This book's about to hit the chapter limit and I only have 122 parts published

TW: panic attack, self harm, gaslighting

Everything was too much. His eyes burned with tears and his body shook with sobs, why couldn't he do anything right? 

His head hurts and he can hear his father's voice in the back of his mind telling him he's got no reason to cry. He's right, he chokes on a sob, hands tugging at his hair, his nose is stuffed and hot tears run down his cheeks, he had no reason to cry. 

Why was he crying? Because he was overwhelmed? How did the others feel? They were dealing with so much more than him, he was supposed to be getting better, but he was fucking sobbing on the floor. 

He runs his hands down his face, hands pulling at his eyes, nails dragging over his cheeks, he shouldn't be crying, he had no reason to. 

He does, he has a reason, he was overwhelmed, he'd been bottling it up for too long and the dam finally broke. 

He just wanted to feel okay.