Astrid's POV 

It's been 3 weeks since I've been to the doctor and my nightmares were still happening. Hiccup and I slept in the same bed every night now because he would end up with me throughout the night anyway. He's been telling me to see a therapist and I really don't want too. Hiccup says it will help. But I don't know. 

"Astrid, please just go for a few weeks." Hiccup said. 

"Hiccup I don't want to go to therapy. What if Kara finds out? She'll make fun of me for that too." 

"She's not gonna find out." 

"You don't know that. She's found out everything about me and I don't even know how." 

Hiccup sighed. "Astrid. Please. I don't want this to get worse. I hate seeing you hurt and scared all the time." I sighed and looked down. 

"Okay." I said. 

"Really?" Hiccup said. I nodded. 

"Can you at least come with me?" I asked him. He nodded. 

"Of course." He said kissing my forehead. 

We got home from school that day and Toothless and Stormfly greeted us like they always do. But this time I freaked out. Stormfly was excited and started barking at me and jumping on me and I moved and clung to Hiccup. He noticed how jumpy I was. 

"Astrid. It's okay. It's just Stormfly." He said. I found myself breathing heavily and one edge and scared she was gonna hurt me. I couldn't calm down and sat on the stairs. Hiccup sat next to me. "Breathe Astrid. It's fine. It's just your puppy." He said picking her up. Stormfly sat on his lap panting happily to see me. I calmed down after a few minutes and took her onto my lap. She licked my face. 

"Hiccup this is getting bad." I said admitting to my panic attack I just had. 

"That's why you're going to go to therapy. Your first appointment is tomorrow after school okay? I'm gonna go with you, like you asked me too." Hiccup said to me. I smiled at him and kissed his cheek. 

"Thank you." I said to him. He smiled. 

"Come on, let's go start on dinner." He said getting up and taking my hand. We went to the kitchen to start on dinner. 

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The next day we were in the waiting room at the office where I would be seeing my therapist. I was holding Hiccup's hand and I think he could tell I was nervous. 

"It's okay. Calm down." He whispered to me kissing my head. 

"Astrid Hofferson?" A lady with long brown hair came into the waiting room. She was wearing a black pencil skirt that stopped above her knees and a pink blouse on with a black blazer. She was wearing black heels as well. Her hair was down and curled. She had her name tag/key card clipped to her collar and she had brown eyes. She wore very little make-up. She was naturally pretty. She was holding a clipboard with a bunch of pages that the secretary handed her before she called my name. I assumed it was the pages that I had just finished filling out. 

I stood up from my seat and Hiccup came with me. 

"Is he allowed to come with me?" I asked her. She smiled and nodded. 

"Yes, if you want him too." She told me. I nodded. "Come with me." Hiccup was still holding my hand and we followed her to her office and sat down in the chairs. Hiccup moved the one chair so he was sitting right beside me. I grabbed his hand again. I think the therapist could tell I was nervous. 

"Alright Astrid. First of all, my name is Hannah Thomas. Second of all, there's nothing to be afraid of. Everything here is confidential. Okay?" She told me. I nodded. "Also," She gestured to Hiccup. "You can have someone come with you if it makes you more comfortable. Who is this?" 

"This is Hiccup, my boyfriend" I smiled looking at him. He smiled at me and rubbed his thumb on the back of my hand. It was calming. Hannah smiled. 

"Alright, so, I see her that the major thing is PTSD and Anixety." She said. I nodded. 

"I tend to have a lot of nightmares, and flashbacks of my past, and I'm easily scared. I've become really jumpy and been getting a lot of panic attacks." I told her. She was looking through the pages reading what I had filled out or checked off, nodding as I talked. 

"Okay, so today is just a quick session. See what you deal with and why. Okay?" She said. I nodded. "So, some ways that you can calm yourself down from a panic attack is a lot of breathing, in and out, deep breathes. It's nice to have someone if you like that. Some people prefer to be alone. As for your nightmares and flashbacks. Same idea, try calming yourself down. How you think would work is best for you. It is normal to breakdown, cry, be afraid. Okay?" She told me. I nodded again. "It does seem like you have it pretty severe. May I ask what happened in your past?" She said. I looked at her and took a deep breathe and looked at Hiccup. "You don't have to tell me." She said. 

"No, it's okay. I mean you're suppose to help me, and you need to know what I've been through. Right?" I said. She nodded at me. "Well, my whole life, when I was little my dad would abuse my mom, every chance he got. He wanted to beat me too, but she wouldn't let him, so she got double the beatings to keep him from touching me. We left when I was seven. My mom started dating again and soon everyone of her boyfriends started abusing her and me. I started dating at fourteen, and all the boyfriends I've had, have all abused me. One even raped me." I could feel tears forming. "My mom started to abuse me too. She tried to kill me, by shooting me." I pulled the top left of my shirt to the side and showed her my scar I had from the shot and surgery I had. I felt my tears fall down my cheeks and my tightened around Hiccup's. I felt his thumb stroke the back of my hand. 

"I'm sorry Astrid." Hannah said to me. "But that's what I'm here for. To help you cope with it. Okay?" She said handing me a kleenex. I took it and smiled at her softly, nodding. I wiped my eyes. "I want to put you on some medication. Okay? Just a small dosage for now. It will help with your anxiety. Take it when you need it okay?" She said writing a prescription down for us and than in the computer. She asked what pharmacy we would be getting it from and sent it there. "You can pick that up later tonight. Also, I want to see you next week okay? Same time okay?" 

"Yes, that's fine. Thank you." I said taking the paper from her. 

"You're welcome." She said smiling. 

She walked Hiccup and I out and Hiccup and I went to the car and he opened the door for me. I sat down and waited for him to get in. He got in the car and looked at me. 

"You okay?" I heard him ask and I looked at him and smiled and nodded. 

"Yeah. I'm okay."  I told him. 

We headed home and later got my meds that I had to have with me every where in case I needed them. 

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A few weeks went by and it was a Friday night. I was in the living room sitting on the couch surfing through channels. Hiccup came in. 

"Hey m'lady." He said leaning over the back of the couch kissing my cheek. I looked at him and smiled. 

"Hi. what's up?" I asked. 

"I gotta go to the store, okay? I'll be back soon." 

"Okay." I said kissing him. He kissed me back and didn't pull away for a little while. I pulled away and shook my head at him smiling and laughing a little. He kissed my forehead. 

"I love you." He said. 

"I love you too." I told him.  I watched him leave the house and sighed smiling. I looked back to the TV. 

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Author's POV 

Hiccup was driving down the road going through a green light when he heard the horn of another car. He looked to his left and saw a big pick-up truck headed for him. He tried swerving but it still hit his car. He felt the car get thrown far and spin. Than he crashed into something else. It was a tree. Than everything went black.

"Sir." He heard. Hiccup opened his eyes a little and saw flashing lights. "Sir." He heard again. It was a female.

"Astrid?" Hiccup said.

"I'm not Astrid sir. I'm a paramedic. Who's Astrid?" She said. 

"My girlfriend." Hiccup said. 

 Firefighters came over to cut the door open to get him out. Hiccup was on a stretcher. He had cuts and bruises all over his body. The worst was his left leg. The bottom half under his knee had been crushed. The paramedics could tell it was severely damaged. 

"Let's get him to the hospital. Fast." A paramedic said. They lifted him into the ambulance and headed to the hospital while hooking things up to him. 

"What's your name?" One of them asked. 

"Hiccup Haddock." He said. 

"Anyone we can call to come to the hospital?" The same one asked. 

"Astrid Hofferson." Hiccup said. He handed them his phone after unlocking it. "She's the first on my contacts." He said. 

One of the paramedics took his phone and called Astrid. 

Astrid was at home on the couch, starting to worry. She knew the store was only about a 5 min drive from their house and it's been almost 45 minutes. She heard her phone ring and saw Hiccup's name. She picked it up. 

A: Hiccup! Are you okay?!

P: Ma'am, this isn't Hiccup. This is a paramedic. You're boyfriend was in a bad car accident and is being brought to the hospital as we speak. He wants you to be there." 

A: Okay. I'll be there as soon as I can.

P: Alright. 

They hung up. Astrid started freaking out. She didn't drive, and the hospital was on the other side of town. She started pacing the living room. Stormfly and Toothless were sitting on the floor watching her pace. Stormfly tilted her head as if she knew something was wrong. Toothless laid on the floor and started whining sensing something happened to Hiccup. Astrid scrolled through her contacts and stopped on one. 

Ryan. (Ruffnut) 

Astrid called her. 

R: Hello?

A: Ryan! I need you to bring me to the hospital, now! 

R: Why, what happened?

A: Hiccup was in a bad car accident.

R: Okay, I'll be there in 5 mins. 

A: Thank you. 

Ryan showed up 5 mins later and Astrid grabbed her sweater and bag and left the house in a rush. Ryan brought her to the hospital. 

"Thanks Ryan!" Astrid said. 

"No problem. Keep me posted." Ryan said. 

Astrid nodded as she got out of the car and headed into the hospital. 

Astrid's POV 

I ran into the Emergency room and went to the desk. 

"Where is he? Where's Hiccup?" I said. The nurse looked at me strange. 

"Which Hiccup?" She asked. 

"Which Hiccup?! How many Hiccup's do you know?! Hiccup Haddock." I said. 

"Ma'am calm down." She said as she looked through some files. "What's your name." 

"Astrid Hofferson. A paramedic called me from Hiccup's phone saying he was in a bad car accident." I said. 

"They just came in. They had to send him to surgery right away." The nurse told me. "I'll let you know when he's out. Okay." She said gesturing for me to take a seat in the waiting room. I sighed and went and sat down. 

A few hours went by. I saw a nurse and doctor came into the waiting room. 

"Astrid Hofferson?" She said. I stood up and walked over to her. 

"Is he okay?" I asked. I think she could tell I've been crying. 

"He'll be fine. He's in recovery right now. This is Dr. Lennon, he did the surgery." She told me. 

"Hi." I said shaking his hand. 

"Hi, Miss Hofferson." He shook my hand back. "Hiccup will be okay. I had to amputate the bottom half of his left leg."

"What? Like take it off?" I asked.

"Yes. His left foot to about an inch under his knee was completely crushed in the accident. There was no one of saving it. We had to amputate it. He will be given a prosthetic though. We're keeping him for a few days." The doctor told me. "Now if you excuse me I have some other patients." He said leaving.

The nurse looked at me. "I suggest you go home miss." 

"I'm not going anywhere." I said. 

"Hiccup is in recovery, he probably won't wake up until tomorrow anyway." She told me. "You can come back in the morning." 

"I'll just stay here." I said.

"What about sleep?" She asked.

"I'm not going anywhere until I see him!!" I finally snapped. I could feel people looking at me. I sighed and looked down. "I'm sorry. It's just. He means so much to me." I said.

"Okay, come with me." She said and I followed her. She brought me to the ICU floor and to one of the rooms. I opened the door and walked in and saw what looked like a lifeless Hiccup laying on the bed. I put my stuff down on the chair next to his bed and stood there for a moment. He had a breathing tube in, a heart monitor, IV, they were even giving him blood. He had some cuts and bruises on his face and arms. I didn't even want to know what he's left leg looked like, knowing they had to amputate it. I felt tears fall and they stung my cheeks. I crawled into the bed with him and laid next to him. I put an arm across his waist and held his right hand with my left one. I had my head on his shoulder. 

"Hiccup." I said softly. "I don't know if you can hear me. But if you can, just listen." I said sniffing. "I can't lose you Hiccup. You mean so much to me. I wouldn't know what to do without you. You're the first person to ever love and care for me, and mean it." I had more tears falling down my face. "You don't care about my past. Or that I have scars. Emotional and Physical. You respect me. You love me, and I never knew a love like this existed until I met you. I can't let you go, I'm not ready to let you go. You mean too much to me." I said. I took a minute and finally said one more thing. 

"I love you Hiccup." 

I fell asleep next to him after a few minutes. 

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There ya go loves!!! 

I hope you enjoy it!!! 

delightfully_dark gave me the idea for Hiccup loosing his leg. Which I thought was brilliant! 

Love you guys!! 

Bye!!! <3 :)