I blinked the sleep from my eyes, looking around in an unfamiliar room. Where am I?

Did I get kidnapped? Where are the others! why are he walls red? Did I get raped by a millionaire? 

What? I like the fifty shades of grey series.

I feel an arm drag me back down making me panic just slightly until I realize that it's prince. This is his room. We're sharing for the night because my door is locked. I had a Anxiety attack last night. 

We're cuddling.

I heard the faintest sound of a camera, making my head snap towards the doorway. There stood Patton holding a camera, fanning himself like a fan girl who's ship became cannon.

"Omg! This is so cute! I need to get Logan!" Morality whisper shouted to himself before running off. I was about to stop him when princey pulled me into his chest, making me unable to move.

I sighed. How long until he wakes up. Roman was never a huge morning person, but he woke up way earlier than me. That was a guarantee. Then again, my paranoia was on edge this morning being in an unfamiliar place and all.

As I looked down on him, I wondered how anyone so innocent looking could be so cruel.

I wasn't stupid.

I knew they all talked behind my back and I knew that Roman tried to be nice, but failed miserably, and I of course knew that logic didn't have a filter and didn't understand emotion, but is that really an excuse to make me feel the way I do?

No, it isn't.

I just don't understand him. One minute he hates me the next he's acting like he wants to do... the Frickle Frackle with me.

 Was it just me? Did I miss something? Was I crazy and just imagined the whole thing? Has he always acted like this and I just never noticed?

I heard a groan beside me. Oh no. Oh no! Prince, if you can hear my thoughts, please go back to sleep. 

"Vir- Anxiety?" Fucking hell. 

"Uh, h-hey." My voice just cracked. Oh my god how embarrassing can this get. 

Prince panicked and proceeded to push me off the bed. Thanks, babe, love you too.

"What are YOU doing in MY bed?" He asked. I glared at the floor as I pushed myself from the floor. Of course it means nothing to him. Why would it? 

"Whatever." I sigh as I get up and open his door. I walk up to logic's door. 

His door was metal with a dark blue brain painted on it. I knocked. "Come in." Logan's voice Sounded from the other side. I opened the door to his room.

The walls were a dark blue with a white carpet. His bed was black and simple. There was a coffee table with two chairs on either side, both black arm chairs. Logan sat on the one closest to the bed with a book in his hands and a steaming cup of coffee on the table.

"What do you need Anxiety?" He asked bluntly. What did I expect from The literal Logical part of the brain. "Um, well I need my room back." I stated looking down. What if he turns me down? What if it can't be done? What if I never get my room back?

"Oh, okay."

"W-what?"

"you heard me Virgil, I'll start on it now. We really only need to unscrew the knob. It's quite simple really." 

I sighed in relief. "Thanks Logan." 

"Your welcome, Virge." 

I began to walk out of the room as he went back to his book when I stopped. He used my nickname. The nickname he gave me. 

I froze, tears starting to form in my eyes. "Are you okay Anxiety?" I couldn't answer. I walked out of the room as fast as possible. I wiped my tears hastily.

Of course that was the moment Thomas summoned us. I felt all the eye on me.

"wh-at!" My voice broke. Of course it did. 

"um, is now a bad time Anx?" Thomas asked politely. I let out a breath. "No, no I'm fine, let's start the video." He gave me doubtful looks but continued on anyway.

After the intro, arguing about Hogwarts Houses, and of course Prince trying to exclude me again, everyone decided to change outfits. Of course I had an idea for what I wanted to wear, but What if they don't like it? What if they judge me even more? What if they thing I look silly? What if-

"Virgil, your turn!" Morality joyfully shouted at me. I looked around quickly seeing everyone in outfits that complimented them. "I don't know, do I have to? I mean so many changes. I just told you my name." I complained.

Prince tried to make me feel better, at least he tries to except me sometimes. "I-I actually have this idea, but like, it's a little out there, so um." I nervously stutter.

What if they don't like it?

What if they think it's ugly?

What if they think it's to flashy?

Thomas finally convinced me and I finally changed.

"I actually really like the purple."

I was wearing a black jacket with purple plaid patches and a thunder cloud right above my heart. I also had on a purple shirt that had little rips on it with black fabric underneath. 

Everyone had surprisingly really positive comments on it, even Logic. Patton even got so excited he started choking. 

"that is magnificent." I gave a half smile, trying to contain a blush creeping up my neck. "How you've managed to become even angstyer." Okay, well at least Roman tried.

The group actually made me feel good about myself. Roman and Logan left while rhyming and Patton tried to join in, but failed.

Finally Thomas let me leave, but not after giving me some inspiration. Maybe the gang isn't so bad...

"Hey, Anxiety.." A voice sounded behind me. I quickly turned around to see Prince in his new outfit. 

Oh my god.

My breath hitched.

How. How! HOW!

He was beautiful Like a, well, prince. How was it possible to be so pretty. He had flawless skin, sky blue eyes, constantly neat hair, confidence, strength, The list can go on forever. Why was I noticing all of this now?

"Hey, I just wanted to say that your look new look is actually really cute."

What.

My face lit up a brilliant red that was somewhat covered by my makeup. "I-I ugh, y-you too?" It came out as more of a question. I flushed and immediately turned around and ran. Yes, ran. 

I came to my room, hoping to every god in history that the door was open. It seemed the odds were in my favor, for Logan was just finishing up with my lock. Morality of course fawning over him like some high school girl. Honestly, will these two fuck already?

I threw open my door and ran inside. I took a couple of deep breaths and leaned against the door. I shouldn't be having these thoughts. It's betrayal to him. Deirdre. 

You always hated your full name because you thought it was a girls name, but I would say it anyway just to push your limits. I remember how you would stay in bed all day and try to avoid us but i would drag you out of it so you would hang out with me. I remember how you were always shorter than me, you hated it but i thought it was cute. I loved you, no, I Love you.

I felt the tears pour faster as I looked at that empty corner. 

I never put anything in it because that's where his bed was. Hell, I still have his headboard leaned against the wall. The only reason my room is as big as it is, is because we used to share. He never used that bed anyway. 

I wish he was here.

After Thomas started going to therapy and taking pills he had to leave. He was no longer a main trait and had to stay with the lesser traits. Sadly, that meant he wouldn't be with me. We knew it would never work out so we broke up much against our own wills.

I was always so bad at letting go.

I'm still hung up on him. He's probably moved on without me. I heard a soft knock.

This wasn't any knock. It was a special knock. A knock only... No. It can't be. 

I threw open the door as fast as possible, and there he stood.

He hadn't changed a bit.

He was still an inch shorter than me, he still had his feathery black died hair that would make any 2004 emo jealous, he still had those ever present dark circles under his naturally pale skin, his eyes were still a hopeful green, His clothing was still a black shirt with ripped black jeans that fell down his small hips even though he had a studded belt wrapped around him, He still wore those ruffed up converse I had tried to throw out on repeat. The only difference was that he was holding a bouquet of black roses and those forest green eyes was filled with even more tears than usual. 

it was Depression, Deirdre, He was back.

"Virge, I want to get back together. I still love you."

A/N ok so massive shout out to @ZombyKat for the advice they gave me. they actually encouraged me to finish up this long over due chapter. So do me a favor and go follow their account! 

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