Malayah~

Nervous, wasn't even the right word to describe how I was feeling getting off my flight. My first time in Chicago I couldn't be any happier. I know the next time I visit it will be in the summer because the snow is something that I do not get along with. Waiting outside I decided to FaceTime Ryan letting him know that we have landed. He declined my call,leaving me confused.

I decided to not overthink it.Looking over at London I noticed she hadn't smiled since we got on the plane.

" I really wish you would cheer up London, you are worth more than any raggedy ass dude"  I said attempting to make her laugh. She gave me a small smile and so decided that would work.

Our ride was now pulling up, we got in and let the driver put our bags in the back. The ride to the hotel was amazing driving through downtown Chicago seems exactly how a I pictured it. A lot of traffic,people and snow. Breaking my thoughts I was getting a call from Johnathan
"Yoo what you doing in the chi?" I don't know why he continues to call me I've been declining them ever since the night at the club
"I'm minding my business. Byee" I hung up in his face not even caring.

He needs to find someone to play with because I'm not the one.

After checking into our hotel London and I decided to go walk around and check out Chicago was about. Just as we were leaving out Ryan called me. I should be petty and decline it like he did mine earlier.

"Hello?"

"Hey I seen on your instagram you made it to Chicago, I was busy tattooing earlier so i couldn't take your call" I honestly believed him for some reason. "Buuut my family is having a get together you should come"

I thought for a few seconds before replying "umm you sure you want me to come" I guess he could sense the nervousness in my voice

"Yeah it will be fun trust me, my family cool nothing but good food and  vibes, kids running around playing, and old school music."

"Okay fine well what time because me and London were about to leave out to check out your city"

"Ill come pick yall up now besides you dont need to be roaming Chicago's street without me, fuck around and walk into the wrong neighborhood" he laughed

"Okay ill send the address now bye" I replied before hanging up.

London~

We were only here for about 1 hour and I was already in love with Ryan's family, they reminded me so much of my family. Since I didnt want to third wheel with Layah and Ryan I decided to have a conversation with Ryan's cousin Tammy.

"Girl I am loving this red bob"

"Thanks I was scared to try it But i needed something new in my life and this was the closest thing I could do"I laughed. It was nice to be around a good vibe right now.

"Ayeee wassup Phor" I heard someone say from the front of the house. I just know that's the phor I know because I'll call my uber right now.

Sadly it was him he stopped when he seen me. "Whats up London" Just hearing his deep voice made my heart melt.

"Hey" I said nonchalantly

"You know my brother??" Tammy said

Aww hell naw.

"Yeah we met a while ago" I replied.

sensing my mood he left the room going to greet everyone else.

"Soo how do yall know each other"

"We met when he came to Texas I admired his work on Instagram and went to the tattoo convention I got a tattoo, his number, and we started chilling it was nice until he started to act like a asshole, and then I found out he had a girlfriend so I was over him at that point."

"A girlfriend?" Tammy asked confused

"Yeah some girl he posted the other day" "Is that not his girlfriend?"

"Who nicki, girl no that is not his girlfriend. I mean they dated a long time ago but her ass is crazy she just cant take the fact that he doesn't want her ass. She would do anything to even get posted on his Instagram" she rolled her eyes obviously annoyed on the topic of her

"Ohhhh" is the only thing I could say

"But I think yall should at least talk today just to get on good terms, you never know what may happen"

I nodded and noticed Layah was signaling for me to come to the door. I did not even notice how much has went by with me and Tammy talking and gossping its like I knew forever. We exchanged numbers and I walked to the door making sure to say goodbye to everyone. I figured since we drove here with ryan we were leaving with him again, I was right until the door opened again and phor got in the car with us.

When will i ever get a break from men.

BRI ~

"What do you mean you can't get him tonight, how do I always end up stuck with OUR son whenever I want to do something"
Nahmir did this every time I wanted to go out and have fun. Selfish. We broke up earlier this month and I decided to still stay with him since it was more convenient for us to co parent and for me to work at the club at night.
"Where you tryna go anyways?"  He said
"Does it matter. I'm grown as hell."
"I'm going to the studio tonight"
"You said that last night. You probably going to go be a hoe THATS SAD AS HELL YOU CANT BE HERE FOR YOUR FAMILY!" I screamed I immediately regretted it hearing the sounds of  my baby crying
"Says the one that shakes her ass and get naked for money" he laughed "Aye watch out" he pushed me out the way and left out the door.

Here I was another night sitting in the living room rocking my baby to sleep and watching tv. Don't get me wrong I loved my baby and I loved Nahmir but the way he has been acting makes me regret even naming my son after him. 

I waited up all night just to finally express how I feel to Nahmir. When I heard his keys outside the door I turned the tv off and went to sit Jr. in his play pen he was wide awake.

"You left at 7 why are you just now coming in it's 6am" I leaned on the wall with my arms crossed

"I ain't in the mood to argue tonight. Move around" he was drunk and obviously irritated

"If you want me and jr. to stay here I advise you listen to me" 

"Honestly, I'm not worried about you Bri you can get the hell out and leave jr. he don't need a hoe of a mother raising him anyways"
"What did you just say" I was appalled he was saying this.
"You're so ungrateful Nahmir I had your child and have stayed loyal to you yet you still find ways to disrespect me." I shook my head started to walk towards the playpen "I see why London left your ass too"
Before I knew it Nahmir had me pinned against a wall with his hands around my throat.
"Don't speak on London ever in your life. Get your shit and get out" the tears ran down my face as he released his grip.

I ran into the room looking for my phone remembering that I left it in the front. Walking back into the front I seen Nahmir sitting on the couch playing with jr. and he had my phone in his hand.

"I said Get out" he looked up at me.

"I need my phone Nahmir"  I pleaded

"Nah you not leaving with anything that I bought you. So in that case you only need one bag to pack them cheap ass stripper clothes and heels in"

I broke down even more I couldn't believe he was treating me like this "WHERE AM I GONNA GO?"

He shrugged "I don't know you said I'm ungrateful and all this other bullshit now you in my face crying. What happened to that Boss Bitch Bri attitude you had a minute ago?" 

I sat on the couch next to him "I just want to be a family Nahmir" he didn't even make contact with me

"Quit your job"

"But how will I make money?"

"Go do something that regular moms do. work at McDonald's, go to school, be a stay at home mom I don't know" he shrugged " Either you quit or you can get the fuck out and jr. staying with me"

"Okay okay" jr. started crawling towards me I extended my arms to pick him up, as Nahmir started to fall asleep

"What about our family Nahmir?"

"I said I got you damn don't sweat it Bri, just do what I told you to do first" 
I can't believe I reach a point in my life where I depended on his ass this much. I seriously need to find a way to stay at the club and save to buy me and my son our own apartment.
I looked over at Nahmir's  phone he left unlocked and on Instagram. Picking the phone up I wanted to slap him out of his sleep. He was still worried about London, so I guess while I was talking and expressing myself he was scrolling through her pictures and not giving a fuck.

Wowww. I sat the phone down going into the room. I couldn't sleep with everything that was on my mind. I know for sure if London still think she has a chance with My man it'll be a war. I grabbed my phone and followed her on Instagram

"Game on Bitch"