The decision is made and to be true, I'm scared, scared of losing her earlier, but on the other side, I also have hope and want to believe in miracles.

Her chance to survive is less than it was five months ago. The tumor got bigger again but that dr. Kim Seokjin is brave and very confident. It's not, he didn't tell us what really could happen, it's not sure for him either.

The thing is, the doctor will know it first when he opens her head, to see the tumor in her brain. But if he thinks it's worse than he thought he will do nothing and let it be like it is.

Tonight is the last night for us six eating dinner together. And everyone is trying their best not to burst out in ugly crying.

I saw Jimin today a few times going to the bathroom with teary eyes, didn't know it would hit him this hard but as good I am friends with them so are they with Sakura the few last months.

Like how I wanted it to be. I wanted her to have friends, to know how it feels to be loved and cared of, besides her family. And I'm so grateful to Jungkook and Jimin to accept her as who she is.

But come on, how can someone not love her after knowing her personality?

Even Jungkook is down and sad, he is usually loud and noisy especially when he is together with Jimins girlfriend, Bianca. And both of them are quiet and composed.

The only one who manages to act normal is Diana. She is acting like it's a day like every other day. This is what we need to be, as normal as we usually are to not scare or make Sakura sad.

The five of us talking with our eyes to each other, encouraging each one to be as normal as possible.

I sit next to Sakura and I don't know how she manages it to be herself, to be like every day. Sometimes I wonder what's in her mind, what she is thinking and feeling about the surgery. We didn't talk about it yet and I don't know if I should ask her.

I planned to wait for her to be ready and speak to me herself when she's feeling to talk about it.

The room is silent and my friends stare are all empty and kinda depressed, glaring at the plates in front of them. We couldn't eat much, our minds are all over the place but not here.

From the corner of my eyes, I see a tear falling from Biancas eyes, gliding down her cheek until it drops to her shirt, leaving a wet point behind before the next tear follows. Jimin right next to her is the same, he is fighting back but a few tears would do their way and moisturizing his cheeks too.

Jungkook hides his face behind his folded hands which he places on his forehead, his elbows resting on the corner of the table. Diana's empty stare doesn't leave her plate and neither does she move a muscle.

Everyone caught in their world of emotions.

"Thank you for everything you've done for me.
Thank you for being with me and making me happy and for showing me how beautiful life is. Thank you for being my friends and for all the hours we spent together. I- I will never forget them and when I have the chance to be reborn again, I choose you. And I'll choose you, over and over and over. Without pause, without a doubt, in a heartbeat. I'll keep choosing you. And I will always love you all, from the bottom of my heart and soul."

The woman I love so much is crying with the saddest smile I've ever seen on her face. Tears keep streaming out of her eyes and her body shivers from all the adrenaline which is running through her body. And I'm like a statue like some witch did a spell on me to not move an inch of my muscles and bones.

Jimin is the first one jumping up and hugging her, taking her in his arms pulling her tight against his body. Tears running out of his eyes like a waterfall. Sobs and sniffs filling the room.
Diana and Bianca stand up at the same time joining Jimin and hugging Sakura from the side and behind. Holding her hostage in their circle.

The women I love is crying in front of me and I'm like a stone, I can't move I'm paralyzed. Warm water flowing out of my eyes, nonstop.

A sudden pull wakes me up from my delirium. It's Jungkook. He pulls me by my shoulders onto his body and holding me tight, so tight that I feel his heartbeat. He's sobbing and grumbling words I can't understand, but that doesn't matter at this moment. I'm grateful for Jungkooks approaching that I, now see, what I needed the whole time.

I was shocked by Sakura's words that it hits the inside of my heart. At this moment I realized that this day could be the very last day with my love.

Grabbing the shirt of my friend for support not to fall onto the floor, I let out my whole pain by screaming and crying out of sadness and pain. Jungkook manages to let me sit down slowly on the floor. My mind is blank and I cant see from all the tears that are running out of my eyes and filling it up again with new droplets.

The night was short too short. For all six of us. We spent it together for a couple of hours. Talked about the time we had together and which memories will be the most remaining for each one of us. We laughed and cried and laughed and cried again.

When I was alone with my woman in our room, we didn't talk much. We layed in our bed arm in arms hugging together, we never let one-second go of each other.

The kiss we shared was promised. We promised each other to meet again in the afterlife if she wouldn't survive the surgery. I also had to promise her to live my life happily and to do what I want to do with my life. She said she wants to see me have a bunch of kids and a loving wife by my side.

I can't imagine that now, not if it's not Sakura who's the woman beside me.

But one day, maybe?

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On the day of her surgery, everyone went to the hospital to support her and to say their farewells to my woman. It was a day full of sadness.

Her parents were crying and praying, kissing their only child a thousand times on her forehead, cheeks, and hands. It was a heartbreaking sight.

Everyone hugged her when the time for surgery came. All of our friends said to her to come back soon with a sad smiling.

Even Hoseok, Yoongi, and her cousin Namjoon were there to say their farewells.

I never left her side I made sure to stay right next to her. My eyes never left her sight either. I tried to memorize everything about her. Her voice her smile her touches, her as a whole, my women I love, Sakura.

I gave her my last kiss. A kiss full of hope and love.

"I love you." Sakura and I said it in a heartbeat together.

And when she was brought to the surgery room, everything went by in slowmo.

I remember her sitting on the bed waving to all of us and saying

"Wait for me. Believe in miracles"

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The surgery was complicated as expected and we waited for hours to hear any news from the doctor, but nothing.

For the whole 14 hours, they operated, and finally, when Jin came out of that room, everybody jumps up in anticipation to give us positive news.

And when he said the sentence we wanted to hear everyone fell to the floor and started praying and crying.

Cause the next step is, for her to wake up.

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And now I'm sitting here beside her.

She is still sleeping peacefully, to be exact 90 days. 3 month.

Today will be the saddest day in my whole life and I think that goes for Sakuras parents too. I spent every day here with her parents taking care of the woman I love.

And again today we will say our farewell for sure this time, cause at the end of this day the vital machines will be all logged out. This was Sakura's wish.

If she won't wake up in 90days, she wants the doctor to log out of the vital machines and let her go.

Jin said, even if she'll wake up now, she won't be the same again. And that's why she decided to make a patient decree.

I'm waiting outside for my turn to come. I decided to be by her side till her last breath and her last heartbeat. Her parents don't want to see their daughter like that. They will wait outside until it's over.

One another comes out from that room where the love of my life is laying, with tears in their eyes.

Hoseok and Yoongi are the first to come out. Both of them bowing out of respect to Sakuras parents. As they walk by me, they gently grip on each of my shoulders, looking in my watery eyes, and they only nodd to me with a sympathetic smile. Namjoon, Sakuras cousin does the same.

Our four friends are the next one to come out of her room. And like expected all of them are crying. They bow to Sakuras parents too and hugging me tight saying a few encouraging words, I'm thankful for.

Next are her parents. They take their time to say their farewell. I hear her parents cry, although I'm not in the room but their emotions reach me, and I also start crying from the pain their feeling.

Sakura is the only child they have and now they have to say their last words to her. This breaks me.

After a while, they come out and both of them taking me in their arms and saying how grateful they are and thanked me for being her boyfriend.

It's my turn.

My lovely princess my beautiful Sakura, there she is laying and breathing with help of the vital machines. I sit next to her, holding her cold hand in mine.

"Taehyung, we will log out all the vital machines now. You should know it could take hours until she is dead..." Jin says to me with a very sad expression on his face. I just nodded at him.

The nurse and Jin log every machine out and leave the room.

Just the sound of the ECG is to hear

"My love, here we are now. You did a good job, Princess. You fought to be alive but I think it's over now. We have to let you go. I hope you're not in pain.

I will always love you. You know that right? You're my first love after all. Please find me in our afterlife. I will be a good person from now on and hope God won't punish me to be an insect in my next life.

Thank you for choosing me and loving me with your heart and soul. I won't ever find something that we had.

I love you Sakura."

The ECG got slower showing me her heart beats slowly and I know what will come next. It will stop beating.

Jin comes in the room, standing at the door and looking to the floor, waiting for the ECG to show a flatline.

I could only concentrate on the sound of her heartbeat.

I'm not ready yet to let her go but I have to.

Her breathing got uneven it's like she can't take any air in anymore. Her body is slightly shaking from the loss of some air.

The ECG sends an alarm, showing us her heartbeat is low very low.

Tears streaming out of me and I hold her hand tight in mine, kissing her one last time on her forehead before the ECG shows the flatline, Jin was waiting for.

"It's ok love. You can go..
You gone...."

The sound echoes in my ears.

Beeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep

Jin comes to my side, his hands touching my shoulder for comfort. And says

"Time of death_"

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"TaeTae.."

The end

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