Aryan pov

"I know your full details Aryan.... because I am the person who selected you for avani...."he said smiling at me....

"What does he mean that he has selected me for avani....did my punches made him loose his mental stability...?"I thought in my mind

I came out of my trance when I heard my phone ringing....

Avani's name flashed on the screen as soon as I took my phone from my pocket....

Smile found it's way to my lips the moment I saw her name on the screen...

I swiped the green button and kept the phone away from my ear....

"Where the hell are you Aryan?" She shouted .....

I know,that's why I kept the phone a little far from my ear...I smiled at my act ....

"You have just recovered from the injuries Mr stop stressing yourself more with work ....." She said the last part in a concerned tone..

"I came to meet a friend of mine avani... don't worry I am fine and I am not stressing myself.....I will come home soon ...."I said

"Ok then enjoy with ur friend and come home soon I will prepare a new dish for tonight's dinner..."she said excitedly

I frowned listening to her excitement and the coming danger towards me.....

I said my "bye "and cut the call.....

"She still didn't learn how to cook right....?"Arjun asked smiling...

I nodded my head and smiled remembering the sight of the kitchen the moment she finishes her dish...

"Time may change but avani never changes "he muttered under his breath

"She is not like you to flip easily Arjun...she truly loved you ...she found home in you....she has given her heart to you..."

"How could you leave her Arjun ..?"

"How could you break her heart Arjun..?"

"How could you...?"......i asked him looking directly into his eyes....

Arjun pov

"She truly loved you ...she found home in you....she has given her heart to you..."

"How could you leave her Arjun ..?"

"How could you broke her heart Arjun..?"

"How could you...?"......

He asked me looking directly into my eyes... searching for the answers for his every questions...

His every question was ringing in my mind....

My mind drifted to the moment my eyes met her's. ..

To the moment for the first time she hold my hand in her drunken state...

To the moment where she has become the key to my heart....

To the moment where she has opened every door to my heart and stole my heart from me......

Each and every moment spent with her was flashing infront of my eyes making my lips curl into a smile....

"The moment she held my hand,I have decided to hold her hand till my last breath aryan..."I pauses to look at him...He is absorbing my every word seriously...

"She showed me a different world with her love....

Every day seeing her around me always made me feel like I am the luckiest person in the world....

When ever she scolds me I could see the reflection of a mother in her...

When ever she shows me her puppy eyes I could see a child in her....

When ever she solves my problem in minutes I could see a mature girl in her...

When ever she cared for my parents i have seen a daughter in her....

Whenever she holds my hand and walks with me I could see a wife and a best friend in her....

She is my life Aryan...she is my life ...

The Arjun you are seeing is a lifeless body ....."I looked at him his face a mixture of grief,doubt and curiosity...I continued....

"The moment she agreed to my love,I was on cloud nine....I have promised myself that I should protect her form every evil by building a shell with my love around her....

I still remember the day where her eyes were glowing with the happiness of being my wife....

Being Mrs . Arjun...

The days used to pass with her talks about our wedding .....about the arrangements....about the shopping..and end with our dreams of our future...."I went into trance visualizing the best days of my life...

"If you really love her then why did you leave her..."he asked in a cracked tone

"We both planned our future together with our love but God has different plans ......

He has blessed me to live like a dead man spending my life in the graveyard by blessing me with the "Walking Corpse Syndrome".....

(I know you haven't heard about it....it's a type of syndrome a rare mental disorder in which a person sincerely believes he or she is missing body parts-such as the brain-or is actually dead. Sufferers tend not to eat or bathe, and they often spend time in cemeteries, wishing to be among their own kind. Well, their perceived own kind, at any rate.

This disorder has been connected to a dysfunction in the areas of the brain responsible for recognizing and associating emotions with faces, including their own. This causes a complete emotional detachment and removes any sense of personal identity when looking at their bodies.)

It all started with a normal day..When avani came to my house on day 1,I failed to recognize my relatives faces while watching album...My mom laughed off and assured I am never good with faces as I stay out of the town all.the year..

I forgot about it...But after a month or so,a strange dream appeared....It was a dream where I died falling off a cliff..A strange person appeared and he invited me...Calling me to die.and . I was pushed...diving deep into layers and layers of oblivion and darkness....I woke up shivering...It felt so real.."

The whole next day..I could not stop myself from thinking about it...All over,I had a feeling that I died...I am living like a ghost,my part are rotten,my organs aren't functioning...I told all I felt to avani...She want mad for talking about my death and shouted on me convincing it's just a dream....I am punishing myself thinking too much... Unbelievably I broke down that day...It was rare of me to do so...She consoled me and convinced me everything will be okay....

I convinced myself...There were no major changes after that....Some nights,I used to wake up suddenly and this voice isn't leaving my head... Come with me.....I will take you to heaven.....Always..The one and only line....

I shut my ears with pillow and slept... Gradually I grew more and more uninterested in daily things..I stopped exercising,I neglected food...My parents worried for me and insisted me to visit the hospital...I denied saying stupid reasons...But deep down,I am afraid to listen what I don't want to happen...

Often I had moodswings,one minute I am all happy the next minute I am angry..I don't want anyone to worry about me...So I locked myself in the room all day... Sometimes I met avani...On the weekends...It's the only time I used to be me... Keeping my sane self...

But this thought if death...That death is chasing me...I am dead already... Didn't leave me...one night I went extreme...I couldn't stop hearing voices...I shouted in my room in the middle of the night... I couldn't take it anymore...I cut my own hand to escape from the world,from.the agony,from the voices....

That ended me in hospital when I got diagnosed with this syndrome..After CT Scan and MRI,The doctor has confirmed that I am in the first stage 'germination stage 'of "Walking Corpse Syndrome"

In this stage the patient shows characteristic features of depressive mood, extreme worry of unwellness and excessive fear of one's illness, despite medical treatment.

Avani has no knowledge on this event...I begged my parents not to tell her...I cried whole night thinking about consequences we would have if we unite....

That moment I have decided that I should be far from avani to such an extent where she can't find me...

I wanted to become a shell for avani where I could protect her with my love but here I am becoming a monster who will break the shell and break her into million pieces Aryan....

I ran far from her and went to USA in desperate hope that they can find a cure for this syndrome...but God has pushed me into a complete darkness which can wipe off every spark in it's way...

I was put under medication..lot of anti depressents,mood stabilizers,sedatives....but there is no cure for this disease.. Aryan...And it's worsening day by day...I feel like I am dead already..sometimes I walk aimlessly...I love to spend days at graveyard.. I feel I am already a part of it....I try my best to get out of the feeling every single day.. I go hysteric about it....Finally end up in sedatives to calm me down...all I have is my friend and my junior mahir...Whom you met this morning...

I came back from America with the only aim to find the color of her life who can protect her , who can love her , who can cherish her with happiness for ever and ever.....

I wanted to be a cheat,a betrayer,a criminal, a bitter part in her life believing she would eventually hate me and forget about me...At least with anger,she would marry someone....but her love towards me never made me a cheat or a bitter part...it filled her heart with the hope of my return...her love and trust for me never even gave a crack....which broke me every minute....

Seeing her tears every minute...I felt suffocated.....

Every night I used to sneak into her room to see her face which fills strength in me...But her tear stains on the ends if eyelids and cheeks...Haunted me every second..."my eyes started to well up with tears and my voice broke the lump formed is aching like hell...Somehow,I fought my tears and resumed...

"Every minute she uttered my name in her sleep my hands itched to wake her and hug her close to my heart wiping her every pain....

Every minute she yelled my name at the beach crying for me,falling on the ground...my legs wanted to run to her and yell at her that-I love her for ever and ever.....

I have followed her like a shadow and protected her from every hurdle...but I couldn't take me from her because I am locked in her heart for ever and ever...For one second,I want her to move on and be happy....But on the other hand,I just want her to stay with me till death tare us apart...."

"I know that feeling..."Aryan nodded lost in his thoughts...

"If she knew the truth ,she easily accepts my syndrome with a smile and suffers with me in my pain....

Takes my pain and turn my darkness with the Sparks of her love...

But what happens when my syndrome reaches to it's last stage...I will be loosing the sense of recognizing myself and I will be living in the graveyards thinking that I am dead...Probably forever

She too will be living with me...but what about the future I have planned for us...

What about the happiness I wanted to see in her eyes ....

What about the memories I want to create for her....

I can't give her the peace to her even for a single minute Aryan....

For single minute...

So I decided to find the happiness for her...for a man who can paint her life with his love....

If I told her to move on leaving me alone she will simply reply that no matter how long, she would be happily living with me as long as I live and the moment I left this world she will happily live with my memories"

But

What about her happiness...?

What about her life....?

My memories may just make her feel my presence but what about the loneliness she will be feeling every second....

Her parents , her friends will be up to some extent after that who will hold her hand to lead the way...who will become her support,who will care for her....who will become the reason for her to live....

That moment I decided to find the reason .....

And I found you.....

"I found you Aryan....."

"I found you...."

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