⚠️Warning: Mentions of drug abuse and attempted suicide in this chapter⚠️

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*Mallory*

"So.... its over...." Sebastian asked, sadly.

I sniffled and nodded.

I drove to Mick's place and we talked about it, and I decided on what needed to be done.

The next day I drove to Sebastian's house.

It wouldn't be fair to him to involve him in anymore problems, and a long distance relationship would be too much to handle. It's best to just end it and save us both any trouble.

"Its just not fair if I pull you into the mess that's my life, even from the start I was scared for you.... Yet you actually gave me your love, despite all you've heard and what you knew..." I said.

"Well, because I never gave a shit what other people said about you," He said. "All the drugs you did, all those guys you slept it, that was back then, Mallory. You got clean, you got healthy and turned a new leaf.... The past means nothing to me. "

I sighed and looked down. "Dating me did cost me your reputation a bit," I sighed.

"Like I give a damn, Mallory, like I said, I don't care what others thought when you and I started dating. I love you, and that's all that matters."

"And I love you, too, Seb," I whimpered, holding his hands. "And that's why I can't just.... You deserve better.... You always did....."

"And you don't?" he frowned.

I sighed as I wiped my tears as he sighed.

"Look.... If you want me to walk, I will," he said, holding my hands. "But don't have me walk away just because you think you don't deserve even an ounce of happiness, o-or because you're scared after hitting a bump in the road or because you feel you aren't good enough.."

I let out a shaky breath as some tears fell, having him move to kneel in front of me and wiped my tears away.

"Mallory, you are good enough, no matter what you think or anyone else thinks," he said.

I sighed and looked up at his eyes.

"You're too good to me," she said. "And I am so grateful to you, and your love and kindness, and just helping me feel whole again after everything......"

Sebastian looked over at me as he softly rubbed my arms. 

"But even if we stay together, you know this is going to be hard on both of us," I said. "I can't force you to move to London, o-or travelling back and forth when you aren't touring, it'll be hell, and it won't be fair to Skid Row and your fans, you know that....."

He frowned and looked down.

"I don't want this to end, I really don't," I said, feeling more tears. "You're that ray of sunshine I thought I was never going to find once I left rehab... But I have think about what's best for you, and everyone...."

He sighed, his eyes getting watery.

I cried as I looked down and he pulled me into his arms, holding me against his chest.

I sighed as I took in his scent.

His cologne... It reminded me of pine trees for some reason..... It calmed me a little bit....

You know what you really need to calm down....

I whimpered and clung to him as he held me, rubbing my back.

"If you want us to end things, then I won't force you to stay," he said softly as he held me. "But just no that no matter what, you will always be important to me... No matter what...."

I looked up at him behind my tears.

"Okay?" he asked. "No matter what, I'll always be there for you...."

I took a deep breath as he wiped my tears and kissed my forehead before hugging me as he moved to sit next to me.

Its for the best.... It has to be......

*Tommy*

"I mean, its her choice, dude," Vince scolded at Nikki as we sat in my living room. "Yeah, it would suck if she left, but there was no need to reprimand her for going over her choices."

We were all meeting at Nikki's place.

Mick had talked to me and Vince about MJ being offered a chance to work in London and taking it after she and Nikki had a falling out, so we went to see him tge day after MJ and Mick talked to find Nikki pretty much wallowing in his self pity.

"I don't know what got over me.... I was so mad and.... Ugh, I'm such a dumbass, I always say the wrong kind of shit to her," He groaned in frusteration, laying back on the couch next to me.

"Dude, come on, you were just upset. You can just apologies to her, she might even change her mind on leaving if you do," I said.

"Kid, do you honestly think she's gonna just simply turn down London because of an apology from a heated argument?" Mick said as he sat on the armchair nearby, groaning quietly. "This is a big chance for her already."

I frowned, looking down. "I mean...."

"Besides, let's not forget that unlike the rest of us, Mallory actually finished high school, and she even went to college," He said. "Even if she never met any of us, she was meant to be someone successful and professional in her own way."

We were quiet, knowing he was right.

"Though as much as I hate to admit it, Tommy's right," Mick said.

I looked up at him, surprised.

"Wait, I am?" I asked, my eyes wide. "I-I mean..... Wait, I am?" 

I'm actually right about something? And Mick is saying so!? Holy shit, today is awesome!!

"Yes, dumbass," Mick sighed with an eyeroll before turning towards to Nikki. "You were upset... The girl you went through hellfire with is leaving, and for real this time.... And your feelings got the best of you, as stubborn as you are to admit them, and your mouth already has no filter, so its a surprise you didn't blurt it out."

"Feelings?" Nikki asked, confused.

"Dude, come on, we know you still love MJ," Vince said. "Its pretty fucking obvious."

His eyes widen as his cheeks went red and then looked down, hiding behind his hair a bit.

"I-I don't know what you're talking about," he said, grabbing some notebooks from the coffee table

"Nikki, come on, you can't be stubborn about this forever," I said. "You still love MJ, and she still loves you, you two cannot keep being scared abo-"

Nikki suddenly slammed the notebook he held on the table, making everyone jump.

"For the last time, Mal has Sebastian, and she is happier with him," Nikki snapped, standing up. 

They were all quiet as he continued.

"Yeah, we went though a lot of shit together, and survived it all together, but she still suffered a lot through that journey, and majority of it is my fault," I snapped. "Are you forgetting nearly getting her face fucked up because of me cheating on her with Tommy's ex?? Or the cocaine addiction? All the shit I've said to her, attacking her during a heroin binge??! Let's not forget making her relapse a billion times, holding a gun to her face and then having her aim that same fucking gun to her own head!!"

They were quiet as he sighed, calming himself down.

"I care about Mal.... And that's why Sebastian is better for her.... Why London is probably the best option for her, she can forget about me fully which is for her own good... Sebastian can pull strings to be able to live over there or something, they'll figure it out I guess" Nikki said.

We were quiet as he rubbed the bridge of his nose.

"Can we please just work on this album already and leave this topic alone?" he asked.

We sighed quietly and nodded as we got up and headed to his home studio.

Seeing them apart like this.... It doesn't feel right... It never ever did.... I hope they find a way back to each other..... Somehow.....

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Somehow I completed this chapter with some major writer's block.

Am I powerful? Could be. Sleep deprived? Oh, for sure!! 😂😂💁🏻‍♀️🌻

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