Thank you for taking your time to check this out. This will either be a boredom or another suffering~

By the way, the dates/times in this shitty book will be quite different from it is in real life. But their ages will stay the same. Unless I have to change it in the future for story plot purposes.

Italics = Memories OR Thoughts OR Flashbacks

Those only go for the italics without " or '

If it's memories or flashbacks then it will have a ~ at the end of the memory or flashback
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He yawned, stretching as he checked the time.

4:00 Am.

He finished the lyrics he's been wanting to finish since last week. He never had time because of the different part-time jobs he takes everyday. Especially his job as a pizza delivery.

After he turned 20, he decided to move out of his parent's house. He started feeling like a burden to them. They were the ones paying for his meal, his house, and paying for his everything basically. He didn't want that since they are the ones who took him in and took care of him. He didn't want to be a burden at all.

Tomorrow, I have no jobs for anything whatsoever. Finally. Sleep. But lyrics. But sleep.

Beep Beep

Yoongi took his phone and checked the text message he just received. Reading it, he couldn't stop himself from groaning and whining.

'Yoongi~Hyung. You need to come to the park tomorrow. Important meeting with the group. It's an emergency. Meet us at the same ice cream place in the park. 4pm sharp. Goodnight or morning.. Get some sleep you sleep deprived fucker.'

Yoongi didn't want to. He's tired as fuck. He has a lot of work the day after tomorrow. Or the day after later.

It's 4:00 Am! The fuck he means by tomorrow? Actually, why is HE awake? Jin~Hyung probably forced him to a sleepover. Who cares. I want to sleep. Namjoon, actually, no, NAMJIN can come second. Sleep first.

Yoongi shut down his com-- Actually no, he fell on his bed, shutting down himself without shutting down his computer. He was fast asleep, tired with all that's been happening.

Fortunately, his disorder isn't being triggered with all the stress and tiresome jobs.

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Yoongi slowly woke up hearing clicking noises from a mouse and typing from a keyboard. He thought maybe it was just his adoptive little brother.

But then he remembered.

He lived alone.

Yoongi shot up awake and quickly looked over to his desk where he found the “angelic” Hoseok. Keyword, angelic. To Yoongi, he was an annoying loud ass best friend who talks louder than someone talking and using a megaphone, but would always be there for Yoongi. Basically, almost every single best friends.

Groaning, he rubbed his eyes, flipping the finger at Hoseok, "I thought there was a fucking ghost in my house because of you, Hoseok. Apparently, it was just a horse. Why are you here? How the fuck did you even get inside? Why the fuck are you using my computer? What the fuck? Are you looking at my songs?!"

Hoseok just laughed at his reaction. Though he was scary to the others, to Hoseok he wasn't. Hoseok knew very well that Yoongi would never hurt him. Never ever. He's sure about that.

Hoseok smiled brightly, "Yoongi~Hyung, finally you're awake! Jin~Hyung made me come here cause it was 5:00 Pm and you still haven't attend the important group meeting. But now 6:00 Pm and you were supposed to come two hours ago. Even though, I know my precious Hyung wouldn't hurt me at all, waking you up would still be the cause of my death cause whoever it is, if they wake you up, they're dead. But enough of that, Hyung, go get washed up. Jin will be the one to kill us if we don't hurry up."

"What's the emergency anyway?"Yoongi whined, getting up from his bed to get his towel.

Hoseok chuckled nervously as he shut down Yoongi's computer. "If I tell you, Jin will literally cut my own dick and shove it down my throat to choke over it and die."

Yoongi's mouth hung open. "Eh, still less fucked up than Namjoon thinking Jin doesn't like him." He shook his head and sighed, "Just give me 10 minutes. I need to wash up and change. Just wait here and do anything BESIDES look through my computer, you privacy invader asshole."

Hoseok smiled and laughed, "Who did I get it from anyway?" He winked causing the older to want to smack Hoseok's face.

"You're annoying when you have a point. Stay dumb." Yoongi grumbled, going into the bathroom as Hoseok just laughed nonstop in the background.

It's fun to be like this with him. I don't want it to end. He thinks we don't know anything about his past, but we know everything. His adoptive parents told us to even take care of him. It's amazing how he's not being triggered whatsoever with all the stress. It's amazing, but he could just snap in any minute. No one knows when. I'm afraid he'll suffer the way he did back then in the orphanage. I'm ashamed that I never once ever came up to him in that orphanage. Like the others, I was so stupid and scared of him. Now, I feel so stupid for being such a chicken back then. If only I knew he was suffering.

Hoseok's thoughts and fears filled him. He didn't notice that the older Hyung has gotten out of the bathroom already.

With only a towel covering his lower body. His messy hair that's still soaking wet from showering. Water that's still dripping down his body. Hoseok couldn't help but blush the fuck out of his face. He wasn't just a horse anymore. He was a red horse.

Hoseok nervously chuckled, "O-Okay, now let me go to the bathroom and you g-go change quickly." Hoseok quickly said, running to the bathroom with a red face that could pass a tomato. He's not only a horse now. He's also a tomato.

Yoongi looked at him running to the bathroom. He was confused, but he just shrugged it off knowing J-Hope can be weird at times.

Fuck, did Yoongi notice? Why the hell am I blushing and so flustered?! We literally took showers together before! Not in THAT WAY. Everyone in the group takes showers together with no problem cause we're all friends. No one gets flustered. It was normal. So why the fuck am I flustered and blushing over Yoongi and his.. Oh fuck this shit. Fuck, Yoongi is affecting me too much with his swearing habits. Even in my mind I'm swearing. Yah, I should just go back.

As Hoseok unlocked the bathroom, getting out, he became flustered all over again seeing the Yoongi who has his back turned, just about to put on his shirt. His bare back that was shown and basically killed Hoseok. (And probably thousands of ARMYs if they saw that IRL)

Yoongi turned to Hoseok who's become a tomato horse. He smirked, chuckling at Hoseok's state and his tomato face. "So what Jungkook said was correct, huh? You like me Hobi Hobi?" Yoongi deciding to tease the younger.

Hoseok's eyes widened in shock, blushing even more over what Yoongi just told him. "W-What?! Jungkook said that?! And you, the 'genius' Min Yoongi believe him?!"

Yoongi just laughed, "Yeah. I know. I'm just teasing, Hoseok. Why are you even flustered anyway? It's not like we haven't taken showers together before and seen each other naked." Yoongi smirked at the younger, going over to him and putting his arm around him, teasing him.

"Hyung. I don--

Hoseok was cut off by his phone ringing. He quickly took his phone to answer the call.

“Jin Hyungie”

"Fuck, I don't want to die cause of Jin~Hyung choking me to death with a plastic spoon. Answer the call and let's run."

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"Jin~Hyuuuuung! We're here!"Hoseok yelled, making Yoongi go deaf since they were literally right next to each other.

They got to Jin with Yoongi grumbling and secretly cursing on Jin.

"It's 6:43 Pm!! What happened?! What took you two so long? Did you two fuck or something? Hoseok, I made you go get Yoongi almost two hours ago. Why did you arrive just now?"Jin complained as Yoongi just secretly flipped the middle at him.

Hoseok nervously chuckled, "Yoongi was asleep. Don't complain why I didn't wake him up. We're all too scared to wake him up, Jin~Hyung."

Yoongi, who just rolled his eyes, walked over to Jin and stole his donut from him. Which earned him a glare from the older.

Yoongi didn't mind. He didn't care. "Glare at me all you want, Hyung. What is so important about the shit we're supposed to talk about anyway?"He said, taking a bite from the donut he took from the older.

"It's about Jungkookie's birthday. It's soon! We have to plan it quickly! Hence why Jungkook is not here right now! He can't know! It's a surprise."Jin said excitedly, having a mood swing.

Everyone's mouth hung open besides Taehyung's.

"Are you fucking serious, Hyung? His birthday is next month. NEXT. MONTH. We have PLENTY of time to plan his surprise birthday party bullshit. You took my only day off from everything to plan this. I fucking slept for less than 17 hours for this bullshit. I have 4 jobs to do tomorrow. Starting from 7 fucking Am. And all those jobs are 4 hours each as well!"Yoongi yelled, showing that he was actually mad and annoyed. Not just being lazy like how everyone calls him.

I mean, Come on. 4 jobs. 4 house each. 16 hours working nonstop. Then working on lyrics once he gets home. He has more jobs the next day and so. He has less than 5 hours of sleep. Is that really being lazy?

Everyone went silent.

Calming himself down, Yoongi had a straight, tired looking face. "Just let me rest for once."He said, bluntly. His tone sounding so tired and done.

He slowly walked off, sighing deeply, trying to calm himself down.

Everyone was silent until Namjoon decided to speak up. "Let's just let him rest. We can't risk triggering his.. You know. His parents(adoptive) specifically and carefully told us to make sure he doesn't get stressed out too much. We all remember what his parents told us."

They all nodded. Jin nodded hesitantly. He felt guilty for almost triggering Yoongi.

Hoseok on the other hand, kept trying to keep calm and his cool to not yell and get mad at Jin. He's his Hyung. And without Jin, he probably wouldn't have been adopted from the orphanage and live a decent and happy life.

Taehyung felt bad, but at the same time, he was still thinking about Jungkook's surprise birthday party and what to do for him. But at the same time, he still felt really bad cause he cares about his Yoongi~Hyung a lot.

Namjoon was thinking about how to help both Yoongi and his Jin. He doesn't want any fights nor arguments between the members.

As for Yoongi..

He kept walking around the park to calm himself down. He was very tired, but he needed to relax himself to make sure he wouldn't go to sleep, mad. He was shaking and trembling from his emotions. He was tired and frustrated.

Time passed by. It was 7:30 Pm. Yoongi still stayed in the park. He was planning on leaving soon, though. He calmed himself already as well.

7:56 Pm. Yoongi finally got up from sitting on a bench to go home. He needed to work on lyrics and sleep. Others ask him why he writes songs and such, when all it gives is less sleep. He doesn't get noticed for it. He doesn't make a living out of it. So why?

Easy. It calms him down. It relaxes him. It makes him happy. Even if he has a lot of problems and jobs. Even if he's sleep deprived. Writing lyrics is what keeps his disorder from coming back. It's what keeps him sane and complete.

To Min Yoongi, it's that you don't need to get something big back from doing something you love to do it. As long as you love doing it, keep doing so. If it makes you happy, go on. The biggest thing you can get from what you do is happiness.

8:00 Pm. Yoongi was near to the gates of the park to exit. He was leaving. He wanted to leave quickly. That was until he heard a familiar tune from his childhood.

"Amugeosdo saenggakhaji ma~"

"Neon amu maldo kkeonaejido ma~"

"Ayo~ Oh"

"Geunyang naege useojwo, yeah~"

He stood there frozen, remembering him.

"Nan ajikdo mitgijiga anha~"

"I modeun ge da kkumin geot gata~"

"Ayo~ Oh"

"Sarajiryeo hajima~"

After 15 years. Is it true?

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Hallo precious ARMYs. J-Hope you enjoyed. I'm sorry it was short for a first chapter. I had fun writing this. Yet I got lectured by my parents over the fact that why am I writing shit on Wattpad when I don't even get famous, rich nor get anything from it. Not my fault it makes me happy and relaxed when I'm writing. Next chapter will be longer, I promise. Anyways, please vote and comment if you can. Give me some feedbacks about how I can make this better as well. Tanku and goodbaiiiii