Gerard has been texting me all day. It's been making me antsy, all day waiting to go to his house like I do every night now.

Gerard: Just wait until I get my hands on you, I've been thinking about you all day. Can't wait to do anything I want to you

We decided we were going to have sex for the first time tonight, I would lose my virginity. Gerard suggested I have some sweet vanilla sex my first time but I didn't want that, I didn't want him to just hold back for me. I know it may have been my first time but I wanted him to treat me like it wasn't.

"Paco, you've barely touched your dinner," my mom said. "It's your favorite, tofu burgers."

"I'm not hungry," I said. "I'm actually feeling a little under the weather, I think I might go to bed early tonight if I can be excused."

"You can," she said.

I kissed her cheek and wished both my parents goodnight before going upstairs. I snuck out, heading down to Gerard's apartment. I put my collar around my neck on the way so it was already on by the time I got to the apartment. Gerard pulled me in, shutting the door.

"You sure you don't want vanilla?" I asked.

I nodded and he bit his lip.

"Strip," he ordered.

I went down to my boxers but he shook his head and I stripped completely. He attached a leash to my collar and pushed me down onto my knees.

"You look so good down there where you belong," he said.

Gerard pulled the leash and I crawled behind him to the bedroom. I had never been in here before, he said he only brings special people in here. There was a simple canopy bed with black sheets, red lighting in the room. It was mostly empty, the walls were plain.

He smirked, running a hand through my black and red hair.

"What am I gonna do with you?" He asked before smirking suddenly. "I know something the little whore might like."

He guided me to lay down on the bed, putting my hands above my head. He grabbed some black leather cuffs, cuffing both my hands to both the left and right columns at the head of the bed.

"Are they too tight?" He asked and I shook my head. "Good."

Gerard got up off the bed, taking his shirt off. He walked around the bed and went to the dresser where a little radio was. He put in a CD and sighed before turning around to look at me with a smirk.

"I'm not going to gag you tonight, I want to hear you beg," he said. "You don't come without permission, understand?"

I nodded my head.

"Words," he ordered.

"Y-yes, sir," I said.

"Good," Gerard muttered.

He trailed his hand over my thigh, making goosebumps spread on my skin. I shuddered, looking up at him. Gerard wrapped a hand around my erection, making me whimper as he stroked me slowly. I panted, looking up at him. Gerard smirked as he pulled away, going to caress my cheek instead before his hand wrapped around my throat. My stomach lurched, adding to the pleasure I was feeling in the pit of my stomach.

"Such a good little bunny," he praised.

Gerard let go slowly and I bit my lip. He was torturing me. Maybe not on purpose but he was doing so anyways. I wanted nothing more than for him to just ride me already but he was taking things slow. Oh, it was far too slow. It was practically driving me insane. I whined, full of anticipation for what was about to come.

Gerard hummed and walked around to the foot of the bed as the music played quietly. He looked into the chest of toys, seemingly in search of something. Finally, he pulled out a little black whip. I stared at it nervously. The thought of him using it on me did turn me on but I was scared that it might end up hurting too much.

Gerard grabbed the leather straps, twirling them around his fingers. He looked down at me before snapping it down against my thigh. I whimpered, the light stinging going right to the pit of my stomach. But even still, I could tell he was holding back.

"Don't go easy on me just because I'm new," I said.

Gerard smirked. "I see this bunny has a little bite, maybe we should put him to the test?"

He whipped me hard this time and I gasped. Gerard did it again to my other thigh, making me shake. I gulped as he set the whip down and crawled in between my legs. He slowly ran his tongue up along my underside. My hips bucked in pleasure, closing my eyes as I waited for more but it didn't come. I opened my eyes, watching him reach over to grab something out of the nightstand.

He got up and got undressed before climbing back over to straddle my hips. He put two fingers against my lips and I sucked on them eagerly before he pulled them away. Gerard moved them behind himself and gasped. My stomach was burning as I watched him finger himself. The faces he was making were beautiful, his eyebrows furrowed as he bit his lip.

When he was ready, he put a condom on me and rubbed some lube before sighing. Gerard looked me directly in the eye before slowly sinking down onto me. I cried out as the tightness wrapped around me, making my head spin. He bottomed out, panting softly. My chest was rising and falling with every breath I took as I tried to control myself.

"Oh, Bunny, you feel so good inside of me," he whined.

Gerard slowly began grinding his hips, wrapping a hand around my throat. It was taking every ounce of self control to not just come right then. Just when I thought it couldn't get any better, he started bouncing roughly. I cried out, tugging at my restraints.

"That's right, Bunny, you like that?" He asked.

I nodded, barely able to even comprehend a single thought. I closed my eyes, trying to steady my breathing as I moaned. Gerard kept up a steady rhythm as he bounced on my lap.

"Please, oh god please, sir," I whimpered. "I need to come."

Gerard leaned down and kissed me roughly, making me open my eyes when he pulled away. His mouth was wide open and his eyes were shut tight. It was the most beautiful sight I had ever seen in my life. I was shaking as I tried my best not to come. I needed release more than anything.

My eyes watered as my head spun. Is it normal to feel as though you're about to pass out? Because holy shit, I just might pass out.

"Please," I whined.

Gerard squeezed my throat a little bit tighter.

"Come for me," he whispered.

I gasped, my back arching as I came, tears rolling down my cheeks. Gerard worked me through my orgasm before pulling off. He wrapped a hand around himself and stroked himself quickly before finishing on my chest.

Gerard let go of my throat, catching his breath. He smiled softly, caressing my cheek. He wiped the tears off before getting up, taking off my cuffs. He cleaned me up and put a blanket over us as he cuddled up to my side.

"So, Bunny, how was it?" He asked.

Clearly he could tell how it was, I was still shaking. I didn't even have words to fully comprehend how I felt at the moment. Is there such a word for feeling so much pleasure all at once? Gerard smiled as he propped himself up on his elbow to look down at me.

"Good bunny," he muttered, running a finger down the side of my face.

I managed to catch my breath after laying with him for some time. I calmed down, growing quite tired as I laid in his arms.

"You can't fall asleep here, Bunny," he said. "Your parents will be furious if they know you've snuck out of the house."

"I don't wanna leave," I grumbled unhappily. "I don't wanna go back. Too much pressure to take of the business and be the boss. I like it here where you can be in control. I don't want the control."

"It can't be so bad, what does your family even do?" He asked.

"I can't really tell you," I said and he sighed. "I want to, I really do. It's just this big family secret that I'm not supposed to tell. Maybe one day but I can't tell you right now."

"It's okay, Bunny, I get it," Gerard said. "You don't have to tell me a single thing right now. Just do it when you're ready. I understand that families have secrets and stuff and I don't want to interfere in all that."

"Thank you," I said softly. "And thank you for tonight. It was...oh god, it was so amazing."

Gerard smiled and gave me a soft kiss.

"Can I come by tomorrow night, too?" I asked.

"I have to work tomorrow until two in the morning," he said.

"I can come by after," I said.

"I don't know, I'm gonna be tired and I'll need a shower," he said.

"Oh, okay," I mumbled as I looked down.

"Maybe before work?" He asked. "You can come over and I can cook you some dinner."

"I can't, I'm not allowed to leave the house," I said.

"You can't go out for one night?" He asked and I shook my head. "Okay, well, maybe the next day then. I'm sorry, Bunny. I just can't really stay up later on nights I work, I have ten AMs the next day."

"It's okay, I understand," I said. "I should probably get going now before I end up falling asleep because then we'd both be in a whirlwind of trouble."

I got up, my legs feeling a little like jelly. He put on a robe and took the leash off my collar before we walked out of the bedroom where my clothes were still on a pile on the floor. I got dressed, sighing as he held my hand.

"I had a really nice time tonight," he said.

"Me too, it was amazing," I said. "I'll see you again soon."

He gave me a soft kiss before I left, not able to wipe the smile off my face.