"Are you okay?" I asked Lucas softly, assuring myself that he is feeling fine today.

His eyes were a little lost before it meets mine. I can clearly see his emotions through that and I know he is suffering right now. The way he grip the steering wheel of the car makes his knuckles turn white but not in anger just to be clear.

I am started to get worried, so I placed a gentle hand on his to calm him down. "I know it's hard, sweetie but...he is going to be very happy once you visit him."

"Yeah, and I am happy that even at this once...He can feel that I love him, very much." He stated, full of hurt in his voice.

I'm not that strong when it comes to moment like this, I'm not made up of stone. I can feel it all and it makes me cry to see him like. It hurts me a lot and I want to be strong for him right now.

Reaching over to grab the flowers that we bought earlier, I handed it to him. "Would you like to do the honor?"

Lucas sees it and took the flowers from me before we get off the car. I held his one hand while his other holds the bouquet. He is calming himself down and I admire his control of not breaking down because when I first visited this place, I cried my eyes out.

We walked past a few graves until we finally reached what we came here for.

~~~

Ezekiel Angelo Saavedra
~~~

I leaned down to trace the carved name of my son on his marbled grave. A sad smile spreads on my lips before turning my head behind me, Lucas seems to freeze on where he stood while staring at it.

I reach for his hand once again and tries but slowly takes him closer. I was now crouching down on the grass with him beside me, looking at the small photoframe that I left here.

He brings it up and takes a very good look at it, his eyes slowly turning red. "He looks just like you."

"Like me? Kiel is an exact carbon copy of yours." I teased him, laughing to make the air more light in here.

"No, it's more than that." He smiles full of joy while still staring at the photo of my smiling little angel, our first born. "You two has the same smile, the warmest smile that tells you that everything is going to be alright. Those eyes that can look into your deepest soul and easily touches and melts your heart. You two have that."

"Oh Lucas..." I murmured, the tears started falling down my tears. Leaning my head on his shoulder and rubbing his back to comfort him.

I know that it is also my fault why, he wasn't able to see his son. I hid Ezekiel from them and I run away from his father. Saying it verbally, Lucas will not accept it. He is just going to say –

"I know what you are thinking." Lucas breaks my thoughts. "It's not your fault. That's a natural thing to do when you can't trust your husband anymore. And I fit for the criteria. I didn't explain anything at all and it is clear that I am cheating on you."

"Well, you are forced to." I told him, looking at him in the eyes and sits down carefully on the grass, I don't want to squeeze my tummy even though it doesn't have a bump yet.

Lucas eyes to me for a moment before returning back to our son. "Hi son." his voice came out more like a breath. "You may don't know me or hear me yet or...dont even know my name–"

"I once told him your name. I never shut you out." I replied, sniffing a bit.

Lucas squeezed my hand with a tender smile. "But even though I wasn't there even at your last breathe...I love you, very, very, very much."

My throat feels like there is a lump in there. Wiping off my tears first because I just keep on crying while looking forward to listen on what he was going to say to Ezekiel.

"I'm very sorry for not being there when you were born, I wish I could heard your endless cries and...be the first man you see when you open your eyes. I am very sorry. One thing for sure, you love your mom too. But let me promise you this, your mother will be safe and happy from now on. I will never leave her again, I can assure you that." He spoke those words with seriousness. His voice strong as he says his promise. A true love of a father.

"He knows you're a good Dad." I placed a quick kiss on his cheek before standing up and lighting one candle.

Lucas stood up as well and fixed his clothes. "And by the way, you are going to be an older brother." He puts a gentle hand on my tummy. "And they will know you, Kiel. They will know their brother who is now an angel. You don't have to worry because they will grow up knowing you as their old bud, okay? So just sit right there in heaven and relax. I promise to take care of Momma for you."

I wrapped my arms around Lucas and leaned my cheek on his shoulder, giving him comfort he needs.

The wind starts to blow harder than it usually am, the Paris breeze is chilling but it feels fine. Lucas didn't speak for a few moment, he was just staring at the name and the picture. As if he is having a silent talk with his son in his mind and I didn't want to do anything.

After that, we sat down on a nearby bench and he had his one arm wrapped behind me while I lean my body on him. Staring at the sky, while we just feel the peacefulness of the place.

"We shall have his grave moved to our home. So he won't be alone here and so we can visit him anytime we want." He suggested.

I have been thinking about the exact same thing. There are many possible ways to move him and transfer Kiel so he is still with us. Paris is such a long trip and I don't want him too far from our family. He needs to be there with us all the time.

"I will make arrangements for that. I will take care of it, baby." Lucas pressed his lips on my forehead. "So, what are we going to do now?"

I gave him narrowed look before smiling teasingly. "I already told you my plans for today but you wanted to change it!"

Lucas let out a loud laugh. "Of course I would change it. All your plans today includes that Valentino guy. We came here so you can announce to your friends about us and that doesn't mean he can be there all the time."

I stared at him with an exasperated look. "Valentine." correcting him first before starting myself to talk him again. "His name is Valentin and he is only a friend, Lucas. So stop acting as if he still has feelings for me."

"Oh, I doubt if he doesn't." He scoffed, using his fingers to brush his hair backwards. "And the place you are going to meet up is a club, a very dangerous place for women like you."

I rolled my eyes and mentally want to slap my husband right now. "Because he's working there and that club is our favorite place to hang out. And it is not a night club with full of horny people, it is just a jazz club where people just eat and watch some singers, hang out then they leave."

"I won't change my mind, Talia. You are not meeting up with him."

This is unbelievable. He doesn't want me to meet up with Val and I thought he will never got jealous with our friendship.

"Alright, to make sure nothing will happen bad, why don't you come with us? I will introduce you to my friends and I will show you that Val is not the kind of man you think that will steal me away." I told him with seriousness.

Lucas turned to me then bit his lower lip. He can't say no anymore with this tone and he has no choice anymore. He quickly stands up and headed for the  car.

I rolled my eyes once again and followed behind him." Jeez, I am already pregnant and you still worry that someone will take me away."

"You may be pregnant right now but you are still ravishingly gorgeous, Talia. It makes me want to kill every man who tries to gawk at you." He mumbled while stepping inside the car and leaving me dumbfoundedly staring at him.

Woah, he is that jealous?!

Lucas never usually gets jealous so why he is behaving like this?

Jeez, it is creepy but it is very cheesy.

Hmph, one of the main reason why I love him....

"What? Are you just going to stand there?" he caught me staring at him while still not getting inside his car.

Ezekiel, your father is so weird...

The end....