a/n: at the end it will be an explanation. Enjoy :) don't own pic

Jennie looked on her wall in the empty bedroom. She hasn't been in there since he died. She walked into the bedroom looking around. She seen the bed her and him slept in. She looked at the dresser seeing his juul sitting on the dresser die. She saw the half box of condoms next to the lamp and juul.

Her eyes watered seeing a picture of him and her on the dresser. She blinked her eyes as a tear dropped down her face. She walked over to his door flicking the light switch turning on the LED lights in his room. The LED lights were electric blue matching the color of his hair that he had dyed before he passed.

Jennie leaned up against the wall sliding down the wall. She closed her eyes as tears rolled down her face.

"You didn't have to leave." Jennie says low. She looks up at the wall of pictures he had that was filled with his best friends, family, his pets, him and Jennie.

"You could of told me. I could of helped you." Jennie says as tears rolled down her face. "Its so warm outside but I'm so cold without you.." Jennie says before shaking. She brings her legs to her chest and cry.

"I couldn't. You would never forgive me."

Jennie covered her ears crying more. She looked up and looked away. "Leave Taehyung. You don't want to be here with me."

"Why say that? You miss me right?" His ghostly voice asks. Jennie looks up at his ghost figure. She shakes her head.

"You left me. You could of told me Taehyung... You left without me..." Jennie admits. "What would your parents say?" He questioned.

"Your parents blame it on me... Just leave me alone..."

Jennie lays down in her bed looking up at the ceiling. She placed her hand on her stomach as she cried. Jennie shivered feeling cold. She closed her eyes.

"Stop coming when I'm crying." He sighs. "I can't hold you anymore. Who's going to hold you now?"

Jennie bit her lip. She shook her head not wanting to open her eyes because she knew that it was only her imagination and that it wouldn't ever be true.

"Just go. Stop appearing." Jennie whispers. "I don't want to."

"Why not?"

"You'll forget about me... And I don't want that too happen." He says as Jennie shivers again. Jennie opens her eyes looking down at her stomach. She grabs her covers and bury herself, still feeling cold.

Jennie walked into the bathroom looking in the mirror. She looks down seeing her stomach poked out a bit. She bit her lip grabbing a razor.

"Stop." Taehyung says as Jennie looks in the mirror as her eyes water as her fist balls up.

"I couldn't tell you to stop, so don't say it to me." Jennie says angrily.

"Jennie what about our child."

"What am I supposed to tell them? 'Your dad killed himself, so don't be sad'. What am I supposed to say that?" Jennie questions.

"Jennie stay alive it's better there than here."

"Don't say that too me." Jennie rolls her eyes looking down at the razor. Everything in her sight is blurry because of the tears that's trying to fall from her small eyes. Her throat burns from the wailing she's trying to hold in.

"You don't care about me. Know one dose. My mom hates me. My dad is gone. Your parents don't love me. My friends they love me but they have a life. Your gone... You left... You could leave me in real life... You didn't want to break up with me... So you just broke me."

Jennie lets out as tears roll down her face. "YOU FUCKING LEFT!" She wells. "You left me to leave up with this. To leave up with you not being here. With me not going to your house. With you not being here and just breathing. You were there to protect me and I couldn't protect you. You pushed your problems aside to make me happy and you was just hurting."

Jennie admits. "You.. wasn't happy... I didn't make you happy. I caused you more pain and it added on to your depression.. I made you cry at night problem. Just let me free. Let me be. We don't have to talk if I make it up there. I could just save me and this baby trouble. Right?"

Jennie question as Taehyung was gone. Jennie pulled her hair. She looked down at the razor. She placed it to her skin vertically. She bit her lip piercing her skin until blood burst out and pain flared through her arm.

She couldn't turn back now.

"You caused me this... I caused you this... Is this what's it feel like? The pleasure you get Taehyung? You never loved me... And it's okay with me... I'll never love..."

Jennie says going deeper with the razor and cutting vertically. Blood spilled out of her skin onto the floor. Jennie fell to the ground feeling weak.

"I love you Tae Tae... I love you my child... I hate you Jen."

"Your here..."

Jennie opened her eyes seeing nothing but red.

"Where am I."

"The place where people who kill themselves are." Taehyung says as Jennie looks around seeing multiple people walking around. Some people were purple, some with ropes laced around there necks some with there arms bloody, others just high.

Taehyung walked to Jennie touching her stomach. "She was supposed to be alive... You were supposed to have her."

"You were supposed to be there. Still living..." Jennie trails off. Taehyung hugs her but Jennie doesn't hug back. "Jennie..."

"You don't love me Tae..."

"I do."

"Why couldn't you tell me? Huh? I loved you right? You love me? Why couldn't you tell me?"

Taehyung sighs pulling away. "I did... But you didn't pick up the signs."

Jennie shook her head. "Come with me to see what happen."

"What the." Jennie woke up confused as she looked around seeing her burried under the covers. "That was just a dream?" Jennie thought as she got up. She looked out the window seeing it was raining. She looked down at her stomach that was barely showing.

She placed her hand on her stomach and sighed. "I should keep you? Right?" Jennie whispers.

You should.

Taehyung's voice booms through her head.

Keep it. Don't kill yourself like i did. I'm sorry Jennie. I really am. I love you.

"I love you too."

"Push... Jennie!"

Jennie cried while holding on to Jisoo's hand.

You got this.

Taehyung's voice echoed in her head. Jennie cried hard while pushing. It wasn't easy to give birth at such a young age. Sixteen years wasn't enough with the amount of pains she's been going through in just a year.

She lost one of her close best friend, Lisa, to suicide. She lost Taehyung to the same thing. It was only her and Jisoo and who knew how long that would last. Jennie was having her baby and that was harder considering she was kicked out and didn't have no where to go. She was put in a mental home because people would catch her talking to herself and yelling. Taehyung was teasing her in her head making her go crazy. Nothing was working for Jennie.

"We have some bad news."

Jennie sat there breathing hard she watched the doctors moves so afraid of what the doctor would say. Her throat began to close up as she felt like crying.

"Ms Kim... You had a stand-still birth." The doctor says as Jennie cry. "My baby! MY BABY!"

Jennie yells. That's all she could do.

Yell and cry.

Jennie began to beat her head and breath hard. "I CANT BREATH! I CANT! HELP!" Jennie yelled constantly.

The doctor ran grabbing doctors. "SOMEONE HELP ME!"

Jennie yells. She wept more and more snatching her IV our of her arm. She shakes as her sight goes in and out. She grabs her throat not being able to breathe. She gasps as the doctors rushed into the room.

"I love... You..."

She says taking her last breathe until she passes out. Never waking up again.

"Your here... Finally."

Taehyung says looking at Jennie. Jennie looks down seeing her in the hospital gown. Jennie shakes her head.

"I don't want to be here."

"You have to. It's where you belong."

Jennie shakes her head backing up. "You made me hurt so much... I don't know what to do."

"Just live up with it..."

Kinda of confusing but yeah. I was really going to name it "ghostin'" but I changed. Okay here's for the explanation.

Taehyung and Jennie are mental crazy. They talk to themselves and like to do things out of the ordinary making them crazy. They met and fall in love in highschool. But Taehyung us depressed and doesn't know it. Taehyung is crazy and wanted to kill himself so he did. Taehyung never had a reason for killing himself but he did. That's why he never told Jennie in the after life why he did it. Jennie on the other hand was kinda of more sane than Taehyung but still wanted to do more crazy stuff. Jennie was more in love than Taehyung natural. Sot that's why Jennie kept repeating "you don't love me." Jennie was planning on telling Taehyung that she was pregnant with his baby but days before telling him he had committed suicide.

That's all kids. I hope you enjoyed this mess up fucked up chapter. But much love 🥰.

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