Brendon's POV:

"You fucking ki-" then the line died. He went. He hung up. He's angry at me. I need to get to the hospital, I ran Into my car and drove down to the hospital. I arrived there very fast as I wanted to know if Ryan was okay or not. "Of course he's not okay you fucker, he knows about Dallon, hes fucking heart broken you asshole" I scolded myself. I shouldn't have kissed Dallon that was a horrible thing to do to Ryan and Dallon. I don't deserve to be here anymore. I should be the one in the hospital not Ryan. I should be the one dying.
I ran into the hospital and asked for Ryan's room. I sprinted to his room and bursted through the door. I stood there shocked. They lay my baby hooked up to many machines and with about 3-5 doctors surrounding him. "Excuses me sir you can't be here right now" a doctor noticed me. "RYAN!" I screamed ignoring them. They grabbed my arms and tried to pull me out of the room. I of course fought. "RYAN! PLEASE BE OKAY. I LOVE YOU!" I screamed. Sadly I lost the fight and got pulled out side, "name?" A doctor asked "Brendon Urie" I wasn't able to look anywhere except my lap. "Age?" They asked. "WHY DO YOU CARE ALL I WANT IS TO MAKE SURE MY BOYFRIEND IS OKAY" I screamed they were taken back by my sudden burst of anger. "Sir calm down. Ryan isn't doing to well-" I cut them off "YOU DONT FUCKING SAY?" I screamed and got wired looks from the people walking past. "You may see Ryan after we've run some tests" I nodded slowly and sat back down and just broke down. I've lost him, again. He's gone. He hates me.
It's been hours and I still can't see him. "B-Brendon?" Someone asked. I regonised the voice. "Ryan" I asked not looking up. "It's me, well not really but it's my soul" I looked up and cried more. "R-Ryan" I cried, he he's dead. I saw people stare. Obviously can't see him. "You're a ghost. You're dead?!" I said. This can't be happening. "Brendon. Please promise me you'll be okay. Brendon look at me" I looked into his eyes. "I forgive everything. Go be with Dallon. But remember I love you okay" I shock my head. "I wanna be with you" I said in a small whisper. "Oh Brendon you should have thoughto of that when you were kissing Dallon" then he faded into thin air. "Bye Ryan" I said and broke down crying
"Mr. Urie" someone asked ready for the news. "Mr. Ross didn't make it, I'm so sorry" he apologised. Why is he apologising it's not his fault it's mine. ALL MY FUCKING FAULT ALL THE TIME