Let's stay with the lemons right now. After I threw my wife out the door and gave her to her secret lover, I had to tell the families, friends and relatives. So also my parents. However, our relationship was very strained and actually I didn't want to call them at all.

My mom didn't speak a word to me since I got married because she hated my wife and always told me that I was making a mistake and would regret it someday. Oh I could already hear her telling me that she would have known before I even called her. My dad never wanted to get involved in the argument and always stayed out of everything.

So I called my parents 2 days after the breakup, my dad answered the phone and I said, "Dad, I just wanted to let you know, I broke up with my wife."

My dad at least acted like he was sorry. I could hear my mom laughing in the background. "Ha Ha Ha, I knew it. I told him from the beginning. But did he listen to me? No!"

Since my dad had the phone on speaker, I replied, "Couldn't you be a little nicer and refrain from your sarcasm mom?"

"Why should I son? I was right and you weren't. Why should I refrain from shoving it in your face? How many times have I told you, stand up for who you are and don't try to be someone you're not."

"Mom, you know exactly why I did that."

"I know that. But that doesn't mean I accept it. Then you could have just started working at a different company. How long are you going to hide the fact that you're gay? You've known since you were 13, you confessed to Dad and me when you were 14, and now you're 28 and still can't tell anyone but Dad and me? Even dad and I can talk openly about our only son being gay. And also that we accept and love you so much and don't mind. Why can't you stand up for yourself?"

"Because it's not that easy mom."

"First it was because of the other classmates. Then because of the students. Then because of your job. How long are you going to go on like this Zhan? When are you going to stop telling yourself that no one would accept you like this? And when will you finally meet a man, fall in love and be happy if you don't finally admit to yourself?"

"I just haven't had time to date men yet."

"You're always coming up with new excuses. Fine. Now that you're finally rid of that woman, I have someone I'd like you to meet. He's the son of our new neighbors. Super handsome, very polite, helpful and interested in you."

"What, wait a minute, how can he be interested in me if we've never met?"

"Simple, I showed him some pictures of you. And he thought you were really cute right away."

"You can't be..."

"I'll send you a picture of him. Look at how handsome he is."

My phone beeped and I looked. The picture, well, it was just two eyes. "Mom, there's nothing to recognize in the picture except eyes."

"I enlarged it extra for you."

"And then made a screen shot of it, didn't you? So I don't see anything but eyes."

"Well, that can't be. I didn't do anything wrong. Zhan, I don't think you know anything about technology."

"Oh you think so mom? I rather think the fault is on your side."

"Son, I know what I'm doing."

"Mom, all I see is a picture of two eyes."

I heard my dad tell my mom to give him the phone because he was going to check. Then my dad said to her that she did it wrong. She then took the phone back and claimed that I just didn't want to meet the great young man because I was scared. Well, she's a little bit right about that. After all, I had never been with a man before.

Still, I couldn't admit that. To her, it would be like a big sweet piece of cake, which she is not allowed to eat because of her diabetes. A dead giveaway that she could hold against me forever. So I just said, "I just haven't had time to date like that."

At that, my parents laughed and my dad said, "Boy, do you actually believe yourself? Let your mom set up a date with the neighbor's son. You'll see, I'm sure you'll like him."

"You guys are really crazy about him."

"We like him. We stand by that, too." Shouted my mom.

"Um, okay. I have to get back to work now. I really just wanted to tell you guys about the breakup."

My mom laughed loudly and hard and almost choked before exclaiming, "You finally got rid of that lazy bitch! Now someone else can go to work for her so she can then spend the money right away."

My dad said, "Boy, we love you. Come visit us soon. Then we'll introduce you to the boy next door." He always makes it sound like I'm still 12 or 13 years old. But okay, it doesn't really bother me. We said goodbye and I hung up.

After that lemon, came the next one. I called her parents, knowing she definitely wouldn't. I explained to them what had happened and my mother-in-law said she couldn't imagine her daughter doing something like that and cheating on her husband. My father-in-law, however, believed me and said to his wife, "She's as much of a slut as you are!"

Whereupon my mother-in-law yelled to her husband, "Are you crazy? What are you talking about me and your daughter?"

He: "What? It's just the truth, isn't it? You married me then to be able to have a secured life and so did your daughter. Do you think she ever loved Zhan? She sure didn't. She just saw that he was a good match and had a good chance of a carefree life with him."

She: "How can you accuse your own daughter of such a thing?"

He: "Because I know she is not my daughter! I had a paternity test done years ago. And oh wow, paternity is ruled out!"

Her: "That's not true!"

Him: "That's true!"

Her: "Shut your mouth! Go back to stuffing your mouth with your lemon pie. You can't do anything else anyway, you useless bastard." I don't know what else was said after that, because my mother-in-law just hung up. But I doubt very much that they immediately reconciled.

Gradually, I informed everyone else and everyone said they knew it wasn't for eternity. I knew that too. I just hadn't planned a separation for the next two years. But how could I have forbidden Ren to be with his dream girl when he loves her so much? I am a very empathetic person and very understanding.

Next, I packed all the rest of my wife's things into boxes. Including her ugly decorations from the closets. Dust catchers that look hideous. I cleaned the whole apartment and felt like a new person. However, I had quickly become bored. So in the lockdown all alone it is also stupid.

So what did I do to dispel the boredom? I made phone calls to friends, watched Netflix, surfed the Internet, and ordered myself a super tasty dinner. When I went to pay the delivery guy, Wang Yibo's business card fell out of my wallet. Mhhh, that was something. Didn't he want to have a drink with me?

I wanted to call him. But then I didn't dare. I told myself that it was already too late and besides, I didn't have any alcohol at home. How would it look if I invited him for a drink and asked him to bring the alcohol as well?

Since I was bored and didn't know what else to do with myself, I went to bed. I lay in there for an hour, still wide awake. For one thing, I heard my new neighbors arguing. The two women moved in a month ago and are always arguing. And for another, I just wasn't tired.

So I got up again, took Wang Yibo's business card again and wrote him a message: "Hey, how are you? It's me, the guy from the supermarket."

Well, I didn't assume to get a reply. After all, it was already close to 10 pm. Oh man, who am I kidding here? Of course I expected an answer! I wanted him to write me back. But, he didn't! And even though I told myself that he must be working or sleeping then, I was kind of disappointed.

Here I want to get in contact with a man and get to know him better and then this! Well at least I could now say to my mom, I tried it and it didn't work out! I know she won't believe me, but what the heck?

I crawled back into my bed and snuggled in, staring at the ceiling and thinking hard about counting sheep, when suddenly my cell phone beeped around 10:30 pm. "Are you still awake?" Texted me Wang Yibo.

Immediately, I sat up straight in bed and wrote, "Yes." Then I stared at my phone and waited again.

"Feel like having a drink?"

"Yes."

"Want me to come to your place?"

"Don't have any alcohol at home."

"I'll bring some."

"Okay."

"Will you write me your address?"

"Yes."

"Good, then write it to me." He wrote. I then wrote him my address, he wrote he would be with me in half an hour and I ran to the bathroom. Quickly washed and out of my pajamas and into my comfy clothes. It didn't even take me five minutes and I was pacing up and down my apartment while I waited nervously.

I was so focused on waiting that my heart almost stopped when the front doorbell actually rang. I pressed the door opener and stared through the peephole until I saw him coming out of the elevator. Ah so handsome!

Just as he was about to knock on my apartment door, I opened the door and he looked at me with a bright smile. My heart suddenly played a rumba and then I let him into my apartment. He showed me a bottle of wine and a bottle of whiskey and said he didn't know which one I liked more, so he brought both.

He put the bottles on the dresser in the corridor, took off his shoes and then stood in front of me. "Everything good?" He asked.

"Sure." I replied. And I don't know what got into me then, because I took one more step towards him and just kissed him! Oh God, just like that and without warning and he went along with it! He didn't reject me and instead grabbed me and pushed me against the wall. I felt his hands on me and my ass. And I loved it!

I successfully suppressed who I was and what I wanted for 15 years. And with Wang Yibo, I couldn't stand it. I was so incredibly attracted to him that I just wanted to throw myself at him. Well, he turned the tables and then pounced on me for it.

To show me that he was now in control he whispered in my ear, "I'm not going to stop now and keep going."

"Okay." I replied nervously.

I had no idea if I was really ready for this. It would be my first time with a man. But I felt that I could not resist Wang Yibo. Everything inside me was literally screaming for more. I wanted it. But I only wanted it with him, I also realized. And he was apparently only too willing to give me what I wanted.