Brendon's POV:

Ryan has been gone for a few hours, were could he be. I hope he isn't getting drunk again, should I go and find him. I think I need to. I got up and jumped into Daniel's car and drive around looking for him. "RYAN! RYAN!" I repeated. I could feel tears falling out of my eyes. "PLEASE Ryan" I lowered my voice as I got to a bridge surrounded by ambulances and police cars. I jumped out of the car and ran for dear life. "RYAN!" I screamed. Someone turned towards me "how may I help you" he asked "my Ryan Is h-he in there, did he j-jump" I stuttered. "We can't identify the body, describe Ryan to us." I nodded "brown hair brown eyes about 5'9 foot he was wearing a green day shirt and some skinny jeans" I said quickly "I'm sorry to inform you that you just decided him" he said pointing to a man on a stretcher. "RYAN!" I screamed "please?" I asked he nodded I ran to his side. "Ryan how? Why? Please be okay? Babe?" I asked holding his hand. "I'm sorry" I whispered. "I really am I should have stopped you" I kissed his check "i love you" I said one last time as they put him into the ambulance and I hopped into my car and drive to the hospital. "I wasn't expecting this!" I said to myself. "Please be okay, please"
The traffic was being an ass the entire trip. I need to make sure Ryan is okay. "He'll be okay" the little voice in my head started. I nodded and mouthed an okay. I wasn't quite sure yet. I made it to the hospital, I dashed for the door. "I'm here to see George Ross? Room?" I asked quickly "109" I smiled and thanked the girl at the desk. I jumped into the elevator making my way up stairs. I fastly made my way to room 109. I looked through the window. There lay my little baby. My Ryan all hooked up. I really hope he is okay. I opened the door to be with him. "Ryan? You awake?" I asked softly. No answer I looked at his frame and smiled. "Such a handsome man" i kissed his forehead and help his hand. "I'm so sorry. Please I love you be okay" I held his hand for a long time I refused to leave his side. Every now and then a doctor would walk in and want to check up on Ryan for his breathing and other stuff that could be important. "Will he be okay" I stopped the doctor before they left. "I'm not sure, it's probably yes, he'll be fine but there's a small chance and that's a tiny chance I promise" she patted my back and left "Thanks!" I shouted whilst sitting down next to Ryan. I left kisses on his arms and then made my way to his face
I looked at his closed eyes. Then his button nose that is just perfection, adorable. His lips looked dry. I gave him a kiss on the lips. I wish he was awake to experience that. I'm a very awkward person and I could have never done that with him awake. "Okay Brendon, visit time was over an hour ago, I'll let you in early tomorrow to see Ryan, I'm sorry but you have to leave, If anything happens I'll make sure to call you" I smiled and nodded, quickly giving Ryan a kiss then making my way to my car. I jumped inside and drove to my house. I haven't told Daniel, I need to tell him, but I can't. "I put your cousin in hospital" "it's not your fault Brendon stop blaming yourself" the voice is back, understand why Ryan gets so scared when he hears the voices. It's terrifying. It's like someone is stuck inside my brain. Maybe just maybe I could get some rest, get rid of these voices and wake up with Ryan in my arms. Sleep, sleep. Slowly darkness overtook my vision, it's a nice peaceful place. A place where anything is possible, if you dream hard enough you will receive an amazing dream