TikTok audios but I'm hurting Florida again

Tw: child abuse/neglect, implied/referenced gun use

Florida, being terrified/uncomfortable with physical touch: If you're feeling like you need a little bit of company you met me at the perfect time
The ability to ask for physical contact: you want me
Florida, who's love language is physical touch: I want you baby

Florida, smiling because he doesn't want to seem weak: so if you're
Florida, breaking down when he's alone: [muffled] loney
Florida, acting childish: no need to
Florida, because the others won't take him seriously anymore: [muffled] show me
Florida, happy with the others: if you're lonely
Florida, thinking they'll leave him: [muffled] come be lonely with me

Florida: [happy with the others]
His mind: Do it
Florida: What?
His mind, telling him to leave them: pull the trigger
Florida, saying he's happy with them: fuck do you mean it
His mind, telling him everyone leaves eventually: You said it yourself, one shot to the head and it's all over

"You're just like your father"
Florida, afraid of acting too much like his father: [muffled] I'm covering my ears like a kid, when your words mean nothing

Florida, talking to his partners: back to life, but when he
Florida, ghosting them because he thinks they'd be better without him: [muffled] loves me I feel like I'm floating