"They hit you out of nowhere. When bad things come, they come suddenly, without warning. We rarely get to see the catastrophe coming, no matter how well we try to prepare for it. We do our very best, but sometimes, it's just not good enough. We buckle our seat belts, we wear a helmet, we stick to the lighted paths. We try to be safe. We try so hard to protect ourselves, but it doesn't make a damn bit of difference, 'cause when the bad things come, they come out of nowhere. The bad things come suddenly, with no warning. But we forget that sometimes, that's how the good things come too"

"will you always care for me this way?"

Lucy and Alex were sitting on their bed as she cried and pressed an ice pack against her eye. She winced, taking it away from her face. He held her wrist and made her press it against her eye again. "What happened?" he asked.

"After you kicked me out, I called Jack and I asked him if he had anything. And he said he was finishing up a shift and then he'd give me some stuff back at his place. So I went and he told me that he heard what happened, and he got mad at me for not being more careful and leading him on and giving him mixed signals. Eventually, he calmed down and he took me back to his place. And then he... He... He tried... He tried to... I'm so sorry. I'm sorry about everything. I messed it all up. I don't know why I did this"

He rubbed her back soothingly as she sobbed.

"What's gonna happen now?"

He got up and helped her lie down in the bed, covering her with the blanket. "Nothing's gonna happen. You're safe now. Alright? You're safe here. You just need to get some sleep. Alright? Just try and sleep". He smiled softly. "If you need anything... I'll have my cell". He left the room.

"Where are you going?"

He ran down the stairs.

"Alex, what are you gonna do?"

Dr Boswell, Arizona and Aurora were talking to Tyler's parents. "So between removing the encephalocele and closing up the facial cleft... It is gonna take most of the day", Aurora explained. "You guys have any questions?" Dr Boswell asked. "No", the father replied. "I guess not. No". "I would tell you not to worry, but that's a load of crap. You'll worry", Arizona said. "But if it helps, I'm not worried a bit". "It does help", the mother said. "A lot. Thank you".

Ethan and Owen were next to Paul's bed while Cristina, Beck and Stephanie were outside the room talking to his grandmother. His grandmother went in and Owen came out. "Page me if anything changes", he said. "Dr Hunt", Cristina said. "Nancy and I had a conversation about withdrawal of care. I did not bring it up. She did. She wanted to know what the chances are after nine days...".

"It is way too soon to talk about pulling the plug"

"And I told her since he's gone eight days without improvement, the neurological deficits are more likely permanent"

"Of course you did"

"She wasn't gonna lie, Owen", Beck pointed out. "Beck, please, it's fine", Cristina said.

"She doesn't want to put her son through any more, or her..."

"It's too soon", he interjected. He walked off. "Get another head CT, a CBC, and a chem panel", Cristina ordered. "We just drew blood this morning", Stephanie commented.

"I know. Do it again"

"These are today's scans?" Cristina questioned as she, Beck and Stephanie stared at Paul's scans. "With smaller cuts, like you asked", Beck added.

"Wait. What is that?"

"We have a problem", Meredith said, entering the room.

"Mer, check out this hyperdensity. Is that something or just noise on the film?"

"That looks real to me. It's Alex"

"Get a CT angio and find me. I want to look at those vessels"

Meredith, Crisitina and Alex were in the hospital lounge. "I said fight the guy. I didn't mean fight the guy", Cristina said. "Alex, this kind of stuff was okay when we first met you, but now?" Meredith said.

"Now you're supposed to be less stupid. I mean, you could go to jail, your whole career..."

"Look, I'm not going to jail", he interjected. "He was like that when I found him". "That's your story?" Meredith questioned. "No cop is gonna believe you", Cristina pointed out.

"Alex, it's us. Just tell us"

"I didn't do anything", he said. "He didn't do it", Lucy said, standing in the doorway. "He just found him. I did it". "Oh, my God", Meredith whispered. "What happened to you?" Cristina asked.

Lauren, Arizona, Aurora and Jackson were operating on Tyler. "I'm gonna mark where I'm making my cuts, Arizona", Lauren said. "Then you will mark a 2x3-centimetre piece of the parietal for the graft. Dr Avery, Dr Robbins is gonna do the calvarial graft, and then I thought I would walk you through the reconstruction of the nose and the lip". "Oh, I'm fine to watch the master at work today", he replied. "Come on, Boswell. It sounds like you're trying to get us to do all the work", Arizona teased. "Sounds to me like Avery is chicken", Lauren commented. "Not what I said. You came out all this way", he pointed out. "Well, he can run a hospital, but he's still a baby surgeon", Arizona said. "You're one of the Grey-Sloan nine?" Lauren questioned. "Is that a thing?" he asked.

"Yes, that's a thing. You guys are legend. You bought the hospital, saved the staff"

"Well, you know us control freaks. We try to run everything", Arizona said.

"It was brave. I couldn't have done it. And I'm so impressed. And you, sir, are doing this reconstruction, okay?"

"Okay", he agreed.

"Okay. Arizona, are you ready to mark your graft?"

"Yeah. Yeah, let me in", Arizona said, shuffling forward.

"Alright. Come right over here next to me"

"He was trying to...", Lucy stuttered. "He... He tried to... It doesn't matter. I tried to leave and he grabbed my arm. I fought him off. It just, it got ugly. He fell backwards and he hit his head on the fireplace, but he was still yelling when I left. He was fine. I swear". "Alright, you gotta go. Go", Alex said. "No, she has to explain to them what happened", Cristina said.

"No, nobody does anything until we see how Thompson is. Look, go home. Don't let anyone see you. You two don't say a word to anybody until we know exactly what's going on. Understand?"

Beck entered the room and locked eyes with Lucy. "Hey", she said. "Are you okay?" "She's okay", Cristina said. "You never saw her. What?"

"I have Paul Dawson's CT angio results"

"Great". Cristina led Beck out of the room.

Lucy looked at Alex and he nodded for her to go.

Meredith followed Lucy to the staircase. "Lucy, wait", she said.

"I'm going home, I just needed to grab some stuff. Look... I'm so sorry, Mer. Everything got so bad. I never meant to drag you into it. And I didn't mean to hurt Mia or even Jack. I was just trying to get away from him and I just lost it"

"Lucy, stop. I love you and I'll forgive you for just about anything. But I also love Alex, and I think he's just about dumb enough and loyal enough to take the fall for you"

"I would never let him do that. You know I wouldn't"

"I know"

"I'm so sorry"

"Stop saying that. You have nothing to apologise to me for. Now go home"

"Okay"

"That is a handsome face", Lauren commented. "Very handsome", Aurora agreed.

"I couldn't have done it better myself"

"Well, I wouldn't have done it at all", Jackson stated. "Thank you. This was incredible".

"Oh, it was my pleasure. Now my downfall as a surgeon is a very tiny bladder, so you guys have this. I'll see you in just a second"

"She is just one of those people, isn't she?"

"What? What do you mean?" Arizona asked.

"One of those people that just make you feel like you're capable of anything. Sloan was like that. He just sort of took for granted that you were great... So that you'd be great. I wish she could stick around a little longer. I just, I have not felt like this in a long time"

Beck and Owen stood outside Paul's room. "He's awake. He's fine", she stated as they watched Paul cuddle Ethan and smile at his mother. "Neuro's good, he's talking. He's fine".

"Get him set for transfer to Seattle Pres"

"Well, isn't that a little..."

"I want them out of here ASAP. The storm's here sooner than predicted, and I want them moved inland before it gets worse"

Aurora, Beck, Cristina and Meredith were walking down the hall together. "Owen's transferring Paul Dawson and his kid over to Seattle Pres", Beck informed them. "How's Owen?" Aurora asked.

"I don't know. He seemed weird but he's always weird, to me, at least. You know, we woke the guy up. That's all he's been wanting to do, but now he just seems more disappointed"

"He got really close to the kid"

"You know, Owen was talking about taking the kid himself", Meredith said.

"Taking him? What, like adopting him?"

"Or fostering. He asked me about it. He seemed ready to do it"

"Okay, what am I supposed to do with that? Like, what am I supposed to do?"

"I don't think there's anything you can do. I don't think it's about you"

The lights flickered and the power went out for a second, before coming back on again.

Alex entered the house to see Lucy lighting candles. "What the hell happened?" he asked.

"The power went out a half hour..."

"No, you. What were you thinking? Mia could have died. Hell, Jack could have died. You could have died. Why did you do this? I mean, you said you were sorry before but it feels empty now knowing you were gonna go and buy more. If you're try and get better, if you're gonna be a mother to our daughter, you need to grow up and start acting like it"

"No, you grow up!"

"Lucy..."

"I just... I just couldn't handle another thing being my fault. I'm the one that did this to us. I'm the one that put us where we are now. I'm the one who tried to die. I did that to you. I'm the one who got cancer. That's why we got married. I'm the one who left when things just got a little rough. And I'm the one who can't do the one thing that a woman is supposed to be able to do. I'm supposed to be able to be her mother but I look at her face and I just... I can't. I can't do it. Not everyone is like you, Alex. People are horrible. And the last time someone grabbed me like Jack did, I... I promised no one would ever do that again. So I am sorry, but... Not everyone's like you. Not everyone's good. And now you think I'm horrible, too"

He shook his head softly. "No. No. If you hadn't gotten to him first, I probably would have killed the guy"

"Why? After everything I've done to you, why would you do that for me?"

"Shut up. Why wouldn't I?"

They stared at each other. Everything left unsaid, easy to see from the looks in their eyes. Suddenly, a tree crashed through the window and they ducked. Alex got up as rain sprayed through the window. He tried to move the tree to find Lucy when she stood up and looked at him. 

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