Rant ahead!!! (Long)

Hey guys... Um, as you guys know.... I've been feeling really depressed lately and it shows in real life. Well, since I've watched Thomas' newest Sanders Sides, I've learned a lot about myself. Um, I think I have these 'intrusive thoughts' and I guess I thought it was a good idea to bring it up to my brothers. I bring things up to my brothers first to see what my parents' more extreme thoughts on the matter because my brothers act like my parents. And, well, I brought this up and they think I'm crazy now. Yay...! Heh, um... My brothers didn't want to hear about it and one of them said I needed help, like therapist help. So, that's that. I don't even know why I tell them, they don't even think I have social anxiety so why would my other mental problems be any different? I know you guys don't wanna probably hear about this nonsense from some depressed, crazy, weird girl on the internet but I need to rant to someone. These are one of my calmer rants because I'm more sad than angry. Well, I'm angry at myself for thinking that it would be a good idea to bring it up.... I'm an idiot but now I know to never tell my parents about that. I can't tell them anything about myself I guess. I can't tell them my sexuality because they're homophobic and Transphobic So Pansexuality is out of the picture of trying to explain. I can't tell them I think I'm depressed because my mom will either say I'm selfish and I don't know what real depression is or she'll say that she had it worse or others have it worse so I can't be depressed. But, I might just being dramatic and overreacting so I might not even be any of these things. I mean, I could be ranting to you guys and not even be these things... Some of you might think I want attention.... Well, that's true. I do want attention but I'm not faking this to get attention. I'm telling you guys this so I can get it off my chest and if I get attention, good for me, someone actually cares. So, uh... Thanks guys for listening to this dumb rant from this dumb girl. So, uh, bubbye...!