It was all in my head. 

   Nothing was real.

   Time moved so slowly. 

   "You crazy bitch." I said mocking my appearance in the mirror, I've been back home for about 15 hours, no sleep, nothing but a ever going acid reflex, the same voice that echoed the day before became a buzzing noise, my ears had already been cleaned out with the bunches of Q-tips laying on the counter. Looking into my eyes I couldn't tell if it was me or not, these emotions were all so new, the voice I couldn't recognize but at the same time listened to over and over was unbearable. The heat flashes became constant instead of just at night, and for a good moment I considered calling someone to take me back to the hospital, but It wasn't something they could fix. Something they would heal with magic, cause it was pain coming from my heart. At this point I was convinced I was either crazy, depressed, or. Both. 

   Still not a word from anyone, as the hours passed I groaned in anger, making circles in my room till I couldn't contain my thoughts and threw the first thing I could touch, books, pencils, clothes were sprawled everywhere and I laid right in the middle crawled up in a ball. 

   "Run off, this place isn't worth it anymore!" The voice whispered, again and again. "Go out there and see for yourself if you wish." 

   "I don't want to." I cried softly saying the words, I didn't want to see any of them, I didn't want to see myself and what I'm becoming. 

   "You WILL!" 

   I suddenly was up, and found myself opening my front door, still barefoot, un neat and dried up tears, not a thought ran through my head after the voice spoke so loudly through my ears. I walked along the road keeping my head down, knowing exactly were my feet were going to take me, not just cause of muscle memory, but because one way or another, I would end up back there eventually. 

   The guild hall towered over me when I approached the door, I stared at the handle watching my hand go for it, it cracked open, opening slightly to look inside, my heart pounding seeing all but one person missing in there. Me. No one was cheering, or fighting, but some were looking at the board, while others like Erza, Lucy, Gray were talking in a serious tone. My eyes traveled the room to see him, he was sitting with Natsu, grinning ear to ear to each other and talking about something dragon related. Jet and Droy were nowhere to be seen. Then all of their heads turned towards Makarov who stood on the bar table. 

   "So we have eyes on one of Zeref's little minions,  and to my knowledge Samora Carstairs was last seen on that evening last week?" Makarov announced out into the crowd. Everyone fell silent for a moment. 

   "To our knowledge, yes sir, we have intel on the whereabouts of Zerefs accomplices." Erza said. 

   "We've dealt with everything master, including levy." Gajeel said, his head looking down. Makarov grunted. 

   "You mean to tell me she's off the mission?" 

   "It was for the best, I had a private discussion with her on the matter, she's discharged from the hospital as of yesterday." Gajeel threw back out. With that he stood up, but his ears shifted and his his breath drew back, as if it was instinct I drew away from the door before he saw me. But its all wrong, my scent is horrid, no matter how many baths, I felt as if i was decaying. More talking came from inside the guild hall, as I was about to open the door once more I was stopped.  

   "You dont have to feel like this." A familiar voice spoke. I turned to the stranger who happened to be standing behind me. It was Samora. 

   "Who are you. Why do my guildmates know who you are." I said, she looked at me with a saddened face. 

   "Come with me Levy, away from all the sadness here I know you can feel it too." She held her hand out towards me. I shook my head at her. 

   "What's happening to me?" Tears formed as i said those words. Why was my life coming apart so fast? Why did it feel like I had no way of controlling the way I felt? Sad yes, but rage was built so far deep inside me all I could do was cry. Samora grabbed my arm and pulled me into a hug. 

   "Its okay, the place I'm taking you is special, it will help you." She said, i kept sobbing into her arm. 

   "I don't want help!" 

   "Dark Amora." A spell was casted from her words, and my thoughts blanked, again, I was no longer crying, but standing up and walking away from my guild just like I did from my house, my feet were making its way to the outskirts of Magnolia, I couldn't even blink I was so fixated on this power my body craved that seemed so far away, yet to tasteable. 

   "That's it Levy, we'll have you feeling better in no time." She giggled, skipping ahead of me. The more we walked, the less sad I felt. But the anger....anger I've never experienced in my life clawed at my throat, suffocating me as I remained walking further away from the only good I had in my life. Fairy Tail.