"Well- uh, how do I start this? Some nights I make out with my pillow pretending that it's one of my favorite boy, then I realize that I'm literally kissing a pillow. But in that moment, I'm so into the situation that I don't care and it gets heated. I wake up in the morning feeling like I'm laying on the chosen boys chest and then I feel like a failure cause it's all fake and I made out with my pillow..."