point of view : sua

I put my hair up and tied it before addressing the baby hairs peaking from the start of my roots. I heaved a breath before analyzing myself in the mirror.

That's when the thought came, why am I taking this so seriously? It could be the complete opposite of what I think it is.

I should probably explain what's about to happen.

Last Monday, today it was Thursday and was right before winter break by the way, Jimin told me he would be busy this week. And then yesterday, he came up to me and told me that he wanted to talk to me tonight. Which is actually right now.

Whatever Jimin is planning, could be literally anything.

However, Vivian and Taehyung had claimed they knew exactly what was going to happen.

Yesterday Night

"Okay. Anyone else who thinks Jimin is officially asking Sua out, raise your hand." Vivian said out loud, which I found weird because there were only two other people in the room- Taehyung and Jungkook. Nevertheless, I looked around the room to see what the boys thought. Taehyung was eagerly raising his hand and Jungkook was groggily mixing his ramen. He had none of his hands raised.

"Jungkook, you don't think he's making his move?" Vivian asked with her teeth gritted together. Everyone including me brought our attention to him and Jungkook responded rather quietly.

"No, I just don't want to make any assumptions." And then he went back to his food. He's been so quiet this week, it's actually starting to scare me. Was it his most recent breakup that was taking a toll on his usual loud but over confident personality? Or was it something else that he wasn't opening up about. I decided to leave it be since he would probably never tell me.

"Okay, so suppose he does ask? How do I respond?" I finally spoke. Jungkook immediately brought his eyes up and looked interested in the conversation. Vivian starts to speak in response to my question.

"You say yes? Don't you want to...?" Vivian asked meeting eyes with Taehyung and they both looked equally confused. I did pick up on how Jungkook looked annoyed, and finally figured out that he was probably having one of his days.

"Yeah yeah obviously, just wanted to see how you thought." And then Jungkook started to cough a lot and Taehyung started to rub his back.

"Are you becoming sick again? You were fine this whole week." Taehyung looked at Jungkook in concern. I started to walk near the kitchen area but stopped in front of the counter.

"We'll be on our way then. Feel better, Jungkook." Vivian and Taehyung waved goodbye and left the apartment. There was an automatic gust of awkwardness in the air once I realized that Jungkook and I were alone.

point of view : author

Sua went closer to Jungkook and he coughed a few times again. She wasn't sure if she should be doing anything, but she definitely wasn't going to rub his back like Taehyung did. She shivered at the thought. Instead, she hesitantly put her hand on his shoulder but regretted it since she heard him gulp.

"Maybe you should go to the doctor, you've been sick for a while now," Jungkook only looked at her, or was it a glare, she wasn't sure. All she knew was that Jungkook didn't look happy. She swiftly removed her hand off and continued to speak, "You may not be showing any actual symptoms, but I can't stand to see you so upset all the time." Jungkook blinked a few times before going back to stirring his noodles. He still had yet to take an actual bite and was just stirring it the whole time.

"It's fine. You don't have to worry about me, I just have a lot on my mind. Besides you have something else to worry about." Jungkook spoke lowly and didn't dare to look Sua in the eye. She furrowed her eyebrows in frustration and decided not to play nice guy anymore.

"You're actually starting to get annoying, Jungkook. Whenever I talk to you, it's like I'm talking to a wall." Sua confessed and Jungkook scoffed. She crossed her arms eager to see what he was suddenly enlightened of.

"That's not why you're annoyed." He finally looked up at her with anger in his eyes. It was confusing how Sua was only trying to comfort him but instead he started to lash out. He continued, "You're annoyed because I didn't say Jimin would ask you out." Sua's mouth dropped. I can't believe how immature he's being, Sua thought before snapping at the boy before her.

"Do you really not believe that I seriously care about you? I could care less about who's asking me out, I just want to know if you're okay." Sua's voice was slightly cracking in the beginning but in the end it came out soft and caring.

Jungkook didn't move a single inch. He didn't even move his head to show he was listening, it truly did look like he stood a statue.

Don't look at her, Jungkook. Don't look at her. Jungkook repeatedly told himself trying to control his actions. Because he knew so well that if he were to turn around, after hearing that Sua cares for him, that he couldn't stop himself from grabbing her and kissing her. Instead he took a breath and went back to stirring the food inside his bowl.

Sua scoffed before muttering the word "unbelievable" under her breath and started to leave the counter area. Jungkook quickly held her wrist from doing so and had his head hung low as he spoke.

"I'm sorry." He was so quiet and although he'd apologized to her before, the sincerity of his apology now almost made Sua's heart skip a beat. He slowly let go of her hand and faced her.

"The only reason why we're so close now is because I'm helping you with Jimin. And when he asks you out, I don't need to help you anymore. We won't be as close." Jungkook confessed and Sua stayed silent finally understanding why Jungkook had been acting this way.

"H-how do you know that Jimin is asking me out? You just said-"

"I was lying through my teeth. I know he probably is, he kind of hinted it to me." Finally, after what seemed like a decade a smile was growing up Jungkook's mouth and the mood of the room had started to become more lively.

"Oh. Well now that you've told me that, I think you should know that even if Jimin asks me out and we start to date, I still want to talk to you. Heck, now we're going to have to go on more dates, who's going to need to help me? My dating specialist, of course,", Jungkook laughed lowly before Sua continued to speak, "And we're not just a cupid and client anymore, we're friends now."

The word stung in his mind yet he still smiled through the pain and nodded. He grabbed another spoon and gave it to Sua. "I've been stirring this for a while, want some?" Sua smiled and nodded before getting a spoonful but immediately made noise signaling that it was too spicy.

Jungkook decided to play dumb, "I know Sua, it is really good. Oh you want more? You could've just said so!" Jungkook tried to grab another spoonful before Sua spit it out making him burst out in laughter. It was like the hole in his heart was magically putting itself back together every time Sua's eyes lit up.

That was exactly why Jungkook decided to accept Jimin and Sua being together, despite the feelings Jungkook had for her, that he strangely accepted after lots of thinking.

Because with Jimin, Sua would have her eyes lit up and a smile engraved into her lips. And that was exactly what Jungkook needed to keep the hole in his heart together.

point of view : sua

So here I was standing outside my apartment building, and it was slightly cold. It's not like I was going on a date, so I had a pair of jeans and a sweater to keep myself warm. I blew into the air and saw the wind, that looked like smoke currently, swiftly move out of my mouth.

"You seem to occupy yourself easily." Jimin spoke behind me but I didn't jump up because of how soft his voice is. It was soothing to hear in the cold wind. He smiled at me and I smiled back. His hands were in his pockets and mine shook a little at my sides.

"So I have to tell you something." His voice suddenly went to a minimum yet it still made me actively listen to him.
"We weren't ever that close in the past, we really did keep away from each other. Whether it was because you liked me or I liked you-" A smile rose up my lips. He eventually smiled back with a rosy color on his cheeks,  but in his defense it could've been from the cold.

"Did I mention I started to like you? When we were in middle school and somewhere around now." I shook my head and chuckled thinking someone who I thought avoided me because they were weirded out with the crush I had on them- and the letter oh the letter- I could've sworn it would drive him away and yet he liked me all this time.

My heart wasn't racing or anything but I did think it was cute.

"And through our kind of date things, I realized something. That I love having you in my life, but as a friend." He said the last part as slow as possible and I nodded before realizing what he said.
"Is that okay? I really didn't want to lead you the wrong way, because if I did I don't think we'd stay friends in the end."

I knew that tears would be welling up in my eyes, that they would run down my cheek any second now.

But I stood there, smiled and nodded. There was no pain in my heart and I felt the same way I did before I came out here. Almost like there had been some sort of weight off my back, but that made no sense. Maybe I just thought of him as a friend this whole time and looking at him now, I realized I did.

"It's fine, your hands are weird to hold anyway." I decided to pretend to act like I'm upset but it was obvious it was an act with my exaggerated tone. Jimin played along, "Then I should moisturize for the next girl?" I raised an eyebrow.

"Next girl? Slow down." I scolded him and he laughed before putting his hood on.

"I gotta go before it gets colder. Bye, friend." He said and I playfully rolled my eyes.

"Thank you for not making it awkward at all." I told him before waving goodbye and stepping inside the building. That did not go the way I expected, or more like what Vivian, Taehyung and Jungkook expected, but I was happy in the end.

I stepped inside the apartment and Jungkook stood near the couch taking off his jacket. He went outside earlier but he probably came back.

"So he did it right?" He said with a huge smile on his face. I looked at him and suddenly felt a tear roll down my cheek and walked towards him. What am I doing, I thought to myself and was confused as to why I was suddenly so upset in front of Jungkook and not Jimin.

"Sua, what did he say?" Jungkook's voice was louder than before and looked into my eyes with seriousness.

"That we're friends." I smiled with my tear filled eyes that were now red and opened my mouth to continue but I was interrupted when Jungkook grabbed me and engulfed me into a hug.

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so im not that happy with this chapter but it's whatever

i was so stuck- i knew exactly what i wanted to happen but didn't know how to put it in words? this was going to be longer but i thought this was already really long. thank you to anyone who's reading this, but you might want to check out my new book, "The Cover Up". It's a park jimin fanfiction and is on my profile. Thank you again :)