shit

oh no

i stared at the piece of plastic in my hands

||

shite

i walk out of the bathroom in shame, i stare at Jade who happened to be staying with me this weekend

"Jade we need to talk"

"oh shit, what have you done lottie"

"well, uhh remember how i slept with mason a month and a half ago"

"yeah"

"im pregnant"

"shit, have you told him"

"i literaly just left the bathroom luv"

"well you better tell him because if he aint a part of this kids life, then they will be growing up with 2 mums instead of 1"

"well im not going to tell him over the phone Jade"

"then meet up with him"

now, i wasn't against abortions at all, in fact im all for it if thats what the mother wants, but to me i couldn't imagine that, so i was defo raising a child here

i call up mase

he doesn't answer and leaves me on voicemail

"hello mase its me lottie, i know we haven't spoken in a week or two, but we need to talk about something very urgently, like i can't quite tell you over the phone because its really serious, but tell me when your free ill come and get you if you want"

.

Mase's POV

i was currently washing my hands as me and dec had just finished making some sandwiches

"you've got a voicemail mate"

"play it on speaker"

"hello mase its me lottie, i know we haven't spoken in a week or two, but we need to talk about something very urgently, like i can't quite tell you over the phone but tell me when your free ill come and get you if you want"

"mase, is this the lottie as in the lottie trent's cousin" dec asks

"i don't know any other lottie's"

"is there something that happened on your date that you didn't tell me?"

"well... after the pub, we walked back to mine, and uhh"

"well in that case theres only one thing it could be mase"

"an STI?"

"no, you've got the girl pregnant mate"

"she didn't say though dec" i say as my mind swirls into horrific thoughts

"im sorry bro but if she can't say it on the phone then its got to be that serious"

"oh fuck fuck fuck fuck"

"what are you going to do about it?"

"well, it just as much as my fault as hers, and my parents taught me a lot better than to knock up a girl and then run off"

"it takes two to tango"

"yep" i laugh

"your a good man mase, i know you'll work this out, besides you were talking about her for a week straight, so you clearly could make this work"

"thanks dec"

i call her back

.

"hey lottie"

"hello mase" she says in a quieter tone

"so when are you free"

"is later today okay, i know its on very short notice but like its really urgent"

"sure, ill come pick you up in an hour"

"see you"

"see you"

.

"well you better tell me how it goes"

"dec if it turns out not to be that i will kill you for making me this nervous"

"you gladly can mase"

i change into something a bit more acceptable than my pyjama bottoms and a hoodie, and i sit in my living room looking across at dec, not knowing what to think, because this is serious

i get in my car and pick her up

"hey"

"hi"

"where do you want to go?"

"anywhere that will ease the tension"

"theres a coffee shop nearby we can go to"

"sure, coffee sounds great" she smiles

we arrive at the cafe and we sit down

i buy her and myself an iced espresso each and we sit down

"so? what did you want to tell me?" i say sipping on my drink

"im pregnant mase, and its definitely yours, im keeping the baby, and honestly if you don't want to be part of the childs life then i can just tell them it was a mistake or something" she nervously says

i take a deep breath

dec was right, i knew it even before he said it, as soon as i heard the voicemail i had a feeling, and that feeling was right

"my parents raised me so much better than to leave you alone in this, its just as much my fault than it is yours, you know, it takes two to tango"

she giggles at that last part

"thank you mase" she smiles

"now if were going to do this whole co-parenting thing, then i want to be at the appointments"

"sure, ive only found out this morning, but i have got an appointment for tommorow if you want to show up"

"okay, send me the details, ill be there for sure"

i get up to hug her

"thank you mase, im really scared but the fact that your willing to help me through this makes it a bit easier"

"i won't lie Lottie, but im scared too, we've both made a mistake, but i know better than to have you go through such a thing alone"

"thank you"

"by the way, who knows?"

"my friend Jade, other than that its just us, you can tell your mates if you want, i wont be mad"

i drop her off at her apartment and return to mine to find dec still there

"i swear you spend more time here than at your own house"

"nice place it is"

"im sorry but you live in stratford, i live in fulham, stratford is miles better than here"

"i won't lie i just can't be arsed to drive home"

"typical dec"

"you didn't tell me how it went"

"yeah, she's pregnant"

"im scared for you mase"

"bro, if phil can do it twice and be younger than us then ill be fine"

"bro i don't have much advice for you but don't hurt her because your only hurting yourself, and don't lie to yourself, you clearly like her"

"dec, i can't tell you this for sure right now, but char is something different, like you know well i don't sleep with a lot of women and i may have been half drunk that day but i don't regret sleeping with lottie"

"mate you've got to be strong, also call phil he's a lot better than me at this"

.

"phil?" 

"hey mase"

"can i tell you a secret"

"of course, its safe with me"

"well, uhh i kinda got a girl pregnant"

he sighs

"first of all don't worry, worrying will only make it worse, second of all what did you say to her"

"well i told her id be there for her and that we'd go through this together"

"do you know her well"

"well we went on one date because trent set us up and yeah, but i did talk to her before like once"

"oh no your not talking about lottie are you"

"yeah, it is lottie"

"damn when trent finds out he wont be very happy"

"shit, i didnt think about that one"

"also tell your parents, maybe not right away but don't put it off too long"

"okay, thanks bro"

"your welcome mase, call me if you ever need advice"

"of course my dude"

shit

i fucked up 

im really going to be a father at 23

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