The night was cold, many people left their jobs covered since it was the winter season, so I finished turning off the computer on my desk and I am about to go out, I put on my coat that reaches my thighs, it is my favourite, because I never go out without it, I put on my hat and gloves and take my backpack.

My name is Gulf Kanawut and I am 24 years old. I currently live in France. I left Thailand at the age of 21.

When I finished university, I studied to be an engineer. At the end, I had the opportunity to travel to France to a job that my dad's friend got.

For me, here I am. I live in a small apartment that has a small living room, a kitchen and two bedrooms, something small since it is what I got when I arrived.

I work in a small company that makes structures for houses or buildings, the pay is well, let's say.

There is not a day that I don't think of my family, my mother, the day I said goodbye to her, I cried when she said that her first child left the house, it hurt me because she has always overprotected us, that's why it hurt her to let me go.

My father always supported me in my decisions so when they got me the job he told me that he was proud of me and that he would always accept whatever he wanted in my life.

My brother, Mild, also cried since we spent a lot of time together. I protected him a lot. I didn't like it when they bothered him. I always took care of him and pampered him. Now he is a young man who can make his own decisions.

About love, well, I ended up with my ex 2 years ago. I met him by chance in a cafeteria, we talked and he helped me establish myself in the city, he taught me many things, that was what attracted me to him, we started dating and later we became very engaged, but Given the case, it did not work so we decided to finish.

Now I have not thought about having a relationship, until the right person arrives, although I have a feeling that it will never arrive, I have met very nice people but none have filled the emptiness that I feel, I am gay, I like boys, that's what I told my parents The day I decided to come out of the closet, my parents were in a state of shock, I understood them since they thought I could give them grandchildren, meet a very pretty girl, get married and have the children.

It hurt me to disappoint them but I am glad to know that they supported me in everything that I was their son and that they would always be with me through thick and thin, from that day on they have supported me until they want to have a son-in-law soon.

Immersed in my thoughts I get to my apartment, I take off my shoes and put on my slippers, I put my coat and hat on the rack, I go to the kitchen to prepare myself a cup of warm milk as it helps me to fall asleep.

I hear my cell phone ring and I answer 'good' I answer "my son" answers my mother crying.
"what's wrong mom why are you crying what happened?"

"Son your brother is serious is in the hospital"

I felt a lump in my throat and tears running down my cheeks

"What happened to mom, right now I'm taking the first flight to Thailand"

"no son stay better"

I ignored it, I took the suitcase and began to pack all my belongings, I hung up but not before telling my mother that in a few hours I was in Thailand, I would find out what happened to my brother sooner or later I will find out.

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