Every time I check my door lock before bed I think of you.
I wonder what it would've been like to have lived with you.
How many times would you have checked the lock before bed?
What was the number that eased your anxieties?
I wonder if you would have trusted me if I said I had checked or if you'd have to make sure yourself.
Even if I was tucked into bed with closed eyes
seconds from sleep,
I would have been first to get up if you realized you hadn't completed your routine.
I would've done anything for you
for the rest of my life.