I was laughing and playing with my puppy. I have had her for years. She was a black lab mix with a boxer she had black fur and brown eyes she was a sweet heart my mother got her for me! My mother wanted a Chiwawa (sorry if spelled wrong) but the lady heard her wrong and gave my mother my puppy. She was born the same time and day and year I was. I named her when I saw her. she is a very nice dog never peed on the carpet as a puppy or my dad was going to get rid of her. My pups name was Teddy Bear. I know aww or weird but I loved her and she was mine we loved each other when my dad yelled I would run in our big yard and cry. But Teddy would come to me and lick my tears away and lay next to me until I stopped crying. She would look me in the eye until I came back inside. My dad was a mean man he wouldn't feed Teddy sometimes and never got her fixed so he just let her have to go through the pain for birthing pups and I loved them they would grow up and play with me and some would die my dad said because of brain stuff but I don't believe him any more. He would spend all his money on drugs and drink and when he ran out he would beat my mother untel he got more. She would fight back. My father beat my mother though her life even when I was a baby to a toddler to 5 years old. Then my mom left him she got my sister Kayla My brother Myles in the van I opened the door to get in but she left me..with this mad man..in the rain.. I can't remember after that but I do remember the memory of me and Teddy. Like the time I flew I kite for the first time. She chased after it! I had a ok life I made friends with my neighbor her name was RJ we where friends sense I was 3 and she was 5 we would always talk but sadly there was a fence. Mouths later her dad made a gate to I could open it and come over and I did everyday Teddy did to RJs mother feed Teddy and took care of her. So Teddy wanted to stay I let her. Years passed I was 8 or 9 and so was Teddy. RJ and I had made a fort and so did her brother. My mom had a kid when I was 5 he fallowed me everywhere and I HATED it. He went over to RJs and made friends with her brother I hated it he was my friend first. But what can you do? He took over the fort. I HATED HIM I HATED MY MOTHER the only people I loved was RJ and Teddy. My brother's name was Jojo. Well later my mom had a new dog and he died from someone shooting him my dad said and i think it was him. I cried for a few days. I grew a little part away from RJ I stopped going over the age of 12 and I just stopped after my dad lost his house. I went over to her house one day and Teddy  comes up to me but she didn't and walked passed me looking at me different then normal like she didn't know who I was. I bent down to pet her but she backed away crying to see if I was there because she saw my dad but not me but I was right In front of her yet she didn't know it was me. I just ignored it and went inside as my dog laid down crying. one year later my mom sat me down. She say my Dad told her Teddy was dead I cried for months years days. Each tear came down my face all my mom did was stare my dad didn't care. I should have been there all I can do is see her dead on the ground or they putting her down. I can do see her dieing slowly yet I wasn't FUCKING there with her to stay I Love you and Your ok yet I was probably Fucking watching TV and she died and as she dies she says in her mined crying out. Where is she?why did she leave me?What did I do?I am I ever going to see her face again?I want to her her..face.please..why can't these humans understand me..I just want to to see her before I pass away..please..pleas- then she dies on the table crying..me not even there to clam her! I cry every night having those dreams. Ever sense then I have had bad depression.. but I do have more reasons but I will not talk about it I would rather not or I will dream about it sadly...I wake up in cold sweat and tears down my face. "DAMN PAIG STOP! ITS NOT YOUR FAULT!...or is it?
____________________________________________ WHAT IS UP MY CRANKY CREW THIS IS JUST A TASTE OF THE STORY IF YOU WANT TO KNOW MORE READ ON! OH AND I HAD LOTS OF TEAR GO INTO THIS BECAUSE THIS BACK STORY WAS MY CHILD HOOD BUT WHY NOT PUT IT INTO THE STORY ALL OF THIS WAS REAL THAT HAPPEN TO ME AND BTW I AM USING PAIG INSTEAD OF Y/N BECAUSE IT IS EASY WELL I LOVE YOU ALL STAY CRANKY!