CREDITS TO: UTA NO PRINCE SAMA (including the cover), Silvermoon249 (for Koizakura lyrics) and lyrics.snakeroot (for Transform lyric)

CHAPTER 1

Everybody knows that Saotome Academy is a performance art school which has produced many top-notch celebrities. Even the homeroom teachers, including Hyuga Ryuya and Tsukimiya Ringo are also the idols with highest quality.

Apart from those famous facts, the students who are in idol course also have to win the first place for their graduation audition. They have to be the last one standing and every single soul in the school knows just what does it mean when you become a winner.

And just like previous years, the night of graduation audition was held so glorious with its' huge audience size and the best performances from the students.

"Horeta omae ni otoko michi.."

As Hijirikawa Masato ended his Koizakura singing with his baritone but sweet voice, cheers were emitted everywhere. He could not see the faces of those who called out his name excitedly but for sure, he was satisfied with his performance just now. Thanks to his partner a.k.a the composer who wrote such a classic but showing-his-latent-singing-ability-kind of song.

After politely greeting the audiences, the blue head did not waste any more time to storm to the backstage. The next person who would perform after him was the only one he could think right now. He needed to show his support to the person. He needed to convince that friend of him that he could sing tonight.

"Hijirikawa-san, congratulations on.." the idol who always put on a collected mask seemed no longer in that state anymore. Instead, his usually passive body dashed towards a certain direction, completely ignored a passer-by who wanted to exclaim just how marvellous his performance was.

"Wow! He should be an athlete if he can run that fast.." the stated passer-by commented, receiving a strong nod from his friend.

Meanwhile, that Hijirikawa Masato who unintentionally drew people's attention due to his dramatic running stopped as he saw another blue head, surrounded by his friends.

"Hijirikawa, what a fast comeback! I don't know you can run so fast with those hakama and haori," his roommate, Jinguji Ren exclaimed, automatically receiving a scowl from the scion.

"Shut up, Jinguji!" Masato totally forgot that he was supposed to look elegant with his Japanese traditional attire and not running around like a certain cartoon character.

"Hijirikawa, there you are!" the shortest one, Kurusu Syo exclaimed, drawing the others' attention to the said A class student. "Please do something about this idiot. It's looked like he caught a nervous breakdown all of sudden."

"Yeah, Masato-kun. Please help Tokiya-kun," The tallest one in the group, Shinomiya Natsuki said out of concern. In spite of his upcoming turn , he still had time to worry about other person.

If only that person was not Tokiya..

"Are you serious?" Masato's blue eyes got wider out of worry as he approached the target of their concern. "Oi, Tokiya! Are you okay?"

"I..am okay."

Well, reading from the reply alone, you could guess that Tokiya was not okay as he suggested. For his friends, they could see how hard for Tokiya to overcome his anxiety. His hands shivered crazily even he tried to restrain them. His eyes did not meet theirs. Instead, the blue orbs just stared at his fidgeting legs out of terror.

Those listed gestures were not something that they would expect from Ichinose Tokiya if you knew and being in the same school with him for three years. That ashen face was not something that they would expect from Ichinose Tokiya who was supposed to be the strongest candidate for the winner of their graduation auditions.

"Don't lie to me," Masato held Tokiya's shoulders, indirectly forcing the blue head to meet his eyes. "Tokiya, just so you know, everybody, either the audience or us, always get your back. We all know that you can do it, Tokiya!"

"No, I..I can't.." Tokiya shook his head in alarm, rather panicky with the fact that everybody had high expectation on him when he himself turned vice versa.

"Tokiya..." Syo could only mutter his name as he felt devastated with his friend's helplessness.

"Yes, you can do it, Tokiya. Do you remember what you have told us before? We will achieve this together. We will be the best idols, just like how we dreamed of. Are you going to just abandon your dream like that? You want this to happen since you are what? Seven years old, right? Now, the door to your dream is here, right in front of you. You just have to pull yourself together, Tokiya!"

"It's.. it's not the same anymore, Masato. He's.. he's not here. I don't think I can do this."

Tokiya's confession was like a stab on their hearts. Everybody turned despondent, clearly understanding the pain and sorrow that Tokiya had to bear all this time.

Since two months ago, it took everything for them to nurse Tokiya who was used to suffer from a severe depression before. They were always there when he had spent his time in his bedroom, mourning for someone who never came back to him. They never gave up in cajoling Tokiya to go to school again.

But now, Tokiya's performance was next and he suddenly said he could not do it. What should they do then?

"Tokiyaaaaa!" all of sudden, they could hear an obviously fake and high-pitched voice, coming from one of them. When they finally could figure out the owner of the weird voice, they just stared blankly at the said person. "Mou, you look so nervous! You are going to give the best performance and you still show that face? Hora, Tokiya! Just grin widely like this! Come on, grinnnn!"

Instead of doing as he was instructed, like the others, Tokiya just stared blankly at the weirdo.

"That's what your brother will say if he is still here, right? So, please.. do your best for the sake of him. I believe, he never want to see you in this kind of state, Tokiya."

"Masato.." Tokiya finally commented. "Next time, please do something about your impersonation. You sounded foolish."

"Tsk! At least I made you feeling better, you fool!" Masato suddenly snapped, returned to his original personality. Yes, he is really bad at impersonating a cheerful and childish person, so what?

The group suddenly split their sides, feeling entertained by Masato who tried so hard to keep up Tokiya's spirit to the point of impersonating the late Otoya.

"Because of Icchi, Hijirikawa surprisingly showed off his hidden talents; running like a wild animal and impersonation...auch!" Ren quickly received a punch on his flat stomach from Masato.

"Look! I need to embarrass myself in order to keep up your spirit! You should be grateful, Tokiya," instead of emitting a dark and intimidating aura, Masato gave a comical effect instead.

"Wakatta," Tokiya wiped his watery eyes from flowing and in the background, you could hear Syo mumbled 'he said that Tokiya should be grateful. What a joke!' while still laughing.

Thanks to Masato. Thanks to everyone who had always been the good friends for him when he was suicidal and could not accept the fact that he lost a family member.

A family member that he used to despise so much before.

Suddenly, he bowed 90 degrees, sending the others into a daze.

"Thank you very much, minnasan. Thank you for.. all the support that you guys gave to me. Including Masato's bad impersonation, it feels like.. he's still here. Our Otoya is still here."

They exchanged smiles before...

"Tokiya, are you ready? The performance.. eh, you are not nervous anymore?" Cecil suddenly interrupted them after making himself as busy as the crews.

"I guess so.. thanks to someone's impersonation.." Tokiya slowly walked out from the backstage yet he still could hear Masato's whine, followed by Ren's teasing.

"The next idol will be.... Ichinose Tokiya from S Class!"

Tokiya inhaled slowly, letting the oxygen flew to his whole body. He did not need the winner title anymore. Instead, getting the chance for a debut was enough for him.

Otoya, by all means, please watch me...

This is the night to remember mou wakatteta
Kimi ga boku wo kaeru shunkan
Night to remember yoru ga fukereba
Atarashii jibun de Take you high

Transform me kimi no Eyes
Transform me kimi no lips
Miserareru hodo Wild and Sexy
Transform me kimi no Voice
Transform me kimi no Touch
Kimi no subete ni Spellbound

Oh... You got me spellbound baby,
Yeah... You just set me free

As Tokiya finally wrapped his performance with the 'Transform' song, the whole hall was in a pregnant silence.

What's with this silence? Was my performance so bad? Or my dance was too stiff? It couldn't be. Syo said that it was perfect..

"Tokiya! Tokiya!Tokiya! Tokiya!"

With his body still gasping for a breath, he stared at the audience, feeling dumbfounded with their sudden screams and cheers.

It seemed like all his struggles and hard works to make it this far paid off.

Yet, instead of the excellent performance, he still felt empty. Tokiya did not feel any sorts of satisfaction because apparently..

Otoya was not here. Apparently, Otoya, the one who he was supposed to celebrate their graduation audition together was not here.

Otoya was not here because he, Tokiya had killed his own brother.

"Do we have to do this?" Tokiya asked, rather lazily.

A few days after the graduation audition, he had to attend a special ceremony which aimed to celebrate those idols and composers who finally could debut professionally.

Or to be exact, he had to attend the ceremony so that he could give a speech and be interviewed.

"Of course we have. Remember, you are the winner of the graduation audition. Not to mention that you are the product of Saotome Academy so it's natural for your fans and reporters to interview you. You should share the secret of your success so that it will create a good image for you as a new idol," Ringo explained while giving the blue head a wink.

And thus, after some refreshments, Tokiya was requested to get ready for his speech.

"Next, I would like to call upon, the best idol and the winner of Saotome Academy graduation audition, Ichinose Tokiya to give a speech."

Instead of its actual purpose which was to support him, the big applause just made Tokiya feeling about to vomit. Giving a formal speech should be a piece of cake for him who had always been the leader, no matter what kind of organization or club that he joined. But now, the circumstance, the nervousness was in whole different level. For him, his so-called perfection, his so-called leadership skill were useless since in his so-called perfect life, he used to commit a despicable wrongdoing that he would rather pay with his life instead.

The wrongdoing which made him underestimating himself because it was enough to show just how..

Evil he was with his little brother. It is rather an expected responsibility since human beings, who grow up together as a family, under the same house will naturally love each other.

Yet, the nature did not exist in him and because of the fact alone, he was deeply ashamed of himself.

After restraining himself to not let the anxiety got the better of him, Tokiya carefully holding the microphone. He calmly listened to each question which most of them were about his secret of success.

Everything was fine until the last question hit him.

"And the next question is from.. I am sorry. The writer just introduced himself as 'Me'. The question is.. You are good-looking. You are smart. You are a good singer and you can play all instruments. You are good in everything. Despite of that, if you have just one chance in your life, what will you wish the most?" the emcee, Mizuki asked.

It sounded simple but not for Tokiya. His lips was sealed even in his mind, without ever being pointed out, he already knew the answer.

He gazed at the audience. Obviously, they looked puzzled when he looked reluctant to answer the question.

"Oh, no.. is he going to break again?" Cecil fidgeted as he saw how despondent Tokiya was.

"I am sure he is not. Despite of his temper, we all know, Tokiya is not that childish. He never ruin this ceremony," Masato assured.

Meanwhile, the blue head a.k.a the centre of the attention in the hall tried to hide the tears that built up in the corner of his eyes.

"Ichi..Ichinose-san, are you okay?" the female emcee asked, out of concern.

"I am okay. If you don't mind, may I answer it a bit longer? I need to clarify something."

The emcee just nodded even she was still in a daze.

"Sure. Please take your time."

Tokiya met the blue orbs of his father, right at the front row. The loving face instantly gave him a support that he needed.

"To answer the last question, if I only have one chance, I want.. I want my brother, Ichinose Otoya to be alive again. I know it sounds absurd but for me, that's my wish forever."

The wish, which was carried by his cracked voice was enough to return the sorrow that they all shared since two months ago.

Ichinose Otoya, a student from A Class who is not only talented and popular for his good looks but he had the personality that everybody could not help but feeling attracted to him. The teachers even claimed that judging from his friendly and funny personality, he could be a promising star for variety shows.

Yet, he could not make it. He left before he could even achieve any of his dreams.

"As the question itself somehow connected with his death, please lend me your ears so that I can explain the truth. Since two months ago, after my brother's death, there are too many speculations circulated around. It's not that our family refuses to tell the media about what exactly happened to him but the situation itself.. it's way too complex and until now, my father and I still could not accept his death easily. Yet, since it somehow affects my father's status, I think this is the right time for me to tell you the truth."

First of all, this is, again... like my first work, Crystal Time, it is supposed to be a story with my OCs but it turned out to be a fanfiction since both Tokiya and Otoya suit the main characters well. Hope you guys like the idea of making them as adopted siblings. 

And also.. the 'Transform' song which was sang by Tokiya is actually Mamo-chan's. I just love that song and can't help but imagining how will it look like if Tokiya performs that song on the stage. It will be really cool!