Previously on Chapter 49

"Well, whatever... I can just continue training when you fell asleep" she said. I sigh at what she said. I know she's too stubborn to just listen to what I said. I can't stop her if she wants to train again later. So I guess I just have to be there to supervise her, just to make sure that she wouldn't push herself beyond her limits. That's the best solution I have for this. God, Y/N... what am I gonna do with you?

-You're So Stubborn-

Y/N P.O.V

Tanjiro carries me over his shoulder all the way to my room. Once we're in my room, he finally lower me down to stand on my own. I just pout at him as I cross my arms across my chest.

"Was that really necessary?" I asked. He just chuckles at what I said. "I really need to train, Tanjiro. Can't you just understand my worry?" I said. He le out a sigh as he steps closer to me. He wrap his arms around my waist, pulling me closer to his chest.

"I do understand... but I just don't want you to keep on pushing yourself too far. I don't want to see you get hurt" he said, in a soft voice as he gently place his chin on my shoulder. He tighten his arms around my waist. "You'd get sick if you keep going like this. And I don't want to see you sick..." he added.

"You only care about your worry. You don't care about my worry. God, you're so selfish..." I muttered. He let out a sigh as he pulls away to look at me. He lift his hand and gently flick my forehead. But I still feel a slight sting from his action. "Ow... what's that for?" I asked.

"You're calling me selfish?? Y/N... what's wrong with wanting to see the girl I love in perfect health? You know how hard my past has been. How I lost everyone in my family except for Nezuko who got turned into a demon! Can't you for once try to understand my position??" He said. I stare at him wide-eyed. I didn't expect him to raise his voice slightly at me.

He shakes his head and runs his hand across his face. "Seems like you didn't care about what I feel. So be it... go on. Go on and keep on training... keep pushing your body beyond your limit, until you cough up blood and make me feel sad! But you didn't care about what I feel, do you?!" He said.

"Tanjiro... why are you getting upset with me?" I asked. He just scoffs at what I said. "What's wrong with wanting to be stronger so I can protect the ones I love?" I said. He let out a frustrated groan at what I said.

"Seriously, Y/N? You're asking me why I got upset? Y/N... I've been telling you repeatedly. I DON'T want to see you hurt! But you never listens to me and keeps on pushing yourself. What will happen then? You'd end up sick and I'll ended up worrying more" he said. I just stare at him, not knowing what else to say. This is the first time I ever see Tanjiro looking so upset, and it's all because of me.

"I thought you said you'd support my choice, Tanjiro. So why are you acting like I'm choosing the wrong thing?" I said. He let out a sigh and rub his face harshly with his hands.

"I know I said I'd support your choice to continue your life as a Demon Slayer and I do support you seeing how important it is to you, Y/N. But that doesn't mean I'd stop worrying about you, okay?? Either way, I don't want to see you hurt or get sick! Maybe I'm selfish about it. But that's because I CARE about you! I love you, okay?? You would act the same if you're in my shoes, wouldn't you?"He said, raising his voice once again. I just stare at him, not knowing what to say. He's right, if the positions were switched and I'm the one watching him push himself too far, I'd be worried sick too. Just like how he's been acting these whole time.

He let out a sigh as he run his hand through his hair. "Look, I don't want to argue with you. I'm going out for some fresh air. If you actually care about what I feel now. Just... please stay in this room and get some rest. For once... don't be stubborn" he said. He didn't say anything else after that. He just turns around and walks out of my room.

"Tanjiro..." I muttered as he slams the door shut. I let out a sigh and walk towards my bed. I let my body fall front first on the bed as I hug my pillow. I didn't mean to make you so upset, Tanjiro... I'm so sorry.

I close my eyes as I feel tears streams down my cheeks. I know Tanjiro is only trying to look out for me. But I just disregard his worry about my well-being and call him a selfish person. God, I'm so stupid! Tanjiro... I'm so so sorry.

***

I feel a hand gently caressing my cheek. I move a little in my sleep as I slowly open my eyes. My vision is blurry for a few seconds before it becomes clear. My eyes make contact with a pair of red eyes. He gives me a small smile as he caress my cheek.

"I guess I can't really stay mad at you, huh?" He said. I feel tears starts building up in my eyes. I feel so guilty for calling him selfish. I slowly move to sit up. He smiles at me and spreads his arms. "Come here..." he said, softly.

"T-Tanjiro..." I said. I throw my arms around his neck. I move from the bed and sit on his lap, straddling him. I bury my face into the crook of his neck. "I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have called you selfish..." I cried out. He let out a soft hum as he hugs me back.

"I'm sorry too, for not trying harder to have faith in you and your strength. The fear of losing... the fear that you might get yourself hurt, or even worse than that. It's just puts me on edge all the time. It makes me scared of everything. I don't want to watch you getting hurt, Y/N..." he said.

I just tighten my arm around him. He gets up from the ground with me in his arms as I wrap my legs around his torso. He walks towards my bed and lay down. I move down a little so I can lean my head against his chest.

"From this moment on, I will try my hardest to have faith in you and your strength. I'm not gonna hold you back anymore... let's try our best to be stronger, okay?" He said. I pull away slightly to look at him. He lift his hand, cupping the side of my cheek gently. "I love you, Y/N..." he said.

I pull away slightly to look at him. He leans in to place a soft kiss against my lips. I close my eyes, kissing him back. I wrap my arms around his neck as he pulls me closer. He turn our body so he's hovering above me. I tilt my head slightly, deepening the kiss. He cups the side of my cheek as we continue to kiss.

"I love you too, Tanjiro..." I said, after we pull away to breathe. I close my eyes as he caress my cheek with such gentle that it makes me feel so safe to be near him. He moves his hand from my cheek to the back of my head as he pulls me closer to his side.

I just lean my ear against his chest, listening to his soft heartbeat. He continue to play with my hair as I tighten my arm around his torso. The sound of his heartbeat makes me feel relax. I just close my eyes and let myself drift off to sleep.

*to be continued*