I spent hours talking to him. Just telling him about everything that's happened. I know I probably can't trust him but he's the only one left to talk to. I don't need comforting, I just need someone to listen.
"And now Billy's dead. Because of me. What should I do now?"
"Emily, I don't know. This isn't really my territory. It's your business."
"Yeah I know. But what should I do?"
"It was his choice. If he wants to die, let him. You can't stop that. You can't just kill yourself either. Too many people care about you and need you. It would be very mean to die on them. Just live life. You die when you die. Got it?"
"Thanks Bryan." I smile at him with tears in my eyes. I stand up and head towards the door.
"Wait, Emily."
"Yeah?"
"Thanks for the talk. This was nice. Even if what we talked about wasn't so nice."
"Yeah, it was. I-I forgive you Bryan."
"Really?"
"Yeah."
"That's the greatest thing ever. Thank you so much."
"Your welcome. See you around."
I smile and walk out his door. I walk back home and am greeted by my family, even my dad.
"We were so worried don't ever leave us please. We love you very much."
"I know mom. I'm sorry. I just needed someone to talk to."
"Okay. Why don't you get some rest?"
"Okay. Love you."
I run up to my room and flop on my bed. As soon as my head hits the pillow, I fall asleep.
The next morning, I decide to go to the mall with Bethany. I take a shower, get dressed, and grab my purse. I chose to put on a simple gray crop top and a pair of high waisted jean shorts. I put my black combat boots on and dab some lip gloss on my lips. I braid my hair in a fishtail braid and let it trail down over my shoulder. I go downstairs and leave my house right as Bethany gets here in her car. It's an old Buick that my grandma would drive, but it's a car. And cars take us places. So whatever. I get in and hug my bestie.
"Hey girl! You doin okay?"
"Yeah, I'm good. Ready to shop until we drop?"
"You bet!"
I laugh and she pulls out of the driveway. When we get to the mall, we go straight to my favorite stores. Rue21, Converse, Claire's, the Sunglasses store. I buy a cute tank top that has Ariel on it at Rue21, a cute pair of gray converse, best friend bracelets, and really cute pairs of sunglasses. We skipped lunch so we could shop so I'm starving.
"Can we go to the food court?"
"No."
"Please?"
"No."
"PLEASE?!?"
"NO!!!"
I stomp the ground and start having a fake tantrum.
"I want food!"
"Fine! We can get Subway."
"Yay! Thank you!!!"
"I wonder why I'm friends with you sometimes."
"Aww, you love me!"
"Alright, i do."
I give her a slobbery kiss on the cheek and she wipes it away.
"Gross. Dude. Just no."
"Fine."
We order our subs and go sit down. We talk while eating. Well, she talks and I eat. When I finish my sandwich, this hot guy walks up to us.
"How are you lovely ladies doing on this fine day?"
"Great, thank you."
"I'm Thomas."
"Emily. This is Bethany."
"Cool. Emily, are you single?"
"Oh, uh." Tears form in my eyes and Bethany starts to answer for me. I look at her as if to say 'no, I got this.' She backs down, understanding.
"Yes. My boyfriend, he recently died."
"Oh I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to bring that up."
"It's okay."
"Can I have your number? We can hang out. Be friends."
"Umm yeah. Sure."
I type my number into his phone and he smiles. He sends me a text.
Hey bestie ;)
I roll my eyes and smile.
"Well, see you girls around. Hopefully we can hang out."
"That would be nice."
He winks and walks away. I love Billy, but living life might not be so bad.