pile, but I didn't realize why she behaved this way till later.

Before she got out from the car, I said: "Have a good rest today! I am sure you will look beautiful at our wedding!"

She smiled a little at me and said: "You will be handsome too! Good night!"

"Good night!"

But if I have known what was going on behind her back, I would have never said anything of those words to her.

Days passed by very fast, and it was already the day of my wedding. I remembered unable to fall asleep the night before because I kept on thinking about Jae.

I wonder if he would surprisingly show up anytime in my life again, but until the wedding day, Jae never returned and I couldn't find a clue where he is.

*Church bell*

I looked up and awaken by the bell, then I looked over at the big door of the church as it started to open slowly. There stood Hyebin wearing wedding dress and slowly walking over to me with the wedding music ringing.

This picture should be beautiful but somehow I find no beauty in it. I looked over at her and suddenly my heart started to tell me other wise. Am I really going to get married like this? Do I really want to give up on finding Jae? But.. I am already standing here.. and..

"Yunho, do you take Jeon Hyebin to be your wife, to have and to hold form this day forward, for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death to you two apart?"

"I.. I.."

*Door open sound*

"I object!"

I turned my head upon hearing the familiar voice when everyone gasped, and then my eyes brightened. There he is.. taking me by surprise once again.. Jaejoong..

Jae took off his sun-glasses and smiled..

Priest: "What? What is this objection about?"

Jae walked over a few steps and standing in the middle of the hall as he stared into my eyes: "Because I love him!"

Chapter 22

All I could hear was gasp, and I just stared at Jae who is smiling at me as if he was an angel from the heaven. I rubbed my eyes a few time, and when I opened them again Jae was still standing in front of me.

"What are you doing here Kim Jaejoong?" Hyebin suddenly speaks.

I looked over at Hyebin and then looked back at Jae, but Jae didn't seem to have any changes of emotions. He just kept on staring at me and said loudly while clearly: "Yunho ah.. I missed you.. and I have finally decided, I am not going to let you go.. let my love go again! I am going to get you and my love back! I already missed it once, and I am not letting it happen to me again! No matter what do you think of me, but I love you!"

"Jaejoong ah!"

For one moment, I thought the whole world was left with only me and him, because I couldn't see anyone or anything else. I rushed over to him and hugged him tightly in my embrace. I squeezed him tightly and never wanted to let him go again.

I thought nothing was going to break us apart again, but Hyebin's voice woke me up.

"Yunho? We are having a wedding! Honey?" Hyebin sounded as if she was about to cry, but before I said anything, Jae got out from my hug and stepped in front of me facing Hyebin.

"Jeon Hyebin!" Jae called her name.

She stepped back a little but still looking at Jae..

"Game is over!" Jae smirked and backed away when I turned around I gasped at the sight of Siwon.

Siwon stepped into the church. I stepped in front: "Yah! What are you doing here?"

Jae hugged onto me lightly: "Don't worry Yunho, Siwon is here to help us."

Siwon smiled at me for the first time and then looked over at Hyebin: "Hyebin ah.. how have you been? Sorry, I know you didn't want me to come back to Korea, but I did anyways and so did your own manager!"

"W.. what?" Hyebin seemed very nervous now and everyone in the church is looking at the four of us standing in the middle.

Siwon walked over toward Hyebin and started to assert the whole event, he said: "You planned well and you are a very noble woman, but.. too evil.. you knew my relationship with Jaejoong, so you made the wrong report of my son's blood type. Then you asked people to add a kind of drug that would make me lose my sense in the drink. It was me who brought Jae to Japan, but it was you who locked Jae up and threaten me to continue with the drama. Jae escaped was not part of your plan, so you rushed Yunho into this marriage before you can't control me anymore."

Hyebin stared at Siwon and yelled: "You are lying! That is all lies! You are lying!"

"Really? I am lying?" Siwon said and turned to me, "Yunho, didn't you ever wonder how comes she always comes to you at the right time and it is the exact time when you needed someone?"

I nodded and then Siwon smiled: "Maybe it is new to your business people, but it's just the same old game within the entertainment industry. I wouldn't have known that I was drugged till Jaejoong told me that he saw my pupils were dilated, so I went to have an exam and found the drug in my body."

Hyebin: "You have no proves that I am the one who drugged you!"

"Oh really?" Jae said, "Jeon Hyebin! If I am not mistaken, you have been dreamed to marry a successful business man. Yunho is right in your target and you used this chance to get to know him. Acting nice in front of him, but behind him, we all know what kind of woman you are. So, you are asking for the proof, right? How about a witness that you know very well? Does that count?"

Hyebin started to shake when I looked over at her, and I finally figured everything out by now. Everything is clear now, though it is unbelievable to me that Hyebin could plan all these. But just when I was suspecting and wondering about this whole thing..

Yoochun pushed the door open and dragged a guy in: "Hyebin shi, you do recognize your own manager right?"

Hyebin suddenly dropped the banquet in her hand on the floor: "No.. this is.. this is.."

"This is the trap you planned, but you only ended up falling inside yourself. And let me tell you a bad news, your manager had already confirmed everything." Siwon said, "Drugging and kidnapping people, I bet this will be many years in jail. I hope you enjoy it, because the police is outside waiting for you."

When I looked over at the man, I recognized him to be Hyebin's manager, which explained why I haven't seen this man in a while because like Siwon said he has been in Japan to threaten Siwon and Jae to stay there till after the marriage.

The police walked in and straight up to Hyebin as they pulled out a paper said: "Jeon Hyebin, you will have to come with us to the station right now!"

Hyebin looked down and I could tell that her face was turning green already, then slowly, she looked up and whispered: "All people in the entertainment industry just want to marry someone rich. What is wrong with that? I am just one of them. But Kim Jaejoong, you just have to be one step ahead of me!"

The police pushed Hyebin down and toward the front door, when she passed me she stopped and looked over at me.

"I.. I.." She started to cry.

"Take care of yourself!" I replied. "I hope when you come out, you won't make the same mistake and find someone who truly loves you."

She pulled out my hand, and placed the wedding ring in my hand: "Sorry I hurt you and the person you love."

I wanted to say something else, but the police pushed her out from the door. Soon, she was gone from my sight. I stood there and looked over at Jae, and we just stared at each other like that while Changmin helped me to arrange all the guests to different locations and cleared the church.

After everyone was gone, Yoochun looked over and said: "Jaejoong planned all these, and he said he couldn't let you into Hyebin's hand after he learned what had happened. He tried his best to search for everything he could to prove Hyebin guilty, and he asked for my help. That's why when you tried to search, you couldn't find him, because he was busy doing all these for you."

I looked at Jae, and slowly, Jae formed a warm smile on my face. I heard Yoochun stepped toward the door and told me: "Don't lose him again! He really loves you, Yunho!"

I looked away from Jae and feeling guilty and upset with myself. I don't know how to face Jae after what I have done to him and what he has done for me. Do I still deserve him and his love?

Just when I was blaming myself and feeling awkward with him, Jae opened his mouth..

"Why are you avoiding me? Didn't I come back like I told you I would? Are you still not able to forgive me?"

I looked up: "No! It's not that! I.. I have hurt you so much.. and you still.. I.."

Jae smiled: "It's okay! I wasn't mad at you! Like I said, I lost Siwon and there is no reason for me to lose you again. Because I love you so much.."

I pushed Jae into my hug: "Jaejoong ah.. I missed you so much.."

"I know.." Jae whispered, "I saw you getting drunk every night, and I already forgave you when I saw you couldn't even walk straight at times. But I couldn't come out to see you, because, I have to handle this case to get my innocence back so you would trust me!"

"I am sorry for not trusting you! I really don't deserve you anymore!" I felt like crying.

Jae pushed himself out and looked into my eyes: "Don't say such things! You do deserve me, because I love you!"

"I love you too!" I answered and leaned over.

"Wait!" Jae yelled before I can kiss him.

"Huh?"

Jae pouted: "I just kissed someone else, I don't want to kiss you!"

I smiled: "Pabo! The kissing part didn't even come yet and you already broke into the church to ruin my wedding!"

"I ruined your wedding? Why don't you say that I saved you from your unhappy wedding?" Jae argued.

"Yes.. yes.. you saved me from my unhappiness and you are the one who can give me happiness!" I said and kisses him on the cheek, "Jae.. let's get married!'

"Eh?"

I didn't wait for his answer because he couldn't talk when I crashed my lips onto his soft lips. I felt love.. and more love.. from this kissing.. I love him and no matter what happens I will never lose him again.

Chapter 23

Rated (Jae's pov)

I didn't plan to come back actually. I really didn't mean to ruin Yunho's wedding until I found out the truth.

Actually, I already sensed things different when I saw Siwon drunk the night at the bar. That's why I insisted to take him home myself. The night when I went to the bar, Siwon was throwing up in the alley and when I looked at his face. He was not only having the sign of drunk from alcohol, but also he was sweating madly and his pupils were dilated.

At first, I didn't know what happened to him, but I couldn't let him just sleep on the street so I had to take him home. But the next day, he insisted me to go to Japan with him for a fan-meeting event.

Actually, it didn't matter where we go, even if we go to Canada, I would have been locked up also. Because, Hyebin's manager has been following us since the night I helped Siwon outside of the bar.

After three weeks, I finally had a chance to get out and sneak back to Korea. I know Siwon saw me escaping that day, but he didn't tell the others. That's when I figured something was fishy with Siwon.

When I came back to Korea, I wanted to see Yunho immediately, but I knew he wouldn't trust me especially when I saw the papers had been writing about Siwon running away with me. There were also pictures, I had no clue who took them.

Even though, I was very upset and heart broken at Yunho's rejection, but I am a man myself too. The rejection cannot bring me down, and even if I am not with Yunho I will still go search for the whole event and get my innocence back.

I asked Yoochun for help because I know he had more power than I do. I also told him about what happened to me, and luckily, he trusted me and decided to help me.

I told Yoochun not to tell Yunho anything yet, because I need to look more into the search. I wanted Yoochun to contact Siwon and maybe help him to get back to Korea.

When Siwon came back, he told he that he secretly went to do exam after he got to Japan and when he showed me the result, we all understood what happened. Also, Siwon gave me a shocking news, he told me the one who kidnapped us in Japan was Hyebin's manager.

So, all the puzzle pieces fit together now, and that's when I decided that I will not let Yunho into Hybein's hand. I told Yoochun to meet up with Yunho and tell him about my story, but don't tell him the dirty trick that Hyebin played yet, because Yunho did deserve a little punishment for what he did to me. *wink*

Then I showed up at the church like how I planed, of course, I already reported everything to the police. Hyebin, for drugging Siwon and kidnapping the both of us, will spend a few good years in jail.

Yunho was of course shocked, well, I always tend to shock him. He was surprised that I forgive him already, but did I? I don't know.. Did you really think that was it? We hug.. we kiss.. and we live happily ever after..

No! Stop it right there, because this is not a happy ending fan fiction, in reality, of course I am going to have my own revenge. *evil smirk*

"Wake up Yunho.. wake up.."

Looking down at him, I smiled to myself. Yes, we basically have been married so we live together now and this is around midnight.. *looks over at the watch*.. three o'clock..

"Wake up!"

Nudging Yunho a little, he twitched his eye-browns together and slowly opened his eyes. He wanted to rub his eyes, but he couldn't because.. his hands are tied together..

"What the..? Jaejoong?"

Looking down at himself, I love what I have done to him. The special tying and his handsome naked body.. Hum.. maybe the ropes a little too tied.. oh well..

Yunho: "Why the hell did you tie me up in the middle of the night? And how in the world did I not even wake up during this?"

"Don't ask me! You do sleep like a pig!" I said with a smile and I got up sitting on top of him touching his face, "Now, let's see.. what should I do first?"

"Jaejoong! This is not funny!" Yunho pouted.

"What? Did you really think I was going to let you off? You did torture me! And it did hurt!" I said with a serious face.

Yunho: "What? So.. what are you going to do?"

"The same thing you did to me!" I whispered into his ear, then I felt his body shaking a little.

"Jae.." He whined, and I just love the way when he baby talks to me.

Slowly, I kisses on his lips and started to deepen in. After a good few minute of kissing, I could tell Yunho was out of breath. Maybe lying on the bottom really makes people weak, or maybe I am just a good kisser.

I let go and started to kiss down toward his chest, and when I circled my tongue on his nipples, I heard him moaning.

"Oh god.. Jaejoong ah.."

I smiled and moved down to his stomach, there I found his member already hardened. So, I placed my hand on his hardened member and started to lick up and down.

"Jaejoong ah.. please.. don't.."

Yunho moaned and I felt his body shaking from my touch, I know that he has always a temptation for my body and my touch. I just love how sensitive he is, well, I must say I am more sensitive but I am in control now.

I started to suck onto his member hard and fast, moving my mouth up and down, I could feel that he is at the edge of coming. Come on, if I was that mean, I wouldn't have let him release, but I did.

I felt the white liquid spread in my mouth, and slowly, I swallowed it all down my throat. Yunho looked at me and started to be afraid of what I was going to do to him. I just laughed and pointed at his face.

"What are you laughing at?"

"Your face!"

"That's not funny!"

"Well.." I said and crawled up to face him, "Did you really think I was going to hurt you?"

"Well, you looked like it." Yunho said with a pout.

I touches his face lightly: "Oh Yunnie, you always fall for my tricks!"

I let him out from the ropes, and rubs his arms where I tied him because it left red marks as I said: "Aww.. did I hurt honey? You shouldn't have moved so much."

"Jae! You were giving me a blow job! Do you expect me lying here like a zombie?" Yunho said but suddenly I felt him grabbed onto my shoulder and flipped me under him.

I looked up at him shockingly, and then I saw him smirking at me. Ha.. I know exactly what is coming up now.

"Jaejoong.. pay back time.." Yunho said.

"You really like taking revenge don't you Yunho?" I whispered.

Yunho nodded and said: "But this time.. you will love it.."

Yunho bent down and started to kiss my neck, then I smiled and whispered: "Did I say I didn't like it last time?"

"Little slut!" Yunho whispered in between of the kiss.

I giggled and hugged onto him and felt him losing my clothes from my body. Soon, I felt his big squeezed into my private area. I moaned his name in the dark and felt his heart beat against mine.

I know this is love..

Yes.. I already forgave Yunho for what he did.. because love is all about forgiving, I know he did what he did because he loved me too much.

Hurting me, but at the same time, he was hurting himself too. This is the love between two men. Our love lacked the sensitivities that women had, but our love is filled with honesty and trustfulness.

This is our love.. the love of two men..

"Ah.. Yunho ah.. I am coming.."

"Boo.. wait for me.. Ahhh.."

"Ahhhh! Uhhh!"

He falls down on top of me and we patted together for air..

"I love you.."

"I love you too.."

The end