Hello all you beautiful people! I'm so glad you are reading this right now, and I want you to know, you are perfectly authentic in Jesus' eyes. As He looks upon your face, He desires to know you, to carry you, to hold you. Give Him the happiness He desires by just looking up at Him and saying His name right now... Jesus. That's it. YOU just made Him smile in absolute love.

I want to take you guys back about two years ago. That is when this book saw its first chapter, the day I found wattpad and desired my passion for writing. My heart was full that day, and I listened in excitement for God's voice. By God's grace, I was saved. The words, "There's nothing worth more, that could ever come close, no thing can compare, You're our living Host." came to me through a song called Holy Spirit. You may recognize this song from being mentioned in previous chapters. It is what, through God, made me fall in love with worship and praise. 

That day, I was saved. But my journey became far from over. I may sometimes even admit that it has brought me through more doubt and struggle than I originally planned. In return, however, God gave me the privledge of kneeling before Him one day in Heaven. Of being a daughter of Christ that is loved more than I could possibly desire. 

Absolutely no part of me doubts God's plan for my life, I always trust Him no matter what....

HAH! Did I trick you? I am totally kidding; that is something I do more than I could ever explain. I doubt more than I trust. But guess what? God knows that, and He doesn't love me in SPITE of it. He loves me more BECAUSE of it. Our doubt gives Him more chances to prove the perpetual love in store for us. For two years, I have allowed the devil to live within me. To accept that Jesus must coexist in my life with the devil. It was too hard to just choose one. The world promised comfort in its lies. The world promised joy in its lies. The world promised me I would be loved with its lies. It was so much easier to accept the devil because of his accessability. I just could not see Jesus without finding blocks between my heart and His. So what did I do?

I chose the world. Over and over and over again. Sure, Jesus was a part of my life. I went to Church on Sundays, prayed when I had a chance, and didn't do anything "bad". I thought this is what a life with God was like. Boy, was I wrong. 

And so here I am, two years later, before God in complete awe. Because all the days where I believed this was all there was, I felt my heart sinking deeper and deeper into oblivion. THAT is what the devil tries to do to you. He manipulates your heart into believing there is nothing more for us out there. That we will never be loved unless we give into the world's temptations and addictions. Those LIES may be what has brought you here, desperate for answers. You may have been told you are unworthy, unloved, unforgivable, and doomed for a fate worse than death. You may even be blaming God for what He is putting you through.

Well you are not alone. Because I did the exact same thing. 

What I find so humbling, however, is that God takes our anger and frustration... He plucks it from our hearts, careful not to harm every other unique part of us, and lays it at the feet of Jesus. Can you believe that? His LOVE for us was so great that He brought His only son to this Earth so that we may find rest. So that, one day, we could fall to our knees before Jesus and experience more love than could ever be comprehended. He did that all for YOU. Live that truth every day and every moment. Because that is what God is asking of you in this moment.

Amen?