JUNGKOOK'S POV

I woke up opening my eyes hoping that all of it was a dream. I just looked at my side hoping that I would find her......my Y/N sleeping soundly beside me but all I found was emptiness. I was alone. There was no one and I was empty. Empty from within. Broken, hurt and most importantly DEAD.

AUTHOR'S POV

Jin: Here Jungkook, I made you some soup. You haven't eaten anything since yesterday.

Jungkook: I don't want to eat.

He said being expressionless.

Jin came and sat beside him. Although he was an agent under Jungkook, he still was his hyung and Jungkook still considered him as his elder listening to every advice which he had to offer to the young one.

Jin: Jungkook, I know you how you feel and we all are sad with Y/N's news but she didn't want your world to stop. She had always prayed for your happiness, hasn't she? Won't you do this for her?

Jungkook: And what she did to me was right? She left me with that sweet smile thinking that I'll be able to live without her? She just left me all alone?

He broke down amidst his words. Jin couldn't help but cry as well and why would he not? To all the other six you were just like a little sister whom they cared for dearly because all of them had no one except you.

And for Jungkook, he had NO ONE! He was left alone. Abandoned and all alone. He cried like a baby. Howling and weeping like a lost baby does just because he missed you, he missed your touch, he missed your presence, your healing words which were the reason to keep him alive.

HE LOST HIS EXISTENCE.

Taehyung came into the room with a diary in his hand. Seemed like he had been crying for hours as well. Jin was holding Jungkook giving him the motherly touch and soothing which actually didn't become a substitute for yours.

Taehyung: Jungkook, see t-this...Y/N wanted to say her last words to you. This diary reads it all.

He started crying again.

Jungkook, although couldn't control his heart from sinking deeper and deeper each moment took the diary from the weeping hyung and unfolded the pages of your life again...Your words which you wanted to say but...

Time didn't let you.

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9 april, 2017 (edited- The day we first met)

Hey diary, I met a weird boy at the store today. He was shot. I offered him the bandage as a sign of courtesy but he just denied it and left! Pfft- how rude! *pouts*

10 april, 2017 (edited- my life changed)

Tf? He just came in the store again today and guess what? He is a criminal? There were cops literally asking me questions about that man who was hiding behind my counter and what do I get as result? Being abducted to his place!

17 april, 2017

I'm seeing Mark today! It's after ages since I'm seeing him! Finally that mafia Jungkook let me see him. Btw, he's sick tho... I'll leave him some meds~

18 april, 2017 (edited- that first moment)

Hurt and broken. Mark didn't love me. He was seeing that bitch since god knows when and I was being played all the time! Jungkook helped me come out of the trauma and yeah, we had fun in the park yesterday.

P.S. maybe he's not that bad :)

19 april, 2017 (edited- that little shortie *laughs*)

Omo omo! Jungkook bought me a puppy! I named him Yeontan! Isn't it cute? I love yeontanie~ hmm mr. Jungkook likes pets ig lol.

28 april, 2017

My body aches. Mark's cousin had abducted me, but Jungkook managed it all. He's cute when he smiles~ not when he's rude (-_-) oh! I met his gang members! They are all so sweet!

1 june, 2017

J-Jungkook p-proposed me. Eeeeekkkk! I'm so happy!! But I can't show him yet hehe. I didn't say anything. Maybe I'm still not over Mark yet or maybe...

I love him? Ugh!

3 june, 2017

I said yes! Oh how happy he was!! I'm the happiest girl probably!

10 june, 2017

I can't! I can't do this! I can't let his life be in danger because of me! No Jungkook! You have to forget me! You have to... for me, nothing is more important than your life...

Sorry Jungkook, but for your safety, I hate you!

17 august, 2017

It's been weeks I left his house. Those tears falling from his eyes....I'm sorry! I couldn't let you in danger because of me. I cannot continue without you! I just want your happiness and safety. This pain is unbearable. His crying face is still fresh in my heart and it's all because of me! I hurt him!

29 august, 2017

I got a job at this hotel. Idk, I have to forget Jungkook...I can't live without you still, but for you I will.

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1 sept, 2020 (edited- that first touch)

I got him back! *cries* my Jungkook, my world! I got him back in my arms! I cannot live without you love, I love you so much! Just so much! Aah~ my body aches....guess why ;)

It's three years without him, I missed his touch and his FIRST TOUCH! I love you my life! Happy birthday my life~

5sept, 2020

Ayeeee!!!! I'm going to be mrs. Jeon soon!!!!! Dhfafdgletighojf! I'm so exicted to spent the life with the man of my dreams! Love you Jeon Jungkook!

23 sept, 2020 (edited- the best day)

The day is tomorrow! Marriage! I'm going to get married! Oh my god! I can't believe. Feels like yesterday was the day when I met him at the store! Time flies so fast!

25 sept, 2020

First morning as mrs. Jeon! Feels great! Love you hubby~

4 october, 2020

Honeymoon diaries begin!!! *blushes* I can't wait to spend the moment with him! He has that same impact even after so many years! I love you my handsome bunny!

7 october, 2020

First night! But idk, my chest hurts....it has been paining a lot since a wee. I didn't say Jungkook, he'll be worried. Perhaps it's the over excitement and the tiredness of journey hehe. But the journey begins now~ I can't wait to see the sunrise of tomorrow being in your arms love...........

(end)

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But it never happened. The sunrise and your wish, remained and his whole life shattered into the darkest clouds of death.

Jungkook: Y/n!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He shouted and cried.

When suddenly......

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