"TaeTae...?"

How does she do this? She surprises me always anew.

"Princess, how did you know that I am here?"

"I was reading a book but your footsteps were confusing me. I wasn't sure myself, till I opened the
door and smelled your perfume."

This woman manages it every time, just one word is enough, to take me into another world.
Maybe that’s why my body lead me to her on his own? Because she is kinda healing to me, like my happy pill?

She takes me by my hand and pulls me inside her apartment. Guiding me to her light grey colored couch. We both sit down, her hand still holds mine tight.

"TaeTae are you ok? You sound different, your voice sounds sad?"

There she is again. Why does she care so much?
It seems I can't hide anything from her.
Just hearing the tone of my voice and she immediately knows my emotions? Is it like this?

"I'm ok, it's just...I argued with my father and yeah, it seems he doesn't want to understand me. That's kinda made me angry. I don't want to go home now." Explaining to her, while watching her facial expressions. A concerning look appears on her face with a genuine smile.

"Stay here if you want to. My cousin, Namjoon will not come tonight. So it's ok."

Her smiling face is so adorable. The way her eyes closes automatically when she smiles, like two little crescent moons. And talking about her smile, never have I ever seen such a genuine and sincere smile on a woman except for my moms. This smile was the first thing I noticed on Sakura and I cherish it deep inside me.

If I could I would protect this smile of hers my whole life.
Protect it from all the negativity in this world.
Protect it from sadness and pain.
Protect it so it will never fade away.

Ironically, I am all of this, what I want to protect her from.

Guilt, sadness, and anger building up in me.

What even am I doing here?
Here right beside her?

Sakura is too innocent for my dumb and childish games.
But is this a game anymore?
And why is it wrong but feels just right to be by her side?

I feel calm and at peace when I'm with her. So how can this be wrong?

We listen to music, not talking a word. But it feels like we speak to each other. I slowly lay down, resting my head on her lap. My face directed up, so I can watch her beautiful features.

Her hand brushes slowly and gently through my messy hair. The other hand still intertwine with mine, resting on my chest.

"I thought you live here alone?" This question was the whole day on my mind but didn't have the chance to ask Sakura.

"Well, actually it's not even my apartment." She chuckles as she explains to me "it's the apartment from Namjoon, my cousin. But he currently in the US for a few weeks. I will live here until I finish uni."

" And after that? Where will you live?"
An uneasy feeling appears in my stomach. Scared for her answer.

"After uni, I will go back home. To Japan, Kyoto." She lets out a heavy sigh and nods her head.

This was the answer, I was afraid of. Thinking she would not be here anymore, where I can reach her in a few minutes, like tonight, make me feel things I don't wanna feel.

"We have a vacation now. I will go home in two days. What are you going to do? " her voice sounds so excited and cute. Sakura must have missed her family. Although Japan is not that far away, it's not like you can drive there in a few minutes.  No, you have to fly on a plane.

"Hmm... I didn't make any plans. Usually, Jimin, Jungkook, and I travel to a country or city we want to go to. But for this year we didn't plan anything. "

"TaeTae, are they your closest friends? Every time in the hallway, if I hear you I hear two other male voices."

"Oh yes, that's them." I suddenly begin to think of the two dumbasses and it makes me smile, thinking how funny it always is with them.
"We grew up together. We went to the same kindergarten, school, and so on. We did everything together. They are practically my brothers. Jimin and Jungkook are the two I trust the most, maybe they're the only ones. We're telling everything that's on our mind and heart and we support each other no matter what. These two dudes are very important in my life, I couldn't imagine my life without them.

I don't realize how deeply I am, in my thoughts, until her grip on my hands tightens. Her smile is still present, but it's different. It's something between sad and happy.

"TaeTae, keep always in your mind, what you just said about your friends. Cherish your friendship and if you need to be consoled remember where you will find it. Don't take Jimin and Jungkook for granted."

Why is she telling me this? She doesn't even know them. It's like she knows something but doesn't tell me. I'm curious.

"Don't worry about me Princess, I know how lucky I am to have them."

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We talked about everything, how she was raised where she lives, and that she doesn't have siblings. Her childhood was peacefully and perfectly, maybe that's why she's so calm and kind to everyone. She also never had a boyfriend because of her blindness. I can't understand why that should be a reason not to date someone.

Ok, look who is speaking? I'm not better than anybody else. If Jimin didn't dare me to this stupid game, I never would've met Sakura. Of course, I saw her a few times, but I never paid attention to her or any other girls in university. Just wanted to avoid fake people.

If I wanted to have my pleasure I knew how to get it. But it was always the same, after a while when the women found out who I am they started to turn their fake act.

I didn't have the courage yet, to tell Sakura the truth. The truth that this started as a bet, but it's not for me anymore. I know this is more than a bet. Who's mind is all day on someone who used to be a bet? I care too much for her. I think about her all the time, which I never have been experienced before. And this feeling when I'm with her, my heart pumps like, I run a marathon and my stomach is tickling as if something is in there.

Laying together in her comfy bed, Sakura's head rests on my arm, she's on her side, her face in front of my face. I can feel her breathing.
Cause of the moonlight shining through the window, I can see her face. My other hand rest on her waist, caressing it softly with my thumb. Both hands of hers touching gently my chest.

Only our breaths are present in her room. She's on the edge to fall asleep, her breathing is calm and slow. Even the way she's breathing and the sound of it, makes me calm too. I could do this every day, we both in one bed, she in my arms and falling asleep together.

And that's when I start to realize, that I'm falling badly and deeply in love with her. I like this feeling but at the same time, it scares me.

But I want to try, I want it to be Sakura. I want to give her my first love like she gave me her first time. I want to trust her.

"Princess, what would you think about, me going to Japan with you?"

Her body stiffened suddenly and choke on her saliva, surprised by my question.

"Ahem...what? And as what should I introduce you to my parents? As my tutoring student? "

" No, how about your boyfriend? Introduce me as your boyfriend. "

I peck her lips a few times with chuckles in between.

"TaeTae, that's not funny at all...I can't lie..."

"Princess, you don't have to lie," I interrupt her sentence  "do you want to be my girlfriend? Oh God, this sounds so old school. "

I would lie if I say I wasn't nervous and embarrassed while asking her out. It's the first time I asked someone to go out with me.

"I like old school," Sakura whispers and kissing me slowly and gently with her soft lips, tasting her cherry lip balm which she always put on, protecting her lips to get dry cause of the cold weather.

"I would like to be your girlfriend."

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